Dreams.

So this is growing up...

It seems that as I get older I have more responsibility, so much that it seems hard to even celebrate my birthday. I mean, of course there is saturday which everyone is invited to, but the actual day of my birthday I will be working from 7am - 1pm, then going to school from 6 - 8, which means leaving at 4:30pm latest, and getting back at 9pm earliest...Seems people cant take my shifts because they arent as trusted, and I cant manage to get tomorrow off to do my school work since I wont be able to do it throughout the week. I suppose this isnt a big problem because I can do it this coming weekend because it's not due until next next thursday...but 2 assignments are due then and I'd like to start on them...

I've already started one 1 that I got yesterday a bit, but I need time to do more...and this week I'm pretty much booked. If the Melissa concert doesnt go through, I dont know where my relief is going to be. I hate feeling responsible for this job...but I dont like screwing people over no matter if they've done it to me over and over. It's like battered employee syndrome...god damn. I'll try to budget my time better this week, I guess it's a test to be more motivated and plan things more. Life isnt going to get any easier right? So I pretty much gotta pull my act together. I mean if I'm 21 in 3 days I should be acting my age.

I still will try my best to have fun, but I guess I wont be able to be as carefree as I'd like. I gota work hard for myself, improve myself before I do anything else, then maybe I can relax. Time to plan out my schedule for this week. Hopefully this 21st birthday will mark a more determined Brad that won't be as weak.

posted by Bradimon @ 2:45 a.m.