Yuan Bi Rong
lol, this is my supposed chinese name thanks to this website.
Check it out here if you wana see your Chinese name...according to a website.
http://www.mandarintools.com/chinesename.html
Yuan Bi Rong
Bi...meaning Jade, Green; Blue
Rong meaning Glorious
I find it rather amusing...if you know what i mean~ *wink wink nudge nudge*
You can just call me Bi Rong...lol *rolls eyes*
Anyways~
Added a few links, For Zipper's blog (aka, Pudding Cake) and for Carolyn's blog (aka, Carolyn)
Imma change around my layout a bit I think...
Audioblogger? o_o
Blogger now has Audioblogger!
Somehow you call them and blog...which is strange to me. I dont think I would want people to hear me talking when I blog...well, it would get some points through more clearly. Hearing the tone of voice and what not...I wonder how that works...do you go to the site and then your voice just starts going? If you sign up now you get 12 four 4 minute audio-blogs a month...perhaps I should sign up just so that I have it while its in trial mode. Blogger seems to like its older members more...strange bunch they are.
Woah, so ya, you do call them...and then you just talk and blog o_O
From a cell or whatever...
Thats kinda cool! It converts it to a mp3 file...lol
Anyways..
I procrastinate...lalalala...oo, I'm hungry, another way to procrastinate ^^
pEace~
Ahhhh~
Well, today wasnt very productive, ended up skipping school all day...why? I dont know, I slept in cause I didnt get much sleep the passed week. But now I'm gonna do animation...
Sooo much to do for that...I'm gonna die this weekend :)
Anyway...helped Carolyn with her blog, which should be up and running soon~ Also figured out how to put the time I wrote my posts on! Well, you could always do that, I just took it out...but now Its in ;P
Wee~
Anyways, my tummy is growling..pEace~
Wowwies!!
Holly Mary Combs, which many of you know her as Piper Haliwell from Charmed is pregnant in real life! And they're writing it into the show! Which means she's going to have another baby!! Who I think is going to be Chris...their whitelighter from the future. I have a feeling...
I hope it is!!
Anyways...
I'm crazy, lalaalallalla~
I'm back...Hurrah?
Sometimes you feel so much that you never want to feel, so you bury it deep down inside yourself. And you may have little outbursts of emotions when its jam packed full. I know I repress, maybe not as much as some others I know *coughs* Vicki *coughs* but I do repress. I see the little packeted bursts of intense emotions. I see more clearly who I am though...and what I'm doing on this place.
Talking to Catherine tonight made me reflect on somethings. Yes I can be very petty at times...I guess its a horrible defense mechanism that I need to put a stop to, but I do acknowledge it which is the first step to overcoming it. I know that despite my petty-ness, I care deeply about everyone underneath it all.
Have I ever said I hated you? If I have...the honest truth is I dont. No matter who you are, no matter what you've done. I thought I knew that I hated someone. I dont. I may completely disagree with his way of life, with how he goes about handling things, but I never have and never will hate him. Some of my best friends are lost to me because of him (and myself of course) but I dont hate him. I could never truly hate...no matter how hard I try. I may hold a grudge, but those are lifting slowly...
I know who I am. I am that which gives unconditional love...I may get mad, but you know that my care will always be there. I may get sad, but you know I will always be there. Why do I do this is my question, why am I like this? I dont think I'm alone in this though. I doubt anyone is truly capable of hate. There will always be that little ray of hope deep down...
I dont know why I'm getting into this. Its just...lots of thinking while I should be studying -_-;
Anyways, life is too short for lamenting on these questions. We should enjoy ourselves as much as we can ^^
pEace~
Eh?
Am I going crazy...?
I look up on my wall, and I swear I see this big patch of white...
Then it disappears really fast! I think I am going crazy...too much work.
Too much of my parents being stupid.
Oy-ness.
Btw, thx vicks for backin me up the other day with my parents, couldnt bare to be home wit'em, they needed to be taught a lesson. We had a nice talk while we were supposed to be doing our work eh? lol.
O well, I think things are just gonna get better from now on. Everything is looking up~
Though when I look up...I see weird dots that disappear..
Maybe lack of sleep, I blame that :)
I have some great ideas for christmas gifts for some peoples :)
Not so sure for other people, but I still got sometime~
Cant wait til Christmas comes, cant wait til school is done...finished my bullying seminar today~ Tomorrow finish a test, and then I work on my animation project til monday, then hand that in, then work on webpage, then I finish my work load for Christmas break ^^ I think..?
wait, something is due Dec. 12...
I dont remember what though...
Ahh well, just one more thing to add, no biggie, I can handle this after tomorrow~ Just wana get issues in human growth test outta the way :)
Work work work~
This is my life, all about fun :P
*yawn*
Okay...
Today is another work-filled day.
I have to ace my animation project, and seminar and test...
So I will work hard this weekend!...
After I shower and eat...
lol, and the procrastination starts :P
Strange thing happening...I havent really been thinking deeply into things lately, probably because I'm so occupied with school work and games. heheh... -_-;
Well...time to shower, pEace~
Gah!
Alright...
Decisions decisions...
I'm really tired...
and I wana nap, but I might screw my school stuff over if I do nap, cause I'll be up late doing it (if I can even wake up) and I wont be able to ask people if I'm doing stuff right. Not to mention I'm feeling more sick now, been coughing a lot more than earlier today. Maybe I could do better work if I nap too..but there's the risk I wont get up, knowing me..
OR...
Stay up and do work because its important that I do work.
My dilemma is here...
I think...life is too short to be doing work all the time, I should nap.
BUT
Since life is too short, shouldnt I get my work done so that I can get the most of life later?
Ahh, but then the question comes up...when is later? When exactly do I get to rest and enjoy things? Ahh fuck it, I say NOW i rest and enjoy things.
It works better when you type things out, or write them down somewhere anyways, its makes you see them more clearly ^^
pEace~
Woah...
Wowwies...
TV is very entertaining after not watching it for a long long time!
I find out what a bitch Jessica Simpson is...dude, how can that Nick dude be married to her?! He's a really sweet guy and she's just some giant blonde ditz!! GIANT!!! She's SUCH a GIANT whiner!! OMG OMG OMG...How does he put up with it!? And he goes sooo far out of his way to go and plan a giant romantic dinner and night for them...and she's all...bitch bitch bitch!
GEeeeeeez
Also Taildaters is a really funnie show!!
I think we should send Vicki on it Grace!! We will be the tail people!!
LOL!!
Basically, your friend goes on a date, and two of their friends sit in a room with the other person's two friends and then they analyze the date and can send the people on the date pages...SO FUNNIE!! I wana send Vicki on it or make Grace go, or I'd go even. lol
Anywayas...ya, sleep time now.
pEace~
Woo hoo!
Hey!!
I just found out my new cable thing get WB!!!
MORE CHARMED FOR ME!!! Mwhaahahahah!!!
Does this mean I will stop downloading it? HELLS no! But it means I get to see the episode i've been dying to see earlier!! Weeeeeeeeeeee~
In other news...
Nothing else really going on? I've been watching TV, hanging with my family and stuff a lot more. Also going back to Karate soon. I need to get a new suit cause the other one is too small...yay for growing? I'll get back into shape, all the exercise I've been doing has been minimal, just walking home and the occasional weight lifted a few times? hahahah, I got lazy, what? :)
Also found a lot more channels I will be very interested in!! I GET TO WATCH THE NATURE OF THINGS WITH DAVID SUZUKI!! I'M SO EXCITED!!! Call me a nerd, but its a good show!! And I never got to watch it before so I get to now and its great!! I was learning about cures for diabetes or something today!!
Also get SexTV station which'll be really interesting to watch, not for the SEX persay, but for the educational value :) Not even kidding here, I sooo need to learn about this stuff cause we all know how stupid I am when it comes to the sexual terms...-_-;
Anything else?
Not really, gonna go sleep soon~
Oyyy-ness~
Work work work...
Job search...
Work work work...
Entertain guests...
Work work work...
This is my day today.
Not exactly the most FUN day I've had, but it was productive. I'm a little bummed right now cause I wanted to do more fun stuff today and relax some more, but that aint happenin. Priorities priorities...
Why am I such a competitive boy? Why? Its not healthy...
Maybe cause I need more motivation coming from somewhere else opposed to competition...
Iuno...
But I'm reaaaaaally tired right now and have a lot more work to do.
Bleeeeeeeehhh.
O well, things'll work out, they always do. I refuse to give into pessimism...hope and optumism is what I've been running on for a long long time. Hope that things will be good and whatever.
Gawd, I do need that trip to 3rd world Country with Cheryl...I really need to learn to appreciate what I have the hard way, opposed to just being pampered here..
O wells, hopefully that'll go through.
Weeee~
Ya know...
Being interested in someone is REALLY fun! I forgot how much fun it was!! I mean...well, its not the same as before, but its still really fun ^^ Now...the trouble is getting to know the person better, I have a way...but it involves some talking to people and figuring stuff out ^^ But thats part of the fun~
Anywayssssss~
I gota shower and stuff...
Today was a good day, I'd almost label it great ^^
It was great to talk to eric cynthia nathan adrian and brian again~
Thanks for din Eric, it was great~ I owe ya some dinner next time~ Hopefully you can come to Old Fort York this year with me Grace Vicks and my fam~
I feel happy again :)
Yayayay~
Time for sleepies~
Night~
I wonder...
Whats wrong with me this week...
Things are very...strange...not going into details, its nothing bad either. Its just very out of character for me? Maybe not out of character, its happened before, just...I guess once in a blue-moon this kinda thing happens to me for a few weeks...
I aint gonna say it to public, but if you know me and wana know sure...i'll probably talk to a few people to figure out whats going on anyways.
I'm strange..boo o_O
Amazing Poem~
This was written by a friend on Gaia, Akendo. I think its great~! *sighs* Life inside a computer...Me thinks you would enjoy this the most Catherine~
Through pixelated lives we lead.
With false words
Giving false hugs.
Endless pain, lost in this pixelated world.
Pain that can’t be erased.
Love that can’t be created.
Yet day by day.
We pass our time.
Living these lies.
Of a pixeled life.
At the end of the day
Its always the same.
We turn off the comp.
And wallow in self pity.
For we are trapped in this pixelated land.
We cry in the dark.
Then turn in back on.
Then tell the world.
How much you hate yourself.
The world responds.
And you hate yourself more.
Trapped all alone in this pixelated world.
We your at your end wits.
You pick up a knife.
Slice your flesh with a razor.
Just to feel alive.
For in the end
You are trapped
In this pixelated world
Who's a moron?
I'm a moron!!
Staying up almost all night, doing NO work...and talking on stupid Gaia...STUPID STUPID GAIA! *kicks it*
But my char is cooler now with new hair...
Also...reflecting on ER (which is a friggin AMAZING SHOW)
*sigh*
So sad...everyone dies in there...and it looks like such hard work and you gota be such a good person to be in the ER! Its CRAZY! I could never take that...but I'd actually consider being a nurse...yes a male nurse...lol, it sounds horrible but kiss my ass :P
Okies...gonna go... I hope.
Helllllloooooooooooooo Winter!
Ahh winter...
One of my favourite seasons! Of the 4...its not really saying much :P
Though its my 2nd favourite season...its still cool~ hahaha the puns~!
Anyways~
Winter is a time of lots of fun ^^ Snowball fights, snow forts, snow angels, christmas, family, friends, gifts, a happy time all around~ Seems that boxing day will again be spent at Fort York with my large family and a few friends. I'll see how many I'm allowed to invite this time, hopefully I can get the usual, Grace and Vicks, but maybe add Eric and Catherine if I can and if they can.
Catherine, you'd enjoy it, you can play hockey with my family :P They're all hockey nuts ^^
Eric, I know you wana come anyways :P So I dont gota persaude you to hang out with my scary family :)
I also cant wait for Christmas~ I've been in such a Christmas-y mood since I got home, I kinda wanted to put up Christmas decorations today in preparetion of Christmas :)
Also this year, I have decided that I will wear a touque for the first time since I was a lil kid~ I refused to wear them before cause I hated them smooshing my hair, but with this wind, I really dont care~ Who knows, I can always try going to school with smooshed hair..haha :P But I'm gonna interchange it with my headband too, cause my forehead gets cold a lot...like TODAY~ Geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeezzzzzzzz dude, that was a CRAZY storm! The wind is unbelievable! Snow without strong winds is soo much fun...but with strong winds...it hurts!!!
Though I do like being cold more than i do hot. Being cold doesnt give me spikes like being hot does >_< Right now I'm wearing my headband very strangely too...I might wear it to school like this maybe if I feel brave~ haaha, ahh who cares, no one hot at school that I want anyways, and all the younger kids are all cocky-like. I feel like a mushroom cause my hair is sticking out the top and spreading out and hanging over a bit, hahaha :P
ANywaaaaaaaaaaays...
Back to work~
pEacee~
Blah?
Hmm...
Such a strange array of emotions tonight.
Went from energetic to sleepy to sick to annoyed to happy to hyper to laid back to mellow to blah.
I skipped a few that I didnt think were very... PG-13...
I'm so...strange right now~
Iuno..this whole working in school thing is so tiring, so very draining..I mean..whodda thought actually doing your work would make you so tired. I'm not happy, I'm not sad, I'm not mad I dont know what I feel? Just...blah? Blah blah blah.
Maybe its just tired...lol...thats the feeling to desribe this! Another good work to describe it is apathetic. I dont know........
I dont even know what to write...my mind is so blank! Normally everything just flows and I hit the publish button...but right now I'm stumped.
Ahh well, everything will turn back to 'normal' sometime anyway. Whatever that means~
Okay, quite obviously tired if I fell asleep here for like 5 minutes...
I think I'm just gonna hit the hay and forget bout this project...Mr. Paschos probably doesnt even know that its due anyway...
Night all~
Side Note
I need to stop being such a wussy wimp. I mean...to tell you the truth I almost cried reflecting on rememberance day. Why? I dont know...I dont know anyone who has been lost in a war...but I almost cried cause I could imagine it...I'm such a wuss eh? I should stop that.
Hope everyone had a great Rememberance Day...
Well...yesterday.
Charmed~
Oh man...
So much Charmed today~
It was amazing~! But to tell you the truth, they are getting a little boring now. I just got wait til episode 10...then it will be AMAZING, its what they've been building up to~! I suppose they needed the more boring episodes to build up Chris' character. But I feel like he fits in really well already, after like...3 episodes...lol, o wells. Soon Chris and Wyatt fight!! AHH!! EVIL WYATT *sobs* Noooooooooo!!
I cant wait :P
Anyways...
Reflecting on this little talk Grace Vicki and I had in Vicki's car...yet again...its really great that we have each other. As a definate source of caring and friendship. It leaves us free to also go out and meet other people, make new friends, and be alright if it doesnt work out because we'll always have each other. No matter how much we fight, no matter how stupid we are. I mean, we've all been mad at each other at some point in time, but to me, they're family. And you cant de-friend a family member.
Slowly getting more friends that I can trust like that. Some I thought, but everyone is entitled to be wrong ^^ I'm not bitter anymore though, life is life, I should just let things flow. Ryan was right, I changed, some for the better, some for the worse. I can take and accept a lot more that I would normally be fighting against with my whole heart and soul, but I have been meaner and let my self-control slide a bit...which wasnt so nice. But its always nice to take your dark side out for a walk. I duno why that issue got me so upset anyways...well...I do, I just dont like to admit it~ hahahah..
Well, point is, I'm back to my 'normal' self (whoever that is) and being nice and what not, holding my tongue, and trying to stay positive and what not~ And as promised Catherine, I will not be nice for the sake of other people, but for my own sake, so that I'm happy at least~ I guess I still have trouble trying to please myself rather than other people...hahahah, that could be interpretted in such a dirty way...but lets not go there :)
Back to work~
pEace~
Look! Title Bar Works!
Woo hoo~
My title bar works!! As noted...by MY TITLE BAR!!
Thankies Genie for the title bar idea~
And thanks to my pudding-cake, I am now also known as not only Button, but the Golden Smooshie Bear ^^
How come my title doesnt show >_< Probably the scripting..
lol
Yesterday was such an interesting day.
Started off with procrastination (as usual) Then cooking, then eatting then sister coming over, then other sister asking for math help, then me calling vicki to help cause I cant help with math, then hanging around talking about life-like stuff.
It was a good bonding day all in all. I sat a drew for a lot of the day too...some good, some bad, some horrible. Got my flash webpage to work a lot nicer, yay for my button's working :)
I had something interesting to say...but I forgot it now...
I think it was something about dating that my sister said...
Well, lets just talk about that anyway.
She said that "You just have to wait for the person to come along" Though I've been telling myself this, it helps to have examples from her friends and stuff. Like her boyfriend's brother Brian, nice guy, met this girl when they were about to both give up, and they were friends of Sean and Novellette (my other brother and his wife), they met and hit it off and have been together for a long time. But before that they were all in such dispair (why cant I spell that properly...whatever) and thinking, "I'll never find someone." After trying so hard, trying even online setup services and whatever, but these two just clicked and made a great match. I'm really happy for them ^^ They come to my family things too.
Its great to hear such sucess stories. It really makes ya think, that one day your Prince or Princess will come some day, you just gota wait it out. I guess life is a lot about patience. I never realised that I thought about life so much in terms of finding someone. Life just goes along, and you'll just be yet another step closer to meeting someone.
For all those love-sick people out there, longing to find the perfect mate, or a mate at all...it'll come to you, most likely when you least expect it~ Its the best when it happens that way anyway~ Mysterious, fun, a new adventure. :)
Anyways...I'm going to go see if I can fix something on this lil blog-o-mine, and take a nap maybe.
pEace~
Updated Songs~
Check out the songs ^^
I highly recommend Robbie Williams - Sexed Up.
Its just plain funnie the song.
He actually sings "Screw you, I didnt like your style anyway"
LOL
oo i forgot to put Britney Spears f/ Madonna - Me Against the Music in there...
thats a great song~
O well, next time~
Lookie! Title bar!!
Downloaded a lot of new songs today~
I gota update my little side bar, you should check out the lyrics, a lot of the time I like a song because of its lyrics~
but sometimes just cause they're funnie or sound good~ :)
Anyways, saw Kill Bill yesterday, it was pretty damn good. Not as good as I expected, cause everyone told me it'd be amazing, and I was like..NICE! So then ya..but it was still pretty damn good.
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SPOILER, DO NOT READ THIS SECTION IF YOU DONT WANA KNOW ABOUT THE MOVIE~~~~
Awww...
I'm so sad Lucy Liu died >_< She was SO amazing in it, and I feel so bad about her parents!! MY GOD!! Imagine living such a tramatized life...and the anime sequence where they showed her killing the mafia dudes was AMAZING. And the blood and gushing stuff was very anime-like~ ^^
I wish Uma therman would die in the movie...lol, her character is just not like-able..not as likable as Lucy Liu ^^ She rocks...she's soooooo cold and polite and mean at the same time, its GREAT!! Hahahahaha, I mean..when she was killed that guy for bringing up her chinese and american heritage saying it was improper for chinese/japanese/american girl to run the Yakuza...Soooo funnie~! She was all "If you have any problems or questions regarding anything you may feel free to talk to me and bring it up, but if you EVER bring up my chinese or american heritage up in a negative way, I WILL CUT YOUR FUCKING HEAD OFF!! *holds up head of one of the council members that did* LOL LOL
She's the best...the friggin best!! Why did she die *sobs*
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Anyways, I'm feeling pretty good lately. Iuno why, just..learning and adjusting well.
I'm so glad to have Vicki n Grace n Catherine as friends I can always trust and always count on. I mean...Vicki and Grace are always there whenever I need just a nice talking to, or just time to get away from other things, or just to have fun. And Catherine is always there to help me work on my stupid issues ^^ Even though we have the same stupid issues sometimes, I can count on her to be there pushing our self-help group along~ lol~ Ahh, she understands my stupidity more than most people, which makes me question her own level of stupidity to comprehend mine...lol jk jk jk~ :P
Anyways...
I go do work...or something like it~ :p
pEace~
*yawns*
my head hurts, should sleep, but cant yet.
I'll sleep early tonight though~
Then tomorrow back to animating~ >_<
And drawing...and artsy stuff...why meeeee...
I'm not that artsy~! Thats...the arts yorkies! *shakes fist*
*yawns*
I think my tired-ness is catching up with me..
Havent had a serious bloggin session in a long time. Just random feelings generally. But I'm really tired right now, and thinking kinda hurts me head, so I've tried not to think much lately ^^
Maybe cause I'm...lol, lets not go there :P
So lets see...how was my day...how was my day...
I stayed up til 6:30am last night, woke up at 7:30am then worked on my assignment...didnt get a chance to study for test...find out I over did the assignment which was supposed to be 1 page, mine was 3...spent sooo long on it >_<
Then test...was weird...iuno hwo to explain right now, brain lacking in power to say things. See look, brains dont even say things and I think they do~ hahaha
Okay, I'm crazy, officially~
