Dreams.

*sigh*
Life is so unfair to so many people. The majority of the time, life is unfair to those who most deserve a fair life and the least unfair to those who most deserve an unfair life. The brave and strong are hit hard and fast...when the weak and fragile have barely phased...those who hide behind guns and stealing and cheating who deserve nothing, get everything while the rest of us good honest people are trambled over. I dont know why I'm talking about this...well, I do.

I'm frustrated with this god-forsaken world. Why do such BAD things have to happen to such GOOD people!? I hate the feeling of being helpless to the will of a higher power...why...why why...WHY?!...

I wish I could take away everyone's pain, take it into myself and run far away where no one would ever be hurt again. I would feel...so...fulfilled if I could do that for everyone, so I may pass away with all the pain and suffering in the world, and leave the world safe and happy for everyone. I know that would never happen...but if I had the power to, I wouldnt hesitate for a second...

I know its naive of me to believe that the world will be a happy peaceful place, I look around and see how so many people are in high school, and I see the future. The future George Bushes of the world, the future Gandhi's of the world, the future businesses corrupted and the future honest businesses...its somewhat sickening to see that people wont learn from other people's mistakes and must make them on their own, and for this...the world is doomed...

I ask myself...what can I do to stop this? what can I do to make this right? really, what can I do? Nothing, except for try to fight it...at least try to help people learn from stupid mistakes of my own, and hopefully mistakes of other people...people dont learn though...doesnt mean I cant try though. Iuno why I'm even saying this...I just really want things to change for the better...

You know what is odd though, when I writing about how I can see the future of the world (not literally) but I really had a strong feeling, I wont be there to see it. Not as if I'm going to kill myself, but I have a feeling I wont live to an old age. A strong strong feeling that is telling me this. Maybe I'm just being a moron, but I can feel it. Another thing that is odd, is that I'm not afraid of it either. Death is just a means to an end. I would be at peace while I am dead, but while I'm here, I might as well do all that I can.

Hopefully my...predictions of an early death, is simply my psycho-babble (and probably is) but I just have a strange feeling inside...

Anyways...ya...nothing more to say.

posted by Bradimon @ 3:39 p.m.