Dreams.

Oh my god.

My fucking god. My moter is driving me CRAZY. I mean, I'm stressed enough with the fact that my computer isnt working so I cant work on my fucking flash project, and then my backup plan cancelled on me cause his laptop wasnt working, and all my mother can do is bitch and point out what i SHOULD have done blahb alhb alh, I am stupid for not going through with my back up back up plan which was my brother.

So my mother seems to think that telling me that I should have done something else instead of what I did (yay for pointing out the obvious) is helping? No, I dont think she knows how to help. I cleaned up the dishes today because they were all there andg ross, and what do I hear from mymother? Brad, you missed this this and this. FUCK YOU!! OH MY FUCKING GOD!! DO IT YOUR FUCKING SELF THEN!!!

Why do you have to be so fucking negative?!?!! DO YOU NOT EVER FOCUS ON THE POSTIVE ASPECTS OF LIFE?! At least dad acknowledged that I did it without you fucking asking me. And the crap wasnt even mine!! It was Dana's or yours or dads!! WHY THE HELL DO YOU HAVE TO FUCKING PICK ON EVERY LITTLE FUCKING TINY DETAIL THAT I DIDNT DO AND NOT FOCUS ON WHAT I HAVE DONE!!!

HOLY FUCKING SHIT!!!
Forgive me for actually trusting in other people. Or maybe not checking with them because I thought that htings would be working fine, but whatever, it happens and what I have to do is find a solution, which I did so its allright, but HOLY SHIT!! Lets see...there's a problem...and you mess something up...what do you?

a) Beat yourself up for your mistake.
b) Find a solution.

Lets see...WHATS THE BETTER ANSWER!?!? QUITE OBVIOUSLY B!!! And what does my mother do? She yells at me for not doing something right. No wonder why I have issues with my parents. HOLY FUCKING SHIT.

What the hell...as if I didnt realise how stupid I was after, she had to point it out?! Holy fucking shit...Then when I pointed out her negativity, what did I hear from her? "Oh, well I'm just trying to tell you how stupid you are."
YOU CAN KISS MY FUCKING ASS!!! JESUS FUCKING CHRIST!! WHAT KIND OF MOTHER ARE YOU!?!?!?!? -_-

I'm quite obviously very upset with her right now...I better talk to her about this soon before I implode.

posted by Bradimon @ 8:35 p.m.