Dreams.

Ouch! That hurts.

I apologize for being very sensitive the passed few days. I blame stress! School and work are starting to take over my life. Not that it didn't really take it over before.

I feel the need to express some of this hyper-sensitivity right now, seeing as I was holding it in when I was feeling weird. It just seems as though people do not care about my feelings. It's probably my own fault because I've left a pattern where I just suck up my emotions and try to get things done for the good of the team...but I've been expected to just suck it up - which is the part that I do not appreciate. If I am trying to hold my emotions back because I feel the need to push for everything else, then that's fine, I'm okay with that but you cannot tell me to hold my emotions back and then laugh at me when I'm upset.

I'm not sure if I'm upset enough to be quiet and shut up all the time, but I'd still like to see my feelings validated and not just laughed at. A lot of people seem to be on this "Brad is stupid, who cares about how he feels" kick. Some of my best friends don't care or notice how I feel anymore, granted everyone has their own things going on in their lives and I shouldn't expect them to think about my feelings, but I would appreciate it a lot more.

I think it's pretty evident that I am a very emotional person, and a lot of me is in my emotions. Maybe because other people aren't as based in their emotions they do not understand how it is to be emotions based. In anycase, I can't blame anyone if I don't say anything about it. So I really just need to take a breath on let my emotions be expressed. So here they are. I'm not asking anyone to change or criticizing anyone at all here. I understand everyone has their own priorities and issues to deal with; I just wanted to express how I feel.

posted by Bradimon @ 11:04 a.m.