Dreams.

Okay, I'm officially bored, and avoiding homework, so I will blog.

Well, what to say...I'm feeling extremely anti-social lately, trying to get out of school ASAP, and avoiding people in general, aside from those I must spend time with in class. In all seriousness, I dont know what to do. Its not I dont like everyone, its just I cant be around people that irritate me. Its nothing specific at any one person, its just the group collectively is VERY indecisive, and thats a big ass piss off that I dont have the time, or will power to deal with it. I think I know where my will power has disappeared to. Its gone to helping people, and trying to be nice all the time, and morals and whatever, and upholding them. This is why school gets no will from me. So, no more being nice (yes, i'm aware i've said this many times before, but i'm going to try and mean it this time) and no more being all moral and 'uptight' if you will. I dont even know what I'm going to do tomorrow, which is an extremely weird feeling. I normally try to plan ahead, of course these plans always cave in because of other people, or my own stupidity, but its nice to have a plan. But nope, I'm dreading tomorrow. I have that stupid ass law essay due, and i have to start working on my stupid ass law seminar...(btw, good seminar today Sandy n Carolyn) and soooooooo much gawd damned law...OMFG, i forgot I have to write that damn holding...DAMN IT...and its being assessed...

You kno what else bugs me...
Teachers that dont seem to have the care to teach people for the purpose of LEARNING. The supposed REAL reason we're in school. See, I admire the fact the Mr. Draycott (Law teacher) actually CARES if we're learning, and not about the marks. He seems to genuinely care, opposed to a teacher like...LIM, who only cares about marks. HE is the embodiment of all that is wrong with our school system. If teachers were more concerned with teaching us well, school would be a better place. Teachers see what we're all focused on, marks. Marks demeans the whole education system. We shouldnt have to fight for marks, we shouldnt have to lie and cheat for marks. This isnt an accurate representation of our knowledge, this just shows who is the most clever and sneaky to get away with cheating or 'studying' which wont benefit them in the future. Whats the point in cramming this all in? It doesnt teach us anything with substance that we can hold on to. Calculus could be an enjoyable experience if my teacher:

1) Cared about learning
2) Had passion for teaching
3) Had a nice personality

Of course, thats asking too much of Lim, but hey, a kid can dream cant he? I actually dont hate calculus THAT much, its relatively easy, I understand it all, I just have poor math skills to begin with, so when I try to apply all the new stuff, my base math is not there. Thats a bit off topic...but I really wish school was based on the princple that we want to LEARN, not read this, read this, forget it, then re-read it for the exam. This isnt learning, this is plain memorization, and how does that help us? So we can be the memory banks of the future? O the joy...what a bright future we have.

Now that I can vote, I plan on voting for the person who wants to change the school systems, though I despise younger grades, I dont think they should be put through this ass of a system that I had to, and still have to go through, its like being mentally raped, for 8 hours a day, 5 days a week, and then going home, to rape yourself on the weekends with homework...what a life we students live...

posted by Bradimon @ 10:30 p.m.