Taco Fest!
lol
Thats was great ^^
Mm....had lots of tacos and then some cake for Dana's birthday~
Also going out for dinner tomorrow for her birthday...where? I duno, but somewhere~
Karen and Marc gave Dana some logic puzzle books for her b-day and we spent a lot of time doing some :P
The answers in the back had one wrong and Karen and I found it out! Nya hahahahahh~ It was great~
I'm kinda tired, but I feel like watching Buffy and Xena again...which means I might be staying up til 5am...again...like a moron, lol..
but I wanted to see the 'To be continued...' of Buffy and I wanted to see how much more of a lesbian Xena could be! >_<
We'll see how tired I am by then..:P
P.S.
The Apprentice is a good show!
lol
I cant believe I'm still up and I just watched Xena...lol
I havent watched that show in the longest time!! She is such a lesbian...its great :P
There's a lot more gay action on TV nowadays, its amazing ^^
"Queer Eye for the Straight Guy"
"Queer as Folk"
And such.
Then in Xena she was so lesbian, and in Buffy Willow and her girlfriends. Its great :P
Anyways, ya, gonna sleep now~
lol
Today was a good day.
Started off with a call from Cheryl waking me up...twice, lol.
Then finally I got up, got Vicki up and headed to the mall. Got my sister a b-day present. Amazing bunnie slippers!! And then I got myself a new necklace, cause...well...it was on sale, I couldnt resist :P
Then we went to a chinese mall to grab something for Cheryl's friend, and then we saw silly string for a dollar, so we had to buy it :P
Went back to Vicki's and had a silly string fight, LOL!!! Soooooooooooooo fun!! Also made some plans for something later ;)
Cant say tho ^^
Anyways, I should sleep, gona do smthg with Cheryl gain then go to my bro's for 'Taco Fest' lol, then come back here and help my dad out with his poker night :P
yay !!
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
Giant sigh of relief..
Done school, my average should be pretty okay, and things are just turning out pretty nicely.
It hasnt really sank in that I dun have school yet...but it will soon :)
Its been a crazy semister! Really gonna miss the stupid times that Rita and I had workin on our bullying seminar, making fun of Ondas, and then making fun of Rita with Ondas. Hahhaha, not such a bad kid this Ondas guy.
VA comp was really fun too, it wouldnt have been fun without "Oh Nos" and "That's Sad" and.....Mark. lol he still dun got a nickname. But even though they were stupid on sooooo many occasions, it just made things even more fun. :)
Earth Space was even kinda fun too, Diana is a pretty nice girl, Evita was funnie and I can still play D2 with her, Gram was funnie to talk to too, and John was a nice guy. Iuno...gonna be weird, cause I'll probably never see these people again man...well, maybe Rita, cause I told her we'd hang out, but other people...probably not? Its kinda sad...
But life goes on, one day we'll meet up and just talk :)
Time to try new things and have some fun here~ Now is my time to just chill and relax and learn some life skills and lessons~ heheh :)
pEace~
WEeeeeeeeeee :D
I'm done school til september~
UT e-mailed me today too~! Yay ^^
Doesnt really mean anything, but it got me all excited, lol.
My average should be low 80's right now cause of stupid earth space...hopefull I did well in VA comp, and Issue in Human Growth should be high 80's maybe low 90's~
So glad I took this extra semister. I learned more bout myself than I ever thought I would, and also met some new people even though i didnt plan on making friends. And got to find out what my interests are more. So its really pretty great.
Things always happen for a reason ;)
I cant concentrate on studying.
Stupid things on my stupid mind.
FUCK YOU!
Get out of my head -_-
Good song :)
I'm enjoying it a lot right now~
Hawksley Workman - We Will Still Need A Song
Fuck You
You're drunk and acting tough
I know you're sad
You're not the only one who feels like that now
And maybe anger is your only choice
But maybe heart and fist and human voice
Might be the better way
Be the way
Cause we, we will still need a song
To carry our love away
To carry it away
We will still need a song
To carry our heart away
To carry them away
Don't let another tear be in your eyes
We can die in peace knowing we tried
To change our own ways
The poets let a generation down
And modern music should be a healing sound
It's the only way
Only way
Cause we, we will still need a song
To carry our love away
To carry it away
We will still need a song
To dance on our wedding day
To carry it away
And we will still need a song
We will still need
To carry a song
To carry a song
To carry a song
And we, we will still need a song
To carry our heart away
To carry it away
We will still need a song
To dance on our wedding day
To carry it away
Ya know...
The power of dellusion is borderline unbelievable. How one can repress their feelings and force themselves to believe something easier. I think thats great sometimes, hell, I thought I was even deluding myself with my happiness. Turns out I'm not, I thought about it, and I'm not putting up a front, I'm not doing this for any other reason but to actually be happy myself. I was thinking about how everyone keeps telling everyone to love themselves. Love yourself first, or else you cant love other people, love yourself, or else you cant do this or that...
Its the truth, (sorrie to everyone who I fought against for telling me that, yes yes, you were right) if you dont love yourself you cant love others. Everyone told me that, but never really gave me an explaination. I guess they thought it was self-explainitory, but I didnt see it. I cant explain it anymore, I had it in my head before too...frig! I had a good analogy! I think I really had to understand this before getting into another relationship again.
Catherine told me that people have identity crisises all the time, and it does make sense. I do understand that we change all the time, and I think its the best thing about being human. The chance to change into something better than we are. I know not everyone tries to be better people, but thats cool, some are content being childish, some are content running away, some are content deluding themselves. Ignorance is bliss.
I look around, seeing all these people in different stages of their life. Some still finding themselves, some not even trying to, some so far ahead they're ready for their careers and next stages in life. I still have hope for everyone to go through these stages and find themselves and be happy with themselves, though you look at several childish adults and can be so very disappointed...its all good, hope is still there, and its hard to kill.
I hope everyone can learn from their mistakes and be alright. I'm not saying that I'm higher or mighter than anyone here, for all I know, I could be worse off, and I wont believe that I'm better or worse off than anyone. I'm just simply, here, and making the best of what I can. I'd like to think everyone was hoping that I learn from my mistakes and will be alright too ^^
Weee :)
Done one exam, and it was good~!
One more and I'm donee~ !!!
Wow
Last night's dinner was great :D
Duck, Lobster, Shark Fin Soup, + other goodies.
10 course meal~
Also met my mom's friend son, who was in 2nd year Uni at UT, and he was really nice~ ;)
Came home and had a long talk with my sister and her boyfriend about life stuff, and how life is weird and such. It was good, cept we slept at 6am cause of it...lol
Anyways, ya...I gota study, so latah
Ya...
So didnt study today...
Stupid stupid me.
And look, its 2:32am. Hell, what did I do?
Happy Chinese New Year by the way ^^
Glad that its another 'new year' thing :P
Or at least...thats what I think...lol
Of course...it really isnt...?
Damn...well, I can think it is...
Really...I wonder what I did tonight.
I really dun remember...
Damnit!
Dude...lets see...went to the mall...
And saw gil...
N then we saw some other people.
Cant really remember who...
Everything seems so blurry for some strange reason.
Ya, well, talked to Gil today at school, it was cool, havent talked to him in a while. But tomorrow I really gota study...REALLY REALLY gotta study. >_<
I should sleep now then...the moron that I am...lol
pEace~
Oh dude...
I should so not watch Angel anymore, frigging probably gonna give my nightmares! Gross bug looking thing on right now...
FRIG! But I already started watching it...I cant just stop in the middle without knowing the ending! >_<
AHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh damnit! I'll risk the damn nightmares~
Handed in my game today, I hope I do well...I worked hard on that ugly piece of crap :P i might see if I can post it online, iuno if my bro has any webspace I can use :P
Hopefully...
Anyways, back to TV then studying~
pEace~
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Well, I didnt have a bad dream last night, but there was a really gross spider in it, and I think I yelled at my sister's boyfriend Dan to dump sand on it...why would sand even kill a spider? I had a baby sitter, he was some old brown guy. It was a tad strange.
And I was gonna go to bed in the dream around 2am, but ended up watching Innuyasha specials, which had Celine from Star Ocean in it for some strange reason?
My cousin Edward was there asking for popcorn. Umm....thats about it, so nothing horrifying at least~
Though I did wake up feeling like someone was trying to sneak into my house, but thats just my own paranoia and why I keep kali stix beside my bed so I can pummel someone if they do.
Anyways...other news, I finished my game, it kinda sucks, but its all good :D
Time to shower and crap~
AHh...
I feel better now that I've had some time to detach myself from that dream and get back to reality...Its scary how real that felt though...
But I'm alright now.
Shit man.
I dont know whats wrong with me...
I've had two bad dreams in a row...
I mean these dreams really scared the living shit out of me. I havent had nightmare since I was at little kid, at least 7?
I feel really shaken up right now...my dreams are really real to me...and this last one...okay, here goes...
~~~~~~~ Dream ~~~~~~
My whole family was gathered to see my brother and his wife have their baby, we had a big banquet hall setup and everything, but for some reason, something was after the baby, something really evil...the doctor was evil or something and they enjected Karen with something...I saw the baby growing in her stomach, actually inside, from the egg to the actual baby, and then it was pulled out. Then it stopped being Karen and the doctor pulled out the baby and was craddling it. Dana and I were standing there, and then we saw the baby was just a head and a dark brown cocoon for a body...
It then ripped open and MILLIONS of bugs and gross things crawled out all bloody!!!!! The woman who was no longer my sister-in-law then erupted in bugs too...
Somehow Dana and I werent there anymore and we didnt know what was going on...but everyone in the room was killed by the bugs cause there were so many they just filled the entire room. Blood leaked through the bottom of the door and some bugs crawled out and around the hospital. Nobody noticed...
Then somehow Karen was alright and was trying again to have a baby. Her baby was really supposed to be REALLY special, kinda like the Charmed baby and all evil wanted it cause it would help them. So then everyone comes over to my house, and this is the next day where Marc and Karen had another baby somehow...and we were going to get ready for it to be born, so we went and watched a movie about a baby being born or something...and then it had Angel in it. He was the father and he took over for Marc and Karen's scenario...someone was trying to steal his baby, but he had a special necklace that would protect it. I was standing outside with a nun, cause we decided it was smarter to deliver it in a church cause less evil is there...but the doctor tried to get the baby. The whole time I was shaken up still from the first baby and all Icould think was...what if it happened again? What if it wasnt the evil that did that, what if it was genetic? and then the other doctor transformed into some monster and then fought Angel, but I never saw that after the transformation. The next thing I saw was that a little almost baby shaped monster attacked someone who I thought was the son born yesterday. The nun and I were running to help Angel and was came across the guy, who was really a young man at least 20, but I swear he was the kid born yesterday that died...and so the nun gave him a little salve cause it looked like someone tried to put a crown of thorns on his head and his whole head was bleeding around the top.
After the salve was on he just wiped the blood away completely healed. The nun was then lead by her glowing necklace that was the same as Angel's to Angel and the baby who was already born somehow.
Then suddenly a group of evil women came in sleek and sly like...and somehow everyone that was on my side turned out to be from the X-Men. The evil woman came up to the group waiting on th 9th floor or and one just whispered to one of the men, "Can you walk over there for me?" And pointed to the window, and he jumped out and died. She then walked over to one of the women and whispered "Can you walk into the closet for me please?" she walked into the closet and then impaled herself on a coat hanger knob right through her forehead.
Then somehow I had some sort of vision and I saw all of the X-Men at my house being slaughtered, then I realised that I was alone with only the Nun...and Angel might be alive still, but the baby is dead.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I think thats all..I feel really disgussing and I'm shaking a bit...I've never had anything that gross and really upsetting happen to me...I dont understand why I would dream about that...
I think it might be TV's influence because I was watching Angel before that...and there was a lot of death and destruction of the whole world...and I think some kid was his son and he went crazy...
I dont know....but I feel so extremely scared right now...
Holy shit I just jumped at the sudden changing of my MP3's...
Shit...I know its only a dream, but it was SO real...SO fucking real and I know how I felt in the dream...and I feel it still now...
I duno if I can go take a shower alone now...I'm so fucking afraid...
Ugh...
I just need to take a deep breath...
Also two nights ago I had a bad dream too...
One that was bad enough to prompt me waking up and yelling "I cant do this anymore!!!!"
But I dont really remember what I couldnt do anymore. I wrote the dream down in my journal, but I'll write it here later when I have more time.
All I can remember was at the time I did that, everything was a dark brown-ish red colour. And when I woke up everything stayed the same colour.
I duno whats going on...
I'm honestly scared...Fuck.
Nya~
You know what I dont understand...?
How someone can be mad at you for doing something, but when they do it themselves they dont feel bad? Or how they say that you do something...but really you dont mean it like that, but they interpret it like that, but then go ahead and do it themselves and dont know they're doing it.
Its funnie really. But whatevah~
It is a little irritating, being a double standard and all, but hey, I dont care, I dont need to care about that, I'm above that. Not to sound too full of myself, but why let something little like that bug you? Its an injustice true, but whatever, I give up.
Happy everyone? I give up! Ya broke me, no more helping people~ Ya ya, Vicki and Grace were right, you cant help people who dont wana be helped. So tough huh? I'll just have to wait for them to come to me cause i'm never gonna turn anyone down really?
*yawn*
Now, back to flash work :)
pEace yo~
Moo
Wee~
Break time!
Well, more like break day, been working most of the week, I felt like taking a break before the giant plunge into the depths of the evil cave of exams :P
Well, at least I only gota do 2 and I'm outtttttah there :)
But gota finish my game...hopefully that'll happen soon~ Well, it has to happy by Weds ;)
I hope everything turns out right and pretty ^^
Need to keep my mark...or make it higher, both are good~
Anyways, time to go relax some more, pEace~
Wee~
Wee~
My game is sorta working...its looking not so bad too~
What do I gota do now? Welps...I gota study for my Human Development test then I gota finish this project...then study for exams, then I'm free~~~!
So...
I think I wana take a nap before I study for Human Development..We'll see, I kinda wana shower too, but I'm more tired.
Argh, I hate scriptinggggggggggg >_<
Anyways, Imma head back to work.
pEace~
Smallville
Wow,
Its a pretty good show ^^
They had Iceman from X-Men the movie in it heheheheh~
And Randy from Home Improvement, they have a lot of good guest stars man! They had Miguel from Passions too!
Damn...Damn hot actors...damn them.
Anyways, time to sleep. pEace~
Calmed.
I feel better.
Later my mom came and asked what she could do to help. Maybe she was just having a stupid day too.
Looks like my computer needs a new motherboard and a new processor cause HP is a fucking gay ass.
Time to work on flash. Wish me luck.
Oh my god.
My fucking god. My moter is driving me CRAZY. I mean, I'm stressed enough with the fact that my computer isnt working so I cant work on my fucking flash project, and then my backup plan cancelled on me cause his laptop wasnt working, and all my mother can do is bitch and point out what i SHOULD have done blahb alhb alh, I am stupid for not going through with my back up back up plan which was my brother.
So my mother seems to think that telling me that I should have done something else instead of what I did (yay for pointing out the obvious) is helping? No, I dont think she knows how to help. I cleaned up the dishes today because they were all there andg ross, and what do I hear from mymother? Brad, you missed this this and this. FUCK YOU!! OH MY FUCKING GOD!! DO IT YOUR FUCKING SELF THEN!!!
Why do you have to be so fucking negative?!?!! DO YOU NOT EVER FOCUS ON THE POSTIVE ASPECTS OF LIFE?! At least dad acknowledged that I did it without you fucking asking me. And the crap wasnt even mine!! It was Dana's or yours or dads!! WHY THE HELL DO YOU HAVE TO FUCKING PICK ON EVERY LITTLE FUCKING TINY DETAIL THAT I DIDNT DO AND NOT FOCUS ON WHAT I HAVE DONE!!!
HOLY FUCKING SHIT!!!
Forgive me for actually trusting in other people. Or maybe not checking with them because I thought that htings would be working fine, but whatever, it happens and what I have to do is find a solution, which I did so its allright, but HOLY SHIT!! Lets see...there's a problem...and you mess something up...what do you?
a) Beat yourself up for your mistake.
b) Find a solution.
Lets see...WHATS THE BETTER ANSWER!?!? QUITE OBVIOUSLY B!!! And what does my mother do? She yells at me for not doing something right. No wonder why I have issues with my parents. HOLY FUCKING SHIT.
What the hell...as if I didnt realise how stupid I was after, she had to point it out?! Holy fucking shit...Then when I pointed out her negativity, what did I hear from her? "Oh, well I'm just trying to tell you how stupid you are."
YOU CAN KISS MY FUCKING ASS!!! JESUS FUCKING CHRIST!! WHAT KIND OF MOTHER ARE YOU!?!?!?!? -_-
I'm quite obviously very upset with her right now...I better talk to her about this soon before I implode.
Hmm...
You know...
It seems like summer just ended...
but its starting all over again for me in 2 - 3 weeks eh?
Iuno...time flies, I guess I was actuallying having a lot more fun this year. With the new people and everything. Though they arent my normal crowd, it was cool ^^
Yay for 2004 ^^ My year of un-curse-age~~
Woo
Wowwies.
Had very little sleep last night for some weird reason? I kept tossing and turning. Oh wells. School was school. I dont hate it as much now. I still dont like it, but I dont hate it anymore. Its reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaally cold out eh? REAAAAAALLY cold!!! Even tho its only -4 out...the wind makes it feel like -20!
Oy, oh wells, no big deal, I'm home now anyway ^^
Anyways, been thinking a lot, I duno why, but more about parents than anything. I kinda wana sit down and talk with'em about how they treat me. I mean...Its not bad how they treat me, I just dont like it anymore. I mean...I think they're kinda in a transition phase from treating me like an adult and treating me like a child still. Cause I'm the youngest, they do stuff for me, but also tell me to do a lot of things and HOW i should do it and specifics as if I was a child. But at the same time expect me to do all these things on my own, but are telling me to do it. They want me to get a job and do all this adult stuff, which I'm cool with, but they have to stop treating me like a child before I can act like an adult.
I mean, if you guys treated me with the same respect I treat you guys (by you guys I mean parents) then things would go so much more smoothly. Thats why Dana and I work so well. I ASK her to do things when she gets a chance, you tell me. Dana understands that I need it done, and if I need it SOON, then I specify that and she'll do it asap. Otherwise it doesnt matter. When it comes to cleaning the house, I'll do it when I feel like doing it. If you want to treat me as a child still, then treat me as a child, gimme my damn allowance back and get me toys and games and everything again, either that or just let me do things on my own and or ask me nicely and not expect it right away. Expect it when I'm ready. I NEVER ask you to do something IMMEDIATELY unless I absolutely need it. This includes things money/school or work related. Not house cleaning or cooking related, that is not ABSOLUTELY necessary. It can wait, its important, but can wait. I dont ask you to re-arrange your schedule for me, but you expect me to do it for you? So I can do that to you then I guess? I mean...we both live different lives, and I wont claim to understand what your life is like, cause in all reality, i really dont know how it is, but you cant say you know how mine is. So what should we do? Compromise. Work with each other's schedules instead of trying to force one into the others schedule.
My solution isnt so hard...
Anyways, I should talk to parentals about this...one day ;P
Hmm.
These days have been kinda flying by...
Not such a good thing when I should be studying and such, but oh wells.
I will study soon, 'soon' ;)
There's so much going on...but so little at the same time...its strange. I cant really describe it, but I feel kinda just...like I'm floating along and nothing is really happening...
Ya, I suck at explaining, so I leave it at that
pEace~
AHhh!
I need my computer to do work...
I feel so bad not being able to do work and actually WANTING to do it but I cant!!...
Damn computer being dead...
Nya nya nya~
A relaxing day today was.
It shouldnt be so relaxing...waiting for my computer to be fixed so I can do work :P
Maybe tomorrow I'll pre-study or something for exams and such? Who knows...maybe I should start that soon~ but not today ^^
Had some 'fun' today ;)
Wont say with who or doing what, but you know who you are ;)
pEace~
Wee~
LOL
I just watched Italien Job with the fam, it was a good movie ^^ Hhahahahaha!
We've established that Dana is "Left Ear" cause her left ear is plugged with wax, lol, and Dan is "The Napster" cause he was falling asleep. LOL, and others, but those ones were good ^^
Anyways, time to go shower and stuff, then head to bed for a good nights sleep :)
pEace~
Ahh...
I feel much better.
I realised that I can still acknowledge my instincts and still hope that people arent as bad as I think they are...who cares if I'm optumisitic or not?
Also kinda glad I stayed home today and watched "A Walk to Remember" again. Made me think again...Honestly, Mandy Moore acted well in that movie, and so did Shane West. I dont care what all you people say about Mandy Moore and how she's a bad actor, I think she's great and thats all that matters. I think imma maybe make a "Life To Do" List like they did...its a smart idea.
You know what? I'm a giant sap, and I dont care if you all know it. Honestly, that movie made me cry. Made my mom bawl, but it made me cry. I thought it was great, I remember loving the movie before too.
You know...I have a pretty good life. Compared to other people anyway. I'm glad things happened the way they did. If things are bad, I'm sure we just have more to learn from it. I feel inspired. Its a good feeling. All warm and gooey :P
Well, I think I'm going to go watch another movie with my family, so til next time~
oh ya.
Argh!
I also dont like my instincts. They make me pessimistic and I dont like being pessimistic cause its not nice and its just grrr-ivating. I know I should trust them cause they know whats going on, but I feel bad when I think mean on people. So I shouldnt, but I know they're right damnit! Stupid instincts. STUPID...but oh so good. Its just hard to be nice when you think bad on someone.
Ar.
Not in a nice mood right now.
I dont know why?
A few more weeks man, and i'm free of the burdens of school and such~!
No homework~! No staying up late nights working on projects~! None! None!
If I can hold out til then...
I will be good...and nice, and smart, and hard working.
Okay. I WILL damnit. I WILL.
I wont let things beat me...Ruppert, whoever you are...Your first place in VA computer class is going DOWN!! Punk...
Getting 91...when I get 84...punk...I take you down -_-
Grr...
You know what irritates me? Girls. Well, not all girls. But girls that fight for 'equality' not equality, but 'equality'. To clarify this, I mean girls that only fight for equal pay and equal job opportunities. Girls that fight for true equality, i have much respect for. Ones that pay there way or pay half. I hate the fact that a guy cant hit a girl without being tackled by millions of people. I hate the fact that if a girl hits a guy the guy gets laughed at by millions of people for being a weakling or a wuss.
So guys get paid more...girls get treated by guys more. Girls get woo'd by guys more. They get gifts and such but guys get what? Sex. Cause girls can use sex to get what they want. At least thats all I've seen of it. Maybe there's guys using sex to get girls to buy what they want. But I'm doubting its equal to the girls that do that. Unfair this world is, unfair indeed.
Nya~
Wee ^^
Today was pretty good~
School was alright, nothing great happened, nothing bad happened, so it was pretty good :)
Sleepy when I came home, so I fell asleep then talked to Lori about her wedding plans and what not :) I think we might have an open bar, mwahah :P And I'm going to be legal age to drink soon ^^ Went to the mall with Dana, looked around, got a new shirt, thinking of getting a new necklace to replace my old one that I broke -_-
Saw a nice one, but not sure if I really want it yet, we'll see though. I still have like 8 bux left on my gift card, so the necklace'll cost me a good 2 bux? Wee :)
Nothing else overly exciting happened.
Maybe I'll sleep early tonight cause I can ^^
pEace~
MEh?
Well, here's a temporary layout til my comptuer gets fixed.
I do this while I'm supposed to be writing an assignment...go figure :P
Hmm~
Well, today had a nice upturn ^^
It wasnt the bestest day to begin with, but it certainly got better. Nothing big happened, I just tried to get into a happy mood and it worked ^^
Even though I'm writing an essay now, I'm pretty happy. Strange no? :P
Had a cool talk with Dana, and visited places to help Lori find a place for her wedding. I wish I coulda said something for Marc's wedding, that woulda rocked, but then I was nervous way back then, now I feel better and I wana say something for Lori ^^
Welps...I gota get back to this essay...
I made it too long and need to cut it down -_-
Nya.
Well..
Today not as good as yesterday, had a bad test, broke my necklace...
But other than that it was pretty alright :P
The wind is CRAZY today, it hurt man~!
I got started on my game already...its gonna be hard...I need to get my computer fixed so that I can actually do the game.
We'll see how it works tho...I hope it works :P
Anyways, gonna go nap before I write that essay on that stupid movie ;)
pEace~
Oh, sidenote.
Fakers annoy me, I think I should stop faking some people so that I dont feel bad for doing something that annoys me. Guess some people are gonna know what I think bout them ;)
Ya think ya know someone...
Its funnie when you think you know people, but you really dont.
Kinda sad too.
My new policy that I've tried to implement the passed month or so is to think that the person is good no matter what they've done, because they could have changed, and its very rude to think that they are something bad if they arent something bad.
Its hard, cause I know I wana be right and be like, HAH! I KNEW IT! But really, who cares if I'm right or not anymore. I rather be wrong and nice than right and mean.
So I'm going to try to stop assuming people are bad, until they prove to me they are bad, but I can still hope they'll be good after anyway. So why should I have any reason to be mean and hate someone? I can be unhappy with the decisions they have made in the past, but thats in the past, so it doesnt matter.
This is good, I'm learning not to hold grudges, they're so petty and mean. Who cares about it anymore? Just let things be and be happy. Life is too short to worry about such trivial thingies ^^
Just a few thoughts.
Anyways, back to studying :p
More like note-taking...again :P
pEace~
Wee!
LOL
Today was sooooooooooo funnie!
I cant believe we played DDR2 for fucking 4 and a half hours!! It was SOOO fun too...I'm a fucking loser for saying that though, I know...but MY GOD!!
but sooooooo fun...gawd damn...
Too bad Catherine leaves tomorrow :(
But we had fun while she was here ^^ Same with Christine! But I can see her tomorrow before she heads out~
We gota buy those damn rings eh Christine? They're so frigging nice!! -_-
And Catherine, you need to come with us next time mrs. no frills!!
oyyyyyyyyyyyyy...
Time to shower cause I'm sure I'm really gross right now :P
pEace~
Happy New Year!!
Happy New Years everyone :)
Woah..the last few days were pretty amazing. Pretty darned amazing. Hung out with Jenn for a while, she stayed over cause we had to go the today early to go to the cottage. In the end she didnt end up going tho :P Lamely, what a punk!
But Cheryl, Sue and I had a lot of fun, lol. Driving up for 2 and a half hours, then stay up there for 10 min, took a few pix, then drove back 2 and a half hours...LOL but we had nice talks in the car, it was fun, but lets never do that again alright guys? lol
Then had a really nice lobster dinner when I got home, yay yay for lobster :)
Then ended up going with Nathan Eric Cynthia and Adrian to Nathan's friend's party. Which was pretty nice, it was funnie :P Crazy drunk girl hitting on Nathan~ Lots of fun stuffies ;)
Anyway, the new year has kicked off to a great start. New Years resolutions for me are the following.
Keep calm.
Be more accepting (Less uptight).
Be more optumistic.
Be less defensive of criticism.
Learn more about myself.
That should keep me busy for more than just a year :)
Mwahah.
Well, time to shower and maybe sleep...or play FFX-2 :P
pEace~
Have a great new year guys :)
