Dreams.
Monday, June 30, 2003
Here's this name personality analysis from http://www.kabalarians.com/ care of Rita, thx =P
My comments are in bold.
The name of Brad gives you a very individual, reserved, serious nature. You stick stubbornly to your ideas or decisions, in spite of any appeals or advice; you are not willing to accept a compromise
That's true. I'm damn stubborn =) And as I told spencer, All or nothing =P
You prefer to be alone with your own thoughts, rather than in the company of others.
Not true, I think a lot, true, but I dont choose to think over being out with friends.
This name restricts spontaneity in association and the fluency of your verbal expression. When you are required to express yourself in personal matters requiring finesse and diplomacy, you feel awkward and embarrassed. Although you realize perfectly well what is expected of you, you are unable to find the right words, and hence you end up saying something inappropriate in a candid way
Not true, I know what to say most of the time, not all, but most
You can express your deeper thoughts and feelings best through writing. Your friendships and personal associations are rather restricted, being limited to those of a similar nature who can understand and accept your rather straightforward yet reserved manner.
Not true, cept the straightforward yet reserved nature, people dont understand what I mean when I write either =P And my friends are of all different natures, which I think is cooler, example, Felix is the exact opposite of me, Spencer is a...nerd =) Julie is more neutral and stuffies.
You are steadfast and loyal, and do not allow gossip or anything belittling to be said against those whom you accept in friendship. You find satisfaction in being outdoors or in getting out into nature, or in dealing with the products of the earth
True
There is originality and depth of thought contained in this name, particularly along practical and mathematical lines.
Sorta true, doesnt mean I'm good at math though! (Math analogies eh spencer? =P)
This name can adversely affect the health of your respiratory organs, the heart and lungs. Also, you are prone to suffer from weaknesses centering in the head.
I breathe fine...so far =P
Well...some of its true, some of it is WAY off!
I checked Felix's and Spencer's and Julie's and...Felix's nature is down right about the whole lazyness and lack of working, but the rest isnt really him, or at least how I see him.
Spencer's...I have no clue
Julie's is pretty true for the first bit...then musically/artistically inclined? Iuno bout that...lol
Well, its a fun thing to do when you're bored, check it out~
Peace
My comments are in bold.
The name of Brad gives you a very individual, reserved, serious nature. You stick stubbornly to your ideas or decisions, in spite of any appeals or advice; you are not willing to accept a compromise
That's true. I'm damn stubborn =) And as I told spencer, All or nothing =P
You prefer to be alone with your own thoughts, rather than in the company of others.
Not true, I think a lot, true, but I dont choose to think over being out with friends.
This name restricts spontaneity in association and the fluency of your verbal expression. When you are required to express yourself in personal matters requiring finesse and diplomacy, you feel awkward and embarrassed. Although you realize perfectly well what is expected of you, you are unable to find the right words, and hence you end up saying something inappropriate in a candid way
Not true, I know what to say most of the time, not all, but most
You can express your deeper thoughts and feelings best through writing. Your friendships and personal associations are rather restricted, being limited to those of a similar nature who can understand and accept your rather straightforward yet reserved manner.
Not true, cept the straightforward yet reserved nature, people dont understand what I mean when I write either =P And my friends are of all different natures, which I think is cooler, example, Felix is the exact opposite of me, Spencer is a...nerd =) Julie is more neutral and stuffies.
You are steadfast and loyal, and do not allow gossip or anything belittling to be said against those whom you accept in friendship. You find satisfaction in being outdoors or in getting out into nature, or in dealing with the products of the earth
True
There is originality and depth of thought contained in this name, particularly along practical and mathematical lines.
Sorta true, doesnt mean I'm good at math though! (Math analogies eh spencer? =P)
This name can adversely affect the health of your respiratory organs, the heart and lungs. Also, you are prone to suffer from weaknesses centering in the head.
I breathe fine...so far =P
Well...some of its true, some of it is WAY off!
I checked Felix's and Spencer's and Julie's and...Felix's nature is down right about the whole lazyness and lack of working, but the rest isnt really him, or at least how I see him.
Spencer's...I have no clue
Julie's is pretty true for the first bit...then musically/artistically inclined? Iuno bout that...lol
Well, its a fun thing to do when you're bored, check it out~
Peace
Dude...
Now that I got a young kid readin' this...I dun think I can speak as freely as normal =/
But for the wee-ones reading this...
Honest to god, cherish the time you have in elementary school. Life there is so much more simple, so much more fun and so much more entertaining. You know how all those ads are telling kids to go outside and enjoy the nature and stay fit and stuff? Well those are all soooo right! I mean ya, the message is obvious and almost everyone knows it, its almost stupid to have to tell some people to do it, but a lot of kids are stupid now, and sit infront of the computer all day without going outside at all! When I was little, I used to LOVE going bike riding, playing tag, and all those 'stupid' games.
Kids today are far too concerned about 'growing up'. When I was a kid, i was concerned with one thing, fun! And you know what, thats all I ever did. Playing the the Coledale Forest (Yes, Coledale forest, not St. Justin, we own you! MWAHAH), and running around at parks and swinging on swings...and just everything was so much more fun. I look at these kids today, a lot are spoiled little brats. Ex. My cousin's friends, think they can talk back to me, and try to talk all dirty about stuff like sex and whatever. Gawd, TV and Media has corrupted them sooooo easily it sickens me.
Another thing that really bugs me about the adolescents of today, is that many of which are very cocky, unless thats just the 10 or so that I know, but they are also dressing very...'thug'-ish and very much like hoes. What ever happened to the damn bright purple and green ninja turtle/power ranger clothes?! Why do kids care soooooo much about what they're wearing now, as if they have anything to show for it? Especially pre-teen girls who arent developed! Nothing to show off, please dont show it, it honestly makes me gag.
Dude, I have so much beef with the younger kids nowadays, I guess maybe one day I'll ask them why they do what they do, where they get their attitude and what not to hear their side of the story, but still...frigging disgusting.
Children have all lost their innocence so much earlier than generations before. With some exceptions of like..Felix, with the porn at a young age, I think most of us stayed pretty innocent! I'm also an exception cause I'm friggin naive, and didnt know about sex stuff til about...gr 9, gr 10? The thing is...you have only so many years to not be corrupted by sex and relationships, when you're young, but you have MANY MANY years to get into that stuff.
*sigh*
It really is sad that kids dont get to stay innocent. I hate to see that go away because without those carefree days of childhood, children are going to be much more stressed, and grow up to be more stressed teens, and everything is just going to lead to an unhappy world. I mean...I know I had a REALLY happy life before High School. I mean, though I'd be mad at my parents for stupid little things, or be unhappy about not getting what I wanted, I learned to accept that and still have an AMAZING time. I look back on those years and see only love and happiness.
If I didnt have that, and all I could look back on was years of trying to be cool, trying to be older, trying to look cool, trying to do everything older people do, then my life would be so shit. Hell, I look back on the passed few years and see soooooooooooooooooooo much crap, I mean...not that there wasnt its share of good times too, but SO much crap that you have to deal with, and if you have to fight for your whole life...you'll be easily tired.
This is probably just my way of thinkin' though, hopefully the kids will persavire (spellin?) and get through this crap. Maybe I'm not giving them enough credit, but I still think it'd be best to have a carefree childhood like most of us =)
Now that I got a young kid readin' this...I dun think I can speak as freely as normal =/
But for the wee-ones reading this...
Honest to god, cherish the time you have in elementary school. Life there is so much more simple, so much more fun and so much more entertaining. You know how all those ads are telling kids to go outside and enjoy the nature and stay fit and stuff? Well those are all soooo right! I mean ya, the message is obvious and almost everyone knows it, its almost stupid to have to tell some people to do it, but a lot of kids are stupid now, and sit infront of the computer all day without going outside at all! When I was little, I used to LOVE going bike riding, playing tag, and all those 'stupid' games.
Kids today are far too concerned about 'growing up'. When I was a kid, i was concerned with one thing, fun! And you know what, thats all I ever did. Playing the the Coledale Forest (Yes, Coledale forest, not St. Justin, we own you! MWAHAH), and running around at parks and swinging on swings...and just everything was so much more fun. I look at these kids today, a lot are spoiled little brats. Ex. My cousin's friends, think they can talk back to me, and try to talk all dirty about stuff like sex and whatever. Gawd, TV and Media has corrupted them sooooo easily it sickens me.
Another thing that really bugs me about the adolescents of today, is that many of which are very cocky, unless thats just the 10 or so that I know, but they are also dressing very...'thug'-ish and very much like hoes. What ever happened to the damn bright purple and green ninja turtle/power ranger clothes?! Why do kids care soooooo much about what they're wearing now, as if they have anything to show for it? Especially pre-teen girls who arent developed! Nothing to show off, please dont show it, it honestly makes me gag.
Dude, I have so much beef with the younger kids nowadays, I guess maybe one day I'll ask them why they do what they do, where they get their attitude and what not to hear their side of the story, but still...frigging disgusting.
Children have all lost their innocence so much earlier than generations before. With some exceptions of like..Felix, with the porn at a young age, I think most of us stayed pretty innocent! I'm also an exception cause I'm friggin naive, and didnt know about sex stuff til about...gr 9, gr 10? The thing is...you have only so many years to not be corrupted by sex and relationships, when you're young, but you have MANY MANY years to get into that stuff.
*sigh*
It really is sad that kids dont get to stay innocent. I hate to see that go away because without those carefree days of childhood, children are going to be much more stressed, and grow up to be more stressed teens, and everything is just going to lead to an unhappy world. I mean...I know I had a REALLY happy life before High School. I mean, though I'd be mad at my parents for stupid little things, or be unhappy about not getting what I wanted, I learned to accept that and still have an AMAZING time. I look back on those years and see only love and happiness.
If I didnt have that, and all I could look back on was years of trying to be cool, trying to be older, trying to look cool, trying to do everything older people do, then my life would be so shit. Hell, I look back on the passed few years and see soooooooooooooooooooo much crap, I mean...not that there wasnt its share of good times too, but SO much crap that you have to deal with, and if you have to fight for your whole life...you'll be easily tired.
This is probably just my way of thinkin' though, hopefully the kids will persavire (spellin?) and get through this crap. Maybe I'm not giving them enough credit, but I still think it'd be best to have a carefree childhood like most of us =)
So anyways...
Today seemed rather bland at first, but then everything turned out to be pretty fun =)
I'll always have good memories of dancing in the POURING rain with Felix n Julie...lol, that was SOOOOOooo much fun. Sucked that the sun came back up, but hey, it was really fun anyways =)
Gay Pride was pretty fun too, cept the whole standin' and walkin' thing..=P
Friggin Catherine turned off her cell phone, so we couldnt get in touch with her. O yes! And the creepy men with video cameras scare me...could they be a little LESS obvious when videoin' us? Gawddddd...my question is still...WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO WITH THAT VIDEO!? Like...frig...go...hey! that guy looked good! Lets rewind and watch them again!!...Dude...thats scary!
Ahh...and another highlight of the night was standing in that circle watching people get chosen to be stripped in the middle of the road...LOL, that was sooooooo messed...but SO funnie. You see naked men and women...some were actually quite hot too! I was all...woah...=P
Then after with stupid Julie BLOWING me n felix...lol...with her MOUTH...LOL...it sounds a lot more dirty than it actually is...take it in a more literal sense...waiting for Shem to come pick us up at Finch =P Thx again for that Shem.
Came home and showered cause...gawd I smelled like rain and outside and gay =P Then went off to Spencah's to beat Chris's ass in Smash...again...and again...and again =)
MWAHAH...sorrie Chris, no more rubbing it in =) It's just...I gota kick your racist ass in smash at least cause I'm not allowed in real life =P
Neways...Spencah is rushin me to WC3...that cock sucker =P
Peace~!
Today seemed rather bland at first, but then everything turned out to be pretty fun =)
I'll always have good memories of dancing in the POURING rain with Felix n Julie...lol, that was SOOOOOooo much fun. Sucked that the sun came back up, but hey, it was really fun anyways =)
Gay Pride was pretty fun too, cept the whole standin' and walkin' thing..=P
Friggin Catherine turned off her cell phone, so we couldnt get in touch with her. O yes! And the creepy men with video cameras scare me...could they be a little LESS obvious when videoin' us? Gawddddd...my question is still...WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO WITH THAT VIDEO!? Like...frig...go...hey! that guy looked good! Lets rewind and watch them again!!...Dude...thats scary!
Ahh...and another highlight of the night was standing in that circle watching people get chosen to be stripped in the middle of the road...LOL, that was sooooooo messed...but SO funnie. You see naked men and women...some were actually quite hot too! I was all...woah...=P
Then after with stupid Julie BLOWING me n felix...lol...with her MOUTH...LOL...it sounds a lot more dirty than it actually is...take it in a more literal sense...waiting for Shem to come pick us up at Finch =P Thx again for that Shem.
Came home and showered cause...gawd I smelled like rain and outside and gay =P Then went off to Spencah's to beat Chris's ass in Smash...again...and again...and again =)
MWAHAH...sorrie Chris, no more rubbing it in =) It's just...I gota kick your racist ass in smash at least cause I'm not allowed in real life =P
Neways...Spencah is rushin me to WC3...that cock sucker =P
Peace~!
Saturday, June 28, 2003
*sigh*
Life is so unfair to so many people. The majority of the time, life is unfair to those who most deserve a fair life and the least unfair to those who most deserve an unfair life. The brave and strong are hit hard and fast...when the weak and fragile have barely phased...those who hide behind guns and stealing and cheating who deserve nothing, get everything while the rest of us good honest people are trambled over. I dont know why I'm talking about this...well, I do.
I'm frustrated with this god-forsaken world. Why do such BAD things have to happen to such GOOD people!? I hate the feeling of being helpless to the will of a higher power...why...why why...WHY?!...
I wish I could take away everyone's pain, take it into myself and run far away where no one would ever be hurt again. I would feel...so...fulfilled if I could do that for everyone, so I may pass away with all the pain and suffering in the world, and leave the world safe and happy for everyone. I know that would never happen...but if I had the power to, I wouldnt hesitate for a second...
I know its naive of me to believe that the world will be a happy peaceful place, I look around and see how so many people are in high school, and I see the future. The future George Bushes of the world, the future Gandhi's of the world, the future businesses corrupted and the future honest businesses...its somewhat sickening to see that people wont learn from other people's mistakes and must make them on their own, and for this...the world is doomed...
I ask myself...what can I do to stop this? what can I do to make this right? really, what can I do? Nothing, except for try to fight it...at least try to help people learn from stupid mistakes of my own, and hopefully mistakes of other people...people dont learn though...doesnt mean I cant try though. Iuno why I'm even saying this...I just really want things to change for the better...
You know what is odd though, when I writing about how I can see the future of the world (not literally) but I really had a strong feeling, I wont be there to see it. Not as if I'm going to kill myself, but I have a feeling I wont live to an old age. A strong strong feeling that is telling me this. Maybe I'm just being a moron, but I can feel it. Another thing that is odd, is that I'm not afraid of it either. Death is just a means to an end. I would be at peace while I am dead, but while I'm here, I might as well do all that I can.
Hopefully my...predictions of an early death, is simply my psycho-babble (and probably is) but I just have a strange feeling inside...
Anyways...ya...nothing more to say.
Life is so unfair to so many people. The majority of the time, life is unfair to those who most deserve a fair life and the least unfair to those who most deserve an unfair life. The brave and strong are hit hard and fast...when the weak and fragile have barely phased...those who hide behind guns and stealing and cheating who deserve nothing, get everything while the rest of us good honest people are trambled over. I dont know why I'm talking about this...well, I do.
I'm frustrated with this god-forsaken world. Why do such BAD things have to happen to such GOOD people!? I hate the feeling of being helpless to the will of a higher power...why...why why...WHY?!...
I wish I could take away everyone's pain, take it into myself and run far away where no one would ever be hurt again. I would feel...so...fulfilled if I could do that for everyone, so I may pass away with all the pain and suffering in the world, and leave the world safe and happy for everyone. I know that would never happen...but if I had the power to, I wouldnt hesitate for a second...
I know its naive of me to believe that the world will be a happy peaceful place, I look around and see how so many people are in high school, and I see the future. The future George Bushes of the world, the future Gandhi's of the world, the future businesses corrupted and the future honest businesses...its somewhat sickening to see that people wont learn from other people's mistakes and must make them on their own, and for this...the world is doomed...
I ask myself...what can I do to stop this? what can I do to make this right? really, what can I do? Nothing, except for try to fight it...at least try to help people learn from stupid mistakes of my own, and hopefully mistakes of other people...people dont learn though...doesnt mean I cant try though. Iuno why I'm even saying this...I just really want things to change for the better...
You know what is odd though, when I writing about how I can see the future of the world (not literally) but I really had a strong feeling, I wont be there to see it. Not as if I'm going to kill myself, but I have a feeling I wont live to an old age. A strong strong feeling that is telling me this. Maybe I'm just being a moron, but I can feel it. Another thing that is odd, is that I'm not afraid of it either. Death is just a means to an end. I would be at peace while I am dead, but while I'm here, I might as well do all that I can.
Hopefully my...predictions of an early death, is simply my psycho-babble (and probably is) but I just have a strange feeling inside...
Anyways...ya...nothing more to say.
Hmm...
what the hell is wrong with my date!...why does it post 3 times in different colours...?
Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...o wells, whateverrrr~
Lotsa thinkin' going on in this noggin (spelling?) of mine...many decisions to make and actions to take. Try for a summer job? Try for another year of High School? Try going for someone? What to do...what to do =)
Lots to think about, lots of time to think about it too~
Thank god it's summer~
Okies, time to sleep soon~
Nights!
what the hell is wrong with my date!...why does it post 3 times in different colours...?
Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...o wells, whateverrrr~
Lotsa thinkin' going on in this noggin (spelling?) of mine...many decisions to make and actions to take. Try for a summer job? Try for another year of High School? Try going for someone? What to do...what to do =)
Lots to think about, lots of time to think about it too~
Thank god it's summer~
Okies, time to sleep soon~
Nights!
Woah, Charlies Angel's was a good movie =)
Lots of sexy scenes, lots of fight scenes, but not much plot. But then again, does a movie with 2 hot girls really need plot? Nope! Just many ass shots and many boob shots and the viewers are generally happy. I know this viewer was~
I recommend it for a thoughtless movie, but not for one if you are looking for an engaging sophisticated story, but if you are a young person with an affinity for young women with large brests and nice asses dance around, then I'm sure you'd really enjoy watching this =)
Anyways, time to eat, cause I havent eatten much all day~
Peace.
Lots of sexy scenes, lots of fight scenes, but not much plot. But then again, does a movie with 2 hot girls really need plot? Nope! Just many ass shots and many boob shots and the viewers are generally happy. I know this viewer was~
I recommend it for a thoughtless movie, but not for one if you are looking for an engaging sophisticated story, but if you are a young person with an affinity for young women with large brests and nice asses dance around, then I'm sure you'd really enjoy watching this =)
Anyways, time to eat, cause I havent eatten much all day~
Peace.
Friday, June 27, 2003
Hehehe, woah, today was really fun eh? =P
I woulda never thought that a one player-game could be split...amongst 5 people, lol. It was really fun too!! Also...Chocobo Racing...lol...ya, I officially suck at that...but I got wings at least!! Dude...Mog + Wings...pretty sexy lookin'...not very good at racing though~! Also got Ryan really enjoying some bubble tea =P I bet you that you're drinkin' it right now, therefore, I win =) Hahah...Thx to Ryan for supplyin his house n Car, Thx to Christine for providing games and such, Thx to Catherine n Kiera for makin things more fun, lol =P We really gota do this again, we didnt finish Devil May Cry!! =P
Neways...I'm pretty tired n kinda hungry, so imma go grab some food then shower n sleep~
Peace~!
I woulda never thought that a one player-game could be split...amongst 5 people, lol. It was really fun too!! Also...Chocobo Racing...lol...ya, I officially suck at that...but I got wings at least!! Dude...Mog + Wings...pretty sexy lookin'...not very good at racing though~! Also got Ryan really enjoying some bubble tea =P I bet you that you're drinkin' it right now, therefore, I win =) Hahah...Thx to Ryan for supplyin his house n Car, Thx to Christine for providing games and such, Thx to Catherine n Kiera for makin things more fun, lol =P We really gota do this again, we didnt finish Devil May Cry!! =P
Neways...I'm pretty tired n kinda hungry, so imma go grab some food then shower n sleep~
Peace~!
Thursday, June 26, 2003
AH HA!
i told you 5 min...
Edmund Burke: “The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good people to do nothing.”
There's the quote, it goes on the side as of now
i told you 5 min...
Edmund Burke: “The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good people to do nothing.”
There's the quote, it goes on the side as of now
I think after a few days of getting off the whole 'lets try to be a good person' horse, or rather, being pushed off, or falling off, whatever way you wana put it, Imma get back on now. I guess I just need a few days to recover.
Special thanks to Spencer and Ruby for trying so hard to make things right, and listening to my late-night-psycho-babble. I really owe ya =)
I just want things to go back to the way they used to be, and so I will try my best to do that, when everyone was happy, when everything was right, I will try. I have the summer to try right? I forgot that quote at the end of Tears of the Sun...(which was quite a disturbing yet good movie)...
Something like...
"The only way for evil to win, is for good men to do nothing."
Something like that? Maybe not evil...iuno, i'll find it. I really liked that quote, cause its so true. If good people do nothing, nothing happens and the world falls further into corruption because of the people who want to corrupt the world. *AHEM* CHRIS *coughs* So what will I do? I will try my damn heart out.
To Vicks, Dun worries, I will teach you the ways of getting over people fast =) Maybe you can keep that, and not have the liking new people fast part too, so you get the best of both worlds, lol. What Preston said is to some degree true, I can never say I know what you're going through, but I definately can feel your pain and I do ache with you, but vicks...What is in the past, has passed right? What can we do but look towards our future. You have such a bright future ahead of you too. You have multiple prospects for new guys if you really wanted them, you're going into a promising field in University, where again, you will meet new hot sexy guys right? True, it IS hard to forget the past, but there is good reason for that, we arent meant to forget. We take what we learn from the situation, grow, and have it always as a reminder of how we are better for it.
"Whatever doesnt kill you, can only make you stronger"
In the mental sense, this is completely true. You know how strong you are now, but look how much stronger you will be now after this. Next relationship, do you think you're ever going to let this happen again? And will anything look as bad as this relationship's ending? This makes your expectations of break-ups very high in pain level, but thats good! Once you get through this (and you will), then your next relationship when something bad happens, you can be like..."Pfft, this wasnt nearly as bad as what that faggot Daniel did to me, whatever *smile and walk away*" and that will be that. Dont worrie =) You're better of in the long run, take what you've learn from that loser and smile at the good times. Life is hard, but we're...uh...harder? lols...
Catherineeee...ahah, well, I hopeee you didnt expect that from me eh? =P I'll explain some more things to you about that tomorrow...but its soooooo cool that you know whats going on now...I feel a lot better letting you know =) Sorrie for keepin you up so late, n I'll also let you try those stupid MENSA questions later~!
I'll post this site on my blog later...or maybe its an e-mail thing, i'm not sure, but I'll somehow get it to all of you, or just icq me and ask me for it if I dont get it out to you. Its this MENSA test right? It determines how smart you are. there are 33 questions and if you answer 1 - 5 you're of average intellegence. 6 - 11 you're some what intellegent, 12 - 18, you're intellegent, and 19+ you're a Genius.
An example of the question would be...
Question: 24 H in a D
Answer: 24 Hours in a Day.
There are a few easy ones...so far I'm 'somewhat intellegent' GO ME!! lol...but some are REALLY fuckin hard...but i'll send to you guys later and see how smart you all are =)
Example of a hard one...
Question: 32 is the T in D F at which W F
lol, i aint giving you the answer to that one though =)
Anyways...
To my dear friend Felix...
Things seem to always go wrong with us...probably more so me huh? I am truly sorrie for betraying your trust, but please understand that I would never try to make anyone sad on purpose, EVER. All of my actions were for your betterment in the long-run. I understand that I have no real say in that, and for future reference, I will stay out of it. In this case, I wasnt able to, but I hope that we can still have our friendship, because you still do mean a lot to me despite my enraged ramblings. I know its no excuse to hurt you just because I have good intentions and for that I am truly sorrie.
Holy jebus this post just keeps growing...well, here it ends.
Until I post again!~ (which is probably within the next 5 minutes...lol...i had much to say tonight...)
P.S.
I learned I have lesbian and female bi friends!!! HOW COOL IS THAT =) The circle has been completeddddddddd =)
Special thanks to Spencer and Ruby for trying so hard to make things right, and listening to my late-night-psycho-babble. I really owe ya =)
I just want things to go back to the way they used to be, and so I will try my best to do that, when everyone was happy, when everything was right, I will try. I have the summer to try right? I forgot that quote at the end of Tears of the Sun...(which was quite a disturbing yet good movie)...
Something like...
"The only way for evil to win, is for good men to do nothing."
Something like that? Maybe not evil...iuno, i'll find it. I really liked that quote, cause its so true. If good people do nothing, nothing happens and the world falls further into corruption because of the people who want to corrupt the world. *AHEM* CHRIS *coughs* So what will I do? I will try my damn heart out.
To Vicks, Dun worries, I will teach you the ways of getting over people fast =) Maybe you can keep that, and not have the liking new people fast part too, so you get the best of both worlds, lol. What Preston said is to some degree true, I can never say I know what you're going through, but I definately can feel your pain and I do ache with you, but vicks...What is in the past, has passed right? What can we do but look towards our future. You have such a bright future ahead of you too. You have multiple prospects for new guys if you really wanted them, you're going into a promising field in University, where again, you will meet new hot sexy guys right? True, it IS hard to forget the past, but there is good reason for that, we arent meant to forget. We take what we learn from the situation, grow, and have it always as a reminder of how we are better for it.
"Whatever doesnt kill you, can only make you stronger"
In the mental sense, this is completely true. You know how strong you are now, but look how much stronger you will be now after this. Next relationship, do you think you're ever going to let this happen again? And will anything look as bad as this relationship's ending? This makes your expectations of break-ups very high in pain level, but thats good! Once you get through this (and you will), then your next relationship when something bad happens, you can be like..."Pfft, this wasnt nearly as bad as what that faggot Daniel did to me, whatever *smile and walk away*" and that will be that. Dont worrie =) You're better of in the long run, take what you've learn from that loser and smile at the good times. Life is hard, but we're...uh...harder? lols...
Catherineeee...ahah, well, I hopeee you didnt expect that from me eh? =P I'll explain some more things to you about that tomorrow...but its soooooo cool that you know whats going on now...I feel a lot better letting you know =) Sorrie for keepin you up so late, n I'll also let you try those stupid MENSA questions later~!
I'll post this site on my blog later...or maybe its an e-mail thing, i'm not sure, but I'll somehow get it to all of you, or just icq me and ask me for it if I dont get it out to you. Its this MENSA test right? It determines how smart you are. there are 33 questions and if you answer 1 - 5 you're of average intellegence. 6 - 11 you're some what intellegent, 12 - 18, you're intellegent, and 19+ you're a Genius.
An example of the question would be...
Question: 24 H in a D
Answer: 24 Hours in a Day.
There are a few easy ones...so far I'm 'somewhat intellegent' GO ME!! lol...but some are REALLY fuckin hard...but i'll send to you guys later and see how smart you all are =)
Example of a hard one...
Question: 32 is the T in D F at which W F
lol, i aint giving you the answer to that one though =)
Anyways...
To my dear friend Felix...
Things seem to always go wrong with us...probably more so me huh? I am truly sorrie for betraying your trust, but please understand that I would never try to make anyone sad on purpose, EVER. All of my actions were for your betterment in the long-run. I understand that I have no real say in that, and for future reference, I will stay out of it. In this case, I wasnt able to, but I hope that we can still have our friendship, because you still do mean a lot to me despite my enraged ramblings. I know its no excuse to hurt you just because I have good intentions and for that I am truly sorrie.
Holy jebus this post just keeps growing...well, here it ends.
Until I post again!~ (which is probably within the next 5 minutes...lol...i had much to say tonight...)
P.S.
I learned I have lesbian and female bi friends!!! HOW COOL IS THAT =) The circle has been completeddddddddd =)
Wednesday, June 25, 2003

Preistess/Preist
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Pretty pic...I like being a priest too, so nice =)

You are Love.
You love life, you love all those around you and
the world that you live in. You are happiest
when you are doing something for someone else
or for the common good of mankind.
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Tuesday, June 24, 2003
Something FateZ said last night stuck in my head...
Am I making people unhappy by being unhappy trying to make other people happy thereby making myself more unhappy because everyone else is unhappy despite my efforts to change that for them? (lol...that was a fun sentence...might have to read it over a few...hundred times to get it)
I dont think I'm making people unhappy because I'm unhappy cause I'm over-working myself...? Do people really see that? I mean...well, I guess they do...assuming everyone isnt entirely selfish, and I know a lot of my friends arent...and wouldnt want me to sacrafice a lot for then...but...hmm...iuno...if I were to try to help myself...I havent got a clue where to start...I cant even help myself? All my problems are...handed down from God...or the Devil, whatever you want...in other words, they are out of my hands, except friend problems, which I can do something about...
By the way...really special thanks to Ryan Catherine Sandy Christine n Carloyn last night for...iuno...distracting me? I really felt...free while I was with you guys. Iuno...it felt like...my world was so small, and nothing even mattered...thanks guys.
So...I duno...what do you guys think? Are you upset that I'm workin so hard to try to make you guys happy and that makes you upset cause I dont spend time doing things for myself? Seriously tell me on the tag-board to whoever is readin this...if it is, then I will try n stop...
Am I making people unhappy by being unhappy trying to make other people happy thereby making myself more unhappy because everyone else is unhappy despite my efforts to change that for them? (lol...that was a fun sentence...might have to read it over a few...hundred times to get it)
I dont think I'm making people unhappy because I'm unhappy cause I'm over-working myself...? Do people really see that? I mean...well, I guess they do...assuming everyone isnt entirely selfish, and I know a lot of my friends arent...and wouldnt want me to sacrafice a lot for then...but...hmm...iuno...if I were to try to help myself...I havent got a clue where to start...I cant even help myself? All my problems are...handed down from God...or the Devil, whatever you want...in other words, they are out of my hands, except friend problems, which I can do something about...
By the way...really special thanks to Ryan Catherine Sandy Christine n Carloyn last night for...iuno...distracting me? I really felt...free while I was with you guys. Iuno...it felt like...my world was so small, and nothing even mattered...thanks guys.
So...I duno...what do you guys think? Are you upset that I'm workin so hard to try to make you guys happy and that makes you upset cause I dont spend time doing things for myself? Seriously tell me on the tag-board to whoever is readin this...if it is, then I will try n stop...
YOoooooo
finding Nimo..or is it Nemo? Whatever =P It was a really good movie!! hahahaha...SOOOOOOOOOOO cute =) Sea horses..OMFG...Ellen Degenerus...or whateve rher name is...SOOooooooooooooo good at the voice acting!! hahahha...The whale langauge...LOL!! I loved it...serious, I recommend it =P
lol, sorrie Sandy n Christine n Carolyn who we kinda ditched cause Ryan's lil sister was kinda being...annoying and I didnt want Ryan to miss out on stuff, so we stayed wit him~ lol, laughin at FFX =) lol, we're such freaks eh? Well, Ryan, you gota come out and eat duck wit me some more, cause if you dun like the skin...I'll take it =) MWAHAHAHAH =)
Neways, I'm off. Peaceeee~
finding Nimo..or is it Nemo? Whatever =P It was a really good movie!! hahahaha...SOOOOOOOOOOO cute =) Sea horses..OMFG...Ellen Degenerus...or whateve rher name is...SOOooooooooooooo good at the voice acting!! hahahha...The whale langauge...LOL!! I loved it...serious, I recommend it =P
lol, sorrie Sandy n Christine n Carolyn who we kinda ditched cause Ryan's lil sister was kinda being...annoying and I didnt want Ryan to miss out on stuff, so we stayed wit him~ lol, laughin at FFX =) lol, we're such freaks eh? Well, Ryan, you gota come out and eat duck wit me some more, cause if you dun like the skin...I'll take it =) MWAHAHAHAH =)
Neways, I'm off. Peaceeee~
Monday, June 23, 2003
Water. You are so flowy, so flexible, that
sometimes you just fade into the backround. Try
to assert yourself - there are people out there
that take advantage of water types! You don't
want that....it's bad! ~Water~
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You are Water.
You're very sweet, but not so gooey that guys would
think that you're gay, but still, you're nice
to others. You're the easiest to get along with
from the entire lot, and you'd rather spend a
quiet evening with your girlfriend rather than
going to some noisy night club. The sweetest of
all the elements, even more so than light,
you're a nice guy. ^_~
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LOL, this one is funnie...yes, I'm going around Quizilla doing all the element tests...they're pretty good =)
You are of the Sea. Flexible, good, and quick-
thinking. You can always manage to get your
friends out of trouble or fix the broken. Watch
out for those of the Flame. You will bring them
trouble.
I'm Wiccan, I would know, What element are you?
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How true...this one said for earth people...to watch out for Sea people cause they will bring you harm...lol...Imma bring everyone harm...damn
WATER Water elementals are much like Wind, in that they can take new things without complaining. They are also very calm-minded and often have a certain beneficial effect on those around them. LEAST COMPATIBLE WITH: Thunder, Fire
Obviously, i like my water for good reason eh?
sometimes you just fade into the backround. Try
to assert yourself - there are people out there
that take advantage of water types! You don't
want that....it's bad! ~Water~
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You are Water.
You're very sweet, but not so gooey that guys would
think that you're gay, but still, you're nice
to others. You're the easiest to get along with
from the entire lot, and you'd rather spend a
quiet evening with your girlfriend rather than
going to some noisy night club. The sweetest of
all the elements, even more so than light,
you're a nice guy. ^_~
Element Test: For the Boys
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LOL, this one is funnie...yes, I'm going around Quizilla doing all the element tests...they're pretty good =)
You are of the Sea. Flexible, good, and quick-
thinking. You can always manage to get your
friends out of trouble or fix the broken. Watch
out for those of the Flame. You will bring them
trouble.
I'm Wiccan, I would know, What element are you?
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How true...this one said for earth people...to watch out for Sea people cause they will bring you harm...lol...Imma bring everyone harm...damn
WATER Water elementals are much like Wind, in that they can take new things without complaining. They are also very calm-minded and often have a certain beneficial effect on those around them. LEAST COMPATIBLE WITH: Thunder, Fire
Obviously, i like my water for good reason eh?
Well tonight was pretty good, even though we just walked around FMP and drove to places...looking for somewhere to eat/sit/drink? lol. Finally ending up at shoppers, buying that Life brand drink...mmmm...clean n clear or something? Wait...isnt that a facial care product? Ummm...ya...lol. But it was fun. Thx for listenin' =) Really appreciate it~
Neways...time for some games...peace =P
Neways...time for some games...peace =P
Sunday, June 22, 2003
Hmm...I calmed down in record time today. Go me.
Neways, Good luck to people who have exams tomorrow.
Spencer wit his Al geo
Jules wit her Econ...
Chris wit his Al geo.
Cheryl wit her Econ and Al geo..
Keith wit...smthg? iuno.
uhh...anyone else?
I think thats all.
Imma go shower n run some errands then head meet up wit Jess.
Peace~
Neways, Good luck to people who have exams tomorrow.
Spencer wit his Al geo
Jules wit her Econ...
Chris wit his Al geo.
Cheryl wit her Econ and Al geo..
Keith wit...smthg? iuno.
uhh...anyone else?
I think thats all.
Imma go shower n run some errands then head meet up wit Jess.
Peace~

WATER is your chinese symbol!
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ICE is your chinese symbol!
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Both apply...
Summer is definately a time to learn and grow, and this is what I will be doing.
Thx to Chris for bringin over the gamecube.
I'm out..
Thx to Chris for bringin over the gamecube.
I'm out..
Saturday, June 21, 2003
Hmmmmmmm...
I figured out a lot today just sittin watchin old X-Men Cartoons...plus some old Sailor Moon episodes. heheh =)
I also cleaned up, washed some clothes, washed my bedsheets, cleaned my room, cleaned the bathroom...hmm...gawd I love when my parents arent home!
I've figured my summer goal out...hehhe =)
Anyways, I think I wana go watch some old X-Men episodes again, gawd that was a great series!! Though the animation was really crappy...you can notice sooooo many glitches in it, but its still great~! Example...One second, Storm has her commincators off, the next...they're magically back there. lol =P Whateverrrrr still greaaaaaaat =)
Peaceeeee~
I figured out a lot today just sittin watchin old X-Men Cartoons...plus some old Sailor Moon episodes. heheh =)
I also cleaned up, washed some clothes, washed my bedsheets, cleaned my room, cleaned the bathroom...hmm...gawd I love when my parents arent home!
I've figured my summer goal out...hehhe =)
Anyways, I think I wana go watch some old X-Men episodes again, gawd that was a great series!! Though the animation was really crappy...you can notice sooooo many glitches in it, but its still great~! Example...One second, Storm has her commincators off, the next...they're magically back there. lol =P Whateverrrrr still greaaaaaaat =)
Peaceeeee~
Life seems so pointless right now...
First day of summer, and I already am bored. I mean like...I'm thinking ahead to summer, and are we all gonna spend everyday together? That wouldnt be so bad, but we're all busy on somedays. So then what am I going to do on the days we dont? I have nothing really to occupy me..I got no RPG's i've been into for a while...or since at least FFX. So what am I going to do? TV bores me. Maybe I'll take up a new hobby? That'd be cool...iuno, I'll figure something out...
*yawn* so day after exams...and I still feel very stressd...lol
hopefully it'll go away =)
Neways...time to...think of smthg to do =P
Peace~
First day of summer, and I already am bored. I mean like...I'm thinking ahead to summer, and are we all gonna spend everyday together? That wouldnt be so bad, but we're all busy on somedays. So then what am I going to do on the days we dont? I have nothing really to occupy me..I got no RPG's i've been into for a while...or since at least FFX. So what am I going to do? TV bores me. Maybe I'll take up a new hobby? That'd be cool...iuno, I'll figure something out...
*yawn* so day after exams...and I still feel very stressd...lol
hopefully it'll go away =)
Neways...time to...think of smthg to do =P
Peace~
Friday, June 20, 2003
Yay!!! Calculus is overrrrrrrrrr...
Did I do well? Good question, lets hope so =P
Neways...SUMMER TIME!! YAY!!!
Iunoooooooooo what to doooooo
I will do my exercise everyday now =) EVERYDAY!! Mwahahah =P
Not to get 'big' and 'buff' like Preston (not that there is anything wrong wit that, cause thats cool if its for you, jsut not my styles), but to get 'toned' or 'fit' if ya know what i mean.
yayayay =P
Did I do well? Good question, lets hope so =P
Neways...SUMMER TIME!! YAY!!!
Iunoooooooooo what to doooooo
I will do my exercise everyday now =) EVERYDAY!! Mwahahah =P
Not to get 'big' and 'buff' like Preston (not that there is anything wrong wit that, cause thats cool if its for you, jsut not my styles), but to get 'toned' or 'fit' if ya know what i mean.
yayayay =P
2:21am break...
I hate calculus...why does GT have to make questions so hard...WHYYYYYYY...What a brainer, hopefully Lim didnt make the exam TOO much harder...PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE tell me snowball did most of it =)
Man, I have a feeling I would like having a teacher like snowball, she read Chicken Soup to us when she supplied =) GAWD Lim is like...FUCK YOU, STUDY WORK HARDER NOW!...She's so...nice, well, the grass is always greener right?
*sigh*
Lots of work to do...and I really dont wana do it...but then again, I dun wana be in the chem-exam predictament again...with the whole LACK of studying...
BLeeeeeh..
okies, back I go..
I hate calculus...why does GT have to make questions so hard...WHYYYYYYY...What a brainer, hopefully Lim didnt make the exam TOO much harder...PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE tell me snowball did most of it =)
Man, I have a feeling I would like having a teacher like snowball, she read Chicken Soup to us when she supplied =) GAWD Lim is like...FUCK YOU, STUDY WORK HARDER NOW!...She's so...nice, well, the grass is always greener right?
*sigh*
Lots of work to do...and I really dont wana do it...but then again, I dun wana be in the chem-exam predictament again...with the whole LACK of studying...
BLeeeeeh..
okies, back I go..
Maaaaaaaan
I just watched Spirited Away again...it was so good =/
Maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan...
Stupid movies like that make me wana find 'true love' but then its so hard to find in this stupid world...everyone lies...*sigh*
iuno...maybe I will one day...but not anytime soon, I want to experience more with my friends while we have time together, no need to rush off to find someone new to love...
I just watched Spirited Away again...it was so good =/
Maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan...
Stupid movies like that make me wana find 'true love' but then its so hard to find in this stupid world...everyone lies...*sigh*
iuno...maybe I will one day...but not anytime soon, I want to experience more with my friends while we have time together, no need to rush off to find someone new to love...
Thursday, June 19, 2003
GAWD Chemsitry raped me...hard, i really should have not drank coffee...it makes me sleep rather than wake me up. For real, it happens for my bro too, my family has weird genes...no arm shrinking...no coffee waking up...looking very young...iuno...messed up.
After 4pm tomorrow I'm free...for a little...
Should I retake chem if I do bad? Do I need it? I think I might...gay...I hate chem...
GAWD My head hurts...and calculus is tomorrow, once I'm done...friggin jump around...then sleep at home =P
No sing k! =P
I'll make you all who are trying to make me go to K a deal...I'll go with you guys, not sing, but go with, if......uhhhhhhh.......ummmmm....uhhhhh......errrrrr...you all...uhhhh.....clean my room up...? nah, that wont work, i gota do it to do it right...ummmm...i duno...think of something. I'm brain dead.
Omgggggggggggg CHEM WAS SO BAD
i wanted to give up in the middle cause I didnt kno how to do soooooooo many, i fucking forgot titration...WTF that was my favourite...bleeeeeeeeeh...
I have NEVER felt this bad about a test or nething before...i mean I feel like SHIT...ugggggh...whatever......
gjaeo[ighaoisfhasoifhasoifhsaiofhaso'ifh
shoot me someone? =)
lalalala..
life is hard, why is it so hard?
Its so hard to find a balance between being a good person/friend/student/son and being happy/successful/helpful/smart/fun...there are WAY too many slashes for me to balance...I concentrate on some...but not all...its hard....lalala...okies...maybe I'll find the balance over the summer. much time to think it over.
So anyways, ya summer! We all gonna have a crazy time~ =P
I hopes...neways...time for more calc, i think i've wasted enough time.
After 4pm tomorrow I'm free...for a little...
Should I retake chem if I do bad? Do I need it? I think I might...gay...I hate chem...
GAWD My head hurts...and calculus is tomorrow, once I'm done...friggin jump around...then sleep at home =P
No sing k! =P
I'll make you all who are trying to make me go to K a deal...I'll go with you guys, not sing, but go with, if......uhhhhhhh.......ummmmm....uhhhhh......errrrrr...you all...uhhhh.....clean my room up...? nah, that wont work, i gota do it to do it right...ummmm...i duno...think of something. I'm brain dead.
Omgggggggggggg CHEM WAS SO BAD
i wanted to give up in the middle cause I didnt kno how to do soooooooo many, i fucking forgot titration...WTF that was my favourite...bleeeeeeeeeh...
I have NEVER felt this bad about a test or nething before...i mean I feel like SHIT...ugggggh...whatever......
gjaeo[ighaoisfhasoifhasoifhsaiofhaso'ifh
shoot me someone? =)
lalalala..
life is hard, why is it so hard?
Its so hard to find a balance between being a good person/friend/student/son and being happy/successful/helpful/smart/fun...there are WAY too many slashes for me to balance...I concentrate on some...but not all...its hard....lalala...okies...maybe I'll find the balance over the summer. much time to think it over.
So anyways, ya summer! We all gonna have a crazy time~ =P
I hopes...neways...time for more calc, i think i've wasted enough time.
Many things became out in the open today...
It was an overall good day though =)
Yay Law Exam was good =) Imma miss mr. draycott, he was a really really great teacher! =)
Maybe I should get him a card or something...iuno, but he made the exam pretty easy~! What a great guy...
Neways...
To what we talked about today, I'm not completely satisfied with the talk, but I guess its a start, we're far from finished with this issue though...I can tell you're still not telling me all the truth and I understand how you dont want to, its a sensitive issue, but you kno...lying to us only serves to infuriate us. I know you're not STUPID and you know how you feel, but ya, if you dun wana tell us, I guess that's up to you, but you know its just gonna leave it up to assumptions if you dont say, thats not a threat, just a observation.
Neways, ya, today was a good day all in all.
I was scared that my family was burnt alive when I came home as my house smelt of burnt bacon and had smoke around a bit...there's still a bit in my room. wtf is that.
O wells =)
Peace out. Study Time,
It was an overall good day though =)
Yay Law Exam was good =) Imma miss mr. draycott, he was a really really great teacher! =)
Maybe I should get him a card or something...iuno, but he made the exam pretty easy~! What a great guy...
Neways...
To what we talked about today, I'm not completely satisfied with the talk, but I guess its a start, we're far from finished with this issue though...I can tell you're still not telling me all the truth and I understand how you dont want to, its a sensitive issue, but you kno...lying to us only serves to infuriate us. I know you're not STUPID and you know how you feel, but ya, if you dun wana tell us, I guess that's up to you, but you know its just gonna leave it up to assumptions if you dont say, thats not a threat, just a observation.
Neways, ya, today was a good day all in all.
I was scared that my family was burnt alive when I came home as my house smelt of burnt bacon and had smoke around a bit...there's still a bit in my room. wtf is that.
O wells =)
Peace out. Study Time,
Wednesday, June 18, 2003
Tuesday, June 17, 2003

Canada -
Although originally a simple British colony, it has
flourished into a Mid-Level power. Admired
worldwide for its culture, acceptance and
quality of living standards.
Positives:
Loved By All.
Mid-Level Power.
Renouned Despite Proximity to Superpower.
Damn Good Maple Syrup, Inuit.
Negatives:
Often Ignored.
Cold.
Monarch-Democractic Struggles.
Stereotyped.
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lol, kinda sounds like me actually...=P
My eye twitch is getting worse guys.
At least its left eye opposed to right eye this time...
Somehow left eye means...what was it...big feast? basically good luck.
Right eye means bad luck, so yay for left eye maybe?
iuno...maybe something big'll happen for me.
Gonna nap to get rid of this twitchin so I can study. Peace.
At least its left eye opposed to right eye this time...
Somehow left eye means...what was it...big feast? basically good luck.
Right eye means bad luck, so yay for left eye maybe?
iuno...maybe something big'll happen for me.
Gonna nap to get rid of this twitchin so I can study. Peace.
A few little tips when trying to comfort someone, or make someone feel better when they are mad.
1) Do not try and defend the other person's actions until they have calmed down a lot.
2) If you do agree with the other side, then keep that out of the conversation, if they have to argue with another person about the same topic, it will not leave them happy, especially if they are stubborn, which most people are, ex. me
3) Do not dwell on why the comfortee is mad, instead, try to advice them on what TO do now. What's in the past has passed, help them try to let it go by talking about how they can fix this, change this, or advise them.
4) Let them be mad, do not tell them they are being unreasonable/irrational, tell them after they have calmed down. The comfortee does not need more people telling them that they are wrong.
5) Try and make jokes to lighten the air, or try to distract them from what is making them mad, maybe after they calm down they will see that they were mad for no reason, or if they still upset then you can debate it with them. ONLY WHEN THEY HAVE CALMED DOWN.
These little tips are just what I've picked up over the years of helpin peoples, so take what you will from it, I'm just posting it to see if I can help people help other people
Peace~
1) Do not try and defend the other person's actions until they have calmed down a lot.
2) If you do agree with the other side, then keep that out of the conversation, if they have to argue with another person about the same topic, it will not leave them happy, especially if they are stubborn, which most people are, ex. me
3) Do not dwell on why the comfortee is mad, instead, try to advice them on what TO do now. What's in the past has passed, help them try to let it go by talking about how they can fix this, change this, or advise them.
4) Let them be mad, do not tell them they are being unreasonable/irrational, tell them after they have calmed down. The comfortee does not need more people telling them that they are wrong.
5) Try and make jokes to lighten the air, or try to distract them from what is making them mad, maybe after they calm down they will see that they were mad for no reason, or if they still upset then you can debate it with them. ONLY WHEN THEY HAVE CALMED DOWN.
These little tips are just what I've picked up over the years of helpin peoples, so take what you will from it, I'm just posting it to see if I can help people help other people
Peace~
Monday, June 16, 2003
Dude...i'm soooooooooo confused right now...
Why do things gotta happen right before exams? =P
O well, at the end of this week, I will hopefully be a free man!!
And the whole stayin another semister isnt so bad I guess now that I see that a few people will be stayin with me =)
Hell, it might even be fun!!
Neways, just updated Grace on a few thingies, hahahaha...and ya...pretty funnie =P
I love how people think that I'm stupid sometimes and think I dont know things that I do, i love it, but hate it cause then I sometimes I cant say...but I soooooo want to, but I'm not allowed, so then I'm stuck with the whole wanting to tell and yell and the whole...ya know...keeping promises. =P Obviously I pick keepin promises over yellin' n tellin' though I love to do that...I cant =P
Unlike SOME people who cant keep secrets or try to use them against people. *AHEM* PIXIE *coughs* Dumcat *coughs* Fatez *coughs*
Hey wait a minute...thats almost the whole gang...wTF!! lol, I'm friends wit a bunch of blackmailers.......o wells, I can blackmail them too =) MOO HA HA HA AH...hahah...ha..ha....
Why do things gotta happen right before exams? =P
O well, at the end of this week, I will hopefully be a free man!!
And the whole stayin another semister isnt so bad I guess now that I see that a few people will be stayin with me =)
Hell, it might even be fun!!
Neways, just updated Grace on a few thingies, hahahaha...and ya...pretty funnie =P
I love how people think that I'm stupid sometimes and think I dont know things that I do, i love it, but hate it cause then I sometimes I cant say...but I soooooo want to, but I'm not allowed, so then I'm stuck with the whole wanting to tell and yell and the whole...ya know...keeping promises. =P Obviously I pick keepin promises over yellin' n tellin' though I love to do that...I cant =P
Unlike SOME people who cant keep secrets or try to use them against people. *AHEM* PIXIE *coughs* Dumcat *coughs* Fatez *coughs*
Hey wait a minute...thats almost the whole gang...wTF!! lol, I'm friends wit a bunch of blackmailers.......o wells, I can blackmail them too =) MOO HA HA HA AH...hahah...ha..ha....
Sunday, June 15, 2003
Okies, updated site a bit today...
Added a few new blogs people have made, also changed my pic...yay Naga! So sexy...yes, I am attracted to fish tailed women, lol.
Mm...I was gonna put up a prom pic...but then I couldnt upload it cause it was too big a file, and I was all like...screw you photoshop! Cause I didnt wana open it and change it cause my comp still needs to be REFORMATTED *coughs*
Also added a new quote, the list continues to grow, along with the blog links.
This one is from the song Jewel - Hands, its pretty damn old, but still one of the most inspirational songs I've ever heard. I'm sure you've all heard it before, but for those of you who havent, I feel that its about how no matter how small one person is, they can help make a difference. "My hands are small I know, but they're not yours they are my own, and I am never broken." Really really a good song, for the message at the very least. Seems that everyone has given up on trying to make the world right, just because everyone else is crooked. If everyone were to have the "If you cant beat'em, Join'em" attitude, we'd have a world of people that turned to crime, pain and suffering. Well, hey, we have that now cause everyone does follow that. Time upon time I have people try to give me advice. "Why are you so uptight? Why cant you just not care? Just lower your standards. Just join in." I feel so horrible when someone tells me that, it just shows how much work I have to try and change the world. I'm serious, I really really really will do my best to change the world, make it right...I'm not about to go and try and change it in a giant group, but working with people one at a time. Hopefully I can rub off on some of you and you can carry on and make influence other people. Its the whole movie about...what was it called...that kid from Sixth Sense was in it...and he really tried to change the world, and he would do 3 good things for people who couldnt do it for themselves, and they would have to do it for 3 other people, and those 3 people would have to do it for 3 other people. No one forcing them, just out of giving their word. It was honestly the best movie I have ever seen. If only I could remember the name...lol...
Well, I hope to achieve something like that...we'll see =)
Here are the lyrics to Jewel - Hands~
If I could tell the world just one thing
It would be that we're all OK
And not to worry 'cause worry is wasteful
And useless in times like these
I won't be made useless
I won't be idle with despair
I will gather myself around my faith
For light does the darkness most fear
My hands are small, I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
Poverty stole your golden shoes
It didn't steal your laughter
And heartache came to visit me
But I knew it wasn't ever after
We'll fight, not out of spite
For someone must stand up for what's right
'Cause where there's a man who has no voice
There ours shall go singing
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
I am never broken
In the end only kindness matters
In the end only kindness matters
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
We are never broken
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's mind
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's heart
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's eyes
We are God's hands
We are God's hands
Anyway, as the year comes to a close, I was perhaps thinking of telling everyone smthg bout me they might not know. We'll see though, I'm not to open to spreading stuff about me to not so close friends, but we'll see how things go, especially when I KNOW some are not being honest with me, so they probably wont hear about this unless they come clean, iuno, maybe I'll tell people at cottage, but iuno, lalalala. 'The gang' knows what I'm talkin bout...think a good idea? No yes? Iuno...we'll see
Hopefully I'll get to U and be able to be open bout my...history? =P
Peace~
Added a few new blogs people have made, also changed my pic...yay Naga! So sexy...yes, I am attracted to fish tailed women, lol.
Mm...I was gonna put up a prom pic...but then I couldnt upload it cause it was too big a file, and I was all like...screw you photoshop! Cause I didnt wana open it and change it cause my comp still needs to be REFORMATTED *coughs*
Also added a new quote, the list continues to grow, along with the blog links.
This one is from the song Jewel - Hands, its pretty damn old, but still one of the most inspirational songs I've ever heard. I'm sure you've all heard it before, but for those of you who havent, I feel that its about how no matter how small one person is, they can help make a difference. "My hands are small I know, but they're not yours they are my own, and I am never broken." Really really a good song, for the message at the very least. Seems that everyone has given up on trying to make the world right, just because everyone else is crooked. If everyone were to have the "If you cant beat'em, Join'em" attitude, we'd have a world of people that turned to crime, pain and suffering. Well, hey, we have that now cause everyone does follow that. Time upon time I have people try to give me advice. "Why are you so uptight? Why cant you just not care? Just lower your standards. Just join in." I feel so horrible when someone tells me that, it just shows how much work I have to try and change the world. I'm serious, I really really really will do my best to change the world, make it right...I'm not about to go and try and change it in a giant group, but working with people one at a time. Hopefully I can rub off on some of you and you can carry on and make influence other people. Its the whole movie about...what was it called...that kid from Sixth Sense was in it...and he really tried to change the world, and he would do 3 good things for people who couldnt do it for themselves, and they would have to do it for 3 other people, and those 3 people would have to do it for 3 other people. No one forcing them, just out of giving their word. It was honestly the best movie I have ever seen. If only I could remember the name...lol...
Well, I hope to achieve something like that...we'll see =)
Here are the lyrics to Jewel - Hands~
If I could tell the world just one thing
It would be that we're all OK
And not to worry 'cause worry is wasteful
And useless in times like these
I won't be made useless
I won't be idle with despair
I will gather myself around my faith
For light does the darkness most fear
My hands are small, I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
Poverty stole your golden shoes
It didn't steal your laughter
And heartache came to visit me
But I knew it wasn't ever after
We'll fight, not out of spite
For someone must stand up for what's right
'Cause where there's a man who has no voice
There ours shall go singing
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
I am never broken
In the end only kindness matters
In the end only kindness matters
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
We are never broken
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's mind
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's heart
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's eyes
We are God's hands
We are God's hands
Anyway, as the year comes to a close, I was perhaps thinking of telling everyone smthg bout me they might not know. We'll see though, I'm not to open to spreading stuff about me to not so close friends, but we'll see how things go, especially when I KNOW some are not being honest with me, so they probably wont hear about this unless they come clean, iuno, maybe I'll tell people at cottage, but iuno, lalalala. 'The gang' knows what I'm talkin bout...think a good idea? No yes? Iuno...we'll see
Hopefully I'll get to U and be able to be open bout my...history? =P
Peace~
Okies, updated site a bit today...
Added a few new blogs people have made, also changed my pic...yay Naga! So sexy...yes, I am attracted to fish tailed women, lol.
Mm...I was gonna put up a prom pic...but then I couldnt upload it cause it was too big a file, and I was all like...screw you photoshop! Cause I didnt wana open it and change it cause my comp still needs to be REFORMATTED *coughs*
Anyway, as the year comes to a close, I was perhaps thinking of telling everyone smthg bout me they might not know. We'll see though, I'm not to open to spreading stuff about me to not so close friends, but we'll see how things go, especially when I KNOW some are not being honest with me, so they probably wont hear about this unless they come clean, iuno, maybe I'll tell people at cottage, but iuno, lalalala. 'The gang' knows what I'm talkin bout...think a good idea? No yes? Iuno...we'll see
Hopefully I'll get to U and be able to be open bout my...history? =P
Peace~
Added a few new blogs people have made, also changed my pic...yay Naga! So sexy...yes, I am attracted to fish tailed women, lol.
Mm...I was gonna put up a prom pic...but then I couldnt upload it cause it was too big a file, and I was all like...screw you photoshop! Cause I didnt wana open it and change it cause my comp still needs to be REFORMATTED *coughs*
Anyway, as the year comes to a close, I was perhaps thinking of telling everyone smthg bout me they might not know. We'll see though, I'm not to open to spreading stuff about me to not so close friends, but we'll see how things go, especially when I KNOW some are not being honest with me, so they probably wont hear about this unless they come clean, iuno, maybe I'll tell people at cottage, but iuno, lalalala. 'The gang' knows what I'm talkin bout...think a good idea? No yes? Iuno...we'll see
Hopefully I'll get to U and be able to be open bout my...history? =P
Peace~
Saturday, June 14, 2003
Hmm...
Topic of the Day (Sponsored by Vicki Cheung @ www.twinkietwinkie.blogspot.com):
L - I - A - R - S
We were discussing today (while i was supposedly studying) how much we despise liars. We also discussed how much fun it is when we know someone is lying and they think we dont and think they're sly, but then we dont say anything because we wana let them tell us themselves, to show they are a good friend, and they dont and eventually the truth comes out and we say..."ya, we knew since the beginning." LOL its the best =P
Honestly, friends should never keep secrets from friends. If you cant be open with them about everything, you arent being true to yourself. Basically, you're an ITH, fake to the bone. And you all know how we dont like fakers, though I may have to fake myself at times, I am at least true to my friends, those i care most about. If you arent true to your friends that you care most about, then you dont have any true friends, because they liuke you for what they think you are, opposed to the real you.
Sad, you can never really have anyone like you if you're fake, cause the people do like you, dont like you for what you are, just what you show them. You gota show your friends everything about you, if you want to be truly cared for. Otherwise its false caring.
Sorrie, that kinda deviated from the topic of Liars...SORTA, fakers + liars are both bad, and someone similar. Anyways, ya, when people lie to their friends about things, it just shows how they really arent worthy of having those friends or are too chicken to tell them the real truth, and not giving their friends enough credit that they will stay friends after the secret is out. How lame is that? Either that, or they know that the secret is very incriminating and they dont deserve the friendship in the first place. Do you all see why I despise liars so much? They are bad, either way. Because...they dont think much of your friendship ~OR~ they know they did something wrong and dont want to tell you because they will lose your friendship.
All in all, liars are bad and should be raped by a giant cock.
Calculus suxxxxxxxxxxxx
I'm tired.
Topic of the Day (Sponsored by Vicki Cheung @ www.twinkietwinkie.blogspot.com):
L - I - A - R - S
We were discussing today (while i was supposedly studying) how much we despise liars. We also discussed how much fun it is when we know someone is lying and they think we dont and think they're sly, but then we dont say anything because we wana let them tell us themselves, to show they are a good friend, and they dont and eventually the truth comes out and we say..."ya, we knew since the beginning." LOL its the best =P
Honestly, friends should never keep secrets from friends. If you cant be open with them about everything, you arent being true to yourself. Basically, you're an ITH, fake to the bone. And you all know how we dont like fakers, though I may have to fake myself at times, I am at least true to my friends, those i care most about. If you arent true to your friends that you care most about, then you dont have any true friends, because they liuke you for what they think you are, opposed to the real you.
Sad, you can never really have anyone like you if you're fake, cause the people do like you, dont like you for what you are, just what you show them. You gota show your friends everything about you, if you want to be truly cared for. Otherwise its false caring.
Sorrie, that kinda deviated from the topic of Liars...SORTA, fakers + liars are both bad, and someone similar. Anyways, ya, when people lie to their friends about things, it just shows how they really arent worthy of having those friends or are too chicken to tell them the real truth, and not giving their friends enough credit that they will stay friends after the secret is out. How lame is that? Either that, or they know that the secret is very incriminating and they dont deserve the friendship in the first place. Do you all see why I despise liars so much? They are bad, either way. Because...they dont think much of your friendship ~OR~ they know they did something wrong and dont want to tell you because they will lose your friendship.
All in all, liars are bad and should be raped by a giant cock.
Calculus suxxxxxxxxxxxx
I'm tired.
Friday, June 13, 2003
Awwwwwwww...
Thx to all my friends who signed my yearbook~
It really puts things into perspective...Imma miss you all =)
Still gota get a lot of people to sign though...
Sandy Catherine Ryan Carolyn Christine!!
And Jess, Sam, Tiff Yau!! And...mm...other people!!
lol
Cept my thing is kinda fullish...cause of some people writing very biggggggggg...=/
but never fear, I found a page to write on that is relatively empty!!
Newaysssssss...
Time to do smthg
Peace~
Thx to all my friends who signed my yearbook~
It really puts things into perspective...Imma miss you all =)
Still gota get a lot of people to sign though...
Sandy Catherine Ryan Carolyn Christine!!
And Jess, Sam, Tiff Yau!! And...mm...other people!!
lol
Cept my thing is kinda fullish...cause of some people writing very biggggggggg...=/
but never fear, I found a page to write on that is relatively empty!!
Newaysssssss...
Time to do smthg
Peace~
Thursday, June 12, 2003

What Is Your Animal Personality?
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Iuno..Dumcat got me thinking bout this again...
It really applies to me and is worth reposting
So anyways, yesterday I was walking to school and thinking about life, ya know me, I was thinkin bout how I really miss my nature-ish side I had when I was little. Running around, going for hikes, and all that good stuff in the nature =) Minus bugs~ Well, I've decided to go PLAN some nature stuff, yes yes yes. PLANNING!!
Mwahhah...It'll be good, some exercise, some nature, some fresh air, what more can you ask for? =) Maybe have a REAL picnic eh Pixie n Dumcat? =P Opposed to sitting at Toogood behind a gross fountain...blowing gross dirty water at us...lol.
Anyway, I've lost touch with some parts of myself that I want to get back, and I'll be working on that. What you may ask? I miss my calmness I had in gr. 9 - 10. But since gr. 11, things started to get worse, and people pissed me off, and what else could I do but be vocal about it right? Well, though people still piss me off now, I'm just going to simply ignore them, or be all like, Whatever, to them and move on. They arent worth disturbing me right?
Its true what Tim says, I dont like someone new every month now. lol. Well, my reasoning I guess would be, you see people's true colours when the pressure is on. And I've seen through so many people lately, every month =P So, whatever.
O ya, and just cause I may not like you, doesnt mean that I wont help, cause thats what I'm all about, trying to be the better person, be nice, be open, be caring and it'd be hypocritical of me to not be there for everyone. Well...almost anyone, cause I am only human =P
Anyways, time to play some games, peace.
Mwahhah...It'll be good, some exercise, some nature, some fresh air, what more can you ask for? =) Maybe have a REAL picnic eh Pixie n Dumcat? =P Opposed to sitting at Toogood behind a gross fountain...blowing gross dirty water at us...lol.
Anyway, I've lost touch with some parts of myself that I want to get back, and I'll be working on that. What you may ask? I miss my calmness I had in gr. 9 - 10. But since gr. 11, things started to get worse, and people pissed me off, and what else could I do but be vocal about it right? Well, though people still piss me off now, I'm just going to simply ignore them, or be all like, Whatever, to them and move on. They arent worth disturbing me right?
Its true what Tim says, I dont like someone new every month now. lol. Well, my reasoning I guess would be, you see people's true colours when the pressure is on. And I've seen through so many people lately, every month =P So, whatever.
O ya, and just cause I may not like you, doesnt mean that I wont help, cause thats what I'm all about, trying to be the better person, be nice, be open, be caring and it'd be hypocritical of me to not be there for everyone. Well...almost anyone, cause I am only human =P
Anyways, time to play some games, peace.
Wednesday, June 11, 2003
Woah...
I never realised how much I missed doing artsy craftsy projects until today...
All my things are just...do this, do this, do that. Math, Law, Chemistry...
BLEEEEEH!! Its so sufficating...
I miss being able to be somewhat creative...though its a strain on the brain when you HAVE to be creative, its fun when you dont.
*sighs*
Anyway, everyone is having their own probs again...dun worrie, i'll help you guys make it bettah =)
Newayssssss...
Imma go nap or smthg, peaceeeeeeeee
I never realised how much I missed doing artsy craftsy projects until today...
All my things are just...do this, do this, do that. Math, Law, Chemistry...
BLEEEEEH!! Its so sufficating...
I miss being able to be somewhat creative...though its a strain on the brain when you HAVE to be creative, its fun when you dont.
*sighs*
Anyway, everyone is having their own probs again...dun worrie, i'll help you guys make it bettah =)
Newayssssss...
Imma go nap or smthg, peaceeeeeeeee
Yups.
Some people need to learn manners and common curtosy. I think these people know I'm talking about them. People try and manipulate and twist the truth through their words a lot. Either that, or they do not understand what is going on, and do not know how to express themselves which is highly likely. Whatever the case, everyone is mixing up messages. I suggest the people I am talking about, go spend their time trying to learn how to communicate without offending people, and telling the truth.
I tell you for the last time, never underestimate me. I know a lot about a lot of people. How you may ask? That's for me to know, and you to find out. Well, one thing is for certain now. I will let everyone lie to me, but I'm not going to tell you if I know the real truth or not. Thats up to you to be a man, or woman, and tell me straight up =) its funnie all the things people think I dont know...but I really do =P
So...no more chances to redeem yourself once you lie to me, I will keep things un-said, but know that I know =) Never assume that I dont know~
Some people need to learn manners and common curtosy. I think these people know I'm talking about them. People try and manipulate and twist the truth through their words a lot. Either that, or they do not understand what is going on, and do not know how to express themselves which is highly likely. Whatever the case, everyone is mixing up messages. I suggest the people I am talking about, go spend their time trying to learn how to communicate without offending people, and telling the truth.
I tell you for the last time, never underestimate me. I know a lot about a lot of people. How you may ask? That's for me to know, and you to find out. Well, one thing is for certain now. I will let everyone lie to me, but I'm not going to tell you if I know the real truth or not. Thats up to you to be a man, or woman, and tell me straight up =) its funnie all the things people think I dont know...but I really do =P
So...no more chances to redeem yourself once you lie to me, I will keep things un-said, but know that I know =) Never assume that I dont know~
Tuesday, June 10, 2003

You are Proverbs.
Which book of the Bible are you?
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Dun ask why I'm doing so many of these..Kinda sounds like me, i'd like to think so neways.

Missionary
What is your anime sex position?(images)
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True, as long as the person is hot, and knowing me, the shallow one, they are.
Monday, June 09, 2003
GAWD DAMNIT I HATE BUGS!!
I am now trapped in my room 'studying' with my window open with a screen covered in bugs on my window...
So I spray off onto the window.,..and then the bugs die and are plastered to my blinds...WHAT THE HELL IS THAT!? I thought off was supposed to repel, not kill the bugs...but killing them is good. I have good aim =) I got a bug in my room with it, and then it fell onto my desk and squirmed like a...bug. hAHahaha...bitches. I HATE YOU BUGS. I dont think you all understand how much I hate bugs...I mean I HATE THEM...with a passion...They scare the FUCK out of me...EWwwwwwww....Somebody save me...I cant close my window cause...its broken, so I gota pull it shut, and in order to do that, it requires me to take off the screen, covered with bugs, letting more bugs into my room.,...and blah blah blah...GAWD!!! I feel so gross right now...i hate bugs I HATE BUGS I HATE BUGS!!...
Ya, i'm being a woman aobut this, but FUCK!! BUGS!! ACK!!.....
I cant study for chem
lalalla, I cant study for calc...lalala...
I hate school...lalalal.
OKAY, i start studying more now..
I am now trapped in my room 'studying' with my window open with a screen covered in bugs on my window...
So I spray off onto the window.,..and then the bugs die and are plastered to my blinds...WHAT THE HELL IS THAT!? I thought off was supposed to repel, not kill the bugs...but killing them is good. I have good aim =) I got a bug in my room with it, and then it fell onto my desk and squirmed like a...bug. hAHahaha...bitches. I HATE YOU BUGS. I dont think you all understand how much I hate bugs...I mean I HATE THEM...with a passion...They scare the FUCK out of me...EWwwwwwww....Somebody save me...I cant close my window cause...its broken, so I gota pull it shut, and in order to do that, it requires me to take off the screen, covered with bugs, letting more bugs into my room.,...and blah blah blah...GAWD!!! I feel so gross right now...i hate bugs I HATE BUGS I HATE BUGS!!...
Ya, i'm being a woman aobut this, but FUCK!! BUGS!! ACK!!.....
I cant study for chem
lalalla, I cant study for calc...lalala...
I hate school...lalalal.
OKAY, i start studying more now..
Gawd...
I didnt know the world could be so filled with such villians that would preform such malicious acts on their friends and then try and covert it up blaming their new girlfriend...HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH...
Its so disgusting its funnie...
I cant believe someone would lie so blantently like that...
O wells, cheers to them!
I didnt know the world could be so filled with such villians that would preform such malicious acts on their friends and then try and covert it up blaming their new girlfriend...HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH...
Its so disgusting its funnie...
I cant believe someone would lie so blantently like that...
O wells, cheers to them!
Ya know...
Its kinda funnie how people dont learn from their past mistakes. They seem to repeat them over and over until they run out of chances. As I've said before, mess with me, fine, mess with my close friends...you will be punished. How one may ask? That's for me to know, and that person to find out =)
I pity the person that must encure the wraith of Brad =)
Its kinda funnie how people dont learn from their past mistakes. They seem to repeat them over and over until they run out of chances. As I've said before, mess with me, fine, mess with my close friends...you will be punished. How one may ask? That's for me to know, and that person to find out =)
I pity the person that must encure the wraith of Brad =)
In response to Chris' crooked money scamming plans:
So not true. You can be rich from hard work! And who's to say that money is everything? Do you really want all the bad things associated with the 'gangster' life? Gawd, whats with everyone and trying to be gangster now, its completey retarded and I will have no part in it. Please tell me that you arent so easily influenced by simple movies, and material items, cause thats just sad. Do you think a good girl would ever settle down with a gangster? Maybe a hot one, but she'd never love you for you, just money. Do you want a real girl that actually cares, and that is pretty, and likes you for you and will stay by you forever? Cause gangsters, probably are not going to get those type of good girls, unless you keep your gangster life secret, which would be tough.
Man, to think that you'd do anything to get that...saddens me. I see a perfectly fine youth, throwing his life away to crime. Its dangerous doing that stuff no? Are you gonna be in gang fights and stuff? Like...frig!! I really really hope you were joking and I'm just over-reacting cause maaaan...that kinda life is no good. If you ever really do get into that stuff, and police come to me to ask stuff, you cannot expect me to lie...I might, and I might not...but frig...its putting me between a rock and a hard place ya kno? *sigh* I just hope if you do get into that stuff, that you keep me completely outa it...
The way I want to get my riches, is the way my aunt did...through hard work and determination, living a full life, so you can say you accomplished something...but thats just me, I know that not everyone earns what they have, and not everyone is honest and hard working, so I guess its alright...as long as you dont involve me or close friends, cause no matter whether you're in a gang or not, I will take you down if you mess with my close friends =P
Neways...thats my stupid lil over-reacting rant. pEace
So not true. You can be rich from hard work! And who's to say that money is everything? Do you really want all the bad things associated with the 'gangster' life? Gawd, whats with everyone and trying to be gangster now, its completey retarded and I will have no part in it. Please tell me that you arent so easily influenced by simple movies, and material items, cause thats just sad. Do you think a good girl would ever settle down with a gangster? Maybe a hot one, but she'd never love you for you, just money. Do you want a real girl that actually cares, and that is pretty, and likes you for you and will stay by you forever? Cause gangsters, probably are not going to get those type of good girls, unless you keep your gangster life secret, which would be tough.
Man, to think that you'd do anything to get that...saddens me. I see a perfectly fine youth, throwing his life away to crime. Its dangerous doing that stuff no? Are you gonna be in gang fights and stuff? Like...frig!! I really really hope you were joking and I'm just over-reacting cause maaaan...that kinda life is no good. If you ever really do get into that stuff, and police come to me to ask stuff, you cannot expect me to lie...I might, and I might not...but frig...its putting me between a rock and a hard place ya kno? *sigh* I just hope if you do get into that stuff, that you keep me completely outa it...
The way I want to get my riches, is the way my aunt did...through hard work and determination, living a full life, so you can say you accomplished something...but thats just me, I know that not everyone earns what they have, and not everyone is honest and hard working, so I guess its alright...as long as you dont involve me or close friends, cause no matter whether you're in a gang or not, I will take you down if you mess with my close friends =P
Neways...thats my stupid lil over-reacting rant. pEace
Sunday, June 08, 2003
Downtown was funnie =P
Walkin' around made me so tired though...at least I got a lot of exercise today...almost all day. Being checked out by ugly gay guys...isnt as fun as one would think. Dinner was good, but I was eatting with 3 really slow eatters...FateZ being the slowest, Pixie being the next, then Vicks being the next. Dumcat joined us later, and did his gay walk, lol. Then for some ice cream where scary gay guys started to talk, and I'm glad I didnt buy any so they didnt talk to me...a lil too flammie for my liking =P
Friggin FateZ...such a party pooper...on sooooooo many occassions today...you suck!
Time for shower, peace.
Walkin' around made me so tired though...at least I got a lot of exercise today...almost all day. Being checked out by ugly gay guys...isnt as fun as one would think. Dinner was good, but I was eatting with 3 really slow eatters...FateZ being the slowest, Pixie being the next, then Vicks being the next. Dumcat joined us later, and did his gay walk, lol. Then for some ice cream where scary gay guys started to talk, and I'm glad I didnt buy any so they didnt talk to me...a lil too flammie for my liking =P
Friggin FateZ...such a party pooper...on sooooooo many occassions today...you suck!
Time for shower, peace.
Saturday, June 07, 2003
My opinion of someone has never been lower of this person than it is now. Sicking =P
Poor poor Fatez...though you may be over-reacting a tad, you have every right to be mad. Dun worrie, Handy man Brad will try his best to fix things, as usual =P
Neways...today was rather interesting...skippin' 5th was fun cause I felt weird, though people cannot stop talking about university, which is understandable as they have recieved acceptences, it still really really irritates me to hear about it...Everything about it hurts...but ya ya, I dun wana talk about that..
So ya, went to Derek's house, played some 'Volleyball' (in quotes cause it wasnt really volleyball), and ran around n got misquito bites...heheh =P Went to Spencer wit Julie Tim n Shem, Felix came along aftah. Watched Animatrix (Pretty nice for the most part, kinda confusing, I think I gota watch it twice to get it). Then had long talks...it was good.
Anyways...
Not much else to say...lalal =)
peace.
Poor poor Fatez...though you may be over-reacting a tad, you have every right to be mad. Dun worrie, Handy man Brad will try his best to fix things, as usual =P
Neways...today was rather interesting...skippin' 5th was fun cause I felt weird, though people cannot stop talking about university, which is understandable as they have recieved acceptences, it still really really irritates me to hear about it...Everything about it hurts...but ya ya, I dun wana talk about that..
So ya, went to Derek's house, played some 'Volleyball' (in quotes cause it wasnt really volleyball), and ran around n got misquito bites...heheh =P Went to Spencer wit Julie Tim n Shem, Felix came along aftah. Watched Animatrix (Pretty nice for the most part, kinda confusing, I think I gota watch it twice to get it). Then had long talks...it was good.
Anyways...
Not much else to say...lalal =)
peace.
Thursday, June 05, 2003
I'm thinking of changing my blog to a more private blog. I dont think I like the feeling of everyone knowing my thoughts anymore. I'll feel like I'm repeating things when I talk to people or whatever. I'll see.
Anyways.
Long day today...I still cant find my keys...
School is just so tedious, I cant stand it...not getting enough sleep, so I better nap soon. Damnit, I've been missing Pokemon and Monster Rancher for a while...I dun even know why...lol...I think I've been pre-occupied, much to think about.
Gawd, I'm sooooooooooo sore from those damn chin-ups at the park yesterday...friggggg...I havent done actual exercise in a long time! I mean like...I'm surprised I can still do 9 chin ups, I probably coulda done more I think...I wasnt really that tired. I'll beat you next time Preston~ Mwahhaha =P
O ya.......I told Dumcat that I'd be doing exercise every...other...day, yaaaaaa...something like that...I promised myself thatt.........I think......I sooooo would, if I wasnt so tired =P Maybe I'll start today...i will try. At least 30 min of exercise today!....so I say =P Probably end up doing...5 min, and being like...screw this...sleeeeeep~ =P
And why are my legs tired? lol...whats the deal with that...o ya! My left eye has been twitching now eh? FINALLY a different eye than my right...maybe things will be getting better now~ hehehehe. =P I'll make it bettah~
Neways...iuno...gonna figure smthg else to do, peace.
Anyways.
Long day today...I still cant find my keys...
School is just so tedious, I cant stand it...not getting enough sleep, so I better nap soon. Damnit, I've been missing Pokemon and Monster Rancher for a while...I dun even know why...lol...I think I've been pre-occupied, much to think about.
Gawd, I'm sooooooooooo sore from those damn chin-ups at the park yesterday...friggggg...I havent done actual exercise in a long time! I mean like...I'm surprised I can still do 9 chin ups, I probably coulda done more I think...I wasnt really that tired. I'll beat you next time Preston~ Mwahhaha =P
O ya.......I told Dumcat that I'd be doing exercise every...other...day, yaaaaaa...something like that...I promised myself thatt.........I think......I sooooo would, if I wasnt so tired =P Maybe I'll start today...i will try. At least 30 min of exercise today!....so I say =P Probably end up doing...5 min, and being like...screw this...sleeeeeep~ =P
And why are my legs tired? lol...whats the deal with that...o ya! My left eye has been twitching now eh? FINALLY a different eye than my right...maybe things will be getting better now~ hehehehe. =P I'll make it bettah~
Neways...iuno...gonna figure smthg else to do, peace.
Naps do make me feel better, cept for when your mom starts barking about University and gettinga job and do this do that.
Then I get pissed off, and ignore her. Mwahahah...I'm turnin mean...
Whatever, well, I got a bank card today, interesting...I gota come up with a new pin number though, cause mine is homo. Just some random numbers that dun even look cool. I'll think of some...........hmmmmmmmmm......but maybe they're okay, in a different order though...5791...or...5917...=P Like I'd put my pin number on my blog...pfffffft...then a whole...4 people would know it!! Dun dun dun...=P
Lalalalala.
I enjoy planning for the weekend sometimes, when the plans are fun! Just not when I'm forced...hehehe =) Vicks, we're gonna have sooooooo much fun =P hahaha...or maybe not...but it'd be funnie just cause we're funnie when we're bored. lol
O yaaaaa...forgot to say something about the trip to Bathune...
Well...Daniel, is a homo. Officially, along with his friends. Hahhahaha, faggots, think they can lie to us...whatever. We know the truth, thats all that matters.
"What goes around comes around"
He'll get what he deserves. lol to Preston, with the guy threatening to break his fingers off, hAHAHAHAH as if that wimp could hurt you. lol to Chris with the 'back' hahahha, pretty funnie, you're crazy~ lol to Cheryl, we're storm!!! MWAHHAH!! We made them walk home in the RAIN! SUCKAHS~! lol to Vicks, niceeeeeeee slap, left a BIG red mark, and he looked like he was gonna cry, that lil pussy. =P Neways, its over and done with, yay =) They'll all get what they deserve...a lightning bolt up the ass...by the Storm's~!! *hears lightnin crash* MWAHAHAH...mwahaha...mwahha...mwah...ha...
ya...
Woah...I didnt know you guys thought I was like...SUPER SUPER mad about the car and internet guy with Vicks...lol You guys havent seen mad yet =P that was..very irritated =P MWahahhahaa....*evil grin* Talking about this makes me really wana go CRAZY mad on someone...but right now I'm not mad...so that dun work...
BLAH
o wells =P
Next time..=)
Then I get pissed off, and ignore her. Mwahahah...I'm turnin mean...
Whatever, well, I got a bank card today, interesting...I gota come up with a new pin number though, cause mine is homo. Just some random numbers that dun even look cool. I'll think of some...........hmmmmmmmmm......but maybe they're okay, in a different order though...5791...or...5917...=P Like I'd put my pin number on my blog...pfffffft...then a whole...4 people would know it!! Dun dun dun...=P
Lalalalala.
I enjoy planning for the weekend sometimes, when the plans are fun! Just not when I'm forced...hehehe =) Vicks, we're gonna have sooooooo much fun =P hahaha...or maybe not...but it'd be funnie just cause we're funnie when we're bored. lol
O yaaaaa...forgot to say something about the trip to Bathune...
Well...Daniel, is a homo. Officially, along with his friends. Hahhahaha, faggots, think they can lie to us...whatever. We know the truth, thats all that matters.
"What goes around comes around"
He'll get what he deserves. lol to Preston, with the guy threatening to break his fingers off, hAHAHAHAH as if that wimp could hurt you. lol to Chris with the 'back' hahahha, pretty funnie, you're crazy~ lol to Cheryl, we're storm!!! MWAHHAH!! We made them walk home in the RAIN! SUCKAHS~! lol to Vicks, niceeeeeeee slap, left a BIG red mark, and he looked like he was gonna cry, that lil pussy. =P Neways, its over and done with, yay =) They'll all get what they deserve...a lightning bolt up the ass...by the Storm's~!! *hears lightnin crash* MWAHAHAH...mwahaha...mwahha...mwah...ha...
ya...
Woah...I didnt know you guys thought I was like...SUPER SUPER mad about the car and internet guy with Vicks...lol You guys havent seen mad yet =P that was..very irritated =P MWahahhahaa....*evil grin* Talking about this makes me really wana go CRAZY mad on someone...but right now I'm not mad...so that dun work...
BLAH
o wells =P
Next time..=)
Wednesday, June 04, 2003
Aiya...Rejectence from Western today...I cant let it get me down...
Mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnn...still no rejectence from U of T yet...so thats good...
Why does so much shit have to go on at the same...I mean...everything for everyone...and then I gota get involved...
Maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnn...I was falling asleep during GT today...Its too late for summer school....iuno.......
Haaaaaai...must be strong...I will keep it together, I'll feel better after a nap.
Mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnn...still no rejectence from U of T yet...so thats good...
Why does so much shit have to go on at the same...I mean...everything for everyone...and then I gota get involved...
Maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnn...I was falling asleep during GT today...Its too late for summer school....iuno.......
Haaaaaai...must be strong...I will keep it together, I'll feel better after a nap.
*Deep Breath*
I will...
I will get into University
I will keep my cool
I will stay on top of things
I will be strong
I will fight to the bitter end
I will take on any and every challenge that comes to me
I will fight the good fight.
I will protect my friends
I will be there for my friends
I will hold my temper.
I will let things go
I will be patient.
I will not give up.
I will not be broken.
I will prevail, despite the billions of obsticles.
I will...
I will...
I will get into University
I will keep my cool
I will stay on top of things
I will be strong
I will fight to the bitter end
I will take on any and every challenge that comes to me
I will fight the good fight.
I will protect my friends
I will be there for my friends
I will hold my temper.
I will let things go
I will be patient.
I will not give up.
I will not be broken.
I will prevail, despite the billions of obsticles.
I will...
Tuesday, June 03, 2003
Gawd.................................................
Dun get me wrong...cause I'm happy for all you people who got into University...but FUCK...am I soooo STUPID!??!?!
What happened to me...
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Am I so bad that I cant even get into a fucking University!?!>!??!?!?!?!?
For fuck's sake, I try to be a good person...I try to do soooooo much.....maybe not so much in school cause I care more about being a good person.....Thats bullshit...
I cant find a good balance.........................
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I dun wana do anything anymore............................
Iuno...I could ignore the fact before........but now its just....not going away and I'm going to fuckin die......................
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I just want to get into a crappy program or something..................
Why did I get stuck with Lim!? Why did I take law where I cant get an amazing mark!?
GAWD............WHY DONT I DO MY HOMEWORK...WHY AM I SO EASILY DISTRACTED BY PEOPLE?!! ......
I'm just stupid...
Whatever......
Dun get me wrong...cause I'm happy for all you people who got into University...but FUCK...am I soooo STUPID!??!?!
What happened to me...
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Am I so bad that I cant even get into a fucking University!?!>!??!?!?!?!?
For fuck's sake, I try to be a good person...I try to do soooooo much.....maybe not so much in school cause I care more about being a good person.....Thats bullshit...
I cant find a good balance.........................
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I dun wana do anything anymore............................
Iuno...I could ignore the fact before........but now its just....not going away and I'm going to fuckin die......................
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I just want to get into a crappy program or something..................
Why did I get stuck with Lim!? Why did I take law where I cant get an amazing mark!?
GAWD............WHY DONT I DO MY HOMEWORK...WHY AM I SO EASILY DISTRACTED BY PEOPLE?!! ......
I'm just stupid...
Whatever......
One thing I like, and one thing I hate about 'The gang' is that we're so different. Its good and bad, because we all have different views to bring to an issue or something, and I dont like anyone being the same as me. I really hate it when people copy what I like n stuff too. I mean like...you gota find your own meaning of 'cool' right? Water is my thing that I'm crazy bout, you know me =P I'm a freak like that, and I like how everyone else in 'The gang' is something different. Fire, Wind, Earth, Water...seems that we balance.
But anyway, its great how we're all different, but its crappy cause we're all sooooo different. Ex. Me and Dumcat, exact opposites, in almost EVERYTHING, cant think of one thing that we arent opposite in...scary huh? But thats kinda how I like it, I dont like anyone people to be the same as me. Ryan, you dont count =P Its just funnie how we have a lot in common, but not everything, and its not like you try n copy me, its just, we are that way =P I think thats funky. But ya...iuno where I'm going with this...I should be doing calculus right now, but I dont feel like it...
Anyways, Thanks to the help of J-ho, I think I've found myself again...and how I wana be...and how I should be...even though he didnt really do anything but need help...he did a lot more than my close friends could have done.
I see that I shouldnt have to be appreciated, and I shouldnt have to be so selfish enough to get something in return for my care. I should be proud of what I do, and who I am. I should be strong, and brave, and always try to be the best I can be. Thats what I've been forgetting the passed while...
Ya, I'm selfish like everyone else too, but I gota get over it...competely get that outta me cause...thats what I wana be like. So I will.
Thx J-ho for reminding me~
But anyway, its great how we're all different, but its crappy cause we're all sooooo different. Ex. Me and Dumcat, exact opposites, in almost EVERYTHING, cant think of one thing that we arent opposite in...scary huh? But thats kinda how I like it, I dont like anyone people to be the same as me. Ryan, you dont count =P Its just funnie how we have a lot in common, but not everything, and its not like you try n copy me, its just, we are that way =P I think thats funky. But ya...iuno where I'm going with this...I should be doing calculus right now, but I dont feel like it...
Anyways, Thanks to the help of J-ho, I think I've found myself again...and how I wana be...and how I should be...even though he didnt really do anything but need help...he did a lot more than my close friends could have done.
I see that I shouldnt have to be appreciated, and I shouldnt have to be so selfish enough to get something in return for my care. I should be proud of what I do, and who I am. I should be strong, and brave, and always try to be the best I can be. Thats what I've been forgetting the passed while...
Ya, I'm selfish like everyone else too, but I gota get over it...competely get that outta me cause...thats what I wana be like. So I will.
Thx J-ho for reminding me~

You are Storm!
You are very strong and very protective of those
you love. You are in tune with nature and are
very concerned with justice and humanity.
Unfortunately, certain apprehensions and fears
are very hard for you to overcome, and can
often inhibit you when most need to be strong.
Which X-Men character are you most like?
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I think this is worth reposting, cause its so like me...
And I do need to be strong now, take it for the team as usual...everyone's in a bad mood n bad time...n ya, I am afraid that...THAT will happen again, and I'm almost positive it will, but I gota be strong right? Thats who I am...I cant deny my nature to help people...you were right Julie. Like...I find out someone is in pain...I try anyways...even after saying I wont...So I will be strong. I have to be.
Monday, June 02, 2003

You are Neo, from "The Matrix." You
display a perfect fusion of heroism and
compassion.
What Matrix Persona Are You?
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Meh? Iuno...dun think I like this Quiz.
lalalallaala.
You know what bugs me...when people come on too strong. Like...you give them a lil rope to be polite and nice...and then they kinda...ya know...just pull and pull and take a lot of rope, and basically tie the knot for their own hanging. Geez...maybe this is why people say that this person is so 'annoying'. He just needs to learn some lessons in tact. However, I'm not in the changing people business anymore, so thats not up to me =)
Why all these changes so fast you may ask?
Well, I've told people, they change or I do, right? I keep my word, I just...am trying to lighten my load is all. To be free of extra burden or worrying, and caring =P So what if no one else will accept the responsibility, it doesnt mean I have to right? Just because I can, doesnt mean I will. I thought it'd be make a difference before, and it did for a few people, and a huge difference for me. A giant sacrafice...but somewhere along the line...I became saturated and then super saturated (like the chem analogies? =P) So what do you expect when no one changes? I'm not superman =P I aint that strong. But ya, I'll still be there for peoples, just...I'll try to...be less there? lol, iuno how this is gonna work yet...=P Maybe I wun go through with it, its not set in stone, but we'll see how things happen, if I can come up with a good plan by...some day. lol
Iuno what I'm babbling about sometimes, lalalala.
Okies, i go do something else.
Peace~
You know what bugs me...when people come on too strong. Like...you give them a lil rope to be polite and nice...and then they kinda...ya know...just pull and pull and take a lot of rope, and basically tie the knot for their own hanging. Geez...maybe this is why people say that this person is so 'annoying'. He just needs to learn some lessons in tact. However, I'm not in the changing people business anymore, so thats not up to me =)
Why all these changes so fast you may ask?
Well, I've told people, they change or I do, right? I keep my word, I just...am trying to lighten my load is all. To be free of extra burden or worrying, and caring =P So what if no one else will accept the responsibility, it doesnt mean I have to right? Just because I can, doesnt mean I will. I thought it'd be make a difference before, and it did for a few people, and a huge difference for me. A giant sacrafice...but somewhere along the line...I became saturated and then super saturated (like the chem analogies? =P) So what do you expect when no one changes? I'm not superman =P I aint that strong. But ya, I'll still be there for peoples, just...I'll try to...be less there? lol, iuno how this is gonna work yet...=P Maybe I wun go through with it, its not set in stone, but we'll see how things happen, if I can come up with a good plan by...some day. lol
Iuno what I'm babbling about sometimes, lalalala.
Okies, i go do something else.
Peace~
btw, I forgot to say Thx to Spencah for getting my sexxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxy new cursor =)
MWAHAHHA
i love it...hehehehhe it wagsssssssssssss...and its a cute lil water drop =) GAWD i'd marry it...=)
MWAHAHHA
i love it...hehehehhe it wagsssssssssssss...and its a cute lil water drop =) GAWD i'd marry it...=)
lalala...
Again I am right =P
Not to rub it into people's faces, but to get people to actually listen to me so they know to take my advice!!! Frig...
Well, anyways, I'm havent been in an advice giving mood lately, not really a helping mood either unless people really need it. And lately people have, hahaha =P
But After that, I probably am gonna drop outta that, just cause I dun feel like doing it anymore. No one really listens to me, and no one pays attention, so whats the point? =P I'm not mad or nething, its their own loss, but whatever, I'm too lazy, and starting to make cut backs in the caring department~
hhehee...
Thx for your concern again Ryan =P Its hard not to be down, but today helped, YAY LAW =) I have a feeling Mr. Draycott just gave me a good mark cause he felt sorrie for me...lol, I just mumbled and read my 'back-up' speech about the case...lol I dun think that warranted an 85% but yaaaaaaaa =P
Anyways...
Relationships seem to be the hot topic lately...
And again, everyone is getting upset over them and blah blah blah, after I say, you shouldnt involve yourself in this, it only will bring trouble (and look what it has brought) but noooooooooo, people dont listen to me. Anyways, I was asked by Vicki today, what was bad about being single, and I cant really think of anything right now...
I'll think about this more, and tell you all later =P
Peace~
Again I am right =P
Not to rub it into people's faces, but to get people to actually listen to me so they know to take my advice!!! Frig...
Well, anyways, I'm havent been in an advice giving mood lately, not really a helping mood either unless people really need it. And lately people have, hahaha =P
But After that, I probably am gonna drop outta that, just cause I dun feel like doing it anymore. No one really listens to me, and no one pays attention, so whats the point? =P I'm not mad or nething, its their own loss, but whatever, I'm too lazy, and starting to make cut backs in the caring department~
hhehee...
Thx for your concern again Ryan =P Its hard not to be down, but today helped, YAY LAW =) I have a feeling Mr. Draycott just gave me a good mark cause he felt sorrie for me...lol, I just mumbled and read my 'back-up' speech about the case...lol I dun think that warranted an 85% but yaaaaaaaa =P
Anyways...
Relationships seem to be the hot topic lately...
And again, everyone is getting upset over them and blah blah blah, after I say, you shouldnt involve yourself in this, it only will bring trouble (and look what it has brought) but noooooooooo, people dont listen to me. Anyways, I was asked by Vicki today, what was bad about being single, and I cant really think of anything right now...
I'll think about this more, and tell you all later =P
Peace~
Sunday, June 01, 2003
So true...for real...
And I love wolves...but this is really a good test. I recommend it~

What Is Your Animal Personality?
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And I love wolves...but this is really a good test. I recommend it~

What Is Your Animal Personality?
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So anyways...
Iuno what I'm feelin right now...
I duno what I wana do anymore...n I have no real dreams or plans for the future anymore...like...the whole be a doctor looks boring now...everything looks boring right now...
I mean EVERYTHING...yes, even that. Iuno, everything is so disappointing...Everything is so...tiresome...haaaai.....what to dooo.......I dont think I wana be a psychologist/psychatrist anymore...I dont think I wana be...doing anything anymore...maybe just for now...but right now I'm just winging it...completely...everything makes me more depressed...iuno, I get temporary high's from friends I guess...but thats only stupid stuff, nothing of substance...
*sigh*
I'm so confused right now...I feel like...a little boy stranded in the middle of the ocean on a tiny life boat...blah...
Honestly, there is nothing I am sure of right now, not one thing.
I'll see how this plays out though...just live a day at a time I guess? Iuno...
Iuno what I'm feelin right now...
I duno what I wana do anymore...n I have no real dreams or plans for the future anymore...like...the whole be a doctor looks boring now...everything looks boring right now...
I mean EVERYTHING...yes, even that. Iuno, everything is so disappointing...Everything is so...tiresome...haaaai.....what to dooo.......I dont think I wana be a psychologist/psychatrist anymore...I dont think I wana be...doing anything anymore...maybe just for now...but right now I'm just winging it...completely...everything makes me more depressed...iuno, I get temporary high's from friends I guess...but thats only stupid stuff, nothing of substance...
*sigh*
I'm so confused right now...I feel like...a little boy stranded in the middle of the ocean on a tiny life boat...blah...
Honestly, there is nothing I am sure of right now, not one thing.
I'll see how this plays out though...just live a day at a time I guess? Iuno...

