Dreams.

Nostalgia strikes again!

Wicked - As Long as You're Mine.

Ahhh...those memories...hahah. I love this song for what it represents in my mind.

That is all, 4 pages into this essay!...and its 2pm...FUCK!

posted by Bradimon @ 2:37 p.m. 0 comments

Post 975

Wow! 975...though there are many private posts you guys cannot see...:P

So wow, that's a lot of posts...when I hit 1000...I think I will have a party...on...my blog. Or maybe a new layout or something for it.

So I'm just hungry and waiting for my sister to come home to go to my brother's to plan a birthday celebration for my mother. She's old, like me. But older :P

Okay, so I found out an interesting thing the other day. My mother wrote down every present that someone gave her for my birth, and whether she thanked them or not, and kept this list of info and other things! My mom is cute.

Okay, going now! Bye!!

posted by Bradimon @ 5:35 p.m. 0 comments

I think my crayon is running out.

So I'm kinda sick and tired of being coloured with bitchy brown and bitter blue. I miss sunshine yellow and peppy pink! But today I open a new package that is all pastel colours :P

Damn this wounded ego of mine hiding in the corner, crying like a little bitch...right beside my pride. Ego, you need to get over yourself, other people are more important than you anyways! Stop your blubbering!

So lets start with peppy pink today and move on from there. WEE!

posted by Bradimon @ 3:21 p.m. 0 comments

Drunk-fest 2006.

So I got reaaaaaaaaal drunk yesterday...haahhahaah. Drunk enough NOT to puke, but still drunk enough to be stupid and slutty. hahahah!

First I gota say, thanks to everyone who came! It was sooo fun! I hope everyone had a lot of fun! Special thanks to:
Brian & Alvi - That polo shirt is really nice! I <3 you guys!
Cheryl - Martini set rocks! I wana make bubble tea with it too!!
DanDan - Pinata! We'll whack it later for the candy filling! :D
Lil Drew - Woo! Brad always loves clothes :P
Jay - Hahaha, I always need more hair stuff...always!
Brendan - I told you not to get me anything! Thanks for the thought! I really actually am enjoying this case for my PSP way too much...it has holes and stuff for everything and its all protectededed now :) Thanks :P

Everyone - Thanks for coming! Your coming was great and I couldnt ask for more :)

Thanks guys! <3

So...for those of you who want to see the drunken pictures...they are here http://bry-bry.com/gallery.html. Thanks Brian for taking pictures! <3 Though I look like a drunk monster in it...:P

I hope you all had fun! Thanks for coming and making the day so fun! <3

posted by Bradimon @ 2:47 p.m. 0 comments

Question & Weird dream!

When someone you think has bad taste thinks you're attractive...does that mean you're not attractive to yourself?

Okay, probably not, but still makes me wonder. Oh my insecurities, how I love thee.

So I randomly dreamt about the Buffy Musical...but not Buffy in it...it was Me, Ed, Fatima, Christine, Taina and Sonia! Whats up with that?! Of course Taina and Sonia were Willow and Tera's song...and the rest of us just sang some of the group songs...bizzaro!

posted by Bradimon @ 5:17 p.m. 0 comments

Melissa O'Neil FOREVER!

So her concert was AMAZING. Notice, Melissa O'Neil's concert, and not Rex Goudie and Melissa O'Neil. I like to refer to him as the openning act. Though the overweight teenagers behind us seemed to enjoy him quite a bit and had some bizarro disdain for our beautiful Melissa O'Neil. Despite the chunky comments from behind, I thoroughly enjoyed Melissa's half of the show.

Ed says it best. One of Melissa's expressions is like 100,000 of Rex's little kicks. Okay, I dont remember EXACTLY what Ed said, but it was along those lines. Now is not the time to compare Rex and Melissa because there is no comparison. So I will gush more about this show I l-l-l-lovvvedddd. Her voice is amazing! And the cute little changes to the songs were brilliant!

I didnt care too much for the lowered part in "Speechless" at the part where she says "Its the words we dont say that get in the way." but it was still really good. She also sang "Alone" and "Kiss from a Rose". SOooooooooo goood. I got some pictures of her singing and a bit of a video before I found out that we were supposed to video :(

When she sang "Let it Go" it was awesomeeee. Fat BrEaD stood up and we were all like Whaaaaaat! Yah! With our arms in the air like the gangster (wannabe) asians we are! Hahahah So funny! Melissa has so much personality and so much poise, she's amazing! I urge you all to buy her CD, or I will buy you her CD for your birthday or Christmas or whatever occasion I can! Hahaha, when she sang "Alive" she let the crowd sing the chorus and it was so good! We sucked SO bad but it was so fun!

I can't wait for the DVD of her concert to come out! I'm so in love with this woman! We shouted "We love you Melissa!" and she made a cute little gesture to her eyes, then made a heart with her hands, then did a peace sign...SO CUTE! And in Speechless when she was dancing the little "I'm like your puppet" line and her little puppet dance...SO HOT!

Ohhh...Melissa...You're AWESOME! Never stop singing :P Ed bought a T-shirt, I bought a wristband, Fatima bought both! hahahaha! Fat BrEaD is fun :P Alvi and Ken were there laughin' it up with us! It was soooooo good! Though we kinda just...sat through the Rex part unamused.

I'm so happy right now...Melissa for Prime Minister!

posted by Bradimon @ 12:45 a.m. 0 comments

Boo~!

So, I'm again kinda mad at these warcraft people and everyone is telling me that I shouldnt care just because they're online people and it should be one of my lowest priorities...which is fairly true. I mean...It should be a low priority, and it is definately lower than school and work and friends, but it still does matter. I mean, they're still living, breatheing (I'm gimpy with spelling...I think you've realized this if you've read my blog before) people right? They got feelings like the rest of us and I do care about them even through the computer screen.

This is why I get so upset when people are stupid online. I know it is a different type of community and stuff, but it seems that people undermine these people's feelings because it's online. I find a general lack of empathy online come to think of it. You know, I really enjoy empathy, when people are empathetic they generally care. Caring is good, I like when people care. Well...I dont know where I'm going with this...I just dont want to go to work and I'm planning what I gota say to my guild to yell at some of them for being idiots..

Sigh. Happy Birthday again me!...Work and School and when I get home...games...which is really work trying to keep people together...haahhah, life is exciting aint it? :P

posted by Bradimon @ 6:20 a.m. 0 comments

Happy Birthday Me!

I'm old. WEE!

posted by Bradimon @ 1:02 a.m. 0 comments

Fuck you.

So here's a big FUCK YOU, to everything.

I'm just really mad at the lack of responsible people out there. REALLY mad. Why do I have to be the only person taking care of shit it seems. Well, not in all respects of life, but at least at work, and at least in warcraft. For some reason I'm picking up all the slack at work for training these new people, and no one cares to give me a break, though i have school and shit to do after work. Why do these people not have a greater work ethic or sense of responsibility to whom they are employed with. So instead I clean up after all. FUCK YOU!

Warcraft almost isnt worth talking about, but I have to tell you how stupid some fucking people are. Clearly I'm very mad as I continually insert "fucking" or "fuck you" into each sentence. Really...you cant organize shit yourself and take your own initiative to form your own groups and then blame ME because I'm the leader? Where the hell do you get off doing this? Because I'm not around to help people by saying "Hey, get this group together!" it's MY fault? Why do people direct blame to me because I'm the leader? Why cant they do things on their own? Do I run a guild of incompetent boobs?! GOD! LEARN SOMETHING!!!

And lastly, a big fuck you to those people who think your problems are worse than mine. Fuck you because as narcassistic as I am, I can at least understand that people's pain is all PAIN, and that no matter how stupid it is to them, they are feeling it. Even though I have shit that I deem worse than others, it doesnt make their problems less painful. I can deal with other people's problems while going through my own shit, and I acknowledge that they're having problems and try to talk them through it, how hard is that to do? To put yourself in someone else's shoes and at least put your shit on hold for maybe 5seconds to talk to them and try to make them feel better. You dont gota say something like "Oh, well thats nothing, today this and this and this and that and this and that happened to me, so you should feel lucky." Of course they understand that you feel upset too, but that doesnt help them! Pain is pain, dont bother talking to me to tell me your problems are worse. I know there are worse things in the world, but that doesnt make my pain go away.

I'm just having a stressful week and I needed to vent. Sorry for being mean and whatever and the swearing and junk but I'm just extremely disappointed in...everything. Maybe I should take my own advice and get over myself.

posted by Bradimon @ 2:42 p.m. 0 comments

So this is growing up...

It seems that as I get older I have more responsibility, so much that it seems hard to even celebrate my birthday. I mean, of course there is saturday which everyone is invited to, but the actual day of my birthday I will be working from 7am - 1pm, then going to school from 6 - 8, which means leaving at 4:30pm latest, and getting back at 9pm earliest...Seems people cant take my shifts because they arent as trusted, and I cant manage to get tomorrow off to do my school work since I wont be able to do it throughout the week. I suppose this isnt a big problem because I can do it this coming weekend because it's not due until next next thursday...but 2 assignments are due then and I'd like to start on them...

I've already started one 1 that I got yesterday a bit, but I need time to do more...and this week I'm pretty much booked. If the Melissa concert doesnt go through, I dont know where my relief is going to be. I hate feeling responsible for this job...but I dont like screwing people over no matter if they've done it to me over and over. It's like battered employee syndrome...god damn. I'll try to budget my time better this week, I guess it's a test to be more motivated and plan things more. Life isnt going to get any easier right? So I pretty much gotta pull my act together. I mean if I'm 21 in 3 days I should be acting my age.

I still will try my best to have fun, but I guess I wont be able to be as carefree as I'd like. I gota work hard for myself, improve myself before I do anything else, then maybe I can relax. Time to plan out my schedule for this week. Hopefully this 21st birthday will mark a more determined Brad that won't be as weak.

posted by Bradimon @ 2:45 a.m. 0 comments

Sunshine Lollipops and..

Raindrops and roses and whiskers on kittens? Wait...wrong song.

Hahha, so things are looking up, well some are also looking very down. I might be manager at Second Cup soon...which is less cool because it means I might have to be more committed to this job I hate. Bright side is obvious, more money and power. But still, I want to leave and it makes me feel guiltier for leaving because he needs me right now. To that thought my dad says "Well if the shoe were on the other foot..." which is true, I know he'd leave me if I needed my boss anyway, but just cause he's a loser and would do it, why would I wana be like him? Imagine!...wait dont...*shudder*

In other news, I'm going to be old soon! Woot woot! In...*in creepy whispery voice from the TV* 7 days...mwahah! Party coming up! For those of you who I didnt invite...I meant to invite, because really anyone is welcome to come, I just had your name slip my mind or something...which I am very sorry for. Too many names...:( But I tried to include as many people as I could! I havent asked everyone yet, getting around to it slowly...too lazy to call people, so waiting for them to be on MSN, hahaa. (I hate evites...cause I dont have an account...)

So the big 2-1...It doesnt seem that special, but another year has gone by...wow...who would have thought that everything could change so drastically in a year...and yet have some things stay exactly the same. I think I'm going to make some predictions for the year on my birthday and see how they pan out! Maybe next year I'll be famous for...creating something cool!..like a variation on a spoon! hahaha.

What was I doing this time last year? Hmm...I was chillin' with my good old roomies playing games, probably X-Men Legends, hahaha. Good times good times, I havent seen a lot of them in a while...cept for Andrew who I just saw today...I hope everyone is doing well.

So now my head is starting to feel heavy and so are my eyes, so this is a good sign to sleep!

posted by Bradimon @ 4:33 a.m. 0 comments

Holy hell.

So...how are there such stupid people in this world? Okay, I mean, I know there are stupid people in the world, but I'd like to believe that most of them arent just jackasses for no good reason.

There should be a certain amount of etiquette online. I mean, just because people are online it doesnt mean that you have a liscence to be a complete jackass, though it seems as though that's what many people use it for. I mean, using it as an outlet for your jackass-ish nature is stupid because there are still people on the other end of the screen that have the same feelings as they would if you were a jackass in person, yet you feel less guilt because you cant see them!

Okay, this really just stems from warcraft because some idiot joined our games, and then waited for it to load, then left for the sake of leaving and irritating people. The only problem with this is that you have to wait a while to make a new game, and then everyone gets upset, and then it takes another 5 - 10 min to get a game started again. It's just irritating, but someone made us redo this twice in a row because they just felt like it. Why would someone do that!? Just to irritate people...god some people have deeper more harmful issues than I do.

I know there are idiots out there, but I'm still so surprised when I meet one. Maybe cause most of the time the people I know and hang around arent idiots, so seeing one do something upclose just boggles my mind. Frig, I try to be nice...I understand if you gota leave because your friends came on or something, but when you just leave to piss people off...ugh. Who pisses people off without knowing them for the sake of it!............Clearly it worked too.

*deep breath*

So, I watched Memoirs of a Geisha today, it was pretty nice. Nothing spectacular, but it was sweet. Makes me think about how my heart is nice and iced. Except I wont have a prince come at the end and save it, cause this isnt a movie. I think I'm fairly okay with my heart being iced right now though. I'll use some lock de-icer eventually, but for now, I want to be cold. Sometimes it's easier than dealing with emotions. Now I know I'd normally not shy away from dealing with emotions, but I'm just tired right now, and I want to have a break. Screw you all :) It's not like it'll be forever, just for now. Now is the time to relax.

posted by Bradimon @ 4:22 p.m. 0 comments