Question...
Where have people's manners gone?
I'm not saying NO ONE has manners, because the truth of the matter is, a lot of people have quite excellent manners. There are several however, that have horrible manners. HORRIBLE, not even basic manners...Though they may be relatively nice people at times, they can be down right rude at other times. Certain people (who shall remain nameless) really irritate me with their lack of proper manners. Ya ya ya, I will admit that I'm an uptight priss, but you know what? I dont care! Manners are important to me, and if you dont have them, you dont get the priviledges others will from me. In otherwords, to those of you who may think you do not know your manners, learn them for me, if you want anything from me that is. This means, PLEASE, and THANK YOU, at the appropriate time. And if I detect any sense of insencerity in your voice, you will not be dealing with a happy person.
In conclusion, learn your manners, or dont ask me for anything =)
Have a nice day =)
Dreams.
Wednesday, April 30, 2003
Hahahahahahah
ommmmmmmmgggggggg.........
WHAT'S WRONG WITH MEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.......?
I'm hyper...at 2am.......HAHahhahaha
hahahahah
haha
hahhahah
okaaaaaaaaay...shttttooooooopppppp iiiiiittttttttt!!
mmmmmaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhahahahahaha...
Alright...
I'm feeling very hyper...and sexy...lol
As probably a lot of you know, as I have sent several crazy messages saying 'I'm sexy'
hahahahha...BOY am I conceded....or...vain =P Have you SEEN how many mirrors I have in my house? Not to mention my room alone =P Ya know...I look in the mirror a lot too, hahahahaa. lalalalalallalaala.
I'm a freak
Okay, shutting up now before I spill more deep dark evil secrets of brad.
heeeehehehehhehe =)
I bring you lovvvveeeeee......
I bring you peeeeaaaaaacccceeeeeeee...........
mwahhahaha...
PEACE!
ommmmmmmmgggggggg.........
WHAT'S WRONG WITH MEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.......?
I'm hyper...at 2am.......HAHahhahaha
hahahahah
haha
hahhahah
okaaaaaaaaay...shttttooooooopppppp iiiiiittttttttt!!
mmmmmaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhahahahahaha...
Alright...
I'm feeling very hyper...and sexy...lol
As probably a lot of you know, as I have sent several crazy messages saying 'I'm sexy'
hahahahha...BOY am I conceded....or...vain =P Have you SEEN how many mirrors I have in my house? Not to mention my room alone =P Ya know...I look in the mirror a lot too, hahahahaa. lalalalalallalaala.
I'm a freak
Okay, shutting up now before I spill more deep dark evil secrets of brad.
heeeehehehehhehe =)
I bring you lovvvveeeeee......
I bring you peeeeaaaaaacccceeeeeeee...........
mwahhahaha...
PEACE!
Tuesday, April 29, 2003
la la la la...
I guess I should be more social again...like maybe going to lunch wit my friends instead of ya kno...uh...going home and being anti-social =P
hehehe...couple people failed parts of my tests~ hehehe =) o wells, just learnin more bout peoples~ And when you hear tests, they arent like...EVIL tests or nething...I dun wana explain, so tough luck if you wana kno =) Yer gonna have to ask me in person and persaude me to take the time to explain the complicated marking system I give =)
Woah...okay, I'm going to start trying to type properly again, cause...it looks better than all the short-forms that I have adopted...I think most of them are from Dumcat n FateZ, probably more from Dumcat, bad influence I tell ya!! I was reading my VERY first blog....cause I just refreshed all my archives to check'em out, and wow, was my typing a lot different. So lets try to get back to that, maybe if I can get back to the way I was before, I could be smarter again, and healthier again, and happier =)
So we'll try a step at a time...heheh =)
Anyhoos. I gota go do some homework...AHhhhhh *shudders*
I guess I should be more social again...like maybe going to lunch wit my friends instead of ya kno...uh...going home and being anti-social =P
hehehe...couple people failed parts of my tests~ hehehe =) o wells, just learnin more bout peoples~ And when you hear tests, they arent like...EVIL tests or nething...I dun wana explain, so tough luck if you wana kno =) Yer gonna have to ask me in person and persaude me to take the time to explain the complicated marking system I give =)
Woah...okay, I'm going to start trying to type properly again, cause...it looks better than all the short-forms that I have adopted...I think most of them are from Dumcat n FateZ, probably more from Dumcat, bad influence I tell ya!! I was reading my VERY first blog....cause I just refreshed all my archives to check'em out, and wow, was my typing a lot different. So lets try to get back to that, maybe if I can get back to the way I was before, I could be smarter again, and healthier again, and happier =)
So we'll try a step at a time...heheh =)
Anyhoos. I gota go do some homework...AHhhhhh *shudders*
Monday, April 28, 2003
It seems that no one else blogs regularly anymore cept me...whats up with that? O wells, less for me to read =) Mwahahah~!
Neways, Its insane how moody I am lately, TV is prompting such huge reactions from me, I get mad at it, and I get sad from it, and its simply disturbing...Maybe I really SHOULD go see that school psychologist...might be able to work through..something? I managed to sleep from 4 - 8 when I came home today...lol, while my sister was typing away at my computer and doin relatively loud stuff =P
Apparently I talk in my sleep. Only a few words, but still kinda funnie =) I also can somehow hear people, communicate, and give the right answer, without actually BEING awake...lol...
Dana: "Hey Brad, Its time for dinner!"
Brad: "Okay...I'll be down in a sec..."
2 Hours later...
*Brad wakes up*
Huhhhhh...did I miss dinner? Woah....its 8...
lol
I woke up in a weird position too...like a model pose...*gives finger to Baby Pixie, Catherine, Sandy, Carolyn, and Ryan*...
I do not walk like a model, nor do I pose like one, ONLY RYAN DOES THAT!! =)
lalalalala...
I cant believe I slept 4 hours...but at least I caught up on that sleep I missed by waking up at 5am!! wtf was that...
O yes, and I did my hair diff today n no one noticed >_< Maybe it wasnt notably different, but i thought it was pretty different...but then again, most people dun see the top of my head...cept maybe Nathan...Eric? Felix...Keith...Spencer? Okay, maybe people SHOULD have noticed...but then I was a tad anti-social today, so ya. Okay, my fault no one noticed =P But i asked julie n bent down to show her and she didnt notice!! WTF IS THAT!! You suck Julie. I wonder if I can do it tml...I'll try...i dun even kno how i did it today! Boo...=P
Neways, thats enough for now, I hope I provided you bored people with...minutes of reading fun!
Peace.
Neways, Its insane how moody I am lately, TV is prompting such huge reactions from me, I get mad at it, and I get sad from it, and its simply disturbing...Maybe I really SHOULD go see that school psychologist...might be able to work through..something? I managed to sleep from 4 - 8 when I came home today...lol, while my sister was typing away at my computer and doin relatively loud stuff =P
Apparently I talk in my sleep. Only a few words, but still kinda funnie =) I also can somehow hear people, communicate, and give the right answer, without actually BEING awake...lol...
Dana: "Hey Brad, Its time for dinner!"
Brad: "Okay...I'll be down in a sec..."
2 Hours later...
*Brad wakes up*
Huhhhhh...did I miss dinner? Woah....its 8...
lol
I woke up in a weird position too...like a model pose...*gives finger to Baby Pixie, Catherine, Sandy, Carolyn, and Ryan*...
I do not walk like a model, nor do I pose like one, ONLY RYAN DOES THAT!! =)
lalalalala...
I cant believe I slept 4 hours...but at least I caught up on that sleep I missed by waking up at 5am!! wtf was that...
O yes, and I did my hair diff today n no one noticed >_< Maybe it wasnt notably different, but i thought it was pretty different...but then again, most people dun see the top of my head...cept maybe Nathan...Eric? Felix...Keith...Spencer? Okay, maybe people SHOULD have noticed...but then I was a tad anti-social today, so ya. Okay, my fault no one noticed =P But i asked julie n bent down to show her and she didnt notice!! WTF IS THAT!! You suck Julie. I wonder if I can do it tml...I'll try...i dun even kno how i did it today! Boo...=P
Neways, thats enough for now, I hope I provided you bored people with...minutes of reading fun!
Peace.
Okay...note to self, do not ever wake up at 5:00am again...
I'm getting tired, and school is gonna start for me soon!! Friggggg..I also hate this friggin sick thing that I'm going through...where the hell did it come from...I rarely got sick before this year!! And all of a sudden, my clear skin, my health, n my grades all go downhill...hahahahah....sadd...i guess it is the lack of sleep, cause that does affect all of those things...fineeeeeeee, I promise to sleep early from now on!!
And ya...I was a lil pissed off last night...ahahah, can ya tell? =P But things are okay now...had a LOT of time to think this mornin, n I should be happy for you rather than pissed off at myself? If that makes any sense at all.
Okay, i cant find anything I wana make for breakfast...and I gota shower...n make lunch...so much for having a good start to the day? lol, i sat and watched TV..evil TV =P Popular Mechanics for Kids...and some sorta pet show? n the Rock Your Body video...that was odd...very odd...I'm thinkin Justin Timberlake should lose the facial hair? But thats just my opinion =P
Newayss....time to shower n get ready for hell...err...schooool.
I'm getting tired, and school is gonna start for me soon!! Friggggg..I also hate this friggin sick thing that I'm going through...where the hell did it come from...I rarely got sick before this year!! And all of a sudden, my clear skin, my health, n my grades all go downhill...hahahahah....sadd...i guess it is the lack of sleep, cause that does affect all of those things...fineeeeeeee, I promise to sleep early from now on!!
And ya...I was a lil pissed off last night...ahahah, can ya tell? =P But things are okay now...had a LOT of time to think this mornin, n I should be happy for you rather than pissed off at myself? If that makes any sense at all.
Okay, i cant find anything I wana make for breakfast...and I gota shower...n make lunch...so much for having a good start to the day? lol, i sat and watched TV..evil TV =P Popular Mechanics for Kids...and some sorta pet show? n the Rock Your Body video...that was odd...very odd...I'm thinkin Justin Timberlake should lose the facial hair? But thats just my opinion =P
Newayss....time to shower n get ready for hell...err...schooool.
Well, i had the worst night of sleep everrr =P
Woke up at what...5am? And could barely sleep. I rolled around from 1 til about 1:45? Frig...blaaaaaah~!
My throat wont stop hurting, and I keep having drastic changes in body temperature, but other than that, I think I'm gettin better? I dun even know how I got sick, it was so...sudden! It was probably that lack of sleep, o wells.
Neways...time to kill...as it is only 6:46am...and I dont have to go to hell until 9:50...
I guess I can make a good lunch and have a good breakfast, and have a nice relaxin shower in the morning, which would be a nice change.
Me thinks imma play some pokemon then~
Peaceeeee
Woke up at what...5am? And could barely sleep. I rolled around from 1 til about 1:45? Frig...blaaaaaah~!
My throat wont stop hurting, and I keep having drastic changes in body temperature, but other than that, I think I'm gettin better? I dun even know how I got sick, it was so...sudden! It was probably that lack of sleep, o wells.
Neways...time to kill...as it is only 6:46am...and I dont have to go to hell until 9:50...
I guess I can make a good lunch and have a good breakfast, and have a nice relaxin shower in the morning, which would be a nice change.
Me thinks imma play some pokemon then~
Peaceeeee
Ya kno what...
I'm not mad at you, nor am I irritated or anything with you.
Only me, I'm the biggest fool in the whole fucking world. This happens allll the fucking time...I always put more into a friendship, and think it's better than it is, but it really isnt, and I get left feeling like a complete MORON. You'd think I'd learn from the passed 3 times it's happened to me...but nooooooo, I had to be OPTUMISTIC, maybe this person would return my care n compassion. I was wrong. Dont get me wrong, we are good friends, but I'm a idiot for thinking we're better friends than we actually are. In no way is this a play on your sympathy either, if you know what I mean. Again, to re-itterate, I am not mad at you, just myself. Sad thing is, I'm stupid for thinking this stuff anwyays. I'm just expressing my anger towards myself for being so naive and gullible...I've learned my lesson though...dun worrie, things wont change for you.
I'm not mad at you, nor am I irritated or anything with you.
Only me, I'm the biggest fool in the whole fucking world. This happens allll the fucking time...I always put more into a friendship, and think it's better than it is, but it really isnt, and I get left feeling like a complete MORON. You'd think I'd learn from the passed 3 times it's happened to me...but nooooooo, I had to be OPTUMISTIC, maybe this person would return my care n compassion. I was wrong. Dont get me wrong, we are good friends, but I'm a idiot for thinking we're better friends than we actually are. In no way is this a play on your sympathy either, if you know what I mean. Again, to re-itterate, I am not mad at you, just myself. Sad thing is, I'm stupid for thinking this stuff anwyays. I'm just expressing my anger towards myself for being so naive and gullible...I've learned my lesson though...dun worrie, things wont change for you.
Sunday, April 27, 2003
o ya, something else notable happened yesterday night..
I had one of my weaker moments when actually thought about giving into the christianity thing...ONLY LIKE 1 SECOND!!! So dun get ne ideas Tim...but ya, I think it was the whole watching "Touched by an Angel" that got me thinkin bout how nice it would be to kno that someone is constantly loving and caring for you, blah lbah lbah, but then, of course, I do have friends n family that will always care bout me, no matter what, sooooooooooo it dun matter =) Woooooooo...close call eh Dumcat?
I had one of my weaker moments when actually thought about giving into the christianity thing...ONLY LIKE 1 SECOND!!! So dun get ne ideas Tim...but ya, I think it was the whole watching "Touched by an Angel" that got me thinkin bout how nice it would be to kno that someone is constantly loving and caring for you, blah lbah lbah, but then, of course, I do have friends n family that will always care bout me, no matter what, sooooooooooo it dun matter =) Woooooooo...close call eh Dumcat?
Ooooooo myyyyyy goodness..
My head hurts sooooooooooooo much...a two day headache is NOT nice...I am soooooooo sick now...I think it was RUBY'S fault...cause she's sick...n then she was at Keith's...iuno...I BLAME YOU...Grrrrjrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....I have honestly never had such a bad headache..or even a headache!!! NEVER!!! All these bad things are happenin lately to meh, health wise...I think its my lack of sleep...and eatting habits...alright, back to a normal routine starting...today. I think i said this a while ago...but I MEAN IT NOW...You see me online passed...12:30 - 1am you say...FUCK YOU GO TO BED!! I'M NOT TALKING TO YOU UNTIL YOU SLEEP!! okay? Unless its on weekends when we stay up til 4..hehewh =)
Neways...Pokemon is really annoying me right now...i'm stuck at a boss that I cant beat...he's strong against ALL my pokemon...I DO NOT see how Wing Attack is strong to a Fire/Fighting pokemon...WTF...Friggin Golbat kills ALL my pokemon...which are all higher levels cause of STUPID WING ATTACK...I need to get an anti-air pokemon...lol...wc3 talk in pokemon...hehe =)
So "Spirited Away" was a pretty good movie, though confusing, it was really good. Pretty too. I think one of the english voice actors played Meg on Hercules! I love that girl, soooooooooooooo funnie. In both movies actually, kinda cocky sexy girl...the kind that I like =) Mwahhahaha.
Neways, time for some rest n relaxation...as I am sick...peace
My head hurts sooooooooooooo much...a two day headache is NOT nice...I am soooooooo sick now...I think it was RUBY'S fault...cause she's sick...n then she was at Keith's...iuno...I BLAME YOU...Grrrrjrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....I have honestly never had such a bad headache..or even a headache!!! NEVER!!! All these bad things are happenin lately to meh, health wise...I think its my lack of sleep...and eatting habits...alright, back to a normal routine starting...today. I think i said this a while ago...but I MEAN IT NOW...You see me online passed...12:30 - 1am you say...FUCK YOU GO TO BED!! I'M NOT TALKING TO YOU UNTIL YOU SLEEP!! okay? Unless its on weekends when we stay up til 4..hehewh =)
Neways...Pokemon is really annoying me right now...i'm stuck at a boss that I cant beat...he's strong against ALL my pokemon...I DO NOT see how Wing Attack is strong to a Fire/Fighting pokemon...WTF...Friggin Golbat kills ALL my pokemon...which are all higher levels cause of STUPID WING ATTACK...I need to get an anti-air pokemon...lol...wc3 talk in pokemon...hehe =)
So "Spirited Away" was a pretty good movie, though confusing, it was really good. Pretty too. I think one of the english voice actors played Meg on Hercules! I love that girl, soooooooooooooo funnie. In both movies actually, kinda cocky sexy girl...the kind that I like =) Mwahhahaha.
Neways, time for some rest n relaxation...as I am sick...peace
Saturday, April 26, 2003
Happy Way Belated to Julie.
N sorrie for Kobe =/
I hope the cake n everyone cheered you up!!
Thx to Keith for lettin us use his house, again, thx to everyone for coming, Thx to the ppl who helped me plan...sorta =P
Okay...it was Jess, Ruby mostly, but Spencer n Felix...'helped'...(not really, i told them to do stuff, but they didnt) hahahah
o wells, it all worked out alright I guess.
I feel weird wearing red, but i kinda like it. Hey, maybe i'll start wearin BRIGHT colours...lol, like...uhh..YELLOW, hahahah =P ya right =P Not again!!
Neways, a certain someone is actually getting less annoying, I wont say who, but I think I can stand him a lil more, he just gota participate more, I think you all kno who i'm talkin bout. =P
Neways,...my eyes are dying
Peace~
No Wc3 tonight...only sleep =)
N sorrie for Kobe =/
I hope the cake n everyone cheered you up!!
Thx to Keith for lettin us use his house, again, thx to everyone for coming, Thx to the ppl who helped me plan...sorta =P
Okay...it was Jess, Ruby mostly, but Spencer n Felix...'helped'...(not really, i told them to do stuff, but they didnt) hahahah
o wells, it all worked out alright I guess.
I feel weird wearing red, but i kinda like it. Hey, maybe i'll start wearin BRIGHT colours...lol, like...uhh..YELLOW, hahahah =P ya right =P Not again!!
Neways, a certain someone is actually getting less annoying, I wont say who, but I think I can stand him a lil more, he just gota participate more, I think you all kno who i'm talkin bout. =P
Neways,...my eyes are dying
Peace~
No Wc3 tonight...only sleep =)
Friday, April 25, 2003
AHHHHHHHHH
I hate school...
I'm 90% sure I failed Calculus, and I'm pretty sure I didnt do very well on Law seminar...
GAWD I'm gonna kill someone....
o well..........
Talkin wit Vicki made me come up with this theory...
The more common sense someone has, they worse they do in school.
So in otherwords..People Skills smart = Harder to be schoool smart, and vice versa.
I notice MANY MANY school smart people that arent very good with people...some people just arent good in general but those that are good with people I've seen generally arent doing very well in school. There are a few exceptions. But ya...I have a lot of examples, but i aint naming names, cause thats mean...but i will say this...My sister has the most common sense of ANYONE i know, but she's not doing very well in school, she's smart though, but not doing well in school. Other examples, me? I'm pretty good with people, (at least manipulation of them) but ever since i've put more effort into that, I'm not as good in school.
Coincedence or not...its interesting..?
Neways, maybe I should catch up on some sleep...if i can
I hate school...
I'm 90% sure I failed Calculus, and I'm pretty sure I didnt do very well on Law seminar...
GAWD I'm gonna kill someone....
o well..........
Talkin wit Vicki made me come up with this theory...
The more common sense someone has, they worse they do in school.
So in otherwords..People Skills smart = Harder to be schoool smart, and vice versa.
I notice MANY MANY school smart people that arent very good with people...some people just arent good in general but those that are good with people I've seen generally arent doing very well in school. There are a few exceptions. But ya...I have a lot of examples, but i aint naming names, cause thats mean...but i will say this...My sister has the most common sense of ANYONE i know, but she's not doing very well in school, she's smart though, but not doing well in school. Other examples, me? I'm pretty good with people, (at least manipulation of them) but ever since i've put more effort into that, I'm not as good in school.
Coincedence or not...its interesting..?
Neways, maybe I should catch up on some sleep...if i can
Hmm...
I didnt know Chris has a blog...
Friggin copier =P First Naga, now blog =P
But then again, I copied ClamZ on this, so I cant really say anything bout that =)
Finally finished law at 4am, and now finished Implicit diff, damn thats so easy, i like it. I can do it in my head mostly =) Its scary~! Time to move onto related rates!!!
Anyways, reading Chris's blog, kinda irritates me, cause you know that whole Gary n prom thing right? Well...see, I dont really agree with Gary for ditching Wendy so close to the day, but I dont find anything wrong with it. See cause, Wendy brought this on herself. By telling someone that you dont like them, how do you expect them to be happy on prom if they like you, and you're going with them? Look at it from Gary's side, not just Wendy's. Sure Wendy has been left high and dry, but Gary I heard Gary was really hurt when she said that. But I'm leaning towards Gary's side in this, cause if she doesnt want to be with him, then he's doing her a favour, and himself a favour by not going with her. It saves her the agony of being with someone she doesnt like, and it saves him the humliation of being with someone who doesnt like him. Its a win-win situation. Would you rather have him go to Prom and be really sad and unhappy? At least he didnt do it the DAY before prom, this at least allows wendy SOME time to get a new date, not much, but still some. So if you think about it, this solution is for the best, and if you punch Gary in the face, I think I'm just going to have to punch you in the face back for him =P Though I dont know him that well, I've heard enough about the situation to make my opinion.
Hopefully I'll be able to get some sleep tonight...doubtful, but imma try to sometime...maybe after I go through all these math things once, then I can sleep then try again when I wake up, assuming I wake up for class...hahah =P
ClamZ brought something rather interesting to my attention today...which I will be keepin an eye on and hope that my assumptions about some of my friends are right. I try to assume the best of people, I'm sure you all know who I'm talking about when I say that, but he's not the person I'm watching, but it will be interesting to see if this friend goes back to their old ways...which were not exactly the best, but hey, we'll see =)
Newaysssss..
Time for more math fun~! Dun dun dun~!
I didnt know Chris has a blog...
Friggin copier =P First Naga, now blog =P
But then again, I copied ClamZ on this, so I cant really say anything bout that =)
Finally finished law at 4am, and now finished Implicit diff, damn thats so easy, i like it. I can do it in my head mostly =) Its scary~! Time to move onto related rates!!!
Anyways, reading Chris's blog, kinda irritates me, cause you know that whole Gary n prom thing right? Well...see, I dont really agree with Gary for ditching Wendy so close to the day, but I dont find anything wrong with it. See cause, Wendy brought this on herself. By telling someone that you dont like them, how do you expect them to be happy on prom if they like you, and you're going with them? Look at it from Gary's side, not just Wendy's. Sure Wendy has been left high and dry, but Gary I heard Gary was really hurt when she said that. But I'm leaning towards Gary's side in this, cause if she doesnt want to be with him, then he's doing her a favour, and himself a favour by not going with her. It saves her the agony of being with someone she doesnt like, and it saves him the humliation of being with someone who doesnt like him. Its a win-win situation. Would you rather have him go to Prom and be really sad and unhappy? At least he didnt do it the DAY before prom, this at least allows wendy SOME time to get a new date, not much, but still some. So if you think about it, this solution is for the best, and if you punch Gary in the face, I think I'm just going to have to punch you in the face back for him =P Though I dont know him that well, I've heard enough about the situation to make my opinion.
Hopefully I'll be able to get some sleep tonight...doubtful, but imma try to sometime...maybe after I go through all these math things once, then I can sleep then try again when I wake up, assuming I wake up for class...hahah =P
ClamZ brought something rather interesting to my attention today...which I will be keepin an eye on and hope that my assumptions about some of my friends are right. I try to assume the best of people, I'm sure you all know who I'm talking about when I say that, but he's not the person I'm watching, but it will be interesting to see if this friend goes back to their old ways...which were not exactly the best, but hey, we'll see =)
Newaysssss..
Time for more math fun~! Dun dun dun~!
Heheh...
well...Today I took my own advice, took a BIG risk...kinda got shot down, but not quite I guess...she couldnt go cause her dad said no, but that might have been her being nice. O wells, I did actually learn things from it, so it's alright in the long run, and it didnt mess anything up, cept prom plans, but nothing major. O wellls...
Law is tiring...havent even started Calculus yet...boo hoo for me =P
Neways...back to work.
O yes, let it be known to all the cyncial pessimists who dont take risks with the people that they like...that I am still alive, and I am still alright. Take risks yourself.
Peace.
well...Today I took my own advice, took a BIG risk...kinda got shot down, but not quite I guess...she couldnt go cause her dad said no, but that might have been her being nice. O wells, I did actually learn things from it, so it's alright in the long run, and it didnt mess anything up, cept prom plans, but nothing major. O wellls...
Law is tiring...havent even started Calculus yet...boo hoo for me =P
Neways...back to work.
O yes, let it be known to all the cyncial pessimists who dont take risks with the people that they like...that I am still alive, and I am still alright. Take risks yourself.
Peace.
Thursday, April 24, 2003
O ya...bout the decision thing back there...I'm not one to give up on things easily, unless the other people are not willing to work with me on it. So I'm gonna stick to this decision n make it work...I WILL make it work.
Maaaaaan...
Anime promotes friendship sooooooooooooooo much...and teamwork and how friends gota have close bonds n everything ya kno? Like...Monster Rancher, everyone can depend on each other to bail'em outa problems, or situations...same with Pokemon and all these ones on YTV and whatever...ya ya ya...not 'real' anime, but still...I wish we were that close...all of us. A tear came to my eye (literally) when I was watching those damn shows today...I really really wana be close like that...but I guess it just doesnt work that way in real life...trust issues of my own perhaps? =P
Neways...ya...Bondage~!
Anime promotes friendship sooooooooooooooo much...and teamwork and how friends gota have close bonds n everything ya kno? Like...Monster Rancher, everyone can depend on each other to bail'em outa problems, or situations...same with Pokemon and all these ones on YTV and whatever...ya ya ya...not 'real' anime, but still...I wish we were that close...all of us. A tear came to my eye (literally) when I was watching those damn shows today...I really really wana be close like that...but I guess it just doesnt work that way in real life...trust issues of my own perhaps? =P
Neways...ya...Bondage~!
Wednesday, April 23, 2003
I hate being moody, but fuck it, its the way I am...
You know what? When you think you've made the best decision you could at the time, when there were several decisions available...and it turns around and bites you in the ass...you dont feel so smart. Now...I dont feel very smart. I'm not going to go into detail, but lets just say...whenever I think I'm right, I end up being wrong. Maybe I should just listen to everyone else from now on instead of making my own decisions, as they are constantly WRONG.
You know what? When you think you've made the best decision you could at the time, when there were several decisions available...and it turns around and bites you in the ass...you dont feel so smart. Now...I dont feel very smart. I'm not going to go into detail, but lets just say...whenever I think I'm right, I end up being wrong. Maybe I should just listen to everyone else from now on instead of making my own decisions, as they are constantly WRONG.
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Okay, lots of work for me tonight, no fooling around...
Law all tonight, and hopefully calculus (assuming I've finished law) all tomorrow night...Frig!! Soooo much work....*sigh*
Okiessss...time for a nap, then to work on law alllllll night....until i finish my part to my satisfaction...which might mean no sleep, but lets hope I get some =)
I'll probably end up blogging sometime later, so check back if you wana update on my law seminar =P
lalal =)
Okay, lots of work for me tonight, no fooling around...
Law all tonight, and hopefully calculus (assuming I've finished law) all tomorrow night...Frig!! Soooo much work....*sigh*
Okiessss...time for a nap, then to work on law alllllll night....until i finish my part to my satisfaction...which might mean no sleep, but lets hope I get some =)
I'll probably end up blogging sometime later, so check back if you wana update on my law seminar =P
lalal =)
Maaaaaaaaaaaan...
You know...I'm pretty optumistic at times...it scares me =P
Well, you kno who you are, and this is directed towards you.
If you like someone, and you're afraid to tell them, what's the worst that could happen? They could reject you. Which means what exactly? That you guys didnt match, or that the person rejecting you didnt know you as well as they expected, but it doesnt all end in horror. Example...When I asked Jess out, I didnt know if she liked me, but she still said yes anyway. Maybe if you tell the person you like them, they'll be like...o...sorrie, i dont like you like that, can we still be friends? But then knowing that you like them, maybe they'll look at you in a different light. Maybe they'll see that you're really a good person to be with. But...Hmmmmm...thats a GOOD thing that could happen...Whats that you're thinking? It'll never happen? See...now thats the pessimist in you talking, cant you have faith in yourself, and the person you like? Otherwise, why would you be liking them? I dont picture you as the shallow type who goes after people purely on looks, there must be some element of their personality that will shows that they are nice, or caring or whatever, so that they wun hurt you if you told them. Am I right? Of course I'm right, I'm cocky 99.4% right (when arguing with felix) Brad gawd damnit!
I know its hard to get over issues, and I no one is expecting a huge change in you anytime soon, but if you slowly work at it, I know you can do it. If you go through life not trusting anyone...how do you expect to get involved with anyone? Though you may think its your looks (which arent bad btw) that prohibit you from having a boyfriend, but you know what? I personally think its trust, if you cant trust someone to know who you like, how do you expect someone to like what they cant fully know? Its like liking bits of a puzzle...but if you dont give people the pieces to finish the puzzle...how are the expected to admire it for what it really is? (Hey i like that analogy!!! GO ME!)
In conclusion, dont worrie about everything, I know things dont come with the snap of your fingers (only mine =P), but things will get better if you start trusting people, I promise you that.
Now...time for more law!! JOY!!
You know...I'm pretty optumistic at times...it scares me =P
Well, you kno who you are, and this is directed towards you.
If you like someone, and you're afraid to tell them, what's the worst that could happen? They could reject you. Which means what exactly? That you guys didnt match, or that the person rejecting you didnt know you as well as they expected, but it doesnt all end in horror. Example...When I asked Jess out, I didnt know if she liked me, but she still said yes anyway. Maybe if you tell the person you like them, they'll be like...o...sorrie, i dont like you like that, can we still be friends? But then knowing that you like them, maybe they'll look at you in a different light. Maybe they'll see that you're really a good person to be with. But...Hmmmmm...thats a GOOD thing that could happen...Whats that you're thinking? It'll never happen? See...now thats the pessimist in you talking, cant you have faith in yourself, and the person you like? Otherwise, why would you be liking them? I dont picture you as the shallow type who goes after people purely on looks, there must be some element of their personality that will shows that they are nice, or caring or whatever, so that they wun hurt you if you told them. Am I right? Of course I'm right, I'm cocky 99.4% right (when arguing with felix) Brad gawd damnit!
I know its hard to get over issues, and I no one is expecting a huge change in you anytime soon, but if you slowly work at it, I know you can do it. If you go through life not trusting anyone...how do you expect to get involved with anyone? Though you may think its your looks (which arent bad btw) that prohibit you from having a boyfriend, but you know what? I personally think its trust, if you cant trust someone to know who you like, how do you expect someone to like what they cant fully know? Its like liking bits of a puzzle...but if you dont give people the pieces to finish the puzzle...how are the expected to admire it for what it really is? (Hey i like that analogy!!! GO ME!)
In conclusion, dont worrie about everything, I know things dont come with the snap of your fingers (only mine =P), but things will get better if you start trusting people, I promise you that.
Now...time for more law!! JOY!!
Tuesday, April 22, 2003
O gawd...Charmed is soooooooooooo amazing~! Awwwwwwwww...Piper was extra sexy today!! OMG...>_<
Awwww.,..this episode was about how Piper n Leo were happy and how their relationship was...gawd, i want that soooooooo much...why cant I have a girl that'll be...piper =P Awwwww >_<
Honestly, she's exactly what I want!! She makes moves, she's really pretty (in a classy way, she doesnt have to resort to hoeing herself to be sexy), she's smart (common sense-wise), she's loving, and caring...Is that so much to ask? Okay, fine, the girl I want doesnt have to be as pretty as her...but as nice, caring, loving, smart, and....aggressive? lol...what can I say, I'm a passive dude~! =P Maaaaaaaaan...If I ever find a girl like her...I will NEVER let go...>_< Maybe one day I'll find the girl i'm looking for =) When that day comes...I'll be the happiest person in the ENTIRE world...=) Awwwwwww...Its not funnie how love-sick I am right now...lol =P *sigh* Man...I've never felt so...passionate about a girl...I see this girl in my head...and my whole body aches with anticipation of meeting her...gawd...it feels good...but unsettling...maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan...*sigh*
She'll come...I know she will~ =)
Awwww.,..this episode was about how Piper n Leo were happy and how their relationship was...gawd, i want that soooooooo much...why cant I have a girl that'll be...piper =P Awwwww >_<
Honestly, she's exactly what I want!! She makes moves, she's really pretty (in a classy way, she doesnt have to resort to hoeing herself to be sexy), she's smart (common sense-wise), she's loving, and caring...Is that so much to ask? Okay, fine, the girl I want doesnt have to be as pretty as her...but as nice, caring, loving, smart, and....aggressive? lol...what can I say, I'm a passive dude~! =P Maaaaaaaaan...If I ever find a girl like her...I will NEVER let go...>_< Maybe one day I'll find the girl i'm looking for =) When that day comes...I'll be the happiest person in the ENTIRE world...=) Awwwwwww...Its not funnie how love-sick I am right now...lol =P *sigh* Man...I've never felt so...passionate about a girl...I see this girl in my head...and my whole body aches with anticipation of meeting her...gawd...it feels good...but unsettling...maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan...*sigh*
She'll come...I know she will~ =)
Gawd I blog a lot when I'm at home supposedly doing homework....lol...cause i feel guilty playing games when i'm supposed to work =P But not blogging, that dun make me feel guilty =P
OKay, i really gota do work =)
Mwahahaha...
Ouchie my nose hurts...those damn biore strips...but my nose feels better =)
O yes...
I'm getting into more oldies lately, download the following:
Boys II Men ft. Uncle Sam - When I see you smile (not quite an oldie, but a remake of one, very nice)
Pat Benatar - Hit me with your best shot
Pat Benatar - Heartbreaker
Pat Benatar was on Charmed, and i download the songs because of it...lol =P
Nah, but actually they are good songs, I'm sure you all know'em, give'em a try =)
OKay, i really gota do work =)
Mwahahaha...
Ouchie my nose hurts...those damn biore strips...but my nose feels better =)
O yes...
I'm getting into more oldies lately, download the following:
Boys II Men ft. Uncle Sam - When I see you smile (not quite an oldie, but a remake of one, very nice)
Pat Benatar - Hit me with your best shot
Pat Benatar - Heartbreaker
Pat Benatar was on Charmed, and i download the songs because of it...lol =P
Nah, but actually they are good songs, I'm sure you all know'em, give'em a try =)
Monday, April 21, 2003
O GAWD!! New charmed episode downloading.......OMG OMG! *drools* MWAHHAHAHA =)
*continues to drool*
O ya, Congrats to the Leafs, they won today, yay~
Though I am not much of a Leaf fan, its nice to kno our team is won~ =)
*continues to drool*
O ya, Congrats to the Leafs, they won today, yay~
Though I am not much of a Leaf fan, its nice to kno our team is won~ =)
I miss the whole being 'nice' and 'innocent' thing I had going on in gr 10...and 9...Maaaaaaaan...what happened...corruption is what happened =P Hahahaha...
Interesting Tailz fact of the day: Until High School, I thought racism was just something on TV.
hahaha, how naive is that of me =P Part of the reason I generally smack someone for their racial slurs...*AHEM* FateZ, ClamZ...
Ahh the days of being innocent, how I miss them...I didnt know very much about sex until gr. 10 either. I was THAT innocent...hahahahah...I really didnt think about it until then either. I started getting progressively meaner as the time passed on...I'm blaming this on DumCat and FateZ. Also the fact that I actually got kinda social in gr. 11, and started to see how crappy some people are, which also accounts for more mean-ness. But then it was nice to be the nice guy =P I'm still...SORTA nice...only sorta =P I think...iuno...actually, i havent a got a clue of if I'm nice or mean anymore...I kinda...lost myself somewhere...after I thought I found myself? I dont know...am I nice? or mean...? Like really, no jokes here...tell me honestly via the tag-board. I wun get mad at either answer, I just wana kno what you guys think. Honestly. Overall am I nice or mean? Not to a specific person...who we know I'm HORRIBLE to...hahahha *smiles innocently*
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Interesting Tailz fact of the day: Until High School, I thought racism was just something on TV.
hahaha, how naive is that of me =P Part of the reason I generally smack someone for their racial slurs...*AHEM* FateZ, ClamZ...
Ahh the days of being innocent, how I miss them...I didnt know very much about sex until gr. 10 either. I was THAT innocent...hahahahah...I really didnt think about it until then either. I started getting progressively meaner as the time passed on...I'm blaming this on DumCat and FateZ. Also the fact that I actually got kinda social in gr. 11, and started to see how crappy some people are, which also accounts for more mean-ness. But then it was nice to be the nice guy =P I'm still...SORTA nice...only sorta =P I think...iuno...actually, i havent a got a clue of if I'm nice or mean anymore...I kinda...lost myself somewhere...after I thought I found myself? I dont know...am I nice? or mean...? Like really, no jokes here...tell me honestly via the tag-board. I wun get mad at either answer, I just wana kno what you guys think. Honestly. Overall am I nice or mean? Not to a specific person...who we know I'm HORRIBLE to...hahahha *smiles innocently*
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Woah...my highest number of hits in a day went to 36 or smthg around there this weekend...What happened...how come people are reading so much now? Is it cause I'm moody and they like to hear how stupid I am with my moods? =P Well, if it is, I have yet another moody story for you all today. Well, I was just sittin here all normal like, playin Pokemon Ruby (shadup, its cool, and yes, i am 18...=P) and then the phone rings, and I see on caller display that its my mom, and I get all...damnit, she's gonna tell me to do stuff, so i get the phone and i answer it kinda like..."What?" But a lil nicer, I'm not as bad as Dumcat...yet =P And sure enough my mom tells me do this this that this this that and this. blah blah blah. I'm just like "Uh huh..." and I get all pissed off. So I have to go start doing the stuff and she was like...can you move the zip drive to your room so that you can do these pictures and stuff fo rme...so i go down and get the zip drive, and hit my head on the damn table...GRRRRrrrrrrr....then I was still pissed, then I cleaned up my room a bit cause I had to put this damn zip drive here, n i think its not workin,...but thats besides the point. So I go and take some dishes downstairs and then I think...i'm hungry, so I get something to eat, and then I thought...hey, its 6, i dun normally get to watch the simpsons...maybe I should...so then I watched Simpsons n Spongebob, and I got happy again =P But then...now my parents are home again, and I'm gonna be all...GRRRRRRrrrrrr...in a bit i bet. But I still gota do more research for law and maybe some chem n calc hwk...o right...i MUST do my calc homework as I have promised FateZ I would do all the part C questions...lol...Thx dad-wana be =P We all kno Pita_JrZ is my pops~ You're just my pet =) MWAHAHAH...thats right...my PET...you do my biddin..biatch~!
Neways, as my right eye continues to twitch from annoyances and stress, i sit here and type...
Side note: Dumcat is more evil than porn (Do not ask me to explain, just take this statement to be true)
LOL...i think I kno why the zip drive isnt working...hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..seems that I forgot to bring the power supply upstairs...*smacks head*...no wait...i already did that on the table downstairs, no need to smack it again =P
Brad: Peace.
Julie: Out
Brad: Dude~
Neways, as my right eye continues to twitch from annoyances and stress, i sit here and type...
Side note: Dumcat is more evil than porn (Do not ask me to explain, just take this statement to be true)
LOL...i think I kno why the zip drive isnt working...hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..seems that I forgot to bring the power supply upstairs...*smacks head*...no wait...i already did that on the table downstairs, no need to smack it again =P
Brad: Peace.
Julie: Out
Brad: Dude~
Sunday, April 20, 2003
Okay...maybe I'm being stupid again.
I hate mood swings, i've been in and out of'em for sooooooooooooo long lately...or maybe I'm just always like that?
Maybe I'm not gonna be anti-social, maybe i am going to prom...
Prom is sooooooo stressin though...for everyone! Gawd...!!!! So friggin annoyin'...
People are so hurt from prom, or WILL be hurt from prom, and people are stressed about tables, and filling tables, and who's going with who and whats gonna go on...this is what sux about having groups of friends too.'..who to sit with, and whatever...Cynthia n eric dun really have a table anymore cause people are sittin wit other people and other people are sittin wit other people, and its just messed up! GAWD!! Why so much work for something that should be so simple? Whatever...Imma talk to my mom bout things tonight...maybe she can shed some light onto my situation...hopefully while cutting my hair...its sooooooo friggin long...okay maybe not compared to felix n everyone...but its long for me!! =P
Okay...I feel better now...maybe its the nachos...who knows, maybe i will go out tonight...hopefully i can get her...
I hate mood swings, i've been in and out of'em for sooooooooooooo long lately...or maybe I'm just always like that?
Maybe I'm not gonna be anti-social, maybe i am going to prom...
Prom is sooooooo stressin though...for everyone! Gawd...!!!! So friggin annoyin'...
People are so hurt from prom, or WILL be hurt from prom, and people are stressed about tables, and filling tables, and who's going with who and whats gonna go on...this is what sux about having groups of friends too.'..who to sit with, and whatever...Cynthia n eric dun really have a table anymore cause people are sittin wit other people and other people are sittin wit other people, and its just messed up! GAWD!! Why so much work for something that should be so simple? Whatever...Imma talk to my mom bout things tonight...maybe she can shed some light onto my situation...hopefully while cutting my hair...its sooooooo friggin long...okay maybe not compared to felix n everyone...but its long for me!! =P
Okay...I feel better now...maybe its the nachos...who knows, maybe i will go out tonight...hopefully i can get her...
Nah, its not the moods talking, I dun wana be with people right now..
But it dun mattah, people wun miss me neways, who needs the serious dude there neways?
O ya, sorrie bout falling asleep on the phone last night FateZ n Dumcat.
But it dun mattah, people wun miss me neways, who needs the serious dude there neways?
O ya, sorrie bout falling asleep on the phone last night FateZ n Dumcat.
Thx felix for that lovely comment.
Anyways...I dont know why I'm so moody, but whatever. I dun think imma be going out very much anymore, i'm feeling really anti-social. Maybe I'll actually start doing homework now? We'll see...
See...I know you guys are reading this, so I dont wana say certain things I'm feeling...which is a pain...especially cause I dont wana write it down in my journal...typing is so much more efficient. O well...
Anyways...I dont know why I'm so moody, but whatever. I dun think imma be going out very much anymore, i'm feeling really anti-social. Maybe I'll actually start doing homework now? We'll see...
See...I know you guys are reading this, so I dont wana say certain things I'm feeling...which is a pain...especially cause I dont wana write it down in my journal...typing is so much more efficient. O well...
Saturday, April 19, 2003
Water Goddess. You like peace and serenity and are
usually content with life.
What element would you rein over? (For Girls)
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Woaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah....
THAT IS SO HOT..............=)
Iuno why its 'for girls' but i dun care, OMFG, sexy...YA water =)
I'm getting away from the whole Holy/Light thing now~ Shweet =)
Happy Belated B-Day Tim and Happy Pre-Birthday Gary~!
And Happy Easter everyone~!
Ya...today was a pretty good day, good job to Gary for organizing this, along with everyone else who helped get this together, its wasnt too bad~ Met some new people, played some strip Mah Jong...=P Gota enjoy topless Tim, Derek, Felix and Brad...scary eh? =P Poor Ruby n Vicki had to see that, hahaha, thx for guardin the door guys =P You too steve~ Well, I'm fairly proud of myself for resisting the alchohol~ I'm glad that everyone is alright n safely home in their beds =)
Ya know...I really feel badly for all the people who were down tonight.You know who you are...And dun worrie, I'll always be here for ya =) Ever need to talk, ever need someone just to listen, I'm hear with an non-judging ear~ Mwahha...rhymes =) Maybe that should be my motto...lol But in all seriousness, when things dont go your way, just try to relax (i kno its hard, check out previous posts when I didnt relax =P) and things will work themselves out, otherwise something good will happen to balance everything out. Ya kno you cant have the good without the bad, yin n yang =) I understand if you dun wana talk bout it, but you know I'm here, and I'm always willin to listen~ =) Cheer up~ Maybe it was just the alcohol =)
*sigh*
It sucks that we all cant be happy at the same time...I just get out of my pissed off loop...and people just dive in to take my spot...aiyaaaa...
neways, Imma go play some games or collapse on my beddy-bye~
Peace~
And Happy Easter everyone~!
Ya...today was a pretty good day, good job to Gary for organizing this, along with everyone else who helped get this together, its wasnt too bad~ Met some new people, played some strip Mah Jong...=P Gota enjoy topless Tim, Derek, Felix and Brad...scary eh? =P Poor Ruby n Vicki had to see that, hahaha, thx for guardin the door guys =P You too steve~ Well, I'm fairly proud of myself for resisting the alchohol~ I'm glad that everyone is alright n safely home in their beds =)
Ya know...I really feel badly for all the people who were down tonight.You know who you are...And dun worrie, I'll always be here for ya =) Ever need to talk, ever need someone just to listen, I'm hear with an non-judging ear~ Mwahha...rhymes =) Maybe that should be my motto...lol But in all seriousness, when things dont go your way, just try to relax (i kno its hard, check out previous posts when I didnt relax =P) and things will work themselves out, otherwise something good will happen to balance everything out. Ya kno you cant have the good without the bad, yin n yang =) I understand if you dun wana talk bout it, but you know I'm here, and I'm always willin to listen~ =) Cheer up~ Maybe it was just the alcohol =)
*sigh*
It sucks that we all cant be happy at the same time...I just get out of my pissed off loop...and people just dive in to take my spot...aiyaaaa...
neways, Imma go play some games or collapse on my beddy-bye~
Peace~
Friday, April 18, 2003
Okay...lookin over my last posts...I dun like it when I'm mad stressed n sick...it makes me look like a crazy ass foooooooool. Damn being moody...DAMN MOODY-NESS!!..or Moodivity...lol, i like adding 'ivity' onto things right now...I think thats Sandy's fault. I forgot your thing...but ya...you kno what i mean...I think...
Vicki suggest I ask Grace to prom...which I would think...nooooooooo. No offense to my dear friend Grace, but I just wana go with someone I like gawd damn it...I sound like Dumcat I know...but this is my prom theory. Prom is for couples, after party is for friends. So I have no clue, maybe I could ask her...she's really nice, but I dont know her that well yet...YET...hopefully this easter weekend will help...? Assuming I can find a way to get her out~...dammmmmnnnnnn........>_<
And the dude I randomly tag-boarded...has a friend name nathan and grace...which is weird...and his friend nathan was talkin bout thomas...which is another weird thing cause nathan's bro's name is thomas...ahhhhhhhhh! the crazyness!! I wonder if the relationships are the same as wit my nathan n grace...maybe i'll randomly tag again if I'm bored...lol.
I should start typing properly now...damn dumcat is such a BAD influence on me....though I'm a good influence on him =) It seems he's nicer now...which is weird...and I'm meaner now...which is a natural progression =P I also feel more gay than normal cause of him. Am I turning into Felix? AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! I think i'd have to kill myself the day I become him...lol. =P But then again, you DO get everything on a silver platter, cept yer guys, but at least marks n looks n whatever are alright. Damn bastard =P Well, I shouldnt complain either though...its not like I'm horribly ugly. Or even ugly. I can safely say that I am average, to a tad above average. I think...lol, okay maybe rnot SAFELY say, but lets just say, I'm cocky =) MWahahhaha..=P Ya, I'm back to normal when I can go around sayin that =P But then again, I am basing this on what Julie n Vicki say...so iuno how trust worthy they are =P
OMG I WANA WATCH X-MEN 2 SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!! GAWD DAMNIT...AHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........
AHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...*drools uncontrollably* oops...BUT DAMN! SO SEXY...Storm..*drools*....though I'm not one for outside of asian relationships...DAMN i'd so go wit her...=)
Newaaaaaaays...wc3 time =P
Peace~
Vicki suggest I ask Grace to prom...which I would think...nooooooooo. No offense to my dear friend Grace, but I just wana go with someone I like gawd damn it...I sound like Dumcat I know...but this is my prom theory. Prom is for couples, after party is for friends. So I have no clue, maybe I could ask her...she's really nice, but I dont know her that well yet...YET...hopefully this easter weekend will help...? Assuming I can find a way to get her out~...dammmmmnnnnnn........>_<
And the dude I randomly tag-boarded...has a friend name nathan and grace...which is weird...and his friend nathan was talkin bout thomas...which is another weird thing cause nathan's bro's name is thomas...ahhhhhhhhh! the crazyness!! I wonder if the relationships are the same as wit my nathan n grace...maybe i'll randomly tag again if I'm bored...lol.
I should start typing properly now...damn dumcat is such a BAD influence on me....though I'm a good influence on him =) It seems he's nicer now...which is weird...and I'm meaner now...which is a natural progression =P I also feel more gay than normal cause of him. Am I turning into Felix? AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! I think i'd have to kill myself the day I become him...lol. =P But then again, you DO get everything on a silver platter, cept yer guys, but at least marks n looks n whatever are alright. Damn bastard =P Well, I shouldnt complain either though...its not like I'm horribly ugly. Or even ugly. I can safely say that I am average, to a tad above average. I think...lol, okay maybe rnot SAFELY say, but lets just say, I'm cocky =) MWahahhaha..=P Ya, I'm back to normal when I can go around sayin that =P But then again, I am basing this on what Julie n Vicki say...so iuno how trust worthy they are =P
OMG I WANA WATCH X-MEN 2 SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!! GAWD DAMNIT...AHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........
AHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...*drools uncontrollably* oops...BUT DAMN! SO SEXY...Storm..*drools*....though I'm not one for outside of asian relationships...DAMN i'd so go wit her...=)
Newaaaaaaays...wc3 time =P
Peace~
Thursday, April 17, 2003
Alright, I figured out why I have such bad luck with everything.
Well, there is good and bad luck, good luck, you dont really learn anything, things just happen. But with bad luck, you have to learn, and grow as a person right? Well, I figure, that it seems everyone is going through the same thing as me, a lil after me. So I am better able to help them deal with it when I've already gone through it and thought about it, cause everyone knows how much i think bout things after the fact. So I guess in the long run, its not SUCH a bad thing that I have bad luck, it means I can take a hit, or two or three for the team. So why not. To the bad luck, all I gota say is, Bring it on bitch!
Well, there is good and bad luck, good luck, you dont really learn anything, things just happen. But with bad luck, you have to learn, and grow as a person right? Well, I figure, that it seems everyone is going through the same thing as me, a lil after me. So I am better able to help them deal with it when I've already gone through it and thought about it, cause everyone knows how much i think bout things after the fact. So I guess in the long run, its not SUCH a bad thing that I have bad luck, it means I can take a hit, or two or three for the team. So why not. To the bad luck, all I gota say is, Bring it on bitch!
You're the sad smile,the one that regrets nearly
everything and is constantly wondering about
what could have been.You're not happy with your
situation and usually blame yourself because of
the bad things that have happened.Cheer up.
What Kind of Smile are You?
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Sound like me? I think sorta, Spencer says YES!!...
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Wednesday, April 16, 2003
-Michael- You're Michael ^-^ and you belong to
Kati. You're a kind person and you worry about
people and try to help them. Regular people
seem to think that you're weird, but the truth
is that they just don't understand and they
can't take a joke.You're in tune with your
emotions, and unlike most, you're truthful.
Kati loves you whole bunches.
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Kinda sounds like me...to me...
OMG
My parents do NOT understand ANYTHING!!! They think i stay up late for FUN...YES! FUN DOING HOMEWORK!!! YAY!! FUN FUN FUN!! OMFG..
Blah blah blah..time management...blah blah!!! Everyone has problems with time management, wana know WHY? BECAUSE OF SCHOOL!! NOT BECAUSE WE CANT MANAGE OUR TIME!!! The gawd damned school is messed up!!! NOT MY FAULT!!! I have ENOUGH to deal with besides your SHIT, so FUCK OFF!! OMFG...FOR FUCKS SAKE!!! UGH!!! Life should be MORE than school, but you know what? IT CANT BE!!! I cant even miss class cause I'm sick for school!!! GAWD!!! THIS IS SUCH BS...ITS NOT FAIR...PAOAOIFASHDFOIHSOFHSIOFH
Shoot me.
My parents do NOT understand ANYTHING!!! They think i stay up late for FUN...YES! FUN DOING HOMEWORK!!! YAY!! FUN FUN FUN!! OMFG..
Blah blah blah..time management...blah blah!!! Everyone has problems with time management, wana know WHY? BECAUSE OF SCHOOL!! NOT BECAUSE WE CANT MANAGE OUR TIME!!! The gawd damned school is messed up!!! NOT MY FAULT!!! I have ENOUGH to deal with besides your SHIT, so FUCK OFF!! OMFG...FOR FUCKS SAKE!!! UGH!!! Life should be MORE than school, but you know what? IT CANT BE!!! I cant even miss class cause I'm sick for school!!! GAWD!!! THIS IS SUCH BS...ITS NOT FAIR...PAOAOIFASHDFOIHSOFHSIOFH
Shoot me.
Okay...I dun feel as bad nemore after watching Canadian history thing I have to do for law...
Poor Japanese Canadians...friggin discrimination pisses me off...
but thats a totally different rant...
This one is just about how I'm sick, so bare with me.
I feel sooooooooooooooo weak...I can barely open up the doors at school, granted, they are heavy, but I normally dont get swung around by them!!!! I almost collasped when I was walking home for lunch, and it took me double time TO get home....almost like...30min!!!! FOR GAWD'S SAKE!!! I HATE BEING SICK!! I'm ONLY sick because of school...I almost never get sick, only this year have I gotten sick...I havent been for what...4 years before?! Since gr. 8 Quebec trip!!! And now I'm fuckin sick....SUCH A PISS OFF. PLUS the mouth sores REALLY REALLY REALLY PISS ME OFF, I CAN STAND BEING SICK IF IT WERENT FOR THESE MOUTH SORES!!! And another thing...I cant take time to get better because I'm GOING to fall SO far behind in ALL my courses...Calc, Chem, Law...I cant stand this...ITS A VICIOUS CYCLE LEADING TO MY DEMISE!!!....See...Work hard in school --> Lose sleep --> Get sick --> Do worse in school --> Need to work harder --> Lose sleep --> Get sick --> Do worse in school. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO BREAK IT!??!!? I cant catch up if i take time off...There is WAY too much crammed into this gawd damned new curriculum, DID I MENTION I HATE YOU MIKE HARRIS?>!?! I HATE YOU WITH A PASSION!!! I HATE SCHOOL!!! OMFGGGGGGGGGGGGGggggggggggggggggggggg....I wish...someone would come n sweep me away...to the moon or something...where I could sufficate and die a fast death opposed to a slow and painful one...
I have been sentenced to death by school. A slow and painful death, that tortures and mutulates those sentenced to it until they break down and cry, in which case it will continue to slowly and painfully torture them with it's cruel and demeaning system of MARKING and GRADING...FUCK YOU ALL!!!
...............................
kill me
Poor Japanese Canadians...friggin discrimination pisses me off...
but thats a totally different rant...
This one is just about how I'm sick, so bare with me.
I feel sooooooooooooooo weak...I can barely open up the doors at school, granted, they are heavy, but I normally dont get swung around by them!!!! I almost collasped when I was walking home for lunch, and it took me double time TO get home....almost like...30min!!!! FOR GAWD'S SAKE!!! I HATE BEING SICK!! I'm ONLY sick because of school...I almost never get sick, only this year have I gotten sick...I havent been for what...4 years before?! Since gr. 8 Quebec trip!!! And now I'm fuckin sick....SUCH A PISS OFF. PLUS the mouth sores REALLY REALLY REALLY PISS ME OFF, I CAN STAND BEING SICK IF IT WERENT FOR THESE MOUTH SORES!!! And another thing...I cant take time to get better because I'm GOING to fall SO far behind in ALL my courses...Calc, Chem, Law...I cant stand this...ITS A VICIOUS CYCLE LEADING TO MY DEMISE!!!....See...Work hard in school --> Lose sleep --> Get sick --> Do worse in school --> Need to work harder --> Lose sleep --> Get sick --> Do worse in school. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO BREAK IT!??!!? I cant catch up if i take time off...There is WAY too much crammed into this gawd damned new curriculum, DID I MENTION I HATE YOU MIKE HARRIS?>!?! I HATE YOU WITH A PASSION!!! I HATE SCHOOL!!! OMFGGGGGGGGGGGGGggggggggggggggggggggg....I wish...someone would come n sweep me away...to the moon or something...where I could sufficate and die a fast death opposed to a slow and painful one...
I have been sentenced to death by school. A slow and painful death, that tortures and mutulates those sentenced to it until they break down and cry, in which case it will continue to slowly and painfully torture them with it's cruel and demeaning system of MARKING and GRADING...FUCK YOU ALL!!!
...............................
kill me
Tuesday, April 15, 2003
O gawddddddddddddddddddddddd...
I feel so stressed...AGAIN
MIDTERMS IS OVER AND I'M STILL GETTING STRESSED...
Even if i take a break, even for a lil...i still feel stressed...i'm sick, and I'm tired, and for gawds sake...can someone or something gimme a break? honestly!!! For fuck's sake...its not like I'm not trying in school...I cant for the love of god concentrate on what I have to study...or do...or whatever..I feel like SHIT all of the time, and I can barely talk cause my fuckin mouth sores are killing me!!! UGH!!! jgaoeu t09wyutoiahsgoaishg ahf...I am sooooooooooooooo sick of school and everything!!! I feel very anti-social again, and I dont really feel my friends helpin me out, granted they are busy, but gawd...I REALLY REALLY REALLY hate school, before I just didnt like school, but now I HATE it...I'm gonna fuckin break down soon, and its not gonna be pretty...someone will be punched, or kicked, or slammed into the lockers, or floor, and then kicked more, or punched....probalby LIM, that homo...I HATE HIM SO MUCH...UGH, yelling at me to take off my fuckin hat....AS IF IT MATTERS!! YOU FUCKING MORON!! G)(YSW(*RY W(*RYOTRH#*($Y)(@U#$)..............i need sleep, but i cant get any sleep cause of law and chem and my law partner for my seminar is busy doing the essay that I stayed up til 5am doing...and she's handing it in late...so she cant work on the seminar...WTF IS THAT...why is life so unfair...am I that bad? Sure I havent been as nice lately, but wtf is that..I wana cry...
I think i will soon...
I was earlier, but thats just cause of pain of mouth sores and mouth wash...BLAH
I HATE SCHOOL...
Honestly, everything would be better if i were dead. No worries...ya ya yaay...i'm not suicidal, dun think that, i'm just saying...things are that bad...
Fuck me.
I feel so stressed...AGAIN
MIDTERMS IS OVER AND I'M STILL GETTING STRESSED...
Even if i take a break, even for a lil...i still feel stressed...i'm sick, and I'm tired, and for gawds sake...can someone or something gimme a break? honestly!!! For fuck's sake...its not like I'm not trying in school...I cant for the love of god concentrate on what I have to study...or do...or whatever..I feel like SHIT all of the time, and I can barely talk cause my fuckin mouth sores are killing me!!! UGH!!! jgaoeu t09wyutoiahsgoaishg ahf...I am sooooooooooooooo sick of school and everything!!! I feel very anti-social again, and I dont really feel my friends helpin me out, granted they are busy, but gawd...I REALLY REALLY REALLY hate school, before I just didnt like school, but now I HATE it...I'm gonna fuckin break down soon, and its not gonna be pretty...someone will be punched, or kicked, or slammed into the lockers, or floor, and then kicked more, or punched....probalby LIM, that homo...I HATE HIM SO MUCH...UGH, yelling at me to take off my fuckin hat....AS IF IT MATTERS!! YOU FUCKING MORON!! G)(YSW(*RY W(*RYOTRH#*($Y)(@U#$)..............i need sleep, but i cant get any sleep cause of law and chem and my law partner for my seminar is busy doing the essay that I stayed up til 5am doing...and she's handing it in late...so she cant work on the seminar...WTF IS THAT...why is life so unfair...am I that bad? Sure I havent been as nice lately, but wtf is that..I wana cry...
I think i will soon...
I was earlier, but thats just cause of pain of mouth sores and mouth wash...BLAH
I HATE SCHOOL...
Honestly, everything would be better if i were dead. No worries...ya ya yaay...i'm not suicidal, dun think that, i'm just saying...things are that bad...
Fuck me.
Hmmmmmm.......
You kno what I forgot to mention?
There's this really nice girl in my law class, I dun like her like that, but she surprised me today. Cause stayin up til 5am and being sick really takes it's toll on someone...namely, me, and she was like...
"Hey Brad, Whats wrong? Are you alright?" And i was like...huh? woah...you're so nice, and I dont even know you and you're asking me if I'm alright? Woah, thats really nice of you! I guess the world isnt full of such inconsiderate people...*coughs* dumcat, fatez *coughs* =P
lol joking =P...........To some extent~ =P
Hehe, nah you guys are still some of my closest friends~ =)
Neways...Dilemma for prom...where to sit...and of course who to take. I'm confused with whats going on bout that, but seating is messed too...
I wana sit wit everyone...but obviously i cant...i wonder if they wana sit wit me though =P Thats another issue, but ya...
We gota get a corner man...I need Eric n Cynthia n Nathan n Tim close, and Sandy n Catherine n Ryan n Christine close, n Karen, n Karen, n Vicks close, n then our table...which i'm guessin is...spencer, ruby, felix, julie, flora, me + someone (hopefully) then...who? i'm so confused..
hard to work out...Do I really wana go still enways? who knows...
Neways...time for sleep~
You kno what I forgot to mention?
There's this really nice girl in my law class, I dun like her like that, but she surprised me today. Cause stayin up til 5am and being sick really takes it's toll on someone...namely, me, and she was like...
"Hey Brad, Whats wrong? Are you alright?" And i was like...huh? woah...you're so nice, and I dont even know you and you're asking me if I'm alright? Woah, thats really nice of you! I guess the world isnt full of such inconsiderate people...*coughs* dumcat, fatez *coughs* =P
lol joking =P...........To some extent~ =P
Hehe, nah you guys are still some of my closest friends~ =)
Neways...Dilemma for prom...where to sit...and of course who to take. I'm confused with whats going on bout that, but seating is messed too...
I wana sit wit everyone...but obviously i cant...i wonder if they wana sit wit me though =P Thats another issue, but ya...
We gota get a corner man...I need Eric n Cynthia n Nathan n Tim close, and Sandy n Catherine n Ryan n Christine close, n Karen, n Karen, n Vicks close, n then our table...which i'm guessin is...spencer, ruby, felix, julie, flora, me + someone (hopefully) then...who? i'm so confused..
hard to work out...Do I really wana go still enways? who knows...
Neways...time for sleep~
Monday, April 14, 2003
yawn...
I grow tired...slowly...my mouth is sore from mouth sores and gawd knows what...honestly, i have no clue why its so sore...and dont you say anything dumcat...i kno what yer thinking...tsk tsk...=P
so...anyways, I'm bored, and dun really feel like doin school work...n dun really feel like playin games...o yaaaaaaaa...!!
You kno what was odd...i read pita_jr's blog...and WOAH!!! HE THINKS!!! How crazy is that...I mean actually THINKING, DEEP thinking...woaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah =P I didnt kno he was capable of that~! But then again. people always do tend to surprise me every so often =)
Lately i've been thinkin bout karate a lot...I really havent been for almost...2 years now? I miss it to tell you the truth...I really hated it before when i was forced to go...but now that I'm not...i miss it. But hten...like 5 years til i can get 2nd degree blackbelt?! Thats complete bullshit~! Why I gota go through so muhc...but then i could legally teach karate...and karate teachers make shiet loads of money eh? Hmmmmmmmmm.............................................possiblity...we'll see....I've gotten rusty though...I'm slowly loosin the ability to kick above my head...I wonder if I can still do jump kicks properly...definatelty a tornado kick, how could i forget those...so fun =P AHhhhhhhhh...memories...
neways, i think i've bored you and me long enough...so I can maybe nap~
Peace~
I grow tired...slowly...my mouth is sore from mouth sores and gawd knows what...honestly, i have no clue why its so sore...and dont you say anything dumcat...i kno what yer thinking...tsk tsk...=P
so...anyways, I'm bored, and dun really feel like doin school work...n dun really feel like playin games...o yaaaaaaaa...!!
You kno what was odd...i read pita_jr's blog...and WOAH!!! HE THINKS!!! How crazy is that...I mean actually THINKING, DEEP thinking...woaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah =P I didnt kno he was capable of that~! But then again. people always do tend to surprise me every so often =)
Lately i've been thinkin bout karate a lot...I really havent been for almost...2 years now? I miss it to tell you the truth...I really hated it before when i was forced to go...but now that I'm not...i miss it. But hten...like 5 years til i can get 2nd degree blackbelt?! Thats complete bullshit~! Why I gota go through so muhc...but then i could legally teach karate...and karate teachers make shiet loads of money eh? Hmmmmmmmmm.............................................possiblity...we'll see....I've gotten rusty though...I'm slowly loosin the ability to kick above my head...I wonder if I can still do jump kicks properly...definatelty a tornado kick, how could i forget those...so fun =P AHhhhhhhhh...memories...
neways, i think i've bored you and me long enough...so I can maybe nap~
Peace~
Eeeeeewwwwwww gawd...
My cold...or my SARS is getting worse...TINY TINY fever still at least, but assly sore throat n cough n stuff..maybe i shouldnt be leaving the house too much incase it IS sars...well i'll go to school, but i shouldnt contaminate my friends incase it is sars =P But I will contaminate the school =) hehehehe =)
Okay...more law essay...i gota refine it before I go to 5th...
Peace.
My cold...or my SARS is getting worse...TINY TINY fever still at least, but assly sore throat n cough n stuff..maybe i shouldnt be leaving the house too much incase it IS sars...well i'll go to school, but i shouldnt contaminate my friends incase it is sars =P But I will contaminate the school =) hehehehe =)
Okay...more law essay...i gota refine it before I go to 5th...
Peace.
It approaches the 5:10am mark...and I'm still awake trying to finish law...
I'm basically done, I just need to go over it, and redo one more quote/point...I dun think imma be going to school til 5th tml to hand this bitch in, then imma come home and sleeeeeeeeeeeeep my ass away. Gawd damnit...sooooooo much work...and I was trying to start earlier but I couldnt cause I was sooooo distracted...I still am distracted, note the blogging....o wells...whatever....i think imma go sleepies now so I dun die tml....i probably will anyway, but whatever, i'll HOPEFULLY wake up at 10 or smthg....and work until...2? or whenever 5th period starts...i always forget...
Whateverrrrrrrrrr, i'm out~
Peace.
I'm basically done, I just need to go over it, and redo one more quote/point...I dun think imma be going to school til 5th tml to hand this bitch in, then imma come home and sleeeeeeeeeeeeep my ass away. Gawd damnit...sooooooo much work...and I was trying to start earlier but I couldnt cause I was sooooo distracted...I still am distracted, note the blogging....o wells...whatever....i think imma go sleepies now so I dun die tml....i probably will anyway, but whatever, i'll HOPEFULLY wake up at 10 or smthg....and work until...2? or whenever 5th period starts...i always forget...
Whateverrrrrrrrrr, i'm out~
Peace.
lol..
I feel like a major loser right now =P (and I am one, who in the hell says major anymore...)
I came across some dude's blog, n I randomly tagged the board...He uses tag-board too! I guess there are no other ones to use...but meeeeeeh =P
I notice that it is 12:18am...and I have yet to start on my law essay...smart me...smart...I tried to do it ALL day...and yet...I see now that I have yet to start...Oyeeeee...
O welllls~
Pre-Happy Birthday to Tim~! Wait til you see your card =P Gawd...that means I gota spend more time drawing...>_< lol...Hentai? Hmmmmm........I'll see what I can do for yas~ I gota pretty good idea for your b-day gift too...*evil grin* who knows though...we'll see if I can find it~
Hmm...
Now that I listen more closely to this techno song dumcat sent me...the classical/techno one...I'm starting to like it less. I'm needing some lyrics to go wit songs right now. For what reason you ask? I havent the foggiest. I feel like listenin to my hip disney toons~ Mwahahhaha =)
Mmmmmm......nething else to mention?
I've noticed my writin has gotten worse eh? I mean like...I'm typing how I talk...which probably isnt the best grammatical form...? And lots of '...'s all over the place...whats up with that? Though I do occasionally type properly, but thats no fun...damn you dumcat, rubbin off yer evil onto me, and yer typing habbits...BLAH!
Time for Law~
PEace~
I feel like a major loser right now =P (and I am one, who in the hell says major anymore...)
I came across some dude's blog, n I randomly tagged the board...He uses tag-board too! I guess there are no other ones to use...but meeeeeeh =P
I notice that it is 12:18am...and I have yet to start on my law essay...smart me...smart...I tried to do it ALL day...and yet...I see now that I have yet to start...Oyeeeee...
O welllls~
Pre-Happy Birthday to Tim~! Wait til you see your card =P Gawd...that means I gota spend more time drawing...>_< lol...Hentai? Hmmmmm........I'll see what I can do for yas~ I gota pretty good idea for your b-day gift too...*evil grin* who knows though...we'll see if I can find it~
Hmm...
Now that I listen more closely to this techno song dumcat sent me...the classical/techno one...I'm starting to like it less. I'm needing some lyrics to go wit songs right now. For what reason you ask? I havent the foggiest. I feel like listenin to my hip disney toons~ Mwahahhaha =)
Mmmmmm......nething else to mention?
I've noticed my writin has gotten worse eh? I mean like...I'm typing how I talk...which probably isnt the best grammatical form...? And lots of '...'s all over the place...whats up with that? Though I do occasionally type properly, but thats no fun...damn you dumcat, rubbin off yer evil onto me, and yer typing habbits...BLAH!
Time for Law~
PEace~
Sunday, April 13, 2003
lol...
Once upon a time, there was a spotted dog named Jack. He was a dog named Jack. He was a ass.
lol...
1, 2, 3, 4, 5...7
There are 7 of us here =P
lol~!
What else...
Once upon a time, there was a cat named kitty...He had a wife named Jack.
lol
I guess its not as funnie if you just hear it, but being there is hilarious!! hahahahahah...
Neways, sleepy time.
Peace~
Once upon a time, there was a spotted dog named Jack. He was a dog named Jack. He was a ass.
lol...
1, 2, 3, 4, 5...7
There are 7 of us here =P
lol~!
What else...
Once upon a time, there was a cat named kitty...He had a wife named Jack.
lol
I guess its not as funnie if you just hear it, but being there is hilarious!! hahahahahah...
Neways, sleepy time.
Peace~
Saturday, April 12, 2003
I won last night Dumcat, I dun care what you say =P Me n Fatez rocked yer ass..lol, literally *wink* hahahahahah
Thx Chris for the free stuff, it was good~ =)
Dun worrie Vicks, things'll get bettah~ Trust meh~ =) I declare yesterday national break-up day btw~ Cause you kno why =P And also that fact that I watched some strange chinese movie about breaking up and haunting your ex after death. lol, the chick with the creepy shoulders...swaying back and forth...and making out with a dead ex girlfriend's ghost..lol, dirty =P But ya, things'll work out in the end, you'll see~ Funnie how we were talkin bout this stuff on the phone, and kinda even thinkin it ourselves, and then it happened. hahaha, o well, I'm a strong guy (emotionally) so I'll carry you through this, and me at the same time, haha =P
lol Sandy...we got 'good advice' =P We'll see how 'phase one' goes =) Dead line is in...1 month, cause phase two is due...in...a month and a half =P and you kno what phase two is...lol
Well, I actually feel, not so bad. I felt kinda assly before, and all, lackin in will power, but iuno how, but I got it back miraculously~
ClamZ, we rock wc3 world =P mwahahha =) With our crazy strategy...mwahahahah...unbeatable...by everyone cept...EcHoZ that bastard =P
mmm.......
Sorrie you didnt kno that deep dark secret there nathan, but now you n preston kno...okay, its not so much a secret as it is public knowledge, but its gross...i swear i told you before =P...How can you not kno bout 'Gay'!? Well, granted, FateZ didnt~ So...hmmmm..=P
Hmm...nething else to say bout yesterday?
It was quite the event =P
Hmm..i wana go to the park today. Or do something physical outside while it's nice out...maybe i'll give ppl a call to see what they wana do =)
I'm out~ Peace!
Thx Chris for the free stuff, it was good~ =)
Dun worrie Vicks, things'll get bettah~ Trust meh~ =) I declare yesterday national break-up day btw~ Cause you kno why =P And also that fact that I watched some strange chinese movie about breaking up and haunting your ex after death. lol, the chick with the creepy shoulders...swaying back and forth...and making out with a dead ex girlfriend's ghost..lol, dirty =P But ya, things'll work out in the end, you'll see~ Funnie how we were talkin bout this stuff on the phone, and kinda even thinkin it ourselves, and then it happened. hahaha, o well, I'm a strong guy (emotionally) so I'll carry you through this, and me at the same time, haha =P
lol Sandy...we got 'good advice' =P We'll see how 'phase one' goes =) Dead line is in...1 month, cause phase two is due...in...a month and a half =P and you kno what phase two is...lol
Well, I actually feel, not so bad. I felt kinda assly before, and all, lackin in will power, but iuno how, but I got it back miraculously~
ClamZ, we rock wc3 world =P mwahahha =) With our crazy strategy...mwahahahah...unbeatable...by everyone cept...EcHoZ that bastard =P
mmm.......
Sorrie you didnt kno that deep dark secret there nathan, but now you n preston kno...okay, its not so much a secret as it is public knowledge, but its gross...i swear i told you before =P...How can you not kno bout 'Gay'!? Well, granted, FateZ didnt~ So...hmmmm..=P
Hmm...nething else to say bout yesterday?
It was quite the event =P
Hmm..i wana go to the park today. Or do something physical outside while it's nice out...maybe i'll give ppl a call to see what they wana do =)
I'm out~ Peace!
Friday, April 11, 2003
Hmm...well...I'm glad I had that talk with my sister last night, helped work a lot of things out. Pretty cool that I can do that with her~ Life aint so bad after we talked it out, knowin she's there going through the same thing with me, n we can help each other. Thats so great~ Neways, I think I have sars, light fever, cough, and a sore throat...uh oh =P
Watch out world~
Watch out world~
Woah...
My sister n I just had a long talk about problems wit friends, family n life in general...
hahahah, it was good to see someone who actually cares a lot about me. It was really good to talk it all out, cause I cant really talk to Dumcat or Fatez or Baby Pixie bout this stuff cause...either they dun wana listen, or they wun understand...its funnie that my sister n I are going through the same thing...hahahha...
o wells...time for sleep~
Peace~
My sister n I just had a long talk about problems wit friends, family n life in general...
hahahah, it was good to see someone who actually cares a lot about me. It was really good to talk it all out, cause I cant really talk to Dumcat or Fatez or Baby Pixie bout this stuff cause...either they dun wana listen, or they wun understand...its funnie that my sister n I are going through the same thing...hahahha...
o wells...time for sleep~
Peace~
Thursday, April 10, 2003
Okay, I'm officially bored, and avoiding homework, so I will blog.
Well, what to say...I'm feeling extremely anti-social lately, trying to get out of school ASAP, and avoiding people in general, aside from those I must spend time with in class. In all seriousness, I dont know what to do. Its not I dont like everyone, its just I cant be around people that irritate me. Its nothing specific at any one person, its just the group collectively is VERY indecisive, and thats a big ass piss off that I dont have the time, or will power to deal with it. I think I know where my will power has disappeared to. Its gone to helping people, and trying to be nice all the time, and morals and whatever, and upholding them. This is why school gets no will from me. So, no more being nice (yes, i'm aware i've said this many times before, but i'm going to try and mean it this time) and no more being all moral and 'uptight' if you will. I dont even know what I'm going to do tomorrow, which is an extremely weird feeling. I normally try to plan ahead, of course these plans always cave in because of other people, or my own stupidity, but its nice to have a plan. But nope, I'm dreading tomorrow. I have that stupid ass law essay due, and i have to start working on my stupid ass law seminar...(btw, good seminar today Sandy n Carolyn) and soooooooo much gawd damned law...OMFG, i forgot I have to write that damn holding...DAMN IT...and its being assessed...
You kno what else bugs me...
Teachers that dont seem to have the care to teach people for the purpose of LEARNING. The supposed REAL reason we're in school. See, I admire the fact the Mr. Draycott (Law teacher) actually CARES if we're learning, and not about the marks. He seems to genuinely care, opposed to a teacher like...LIM, who only cares about marks. HE is the embodiment of all that is wrong with our school system. If teachers were more concerned with teaching us well, school would be a better place. Teachers see what we're all focused on, marks. Marks demeans the whole education system. We shouldnt have to fight for marks, we shouldnt have to lie and cheat for marks. This isnt an accurate representation of our knowledge, this just shows who is the most clever and sneaky to get away with cheating or 'studying' which wont benefit them in the future. Whats the point in cramming this all in? It doesnt teach us anything with substance that we can hold on to. Calculus could be an enjoyable experience if my teacher:
1) Cared about learning
2) Had passion for teaching
3) Had a nice personality
Of course, thats asking too much of Lim, but hey, a kid can dream cant he? I actually dont hate calculus THAT much, its relatively easy, I understand it all, I just have poor math skills to begin with, so when I try to apply all the new stuff, my base math is not there. Thats a bit off topic...but I really wish school was based on the princple that we want to LEARN, not read this, read this, forget it, then re-read it for the exam. This isnt learning, this is plain memorization, and how does that help us? So we can be the memory banks of the future? O the joy...what a bright future we have.
Now that I can vote, I plan on voting for the person who wants to change the school systems, though I despise younger grades, I dont think they should be put through this ass of a system that I had to, and still have to go through, its like being mentally raped, for 8 hours a day, 5 days a week, and then going home, to rape yourself on the weekends with homework...what a life we students live...
Well, what to say...I'm feeling extremely anti-social lately, trying to get out of school ASAP, and avoiding people in general, aside from those I must spend time with in class. In all seriousness, I dont know what to do. Its not I dont like everyone, its just I cant be around people that irritate me. Its nothing specific at any one person, its just the group collectively is VERY indecisive, and thats a big ass piss off that I dont have the time, or will power to deal with it. I think I know where my will power has disappeared to. Its gone to helping people, and trying to be nice all the time, and morals and whatever, and upholding them. This is why school gets no will from me. So, no more being nice (yes, i'm aware i've said this many times before, but i'm going to try and mean it this time) and no more being all moral and 'uptight' if you will. I dont even know what I'm going to do tomorrow, which is an extremely weird feeling. I normally try to plan ahead, of course these plans always cave in because of other people, or my own stupidity, but its nice to have a plan. But nope, I'm dreading tomorrow. I have that stupid ass law essay due, and i have to start working on my stupid ass law seminar...(btw, good seminar today Sandy n Carolyn) and soooooooo much gawd damned law...OMFG, i forgot I have to write that damn holding...DAMN IT...and its being assessed...
You kno what else bugs me...
Teachers that dont seem to have the care to teach people for the purpose of LEARNING. The supposed REAL reason we're in school. See, I admire the fact the Mr. Draycott (Law teacher) actually CARES if we're learning, and not about the marks. He seems to genuinely care, opposed to a teacher like...LIM, who only cares about marks. HE is the embodiment of all that is wrong with our school system. If teachers were more concerned with teaching us well, school would be a better place. Teachers see what we're all focused on, marks. Marks demeans the whole education system. We shouldnt have to fight for marks, we shouldnt have to lie and cheat for marks. This isnt an accurate representation of our knowledge, this just shows who is the most clever and sneaky to get away with cheating or 'studying' which wont benefit them in the future. Whats the point in cramming this all in? It doesnt teach us anything with substance that we can hold on to. Calculus could be an enjoyable experience if my teacher:
1) Cared about learning
2) Had passion for teaching
3) Had a nice personality
Of course, thats asking too much of Lim, but hey, a kid can dream cant he? I actually dont hate calculus THAT much, its relatively easy, I understand it all, I just have poor math skills to begin with, so when I try to apply all the new stuff, my base math is not there. Thats a bit off topic...but I really wish school was based on the princple that we want to LEARN, not read this, read this, forget it, then re-read it for the exam. This isnt learning, this is plain memorization, and how does that help us? So we can be the memory banks of the future? O the joy...what a bright future we have.
Now that I can vote, I plan on voting for the person who wants to change the school systems, though I despise younger grades, I dont think they should be put through this ass of a system that I had to, and still have to go through, its like being mentally raped, for 8 hours a day, 5 days a week, and then going home, to rape yourself on the weekends with homework...what a life we students live...
........................Damn posts messin up on me...
basically last post was saying..
Screw you mom, You're annoying, stop asking me to put people's head's into pix. and if you DO want me to, find me a DECENT picture that i can work with opposed to one where someone's head is in the SHADE and I cant adjust the colour to fit the shading of the other pic!! Gawd...
Dont you know ANYTHING about...pictures>!?!?! Frigging...and its not funnie the 2nd or 3rd or 4th time you do it.
basically last post was saying..
Screw you mom, You're annoying, stop asking me to put people's head's into pix. and if you DO want me to, find me a DECENT picture that i can work with opposed to one where someone's head is in the SHADE and I cant adjust the colour to fit the shading of the other pic!! Gawd...
Dont you know ANYTHING about...pictures>!?!?! Frigging...and its not funnie the 2nd or 3rd or 4th time you do it.
Woahhhhhhhhhh!
I enjoy my new colour scheme for my computer...
Imma re-arrange my blog to go with the colours too. Its gonna be dark blue, but not quite navy blue, and grey, or blue grey. It'll be nice =)
I also got an ICQ skin, its pretty water spirals...niceee =)
in other news, its sad how I can be happy at someone else's misery =P
Well....potenial misery...i'm a bad person now~
I enjoy my new colour scheme for my computer...
Imma re-arrange my blog to go with the colours too. Its gonna be dark blue, but not quite navy blue, and grey, or blue grey. It'll be nice =)
I also got an ICQ skin, its pretty water spirals...niceee =)
in other news, its sad how I can be happy at someone else's misery =P
Well....potenial misery...i'm a bad person now~
Hey look! My blog is completely fixed!! Go me!! or...Blogger if they fixed it for me...either way...
YAY..
YAY..
Wednesday, April 09, 2003
HEY!! I DID...sortaaaaaaaaaa...
Man.....
I've been out of it today...
Just not my day i guess. cept the charmed episodes I d/l'ed..hehh...
*sigh*
Calculus mark dropped again...now I'm getting 58.94..
Fuckin Lim said it outloud too...what fucker...today I honestly kept thinking of ways he would be killed...by me of course. I looked at him with my small eyes...and glared.....and made them smaller...so they looked closed...sorta...just tinyt iny slits...he better have fucking noticed. I hate him I hate him I hate him.
I thought I did well on that 4 page quiz we got...I knew how to do almost everything cept the TIPS, but at least I showed i was one the right path for the TIPS, but he gives me 1/2 out of 3...FUCKER...
He's not even TRYING to give me part marks...
UGH...how I would love to kick you...or have you BEG for mercy...Look at him...Doesnt he look like the type to cowar before you?
He sure does to me! Fucking coward...He looks like he has no honour whatsoever...but how can I expect anything more than that from HIM. Hell, i cant expect that from anyone anymore...No one is willing to fight to the end with me. Everyone gives up when things look grim. Well...ya kno...I'm tired of fighting. I'll fight for whatever things I can now...but I'm not for others...screw it. I give up on those who i've been trying with for a long time now. My concentration goes to one person and one person only.
The end.
Man.....
I've been out of it today...
Just not my day i guess. cept the charmed episodes I d/l'ed..hehh...
*sigh*
Calculus mark dropped again...now I'm getting 58.94..
Fuckin Lim said it outloud too...what fucker...today I honestly kept thinking of ways he would be killed...by me of course. I looked at him with my small eyes...and glared.....and made them smaller...so they looked closed...sorta...just tinyt iny slits...he better have fucking noticed. I hate him I hate him I hate him.
I thought I did well on that 4 page quiz we got...I knew how to do almost everything cept the TIPS, but at least I showed i was one the right path for the TIPS, but he gives me 1/2 out of 3...FUCKER...
He's not even TRYING to give me part marks...
UGH...how I would love to kick you...or have you BEG for mercy...Look at him...Doesnt he look like the type to cowar before you?
He sure does to me! Fucking coward...He looks like he has no honour whatsoever...but how can I expect anything more than that from HIM. Hell, i cant expect that from anyone anymore...No one is willing to fight to the end with me. Everyone gives up when things look grim. Well...ya kno...I'm tired of fighting. I'll fight for whatever things I can now...but I'm not for others...screw it. I give up on those who i've been trying with for a long time now. My concentration goes to one person and one person only.
The end.
Monday, April 07, 2003
Okay...something is messed with my blog... its not showing my last posts very well... Whatever... Neways, I've been eatting constantly all day, and I'm still hungry...what the hell is that? =P Started at 4th, ate sandwich n chips, then at home i had soup, then a Cha siu bow =P (shadup) and then chilly, then i slept, then woke up, went to tim hortons, then home to eat chow mein n now pizza...mmmmmmmm...=) And I'm still probably gonnab e hungry...o wells, its 'healthy' to eat a lot over time...hehehe. =P Pizza done..yay
Sunday, April 06, 2003
lol...saving people yesterday from the icie hill reminded me of grade 8...and under...when we used to play the 'saving game' as someone would be sliding down the slide and we'd have to pull'em up...LOL i completely forgot bout that til now!! That was sooo much fun, I rocked at saving people, and I still rock at saving people =) Maybe thats why I like to be the healer in games...lol. I wana go icing today...but I got my dad's surprise b-day to go to, and I obviously cannot miss that =P but ICE!! Its not gonna be here long...and me n him did NOT make a cute couple!! maybe before he wedgied my ass!! Bastard..I'll rape yer ass soon enough >_<...
Gawd, this morning has been such a hassle....I've been trying to get this stupid picture I made for my dad to print, and its a full page (magazine cover kinda thing) and its not working!! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...but not to toot my own horn, but it is amazing!! My dad's head fits perfectly (with my help) into the other guy's body!!! If you dont look at the hands too closely, it looks amazing!! Gawd I'm good. For all your photoshop needs, I am available, my rate is 20 bux per person added. =P If you want it printed...thats an extra...20 30 bux? Cause my printer pisses the FUCK outa me, and thats a lota ink generally =P But ya! For real, i'll do things like this for people =P Maybe cheaper though...price is negotiable =P
Neways, i gota go write a speech for my dad's thing, get dressed and make another pic...within the next 30min? Greaaaaaat...
Peace~
Gawd, this morning has been such a hassle....I've been trying to get this stupid picture I made for my dad to print, and its a full page (magazine cover kinda thing) and its not working!! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...but not to toot my own horn, but it is amazing!! My dad's head fits perfectly (with my help) into the other guy's body!!! If you dont look at the hands too closely, it looks amazing!! Gawd I'm good. For all your photoshop needs, I am available, my rate is 20 bux per person added. =P If you want it printed...thats an extra...20 30 bux? Cause my printer pisses the FUCK outa me, and thats a lota ink generally =P But ya! For real, i'll do things like this for people =P Maybe cheaper though...price is negotiable =P
Neways, i gota go write a speech for my dad's thing, get dressed and make another pic...within the next 30min? Greaaaaaat...
Peace~
hehe...woah...
today was quite a day...after 10:30 =P
The morning and afternoon consisted of warcraft iii, but then after 10;30 we went to peter's house and the fun began =P Lets see...what did we do exactly....wedgies of course, capture the 'fag', lol, umm...got yer 'precious' nipples dumcat =) babypixie did lots of screamin in the bedroom...while we talked about FateZ's loud sex ways~ "SuX0rs me hard baby!" "I'm cumming!! wOOt!!!" "I pwn you!!! *slaps ass*" etc etc all the while, I was being forcefully stripped by Pita_JrZ =P lol, however bad this may sound, its not what you're thinkin =) Soooooooo crazy fun~ I havent had fun in a whileeeeeee~ I'm glad we did smthg tonight~! Tonight was one of those moments that imma remember as the shining moments of high school~! lol, especially sliding out on the iceeeee, soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much fun!! It was like an adventureeeeee!! lol, Pita_JrZ n dumcat fell down the hill, so i took FateZ's gloves and had to hang off a tree to help'em up cause the hill was COMPLETE ice~ SOooooooooooooo much fun! Damn FateZ had to go home and ruin the fun though...BOOOOOOOooooooo =P And Dumcat, you wanted a bondin moment a while back, we got one =P Sure yer 'boys' werent there, but we still had a great time regardless =) lol, I'll never forget the site of dumcat and pita_jrz giving each other wedgies at the same time and their facial expressions...hahahahhaha =) FateZ the pussy had to wear his jacket to get away from being stripped~~! Ahhhh...i hope we can play in the ice tomorrow too, but i gota go to my dad's surprise b-day party...so that'll have to be in the morning or at late night...which isnt very probable =P Hope the ice stays another day =) That way we can do our 'train' down the hill again =P Make sure we bring rope next time too!! Friggin hard to get up the hill...lol! This was honestly one of the best days I've had...ever? No stress, no worrying, well, some worrying, but LOTS of fun, at the expense of some pain...but heeeeeey, its worth it =) I'm gonna be HELLAH sore tomorrow...Ewwwww....Cuppageeeeeeee on FateZ...tiny tiny...'textbook' lol. well...not really a textbook...i guess its a tiny..roll of quarters? =P hahahhaa, jokes jokes =P I'm sure its bigger...than it seems...? =P hahahahahah dirty, but fun =) See what we can do tml =)
Time for sleep, dead tired...its technically...6:39am...hahahahah and I havent slept yet...damn day light savings...
Peace~
today was quite a day...after 10:30 =P
The morning and afternoon consisted of warcraft iii, but then after 10;30 we went to peter's house and the fun began =P Lets see...what did we do exactly....wedgies of course, capture the 'fag', lol, umm...got yer 'precious' nipples dumcat =) babypixie did lots of screamin in the bedroom...while we talked about FateZ's loud sex ways~ "SuX0rs me hard baby!" "I'm cumming!! wOOt!!!" "I pwn you!!! *slaps ass*" etc etc all the while, I was being forcefully stripped by Pita_JrZ =P lol, however bad this may sound, its not what you're thinkin =) Soooooooo crazy fun~ I havent had fun in a whileeeeeee~ I'm glad we did smthg tonight~! Tonight was one of those moments that imma remember as the shining moments of high school~! lol, especially sliding out on the iceeeee, soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much fun!! It was like an adventureeeeee!! lol, Pita_JrZ n dumcat fell down the hill, so i took FateZ's gloves and had to hang off a tree to help'em up cause the hill was COMPLETE ice~ SOooooooooooooo much fun! Damn FateZ had to go home and ruin the fun though...BOOOOOOOooooooo =P And Dumcat, you wanted a bondin moment a while back, we got one =P Sure yer 'boys' werent there, but we still had a great time regardless =) lol, I'll never forget the site of dumcat and pita_jrz giving each other wedgies at the same time and their facial expressions...hahahahhaha =) FateZ the pussy had to wear his jacket to get away from being stripped~~! Ahhhh...i hope we can play in the ice tomorrow too, but i gota go to my dad's surprise b-day party...so that'll have to be in the morning or at late night...which isnt very probable =P Hope the ice stays another day =) That way we can do our 'train' down the hill again =P Make sure we bring rope next time too!! Friggin hard to get up the hill...lol! This was honestly one of the best days I've had...ever? No stress, no worrying, well, some worrying, but LOTS of fun, at the expense of some pain...but heeeeeey, its worth it =) I'm gonna be HELLAH sore tomorrow...Ewwwww....Cuppageeeeeeee on FateZ...tiny tiny...'textbook' lol. well...not really a textbook...i guess its a tiny..roll of quarters? =P hahahhaa, jokes jokes =P I'm sure its bigger...than it seems...? =P hahahahahah dirty, but fun =) See what we can do tml =)
Time for sleep, dead tired...its technically...6:39am...hahahahah and I havent slept yet...damn day light savings...
Peace~
Saturday, April 05, 2003
O yaaaaaa...
Happy Birthday Catherine!
hehhe...bowlin was fun =P PENIS!! COCK SUCKER!! ASS LICKER!! hehehe....GO MIDDLE TEAM!! =P...always ending up in the middle...=P
Sorrie I forgot yer card btw...I gota give it to you next time I see you...probably monday~
It was good to come out wit you guys again =P
lol..sorrie bout the pinyata breakin =P I didnt mean to hit it so hard....
Thx for the rides Ryan n Jimmy =P lol...my twin drives like me toooo...goes around doing FULL stops, and doesnt speed...scaryyyyy =P The resemblences are uncanny...sorta...lol
Aiyaaa...damn druggies =P tsk tsk tsk, tell me next time you go, i wana come =P lol maaaaybbbeeeee....naaaaah...well....maaayyyybbbeeeee..... =P
Mmmmmm...nething else to say...? uhhhh uhhhhh....naaaaah, i dun think so?
Peace~
Happy Birthday Catherine!
hehhe...bowlin was fun =P PENIS!! COCK SUCKER!! ASS LICKER!! hehehe....GO MIDDLE TEAM!! =P...always ending up in the middle...=P
Sorrie I forgot yer card btw...I gota give it to you next time I see you...probably monday~
It was good to come out wit you guys again =P
lol..sorrie bout the pinyata breakin =P I didnt mean to hit it so hard....
Thx for the rides Ryan n Jimmy =P lol...my twin drives like me toooo...goes around doing FULL stops, and doesnt speed...scaryyyyy =P The resemblences are uncanny...sorta...lol
Aiyaaa...damn druggies =P tsk tsk tsk, tell me next time you go, i wana come =P lol maaaaybbbeeeee....naaaaah...well....maaayyyybbbeeeee..... =P
Mmmmmm...nething else to say...? uhhhh uhhhhh....naaaaah, i dun think so?
Peace~
You wana piss me off? Take lessons from my mother, she's a PRO. Blah blah blah, DO THIS! blah blah blah, DO THAT!! blah blah blah, DO WELL IN SCHOOL! blah blah blah, DONT DO THIS! blah blah blah DONT DO THAT! blah blah blah DO WELL IN SCHOOL!! FUCK YOU! YOU DO THOSE THINGS. I'm not your god damned slave! GAWD!! Sure I havent been doing AS many chores lately, but I have been bombarded with TRUCK LOADS OF SCHOOL WORK THAT I CANT HANDLE!! Before I cator to YOUR needs, it'd be nice if I was able to cator to my BASIC needs, like...SLEEPING and EATTING PROPERLY. FOR GODS SAKE! I DONT EVEN EAT BREAKFAST AND GENERALLY NOT LUNCH BECAUSE I HAVE NO TIME TO PACK A LUNCH NOR ANY MONEY TO BUY A LUNCH BECAUSE I DONT DO ENOUGH CHORES (IN YOUR MIND) TO GET MONEY BECAUSE I HAVE TOO MUCH SCHOOL WORK, KEEPING ME FROM SLEEP, KEEPING ME FROM DOING CHORES, KEEPING ME FROM GETTING MONEY, KEEPING ME FROM EATTING!!! SO FUCK YOU!! OMFG, YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I GO THROUGH EVERYDAY!!! AT LEAST FOR WORK, YOU HAVE A JOB, YOU BRING MONEY HOME AND CAN GENERALLY RELAX EXCEPT FOR THE ODD OCCASION WHERE YOU HAVE TO DO A LITTLE EXTRA AT HOME!!! IN WHICH CASE I COVER FOR YOU WHEN YOU DO IT!! BUT I NEVER GET A BREAK FROM DOING ALL THIS FUCKING SHIT LOADS OF WORK!!! AND YOU EXPECT ME TO DO CHORES ONTOP OF THAT!?!?!? I GET BARELY ANY TIME TO MYSELF TO JUST THINK OR PLAY GAMES OR WHATEVER AND YOU EXPECT ME TO DO CHORES IN MY SPARE TIME!?!?!? WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU ON!??!?!?!? I'M SURE YOUR LIFE IS HARD TOO, AND I KNOW YOU WOULDNT WANT TO DO CHORES EITHER, BUT YOU KNO WHAT/!?!? IF YOU EXPECT ME TO DO WELL IN SCHOOL, BE HEALTHY, STAY HAPPY (AS IF YOU CARE ABOUT THAT), AND DO CHORES, YOU'RE DREAMING!!!!!!! THAT WILL NEVER EEVER EVER EVER EVER HAPPEN!!! YOU DONT KNOW HOW HIGH SCHOOL IS NOW!!! YOU LIVED IN A GOD DAMNED ERA WHEN IT DIDNT MATTER WHAT YOU DID IN HIGH SCHOOL, YOU COULD GO TO UNIVERSITY IF YOU HAD THE MONEY!!!! SO DONT GIMME THAT SHIT THAT "I've done this before, blahb lah blah" BECUASE YOU FUCKING HAVENT EVER BEEN THROUGH THIS!!!!! FINE, YOU WANT ME TO BE A GOOD STUDENT DO CHORES DO THIS THAT AND EVERYTHING, FUCKJING FINE! I'M GOING TO BE MAD, I'M GOING TO BE GROUCHY, I'M GOING TO BE SICK, AND I'M GOING TO BE MEAN AND A FUCKING BAD PERSON. SOOO FUCCCCCKKKK YOUUUUUU!!! GAWD FUCKING DAMN I AM SOOOOOOO FUCKING MAD AT YOU ITS NOT FUNNIE. DONT TALK TO ME...FUCKING HELL, YOU GAWD DAMN o!*#(&^@(&#$)@(q&$_!&#_*@%*@q)$(*.
Friday, April 04, 2003
Okay, i dun feel AS bad now..
thought through some stuff, kinda caught back up to myself...
I guess being the 'Listener' isnt sooooo bad...at least I can help people with their problems and feel good about that. Hai...o well, i guess I'll never have the attention i guess I sorta want? but at the same time, i dont want...I dont want it cause...i would get embarassed as the centre of attention...but I do cause I used to always be the centre of attention when I was little...Its hard to adjust I guess..? O welll...i can deal with it, just another phase I'm going through i guess. I have some confidence. In what? I havent the foggiest...but I know that I can do things...I KNOW i can, if i try...its just I cant find the will to try hard...lol. o well, it'll come to me, or i'll find it somehow, someday, someway...lalala,a...that sounds like a song...i bet it is one. See! I'm feelin better already...sorta...? =P Once my charmed episode is downloaded, I'm sure I'll feel a lot better..now time to get some sleep so I'm not late for chem again..=P..
We'll see how tomorrow goes n then maybe I can be happy...but that means dumcat will be sad...or mad...or something...ahhhhh...damn opposite-ness...
neways..
peace
thought through some stuff, kinda caught back up to myself...
I guess being the 'Listener' isnt sooooo bad...at least I can help people with their problems and feel good about that. Hai...o well, i guess I'll never have the attention i guess I sorta want? but at the same time, i dont want...I dont want it cause...i would get embarassed as the centre of attention...but I do cause I used to always be the centre of attention when I was little...Its hard to adjust I guess..? O welll...i can deal with it, just another phase I'm going through i guess. I have some confidence. In what? I havent the foggiest...but I know that I can do things...I KNOW i can, if i try...its just I cant find the will to try hard...lol. o well, it'll come to me, or i'll find it somehow, someday, someway...lalala,a...that sounds like a song...i bet it is one. See! I'm feelin better already...sorta...? =P Once my charmed episode is downloaded, I'm sure I'll feel a lot better..now time to get some sleep so I'm not late for chem again..=P..
We'll see how tomorrow goes n then maybe I can be happy...but that means dumcat will be sad...or mad...or something...ahhhhh...damn opposite-ness...
neways..
peace
Thursday, April 03, 2003
I hate school...
\I realllllllly hate school...
I'm not going to University for surenow.
i'm so stupid
I hate school...
i hate my life...as it is all school...my life without school...is okay to not great, but whatever...
SChool is EVIL...
I hate it...
I REALLY REALLY HATE IT...
GAWD, i REALLY do like to learn, and school makes me not like it...well, not I dun like to learn, just makes it not fun, and not good, and forcing us to go gogogo and fast fast, and wahtever...its complete bullshit...
Mrs. McAlpine probably thinks I'm a fucking retarded asshole that tries to skip tests and whatever, I could care less about what LIM thinks, he can fuckin suck my gawd damn cock. FUCKER I HATE YOU!
But i feel so stupid...Mrs McAlpine must know I'm a retard...I feel like a horrbile horrible person...
OGHAFOIHAOIFHAHIO..
I'm not depressed, dun worrie, I;m just...upset is all. FAOIF
FUAF"UA
I want my punching bag...
\I realllllllly hate school...
I'm not going to University for surenow.
i'm so stupid
I hate school...
i hate my life...as it is all school...my life without school...is okay to not great, but whatever...
SChool is EVIL...
I hate it...
I REALLY REALLY HATE IT...
GAWD, i REALLY do like to learn, and school makes me not like it...well, not I dun like to learn, just makes it not fun, and not good, and forcing us to go gogogo and fast fast, and wahtever...its complete bullshit...
Mrs. McAlpine probably thinks I'm a fucking retarded asshole that tries to skip tests and whatever, I could care less about what LIM thinks, he can fuckin suck my gawd damn cock. FUCKER I HATE YOU!
But i feel so stupid...Mrs McAlpine must know I'm a retard...I feel like a horrbile horrible person...
OGHAFOIHAOIFHAHIO..
I'm not depressed, dun worrie, I;m just...upset is all. FAOIF
FUAF"UA
I want my punching bag...
I feel weird.
Empty...bored...boring...nothing...expendable...no one needs me really, i see my family can get along without me perfectly, same with friends, of course thats good i guess..at least when i'm not around that means things will be good...but also means i'm not really cared for? Hai...I'm sure thats not true...to some extent? Iuno, my family dun even wake me up for my dad's b-day dinner, sure I was bitchin bout having to study for chem, but I aint gonna miss my dad's b-day dinner for it...wtf is that...I'm just extra weight they gota carry around...or an extra person for anyone to use...cause hey, i'm here with no other purpose...wth...i hate school...i hate...lots of stuff...i feel ugly again...goihwt98adygoiahgoiahgoaigh
fuck this, i'm not depressed, its just not me...i cant be depressed...I'm not. Fuck. FUCK YOU school...and life...I will fight you, I dun go down witout a fight! Gawd damned ass fuckin bitch slapping cock sucking school...I want to kill it...AO:FIYHAOIRYAOIRH
[okay, chem time...AO(RU
Empty...bored...boring...nothing...expendable...no one needs me really, i see my family can get along without me perfectly, same with friends, of course thats good i guess..at least when i'm not around that means things will be good...but also means i'm not really cared for? Hai...I'm sure thats not true...to some extent? Iuno, my family dun even wake me up for my dad's b-day dinner, sure I was bitchin bout having to study for chem, but I aint gonna miss my dad's b-day dinner for it...wtf is that...I'm just extra weight they gota carry around...or an extra person for anyone to use...cause hey, i'm here with no other purpose...wth...i hate school...i hate...lots of stuff...i feel ugly again...goihwt98adygoiahgoiahgoaigh
fuck this, i'm not depressed, its just not me...i cant be depressed...I'm not. Fuck. FUCK YOU school...and life...I will fight you, I dun go down witout a fight! Gawd damned ass fuckin bitch slapping cock sucking school...I want to kill it...AO:FIYHAOIRYAOIRH
[okay, chem time...AO(RU
Wednesday, April 02, 2003
ooooooooo, breaking news!! gays can go to heaven!! woaaaaah...
Steven says that bein gay is a sin, but still can go to heaven?
i guess that works, iuno christianity well (and dun wana) so its all good =P
neways
chem!
Steven says that bein gay is a sin, but still can go to heaven?
i guess that works, iuno christianity well (and dun wana) so its all good =P
neways
chem!
Heyyyyyyy...
I actually see the benefit of having a tutor now!!
He re-enforces the stuff that I already know, and clears up my careless mistakes and actually HELPS opposed to ASS Lim. Also, he went ahead of Lim and taught it REALLY easy, now I'm about...what...2 lessons ahead of class? Cause in class we're still on simple chain rule, but we did the hard questions and they were pretty damn easy. Calculus is easy, I get all the stuff, but I have STUPID MISTAKES, that's my biggest problem, so i just gota becareful. I learned implicit thingie today =) Mwahahaha...DAMN YOU LIM. i hate you. and i'm going to fucking get a 80 in your class without EVER talking to you directly, SUCK IT!! HA!!
On another note: HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!! Ya i know you dun read this, and I dun WANT you to read this. I dun want you knowin my probs, hahahah, lots bout you guys here too =P
Mmmmmmmmmmm...what else happened today...not much? wc3...chem test tml, i dun think i got much time to study cause I got family over for my dad's b-day dinner...AHhhhhhhhhh...poo. Ooooooo wellllls......I'll do okay, i'll just stay up late, as usual =P
Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.....
I should maybe do some chem before dinner starts =)
Tah taj
I actually see the benefit of having a tutor now!!
He re-enforces the stuff that I already know, and clears up my careless mistakes and actually HELPS opposed to ASS Lim. Also, he went ahead of Lim and taught it REALLY easy, now I'm about...what...2 lessons ahead of class? Cause in class we're still on simple chain rule, but we did the hard questions and they were pretty damn easy. Calculus is easy, I get all the stuff, but I have STUPID MISTAKES, that's my biggest problem, so i just gota becareful. I learned implicit thingie today =) Mwahahaha...DAMN YOU LIM. i hate you. and i'm going to fucking get a 80 in your class without EVER talking to you directly, SUCK IT!! HA!!
On another note: HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!! Ya i know you dun read this, and I dun WANT you to read this. I dun want you knowin my probs, hahahah, lots bout you guys here too =P
Mmmmmmmmmmm...what else happened today...not much? wc3...chem test tml, i dun think i got much time to study cause I got family over for my dad's b-day dinner...AHhhhhhhhhh...poo. Ooooooo wellllls......I'll do okay, i'll just stay up late, as usual =P
Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.....
I should maybe do some chem before dinner starts =)
Tah taj
O ya, i forgot to mention that the school has a professional psychologist now!!! Woah, thats soooooo cool...
I kinda wana talk to her...or him, i'm assuming her. Got some issues I gota work through~ Well, I've always kinda wanted to go to someone =P It'd be soooooooo great to tell someone my entire story without actually knowing them. Sure, I probably dont have any MAJOR problems...on the outside =P I dun share as much as you'd think~ =) It'd be really cool though, also part of the reason i wana be a psychologist...its easy too. I dun really need them to help with my problems, i can deal with them, but I just want them to listen and not judge, and not act differently, or not think I'm a bad person for whatever I do...or have done...or will do, you kno what i mean =P I'd tell you all, but thats just messy, n...i dun like sharin THAT much =)~
Newaaays, i thought that was cool~
Time to do more chem~
peace
I kinda wana talk to her...or him, i'm assuming her. Got some issues I gota work through~ Well, I've always kinda wanted to go to someone =P It'd be soooooooo great to tell someone my entire story without actually knowing them. Sure, I probably dont have any MAJOR problems...on the outside =P I dun share as much as you'd think~ =) It'd be really cool though, also part of the reason i wana be a psychologist...its easy too. I dun really need them to help with my problems, i can deal with them, but I just want them to listen and not judge, and not act differently, or not think I'm a bad person for whatever I do...or have done...or will do, you kno what i mean =P I'd tell you all, but thats just messy, n...i dun like sharin THAT much =)~
Newaaays, i thought that was cool~
Time to do more chem~
peace
Tuesday, April 01, 2003
hehehhe =)
Turtlesssss n Sea witch =)
Goooooootta love that~~
Poor felix n chris didnt stand a chance...*evil grin*
In other news, I understand chain rule~ Its pretty easy...calculus is actually pretty easy if you do the work...cept LIM test, I HATE HIM WITH SUCH A PASSION...OMG...otherwise, calculus is a pretty easy subject. GRAAAAAG...i hate lim. I gota start studying for chem though, i'm lost in chem cause i was tryin to do calc n law so much...Friggin........I dun even remembver what we're doin now? Some sorta law...rate law? hess' law? i kno the names of'em, but not what to do with'em...o well, thats what imma do nooooow =P and tml at lucnh
WTF...
How is it that all of a sudden, i kno my calculus enough to help someone now... and not for the test?
HOW?!
......
When it doesnt count, my brain works...
maybe its true that thing Antagonist had on his blog...
A lil stress helps, but a lot cripples...(paraphrased of course)
Now that i dun feel so stressed bout calc, i get it...Fuckin hell
FUCKIN HELL!!!
On another note, I feel ugly today. =P
I duno why...I just do.
boo
Neways, time for chem~
Peace~~
o waitttt, that reminds me!!
Me and my dad had this big argument about the war, and who's right and who's wrong and whatever.
I think I won~ mwahahah, score one for the peace keepers of Canada...Hurrah!!! =)
okay, NOW i go =P
peace~~
Turtlesssss n Sea witch =)
Goooooootta love that~~
Poor felix n chris didnt stand a chance...*evil grin*
In other news, I understand chain rule~ Its pretty easy...calculus is actually pretty easy if you do the work...cept LIM test, I HATE HIM WITH SUCH A PASSION...OMG...otherwise, calculus is a pretty easy subject. GRAAAAAG...i hate lim. I gota start studying for chem though, i'm lost in chem cause i was tryin to do calc n law so much...Friggin........I dun even remembver what we're doin now? Some sorta law...rate law? hess' law? i kno the names of'em, but not what to do with'em...o well, thats what imma do nooooow =P and tml at lucnh
WTF...
How is it that all of a sudden, i kno my calculus enough to help someone now... and not for the test?
HOW?!
......
When it doesnt count, my brain works...
maybe its true that thing Antagonist had on his blog...
A lil stress helps, but a lot cripples...(paraphrased of course)
Now that i dun feel so stressed bout calc, i get it...Fuckin hell
FUCKIN HELL!!!
On another note, I feel ugly today. =P
I duno why...I just do.
boo
Neways, time for chem~
Peace~~
o waitttt, that reminds me!!
Me and my dad had this big argument about the war, and who's right and who's wrong and whatever.
I think I won~ mwahahah, score one for the peace keepers of Canada...Hurrah!!! =)
okay, NOW i go =P
peace~~
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