Dreams.

Life~

Today I met Puddin' cakes roomie, Raquel. It was really nice to meetcha ^^ Today was a lot of fun :P Sorrie for making you walk so far~ hahahaha :P Hopefully we'll be able to do something tomorrow too if you can stay in this crazy tiny town of ours long enough~

lol Raquel had some REALLY funnie stories~ It was great :) We had a nice long chat and stuffies, it was all good~ Everything is good :) I feel physically good, mentally good, and pretty darn happy :) Could be happier, could be unhappier, but who cares~ I think I might have to talk to my mother about lightening up a bit (HAH! Who'd have thought I would be a person to tell someone to be less uptight :P) And to just enjoy the holidays and not be so pushy about cleaning and whatever, cause its christmas, a time for family to be happy and everyone just to be happy.

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Kinda been reflecting a LOT lately. This year...from one point of view, sucked complete ass. But, thats not the way I'm looking at it, the way I look at it, this year was a year of growth, maturity, discovery, realisation...the list continues. I've realised how lucky I am, I've realised that there is no limit to what you can do. I've discovered how to not take things for granted, I've discovered how to fight through pain and loss and become stronger for it.

To be honest, without a few people, I would not be where I am now. Feeling secure, happy, and good. Though I think someone may be feeling guilty (I hope they arent, and this is just an assumption I can only hope is just that) about things that have happened, they shouldnt because I feel amazing, and I have for the passed few weeks. I see more clearly what I want, I see more clearly how I want things to be, and hope that somehow that experienced helped them in a positive way too. The bitter and petty feelings have long since died down and all that is left is acceptance and feelings of contentment. There is still so much more to learn from this, and it'll all come clear to me in time, and I hope it comes clear to you.

Hahaha, because of this and a few other things, I've learned to become less uptight, much less uptight. Life is good again...I think thats why I was always happy in gr. 11...

Well, a lot has happened in this year, I'm not going to say I'm sad its coming to an end, but its definately a time for reflection, and growth, which is probably the best thing that could happen in a year. I dont doubt that horrible things will happen next year, that would be far too naive...even for me. But I do know that I will be able to handle them because this year has given me that much more strength.

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I bet most people didnt read this cause its hellah long, so I wrap up :)

Some important stuff was in here for some peoples, i hope you read it ;)

I'm out~

loVe~ (opposed to pEace~ I find that getting old and dont like other people using it -_-)

posted by Bradimon @ 3:00 a.m.