Dreams.

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I havent done these in a while! I miss them :(

I agree with most of it...I'm not exactly the MOST mature person, but I dont think I'm exactly immature. Go figure?


You're the color white. Sweet and virginal, you're
seen as the purest of all the colors.
Generally generous, and extremely caring,
people see you as the happiest in the bunch.
You're always talking and running around. You
love pets, especially cats and dogs. And
cleanliness--oh my gosh. You're a mix between
a perfectionist and a neat-freak. (but that's
okay. ^^). Besides that, you're painfully
plain, and immature. However, aside from your
plainess, you do love sugary foods. Like cake.

What color are you? (Amazingly detailed & accurate--with pics!)
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Well...
I duno, today was a little weird. I had an off day. I wasnt overly happy feeling, I was kinda sad even. Not overly sad, but feeling weird and anti-social. Of course in residence, thats not allowed. But I'm glad that I was forced out of my little anti-social feeling rut a bit...though I still feel a bit like being alone and thinking for a bit. But I guess thats what late nights are for.

So much to think about...so much...and then there's studying. I dont really see what I have to study for sociology, I mean...most of it is already common sense, same with psych. Bio is...well, bio. I'm afraid of these tests I have coming up though, I'm actually going to start studying tomorrow. A WEEK before the test...weirded out.

I dont really know where my mind is right now...I dont really know what I'm doing right now aside from going to class to prepare myself for a career in the future. What do I want to do anyway? I wont admit it to my suitemates (who thankful dont really know about this site), but I do want to be a social worker...but I also dread it because it seems so painful...but then you're helping people and that's what counts right?

I've lost that drive to be selfless. I dont remember how to get it back...I dont remember how to do anything else right now, just school. I'm really just trying to relax and accept people for being who they are...but in that laid back lifestyle...I've lost my drive to be all uber helpful.

It looks as though I have some sort of 'spiritual' (if you can call it that) quest to be going on to re-discover myself and figure out what's important to me, and how I should be. I guess I sorta see it right now just typing this...

I remember how it was to care so much more about people than I do now...it felt good, but also so bad. I recall getting burned badly by those who I've cared about so deeply...but I also recall how great it is to help those I cared deeply about...

So I'm torn...and I know I shouldnt let the bad outweigh the good...its just hard to get back on the horse.

posted by Bradimon @ 3:09 a.m.