LOTR3
Wowwies~
I was really impressed. It was good :)
A little confused why all the Elves left...they had such a nice setup. Lots of cool things happened in it, but too lazy to type it all out :P
Mahahahahahahhahaah..we had a good time today eh Puddin' n Cookie? Mahahahahahahahahh...didnt know I could be so...umm...not nice? :) Hehhehehe...Its our little secret k? :P
Ahh...it was nice to hang out with Eric Cynthia Nathan and Adrian for a while today, 3 and a half hours to be exact~ :P Havent seen you guys for a while, we should do something else before the break is over, I'll give you a call or something~
Hah.
Hah, it says it all about a certain subject some of you may know about. HAH.
On another note, I was playing FFX-2 and Wakka came up with something nice. He realised he was always trying to cram himself into different roles, a Guardian, a Blitzball player, a Father, blah blah blah, but he realised (a little late might I add, what is he...like 30?) that he has to just be himself. No need to cram yourself into a mould, you're unique despite how others may place you.
I know I used to try to fit myself into moulds...and shaped myself like that, it wasnt too fun, in the end you're still the same blob of clay and cant change from what you are, clay, into something else like glass, just by changing the shape by putting yourself into a mould. If that makes any sense to anyone what so ever...it makes sense to me...thats all that matters ;P
Anyways...
Gonna go watch a movie.
pEace~
Bahahahah
Are you a Seme or Uke?
Double argh.
Stupid computer of mine upstairs is dead, and my blog dies too because it was being stupid...and so now I have to resort to using this crappy layout...
Frig man, things just arent going smoothly today...
Lets hope tomorrow is better.
Grr.
Why is my mother such a tight ass sometimes?
And we wonder why I was so damn uptight? For fucks sake dude. I clean up when I want to clean up, and I WILL clean up eventually if you'd shut the hell up! I mean dude, how unreasonable is it to wait a few hours? Maybe if you shut up and trusted me to do things on my own I'd do it. But NO, you insist on forcing your 'superior knowledge' (please note the quotes becaue its quite obviously NOT superior) telling me what to do because poor stupid little brad doesnt know what to do. Thats quite OBVIOUSLY what you think. Well screw you, I know how I do things, I dont give a flying fuck how you do things mother. If I told you to do things according to my schedule, would you bend over backwards to do it? Obviously not, so why the fuck should I do that for you if you wouldnt do that for me. There's only so much you should expect from your children. Despite all of the hard work you went through to get me here, it does not mean that I have to bend over backwards to accomidate you.
If you had kids so that you could raise your own personal slaves, then you raised the wrong child. I WILL clean up, I do it anyways when you dont tell me but you dont fucking see it. You and dad are focused on the negative crap that we bring you. I'm sorry that I'm not your perfect son anymore, but honestly, who said you were the perfect parents anyway?
Why should I be perfect if you arent either. Take my gawd damn issues in human growth class, and you'll learn how to parent better. Its true, kids dont respond to punishment or negative reinforcement as well as they do positive reinforcement. Thats a basic thing you SHOULD know, but you dont. Because all you do is threaten to take crap away from me when I dont really give a flying fuck if you take it because MY COMPUTER IS ALREADY BROKEN. Morons.
Frig mom. You need to learn how to fucking lighten up. Life isnt about cleaning, its not even about going to school and doing well, its about being happy. I dont erally care if I get the big house with the nice cars and whatever anymore, that wont make me truely happy. What makes me really happy is to just take it easy, relax and enjoy things, procrastinate whenever I want to, or just lounge around, why the hell do I always have to be doing something?! Just because it takes you forever to do something, it doesnt mean it takes me that long. I'm more efficient thank you very much. I'm also more accepting than you will ever be.
You're just a giant hypocrite, and you're lucky I held my tongue when you were talking about gay marriages. I know I'm mad right now, and hence all the cursing and being not nice, so I know I do still love you despite all this crap. Why? Because I am actually accepting and open unlike you, Mrs. We didnt have this 'problem' when I was young. PROBLEM MY ASS, BEING GAY IS NOT A PROBLEM. Next time you better pray that I dont verbally rip you to pieces if we ever argue about this again mother.
Nothing gets me more angry than my mother, and discrimination...and this is those two things combined...
You irritate me very much right now...
FFX-2
Dude, Cant stop playing it...
Its actually really good :)
I dont see what people dont like about it...they is crazy peoples to me! Crraaaaazzy~
Anyways...Got a lot more stuff for christmas, I'm happy :)
Minus the whole computer breaking down thing..that might screw me over for VA comp a little...so I have to figure out another way to work on flash crap..-_- But other than that, things are great :)
So ya, I wont be on MSN too much, so gonna have to resort to good old fashion phone calls. -_-
Anyways~
Boxing Day was a blast :) I hope you had fun puddin' cake~ You two Vicks n Gracers~ Fun to attack the lil ho :P
I hope you liked all those gifts you guys got :) Like...Toilet paper, ugly dog soap dish and champagne! mwhahhah! Thats sooo for new years dude!!
Hhahaha, I cant believe you told my mom and friends that I was "Sluttin' it up" Catherine..LOL!!!! Damn everyone and always thinking I'm some sorta pimp with a harem of girls following me -_- Do they not understand the concept of friends?! Aiya -_-
Anyways...Imma go play some games :)
Glad you guys came yesterday, and eric was supposed to...but duno where he went :P What a punk!
Next year I'll see if I can bring more people, but then my family will continue to thikn I'm some sorta pimp -_-
pEace~
Merry Christmas!
Merry Christmas everyone!
Well...
Seems that Santa has broughten me an evil curse on my computer that somehow will not allow me turn it on -_-
I go to change the ram and now it just goes BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP
So I must use the downstairs computer. I was so mad last night that I fell asleep right away with the lights on and everything. Well, mind you, i want tired. But hey, I figure, it happened for a reason, maybe so I spend more time with my family during Christmas, maybe so I dont get some evil virus or something, so hey, things could be worse right? So I will stay optumistic and happy :)
On a lighter note, here is what I got last night :) THANKS EVERYONE!! I LOVE ALL MY PRESENTS SO FAR :)
----- GIFTS I GOT CHRISTMAS EVE -----
I got FFX-2 for Christmas from my sister Lori!! Wooo!!! I watched the openning scene, and I was blown away! My goodness, now to get my PS2 back from her and get a memory card from my bro :P
Also, got some RAM from my brother, though now he has to fix me comp :P Woo hoo more RAM! Not so woo hoo with the dead computer -_-
Got a sweater from old navy, a really nice customized personal pen, and some funky slippers from my Aunty Linda and Uncle Michael and their wee ones.
Today is when I open presents from my parents and sister, so this should be exciting :) It'll be exciting whether I get my video card or monitor or not :P Its alllllll good~! Spirit of Christmas man, spirit of christmas~ At least I will get some new clothes, woo hoo! :)
I'll just get the other stuff when I get a job in January~ Mwahahha~
Things are cool man. I cant wait to play FFX-2! The game play is pretty nice too!! And I only faught like 2 battles :P
Anyways...time to go make some breakfast or something, went to bed at like 12:30am so naturally I wake up at 7am -_-
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE :)
Mothers...
You know...
I really love my mother and all, but sometimes she has a strange way of thinking.
She says she accepts things easily as in people for who they are, and I'm not so sure about that, but that wasnt really what I was thinking about. I was more thinking about what she says about gay marriages. It was a little upsetting that she doesnt support it.
Her reasoning is that marriage is for procreation. I was all like...well...I guess it depends on what you think about for marriage. I think marriage is about the expression of love between two individuals. Maybe thats just me though. I duno. She also referred to experimentation with the same sex a 'problem' several times, but I let it slide. Its strange how I interact with my family, I hate arguing with them, so I avoid it at all costs. If that was anyone else I would have said. "Problem? PROBLEM!? WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU THINKING!?" But since it was my mother I said nothing.
Then she went on about this speech about how I probably wont be able to empathize with people if I dont go through what they do (If I became a therapist/psychologist) because I wont do stupid fast food jobs. Oh please, I know all too well that I would hate it already through empathy after hearing how bad it was from other people.
I brought up the point that...what about people that marry and dont want to have kids, like my neighbours who are friends with us. And she then takes it into their case and avoids the point. I really dont like to make my mother feel bad and wrong and prove her wrong if we're having a civil conversation...so I didnt press the point further. Old fashion thinking needs to change man.
It was rather irritating. A few things are irritating me more lately, I hope I'm not becoming as uptight as I was before again...I'll fight it with all my might -_-
Strange.
Does anyone else find it a little strange that other people are unable to be happy for other people? And always seem to have to compete or something like that? Maybe I'm off the mark in saying that or thinking what I think, but I know that when ya talk to someone telling them how great you feel that you've learned stuff and whatever and they only say "Oh I see." Its a little weird ya know? Maybe the person is just lacking in conversation skills or doesnt believe me.
Meh, no big deal to me, its just a little sad that some people are either too selfish to comprehend being happy for another person or that they just are so slow that they dont know how to respond or dont have enough faith in me that I can be happy. Strange people. Not sure what it is, but meh? :)
I've heard that a lot of people have changed, which I hope is true for the sake of their relationship :) Maybe they'll last forever, I'll hope that they do~ :)
I'm glad things have turned out the way they have, it taught me a lot more bout myself and a lot more about other people who I thought I knew. All good though, I'll still always be there for whoever, that part of me hasnt changed. But lots of me has, and I like it.
Anyways, I hope everyone learns to be happy and themselves and not so...petty? I know I'm petty sometimes, but I work on it~ It helps I guess to see other people being petty and how lame it is when they are, and makes me wana help myself all that much more.
Anyways, gonna go now, pEace~ :)
Card Captor
Dude, this is a great anime...greater than I had originally given it credit for :)
Oy-ness
I feel kinda sick...
Head sick, with a headache and such, also really tired, a little dizzy. Not TOO bad, but not so great. Oy-ness.
In other oy-ness news, Catherine has forgotten to call me :P That smart girl~ As Christine and I sit and wait for her to call..at 6pm, it is now approaching the 10pm mark :P hahhaha~ What a smart girl, we need to find a way to get her to remember things better.
Meh, i think its all for the best because my eye is twitching which is a sign of me needing sleep. More sleep than normal because I've been lacking it during school. So today was just a nice relaxing day at home :)
Kinda glad we didnt have to do exercise today cause I'm sore from the other days :P Damn, but I should do some on my own...damn exercise...T_T
Anyways...
I should go sleep or do something more productive than rot infront of the computer~
pEace~
Life~
Today I met Puddin' cakes roomie, Raquel. It was really nice to meetcha ^^ Today was a lot of fun :P Sorrie for making you walk so far~ hahahaha :P Hopefully we'll be able to do something tomorrow too if you can stay in this crazy tiny town of ours long enough~
lol Raquel had some REALLY funnie stories~ It was great :) We had a nice long chat and stuffies, it was all good~ Everything is good :) I feel physically good, mentally good, and pretty darn happy :) Could be happier, could be unhappier, but who cares~ I think I might have to talk to my mother about lightening up a bit (HAH! Who'd have thought I would be a person to tell someone to be less uptight :P) And to just enjoy the holidays and not be so pushy about cleaning and whatever, cause its christmas, a time for family to be happy and everyone just to be happy.
--------- BEWARE OF BRAD'S STUPID LIFE LESSONS LEARNED -----------
Kinda been reflecting a LOT lately. This year...from one point of view, sucked complete ass. But, thats not the way I'm looking at it, the way I look at it, this year was a year of growth, maturity, discovery, realisation...the list continues. I've realised how lucky I am, I've realised that there is no limit to what you can do. I've discovered how to not take things for granted, I've discovered how to fight through pain and loss and become stronger for it.
To be honest, without a few people, I would not be where I am now. Feeling secure, happy, and good. Though I think someone may be feeling guilty (I hope they arent, and this is just an assumption I can only hope is just that) about things that have happened, they shouldnt because I feel amazing, and I have for the passed few weeks. I see more clearly what I want, I see more clearly how I want things to be, and hope that somehow that experienced helped them in a positive way too. The bitter and petty feelings have long since died down and all that is left is acceptance and feelings of contentment. There is still so much more to learn from this, and it'll all come clear to me in time, and I hope it comes clear to you.
Hahaha, because of this and a few other things, I've learned to become less uptight,
much less uptight. Life is good again...I think thats why I was always happy in gr. 11...
Well, a lot has happened in this year, I'm not going to say I'm sad its coming to an end, but its definately a time for reflection, and growth, which is probably the best thing that could happen in a year. I dont doubt that horrible things will happen next year, that would be far too naive...even for me. But I do know that I will be able to handle them because this year has given me that much more strength.
------------ END OF BRAD'S STUPID LIFE LESSONS ------------------
I bet most people didnt read this cause its hellah long, so I wrap up :)
Some important stuff was in here for some peoples, i hope you read it ;)
I'm out~
loVe~ (opposed to pEace~ I find that getting old and dont like other people using it -_-)
Ahhh
Oh boy do I have stories to tell today...
But I'm tired.
I didnt tell the whole wisdom teeth story, thats interesting.
And the whole mall excerision story with CHristine was fun.
And then exercise with Catherine was funnie.
But do I really feel like typing? No, I feel like sleeping, so I will not type.
pEace~
Woot!
I conquer you wisdom teeth!!
CONQUER I SAY!!
I'm barely swollen, and I'm only a little sore, SUCK IT BITCHES!!
I'm a little dizy still, but thats all :)
Slept ALL day yesterday
It was funnie :)
*yawn*
Still a little tired now, but hungry is more like it.
I can eat oranges, which isnt so bad, I will attempt to eat other food soon. Pain will not stop me from eatting..GWAHAHAHAHH!
I conquer you wisdom teeth! CONQUER!!
AHh!
Time to get my wisdom teeth out. I wait for my sister to come home.
*yawn*
I'm tired though, so i will be passed out all night...possibly day too. wee :)
Anyways...gonna go floss.
pEace~
Everwood.
This is a good show~ :)
It rekindled the feelings in my heart that alway seem to be longing for love. Sometimes I think so much about it that I think I find it, but in truth, it would has never been as perfect as I had thought. My ideal lover will just click with me. One moment, we're looking at each other and then the next thing we know somehow we have been drawn to each other, almost as if it was magnetic. Of course there will be others, I'm not saying that I will completely limit myself until I find that person, there will be several others, and who knows, maybe I'll change my mind later on, but for now...I'm going to be keeping an eye out for that special someone.
I dont think we should 'settle' for someone ever or else your heart wont ever really truly be in it. You never know what you really want until you get what you think you've wanted and find out it isnt, or until you've lost it. Trial and error I guess huh? :)
Well, I'm back on the look out for someone, but not to the same extremity as before, I have to balance my idealistic views with realistic ones. Honestly, spending the rest of my life with one person is really hard to picture right now. But again, my mind is always thinking, rethinking and feeling different, so who knows what happens tomorrow or the next day. Thats what is so great about this life. The random-ness, the freedom, the ability to choose your path in life, everything in this world is great.
Yes, even the people. There are so many cyncial people out there, saying how bad people can be. I agree, at times people can be horrible, devious, manipulative, awful people, but for every horribly devious and awfully manipulative person there is in this place, there is one good decent person to balance them out.
A lot of people believe that people cant change. They will be how they are. Why they believe this is beyond me. I can see people changing before my very eyes, everyday. For better? yes. For worse? yes. But change is happening and I know almost all of my friends are cyncial and pessimistic enough to think that people wont change for the better, they will only be corrupted...Well, I have a faith in humanity.
Why do I have faith in humanity? Because I see all of you, all of my friends, I see you trying to be good people, I see you and I see the ways they we are what makes humanity good. Who are we to even judge humanity, our dosages of it are from TV, from School, from our secluded area and maybe select areas outside where some of us have 2nd homes.
I ramble on...but its all good.
I feel good (minus these zits -_-)
Ramble ramble ramble, I think I'm done :P
Sorta anyways.
How did I get from relationships to humanity is beyond me...but meh, it happened :P
Anyways, time to do some work.
pEace~
Sleep? I dont know the meaning of the word!
Yes, another night of no sleep, because I was doing my stupid flash website so I can skip weds and thurs and friday.
Oyyyyyness...
I'm like half done? 3/4th's maybe? Why do I make things so hard on myself :P
By the way...Saddham Hussan has been caught, hurrah~
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Lies~
I lie, I dont think I'm interested in that girl anymore. I dont think I'm actually interested in anyone right now, I mean...I dont want anyone at all. I'm sure I'll get over this feeling soon, but right now I feel like being alone. Though I dont really wana be for New Years, meh? It happens ^^
Bad news though.
My mother got into a little car accident. She's alright thank god, but she skidded on some ice in my sisters car. She hit the front and back, so it has damage, but she's alright and out watching a theatre show :P
Ahh, at least she's alright though~ :) thats all that matters.
Made some dumplings for my puddin' cake to have later when she comes back~ mwahahah! Also have some frozen wonton for her to have later too. You guys can test out my amazing cooking...or...my amazing burning -_-;
Anyway, ya, I go do work now, as I have procrastinated the...6 hours I've been away :P
pEace~
Wicked ass dream!
Woah! I just had a great dream..
Involving me being a ninja...
Lets see what I can remember...
I was living in a small village, and it was attacked and I was one of the strongest ninja's in the village so I fought against the evil ninja's that were trying to kill the village.
They suceeded in destroying the village, and I think I killed them. Because I killed them, the group the ninja was a part of wanted to kill me. So I run to the next village. They chase me down and I'm in some sorta Japanese house, and I think some other Ninja guy comes (he was sexy like too) and he started to fight me. We faught and faught, and then I was like..."Why are you trying to kill me?! Geez!" Kinda thing (I dont remember the dialogue all that well), and he was like "Because you destroyed my village!" or something like that. And then we stopped fighting and talked for a while figuring out that I didnt destroy the village and we both had the same objective. (In the washroom no less) And then one of the ninja's who attacked my village and got away came into the washroom, and I was hiding. (Oh ya, somewhere in the middle of the chat I had to take a piss and made him look away, lol, I think we flirted a little too) I think I was still turned around so the evil ninja didnt bother me (yet it was a small washroom with one toilet, maybe I went invisiable to her) and we heard the evil ninja talking on the phone with her boss. I motioned to the dude to kill her cause she was part of the evil group. And so he did after she hung up the phone so her boss wouldnt know.
We ran out, now working together, and noticed some people running away because the place we were in was some sorta temple. I ran down and chased after them and he watched as I faught them and killed them. It was some sorta low level ninja that didnt really know what to do so it was easy. I stabbed him and he fell, and dropped some book. I took it and I felt bad cause the ninja was just an informent...so I healed him (with my magical ninja healing I guess..lol) and I took away his sight, hearing and voice, so he couldnt inform them cause I was a special healing ninja, no one else could heal him. I let him go and jumped back over to the tree where the other good ninja was sitting (I duno his name). He only had one big sword, with a sort of...edge on it that hooked...maybe I'll draw it later. But we sat there for a little as he told me more about these evil ninja's he's been watching. He said they labelled points on a map, 1 2 3 4 5 etc, and he wanted to protect his village from further harm, and it was at point 5, my village was point 1. The evil ninjas planned to make walls connecting all the villages so it would be an extreme defense and if they owned the walls, they would be able to take over the place more easily. Imagine the map was with 1 starting at the bottom left, and then it was the shape of a star, with the other 4 villages at the other points of the star.
I sorta heard the other evil ninja's talking about it before somehow and so I knew they were at 4 by now. I told him and he calculated the time it would take to get to 5 and he said 4 minutes...even tho we were at like 2...I guess we ran really fast? So we ran...then I kinda forgot what happened there...
Then somehow we were on a boat. Him, me, a girl, a really big strong guy, and a normal sized guy. And we were on our way to meet the evil guys who were floating on this tiny island...and there were about 8 of them. The guy that was with me from the beginning slashed (cause he was super powerful) in the air and it went and cut through the air and would cut the people, but they did that too counteracting it. I figured...why dont I try that, so I do that with my two ninja swords and they block them or mine dont go far enough cause I'm not as good as the other guy. But at least mine could block theirs for me, but the girl got hit (who I was apparently in love with or liking or something) She got knocked off the boat and floated ontop of the water. I screamed and did the whole...OH NO!! I'll save you!! But couldnt somehow...and she died. After she died the guy with me from the beginning left and was like, "Take care of them" and I was like..."what?!" and he jumped away. We felt betrayed (the rest of us there.) and he was gone. So I got mad and started slashing and I think the big guy protected me, and the other guy died or something. So I slash like crazy and start actually hurting the bad guys. Then I see the ninja that left us over there with them not fighting, and I got EXTRA mad cause I think it was a whole plot to kill the girl or something. So I go on a super mad rampage killing all of those evil ninjas with one slice, and then I jump on the roof of the boat and over to the land where the traitor ninja went, and I chase him down while all these other ninja lackies come through, I slash through them chasing this guy still. Lots more of this.
I catch up to him on some roof top, and he's all like..."Its done" And I was like "WAHT!?" obviously still mad. And he was all "I had to do that, to release your power" or something stupid like that, and somehow I forgave him cause he had a good reason. We go back to the place where we first met and sat in the same tree. I kinda just leaned against the tree tired like after the huge battle thing, and he sat there with one leg up on the tree one leg dangling down and his sword kinda over his shoulder and then he put his hand on my thy slowly rubbing it and I was like...!?!?!? and then he gave me a look and it was the end.
I think, I dont really remember it all that well, there was a LOT of details I missed out of lack of memory...
but this was my cool ass ninja dream :)
Note
You might wana download the font I put in my 'downloads' section to see this site the way it should be~
Also, added a few more links as you will see, Genie's blog is here now. Also added a good site to download fonts, and Go-Gaia, also some lyric sites that I use~
Enjoy :)
New Layout!
Wee!
Its here people!!
YAY!
New layout is here~!
lalalalalal :)
I enjoy it...I dont care what you people think :P
I lie...what do you think? :)
New Layout~
Oh yes, tonight I shall be working on a new layout (When I should be working on the flash website, or perhaps more of my animation...but I rather not, so nya~)
Be prepared for...either extreme uglyness or extreme beauty ^^
Christmas Shopping with Cookie!
Wee~
Today was actually pretty fun, though I coulda been doing some work I didnt feel like it :P
Meh, I can spend tomorrow and the next day and the next day and the next day doing work ^^ Then I'm off school for Christmas break and wisdom teeth removal~ WEE!!...-_-
But thankies to Christine for easing my mind about that, cause she says its not so bad :)
Anyways, we went shopping today, found some nice stuff, possibly a gift for ma puddin' cake :P Unless...i end up doing something else for her ;)
Saw potential gifts for my sisters and brother, all not for horrible prices. Vicki's gift wasnt there, so I think I have to think up a new one, I found one that might encompass two gifts I was thinking of giving her...so hm...I'll talk to Grace bout that.
I love this time of year ^^
All filled with love and thoughtful-ness, friends and family~ Thinking i might be interested in someone again..only thinking though, we'll not get into that ;)
Also tried not doing anythign with my hair today and just left it after I washed it and went out, and its not so bad :) Its actually pretty nice if I do say so myself, which I do say, so nya~!
I have plans galore, galore I say ^^
Still havent heard from Eric to see if he's coming to my christmas thing with grace vicks n catherine, but he might have forgotten -_-
This year is gonna be so great :) I think the shoppin with Christine got me in the mood for Christmas~ Now, its time to break out the Christmas music and decorations :) Woo hoo for CHristmas :) A great ending to a horrible year~
Well, I must say though...though it was quite a horrible year, it provided me with a lot of growing opportunities, which I am proud to say I have taken advantage of. I feel more complete, more whole, more self-confident and happy because of this year. I've learned a lot and I will continue to learn more :P
Things really do happen for a reason. ;)
pEace~
Damn MSN
It doesnt go automatically away for me anymore!!
Grr!!
So I keep getting messages from people while I'm asleep, or not home or whatever...
Stupid MSN...Stupid!
I get upstairs around 8pm, and I see all these stupid message boxes up...most with...'are you there? are you mad?'
Aiya...
Anyways,
Today was a pretty tame day, didnt have much class stuff to do. Interesting presentation on battered women today. A lady from the Yellow Brick House came in, poor women that get beaten...man, it makes me feel so bad. I feel liek going over and beating up the guys that beat their wives. Its so sick...
But then all period we talked about how women were being controlled, and how its so bad for them, and I totally agree, but I was wondering if that ever happened to guys. Were there guys that were controlled? Maybe not beaten, but certainly controlled. Possibly told that they were ugly, and stupid by the women to keep them under control...thats how the men do it to the women anyway...plus the beating...I must have had a disgusted face all period after hearing all those stories the woman told us.
I feel bad for the women, but I'd also have liked to learn if it happened to men, and the times it happens to men, cause I'm sure it does. Of course its more likely for women cause of the world we live in...but I'd still like to hear it.
Anyways...
Watched part of Dante's Peak in Earth Space Sci, and we ended at the part where everyone was screaming and frantically trying to get out of the city. And then I had to walk home, and I was all feeling rushed, it was funnie :P Well, I also felt rushed cause the wind was frigging coldd~! Damn wind!
Well, this was the kinda day its been~
Some thoughts, some reflections, blahb lahb alhb
pEace~
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Ineteristng isn't it?
Dido - Life for Rent
"Life For Rent"
I haven't really ever found a place that I call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize that once again I'm not in love
But it's not as if I mind
that your heart ain't exactly breaking
It's just a thought, only a thought
But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
I've always thought
that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone
and live my life more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me
It's just a thought, only a thought
But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down
While I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try
Well how can I say I'm alive
If my life is for rent...
...
I'm scared.
Deeply, deeply scared out of my mind.
Why? I dont know. It was partly from that horrible horrible dream I had earlier today...
I dont know...
I'm just scared...
oiHG
I lie, I dont wana keep my hair long-ish.
Cut it goes asap.
I also hate essay...
lalala
essay sucks
lalalal
kiss my ass essay.
alalalala
I am the master of procrastination...
Oyness...
I put up the Christmas tree this weekend with my cousins, yay for us~ Yay for Christmas~ Family and Friends and fun~ The 3 F's :P Life wouldnt be the same without it~
Anyways...imma go, kinda feeling down right now, i think its all the work.
Ewww...
Bad dream, baddd badd dream.
Strange and bad dreaam..
I dont even remember it all or how it worked but it was bad..and not fun..and BAD..
UGH..
And now I do hwk...pEace...
*shudders at thought of bad dream*
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I duno what to put for a title today :P
lots of work to do...but i still procrastinate~
Wowwies, my hair is long...
It needs serious cut-age, but my mother is busy and so am I...
So not cut-age for a while..
After...tuesday? or perhaps wednesday I'll be done major projects and tests~ And then basically its break timeee :)
Maybe I wont cut my hair..and let it grow longer..but I dont wana.
Its just kinda fun to flick around again :P
We'll see, if I dont like it by Christmas, I cut it all off~
Anyways...
Quote of the day
'Pie pie, we're gonna have pie! We're gonna have a good pie! REAL SOON!'
- Hammy Hamster and friends
Nothing overly eventful happened toady. Played with cousins and put up xmas tree..thats bout it~
Time for sleep or shower...or both!
pEace~ :)
Quick Quiz~
Check it out-lah~
White Rose
Your soul is bound to the
White Rose: The
Pure.
"I've been waiting in the dark for a long
time, shining my beacon of hope through the
shadow. If you see me, don't you hide your
eyes from me."
The White Rose is associated with purity, honor,
and chastity. It is governed by the goddess
Artemis and its sign is The Cross, or Agape.
As a White Rose, you are a person of your word.
You may have a strong moral code, but
regardless of your virtue, you always stay true
to yourself. To you, love is the most pure of
emotional forms and it's just a matter of
waiting for it to bless you. Some people may
say you are too idealistic, but it's only
because you don't want to mess things up.
What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To? brought to you by Quizilla
I'm a wussy man-bitch..
Geeeeez...
Why am I such a wussy man-bitch!?
I was watching Boston Public, and some kid is being racially profiled as a terrorist because she's arab...and people were picking on her, and threw a bottle at her, and one of the teachers came out and helped her and gawd...
Iuno whats wrong with me but I started crying?
See, Wussy man-bitch!
I duno why, I just was thinking about how stupid some people can be...
I guess it just took a stab at my idealism...and that is rather painful...for me anyway. This coming from the boy who thought that racism was only a thing on TV until High School...
*sigh*
Ahh well, the wussy man-bitch is going back to TV.
pEace~
Eeeeee~
Studying is lameeeeeeeer~!
Rather large quiz tomorrow, and I've procrastinated until...1am :P
And NOW I start to study, lame? Yes, I agree :P
O wells~
Time to study!
pEace~
Happiness ^^
You know...
I'm a happy boy right now ^^
Why? I dont know. I'm just content with how everything is right now. I mean...
School is fine, Friends are fine, I am fine, Family is fine, everything is going well :)
Things could be better granted, but they could be worse. I'm just all happy right now~
Learning to be happier with what I have, its great ^^
I had something to talk about...I forgot....
I think it was perception, or something...
I was thinking about it on the way to school, and how people perceive things. I mean, a lot of people will go with their pre-concieved notions about people when interpretting what people say. Example, If I were to say, "I did well on this test! I'm so happy!" If someone had a positive perception of me, they could think "Good for him! I'm happy for you!" but if they had a negative perception they could think "You loser, stop bragging!" It all depends on what the person thinks.
This concept is rather easy to understand, but I think its really stupid. Things shouldnt be based on YOUR perception, it should be based on what the person actually meant when saying "I did well on a test!"
I'm guilty of letting my negative perception get the better of me, so I dont blame people for letting this happen. It is something I'm trying to get passed though, filter out my bias when people are telling me something, and try and think the best of them until they prove me wrong.
I mean...if someone thinks that you always do something, like complain or whatever, and label you as a complainer, they can make a lot of things seem like you're complaining when you're really not and just wanted to tell a story or whatever.
Ahh well, one day we'll all get passed this, lets hope its only an issue while we're young, so when we mature and grow up things will be better. :)
Flash Dream >_<
I just had a weird not fun dream.
Borderline nightmare I guess.
I wasnt scary, just VERY irritating! Stupid animating..I was dreaming about FLASH...FLASH DAMNIT!! And I was trying to animate an arm moving...and somehow I did it wrong and had to do it over and over and over and I lost track of what was going on so I didnt know what I was animating anymore and I kept having this feeling that I HAD to finish it, or else something bad would happen kinda thing...but I really really really didnt wana do it, but I was still animating... Gawd damnit!! That is how I was while animating...sorta, but I at least SORTA knew what I was doing..gawd damn.
Anyways, I dont have to go to school until 11am, and somehow my body wakes me up at 6am...bastards! So I played some diablo...but I really dont have much to do, cept an essay for this weekend, and my other flash project...but all I can do is think about it right now because I need some sorta outline before I do any work.
Well, I could research it..but why would I wana do that right now? :)
Good song.
Dido - Life for Rent
Nice message.
Gonna go shower or something...pEace~
you are cyan
#00FFFF |
Your dominant hues are green and blue. You're smart and you know it, and want to use your power to help people and relate to others. Even though you tend to battle with yourself, you solve other people's conflicts well.
Your saturation level is very high - you are all about getting things done. The world may think you work too hard but you have a lot to show for it, and it keeps you going. You shouldn't be afraid to lead people, because if you're doing it, it'll be done right.
Your outlook on life is very bright. You are sunny and optimistic about life and others find it very encouraging, but remember to tone it down if you sense irritation.
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| the spacefem.com html color quiz |
Sorta sounds like me I think. Also one of my favourite colours! Hurrah for me ^^ Not so sure about working hard...well, I work hard when I know I need to. More so lately than I have before, like actually studying, and doing projects all night...:P So maybe I have turned into a hard-worker...aHH!! NOOO!!!...but true, marks do reflect it ^^
I feel smart~
Yay! I feel smart today~
I realise that feelings smart and accomplished makes me extra happy and feel like doing more work and being a 'good' boy. Opposed to being a bastard and rebellious towards my parents~ :P
When I dont do well, I feel like ass, then I feel like being rebellious, why? I dont know, it just goes like that. But I found out today that I got 20/20, 20/20, 20/20 and 38/40 on this project for Human Growth ^^ Plus, I was rather satisfied with my animation, so it all kinda turned out nice ^^
So I feel happy, and I feel like making my parents happy, so I do cleaning and stuff and I'm all nice :)
But if I do badly, then I feel like being mean and whatever...strange, why? I dont know. Honestly, I dont care :P Just gonna have to work around it.
Anywaaaaaays~
Gonna go do something. Not sure what, but I'll fig smthg out~
pEace~
FINISHED!!!
YAHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FINALLY FINISHED MY ANIMATION PROJECT!!
In 2 days...opposed to the 4 weeks I had to do the project. I'm also rather pleased with it...well most of it...the rest of it is ASS, pure ASS, but it is done at 7:30am!!!
THough I had no sleep tonight, I cant sleep or else I wont wake up...so what do I do...
If I do anything requiring brain power I will fall asleep...
Maybe I could play some games :P
Anyways...
What else...I learned a lot yesterday watching lots of discovery health channel~ Learned a lot of new important things!
We'll not go into that tho~ ;)
I wonder how we post something in flash online...
I wana see if I can put a link to my animation on my blog...
I'll figure it out later...too lacking in brain power right now :)
Ummmm...anything else eventful happen this weekend? Had a nice dinner at Grace's place, thx Grace and her family!
Puddin' Cake, Hang in there!! You can make it through and come back to Unionville soon!! We'll party and what not :) Plan that schedule, PLAN IT HARD!! lol :P
I'm feeling very happy right now...its all about the finishing of a project. lalalalal :D
Okies, I go waste time doing something else, GAWD its cold, why do I wear a sleeveless shirt as PJ's when its winter...I should re-think this.
