Dreams.

I think after a few days of getting off the whole 'lets try to be a good person' horse, or rather, being pushed off, or falling off, whatever way you wana put it, Imma get back on now. I guess I just need a few days to recover.

Special thanks to Spencer and Ruby for trying so hard to make things right, and listening to my late-night-psycho-babble. I really owe ya =)

I just want things to go back to the way they used to be, and so I will try my best to do that, when everyone was happy, when everything was right, I will try. I have the summer to try right? I forgot that quote at the end of Tears of the Sun...(which was quite a disturbing yet good movie)...
Something like...

"The only way for evil to win, is for good men to do nothing."

Something like that? Maybe not evil...iuno, i'll find it. I really liked that quote, cause its so true. If good people do nothing, nothing happens and the world falls further into corruption because of the people who want to corrupt the world. *AHEM* CHRIS *coughs* So what will I do? I will try my damn heart out.

To Vicks, Dun worries, I will teach you the ways of getting over people fast =) Maybe you can keep that, and not have the liking new people fast part too, so you get the best of both worlds, lol. What Preston said is to some degree true, I can never say I know what you're going through, but I definately can feel your pain and I do ache with you, but vicks...What is in the past, has passed right? What can we do but look towards our future. You have such a bright future ahead of you too. You have multiple prospects for new guys if you really wanted them, you're going into a promising field in University, where again, you will meet new hot sexy guys right? True, it IS hard to forget the past, but there is good reason for that, we arent meant to forget. We take what we learn from the situation, grow, and have it always as a reminder of how we are better for it.

"Whatever doesnt kill you, can only make you stronger"

In the mental sense, this is completely true. You know how strong you are now, but look how much stronger you will be now after this. Next relationship, do you think you're ever going to let this happen again? And will anything look as bad as this relationship's ending? This makes your expectations of break-ups very high in pain level, but thats good! Once you get through this (and you will), then your next relationship when something bad happens, you can be like..."Pfft, this wasnt nearly as bad as what that faggot Daniel did to me, whatever *smile and walk away*" and that will be that. Dont worrie =) You're better of in the long run, take what you've learn from that loser and smile at the good times. Life is hard, but we're...uh...harder? lols...

Catherineeee...ahah, well, I hopeee you didnt expect that from me eh? =P I'll explain some more things to you about that tomorrow...but its soooooo cool that you know whats going on now...I feel a lot better letting you know =) Sorrie for keepin you up so late, n I'll also let you try those stupid MENSA questions later~!

I'll post this site on my blog later...or maybe its an e-mail thing, i'm not sure, but I'll somehow get it to all of you, or just icq me and ask me for it if I dont get it out to you. Its this MENSA test right? It determines how smart you are. there are 33 questions and if you answer 1 - 5 you're of average intellegence. 6 - 11 you're some what intellegent, 12 - 18, you're intellegent, and 19+ you're a Genius.

An example of the question would be...

Question: 24 H in a D
Answer: 24 Hours in a Day.

There are a few easy ones...so far I'm 'somewhat intellegent' GO ME!! lol...but some are REALLY fuckin hard...but i'll send to you guys later and see how smart you all are =)

Example of a hard one...
Question: 32 is the T in D F at which W F

lol, i aint giving you the answer to that one though =)

Anyways...
To my dear friend Felix...
Things seem to always go wrong with us...probably more so me huh? I am truly sorrie for betraying your trust, but please understand that I would never try to make anyone sad on purpose, EVER. All of my actions were for your betterment in the long-run. I understand that I have no real say in that, and for future reference, I will stay out of it. In this case, I wasnt able to, but I hope that we can still have our friendship, because you still do mean a lot to me despite my enraged ramblings. I know its no excuse to hurt you just because I have good intentions and for that I am truly sorrie.

Holy jebus this post just keeps growing...well, here it ends.
Until I post again!~ (which is probably within the next 5 minutes...lol...i had much to say tonight...)

P.S.

I learned I have lesbian and female bi friends!!! HOW COOL IS THAT =) The circle has been completeddddddddd =)

posted by Bradimon @ 2:31 a.m.