Dreams.

...?

I just finished watching Amelie, that french movie that some people had to watch in english gr. 12...

Its pretty sweet and cute and all that jazz...and its so optumistic that it kinda makes me sad. Not because its optumistic, but because...things happen in that movie, sure its accelerated and things do happen in real life too, but nothing that serenditutous has happened to me.

I'm just feeling a bit trapped. I feel tied down to school, to my roommates and I dont feel like I can truly express myself right now. I dont feel like me anymore. Unless my good friends are there...when Grace, Christine or Catherine come to visit, I feel normal again. I feel like I can be myself and just relax and joke around...

I dont know why I dont feel like that all the of the time here...

But I have to break out of this shell...I should speak my mind more. But thats hard to do without stepping on people's toes...I feel like I'm walking on egg shells because I dont want to rub someone the wrong way. I think I know why this is...

There are a few reasons why...and I need to sort them out...why this right before the week of midterms.

posted by Bradimon @ 7:56 p.m.