Dreams.

Ya know...

The power of dellusion is borderline unbelievable. How one can repress their feelings and force themselves to believe something easier. I think thats great sometimes, hell, I thought I was even deluding myself with my happiness. Turns out I'm not, I thought about it, and I'm not putting up a front, I'm not doing this for any other reason but to actually be happy myself. I was thinking about how everyone keeps telling everyone to love themselves. Love yourself first, or else you cant love other people, love yourself, or else you cant do this or that...

Its the truth, (sorrie to everyone who I fought against for telling me that, yes yes, you were right) if you dont love yourself you cant love others. Everyone told me that, but never really gave me an explaination. I guess they thought it was self-explainitory, but I didnt see it. I cant explain it anymore, I had it in my head before too...frig! I had a good analogy! I think I really had to understand this before getting into another relationship again.

Catherine told me that people have identity crisises all the time, and it does make sense. I do understand that we change all the time, and I think its the best thing about being human. The chance to change into something better than we are. I know not everyone tries to be better people, but thats cool, some are content being childish, some are content running away, some are content deluding themselves. Ignorance is bliss.

I look around, seeing all these people in different stages of their life. Some still finding themselves, some not even trying to, some so far ahead they're ready for their careers and next stages in life. I still have hope for everyone to go through these stages and find themselves and be happy with themselves, though you look at several childish adults and can be so very disappointed...its all good, hope is still there, and its hard to kill.

I hope everyone can learn from their mistakes and be alright. I'm not saying that I'm higher or mighter than anyone here, for all I know, I could be worse off, and I wont believe that I'm better or worse off than anyone. I'm just simply, here, and making the best of what I can. I'd like to think everyone was hoping that I learn from my mistakes and will be alright too ^^

posted by Bradimon @ 10:24 p.m.