Oww...my idealism hurts :(
Oh man...
It wounds me to think that there are such idiots out in this world of ours. I understand now, more than before, how this world gets destroyed.
Its from idiots that have no regard for anyone but themselves. Snide, rude, inconsiderate idiots. I wont name names, but most of you know who I'm talking about. Honestly, it disgusts me to see how callous someone can be! I mean, sure, we arent on talking terms because I didnt do something (that I thought was unreasonable of you to ask me to do) that you commanded me to do. So you have to be immature and stop talking to me. I can accept that, its your life.
However, what I do not accept is when your stupidity leads you to make a stupid snide comment to someone else knowing that I'm right there. Thats simply just the most ridiculous thing I've seen in years. I mean...you talk about being immature, or being 'in high school' still...hahahahhaha...I dont think your brain even got to high school, its still stuck in kindergarden.
It pains me to see that there are such morons in the world...and to think...I thought I knew the worst of them in Unionville...really not...really not...
Oh well, I'm just really using this to vent. I dont think the person knows about this site...honestly, I dont really care if they do. I hope you know what I think about you. Good luck in life :)
The Grudge!
Woah, that movies was really scary!
I mean...Ju-On was more...I guess mentally scary, but The Grudge was more startling scary and in the moment you're freaked out, but afer it doesnt leave you creeped out. Or at least thats what I find anyway.
Sarah Michelle Gellar was in Japan talking Japanese...that was weird, but I dont think she did too bad :)
<3 for her.
Har har har
You know...
It seems that the people who think they're the most mature, or who try to be the most mature...are really the least mature of people.
I mean, I'll definately admit, I'm not the most mature person out there, and I dont want to be. I'm not necessarily immature, but I dont really act mature. There's a huge difference between acting and being mature. I think if you act mature, you arent mentally mature to actually be mature because you shouldnt be acting in the first place. But thats just my thoughts on it, and I could be wrong.
Where is all this random stuff coming from you ask? Well...I shouldnt, and wont say.
Quick Little Thought
I'm starting to question helping people.
Why do we help people? To be nice? Why is that nice? How is that engrained into our skulls? Whats so good about helping people? Is it natural?
I'm starting to wonder if its against our nature to help people. Evolution wouldnt happen if we did. If we werent shallow, if we werent picky about our mates, then unfavourable genes would go move on, creating possibly more problems in the world.
This is just an idea I'm throwing out there, cause I'm not even sure if I like it yet...but it is certainly intriguing to me.
I'm thinking about this because I'm trying to think about what I want to do as a career. Because if I do become a lawyer, or a social worker...I'm working with people, helping people. Which is all fine and dandy, but I'm not sure if I agree with that right now. I mean...I feel like I should be going with nature...and following what it has planned for humans. By helping them, am I defying nature? Or has nature given us the ability to help them and therefore we should?
I'm so confused right now...any comments on this people? It'd be a nice topic to discuss.
Charmed!
Woah!
I'm glad that the writing in Charmed is getting better! Or maybe they just planned it this way from the beginning. This season there is an 'unknown force' that us uber strong that somehow, everyone knows about...cept the sisters of course. This episode, we got to see that it was the Avatars from season 5, the ones that tried to make Cole join them (right before he died). I'm so impressed that they actually remembered to put them in! This season is so great so far! Actually, the last couple episodes of season 6 were good too, they managed to tie in some of the old things that only die hard old fans would have known about!
It makes me feel warm and tingly inside to see that they're doing stuff like that! :)
Piper's powers are also advancing sorta. Her exploding power can now be done without gesturing at all. She blew up a lamp and toaster today just by being mad, lol.
Somehow...the storyline has also dropped out random things...like today they turned into wolves because of a double blue moon...why? No explaination...but whatever...?
Charmed is the bestest. WEE!
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I just finished watching Amelie, that french movie that some people had to watch in english gr. 12...
Its pretty sweet and cute and all that jazz...and its so optumistic that it kinda makes me sad. Not because its optumistic, but because...things happen in that movie, sure its accelerated and things do happen in real life too, but nothing that serenditutous has happened to me.
I'm just feeling a bit trapped. I feel tied down to school, to my roommates and I dont feel like I can truly express myself right now. I dont feel like me anymore. Unless my good friends are there...when Grace, Christine or Catherine come to visit, I feel normal again. I feel like I can be myself and just relax and joke around...
I dont know why I dont feel like that all the of the time here...
But I have to break out of this shell...I should speak my mind more. But thats hard to do without stepping on people's toes...I feel like I'm walking on egg shells because I dont want to rub someone the wrong way. I think I know why this is...
There are a few reasons why...and I need to sort them out...why this right before the week of midterms.
Unbelievable
Oh man...
This stupid fire alarm has been going foreverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...
4 times it woke me up...4! -_-
Blah.
Okay, well...
I find myself losing my ability to tolerate people. I guess if someone pushes my buttons properly, I'll push back.
Still searching for that lost side of me...
Man...it was easier back in the day...but now...i duno. I'll figure things out...In the mean time...there is always school to keep me busy! WEE!
Quiz and more!
I havent done these in a while! I miss them :(
I agree with most of it...I'm not exactly the MOST mature person, but I dont think I'm exactly immature. Go figure?
You're the color white. Sweet and virginal, you're
seen as the purest of all the colors.
Generally generous, and extremely caring,
people see you as the happiest in the bunch.
You're always talking and running around. You
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cleanliness--oh my gosh. You're a mix between
a perfectionist and a neat-freak. (but that's
okay. ^^). Besides that, you're painfully
plain, and immature. However, aside from your
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Well...
I duno, today was a little weird. I had an off day. I wasnt overly happy feeling, I was kinda sad even. Not overly sad, but feeling weird and anti-social. Of course in residence, thats not allowed. But I'm glad that I was forced out of my little anti-social feeling rut a bit...though I still feel a bit like being alone and thinking for a bit. But I guess thats what late nights are for.
So much to think about...so much...and then there's studying. I dont really see what I have to study for sociology, I mean...most of it is already common sense, same with psych. Bio is...well, bio. I'm afraid of these tests I have coming up though, I'm actually going to start studying tomorrow. A WEEK before the test...weirded out.
I dont really know where my mind is right now...I dont really know what I'm doing right now aside from going to class to prepare myself for a career in the future. What do I want to do anyway? I wont admit it to my suitemates (who thankful dont really know about this site), but I do want to be a social worker...but I also dread it because it seems so painful...but then you're helping people and that's what counts right?
I've lost that drive to be selfless. I dont remember how to get it back...I dont remember how to do anything else right now, just school. I'm really just trying to relax and accept people for being who they are...but in that laid back lifestyle...I've lost my drive to be all uber helpful.
It looks as though I have some sort of 'spiritual' (if you can call it that) quest to be going on to re-discover myself and figure out what's important to me, and how I should be. I guess I sorta see it right now just typing this...
I remember how it was to care so much more about people than I do now...it felt good, but also so bad. I recall getting burned badly by those who I've cared about so deeply...but I also recall how great it is to help those I cared deeply about...
So I'm torn...and I know I shouldnt let the bad outweigh the good...its just hard to get back on the horse.
Obvservations
Well, from what I've observed, it seems that people who want to think that they are better than people, or are very condescending, use big words quite often. Not necessarily using them properly, but using them none the less trying to sound good. See, if you are actually using the word, then its fine, but if you're using it improperly, then it just sounds pretencious (I cant spell for shiet).
If you use the word really often and are always using big words, then its also different. Because it means that's the way you talk, but when people only use it SOMETIMES, it seems as though they're just trying to be smart.
I'm sure this isnt the case all of the time, but it seems like it the majority of the time.
X-Men Legends!
Oh gawd...
Game orgasm.
Inspired.
So I went to the CIBC Run for the Cure the other day with my brother, sister and their signficant others. The speaker was talking to us about something that a cancer patient had told them.
"Tough times will pass, its the tough people that last."
That made me feel so...warm and hopeful inside. I mean...to see that people who would generally have little hope and little strength try their best to fight. Its so inspiring! I think thats my new favourite saying~! It couldnt be more true, even applied to other aspects of someone's life...
Fight on dude...fight on.
