Dreams.

I'm still alive.

Yes, it is true, I survived through that crazy time.

posted by Bradimon @ 1:34 a.m. 0 comments

Good news bad news time.

Good news:

Midterms are finished, I have a doctor's note for the missed midterm. I watched some Star Trek: TNG today and there was an episode all about Counsellor Troi! I LOVES her. I can relax a bit now, focus on some things that I need to and just chill out for a bit. A positive attitude has returned as of late, after the night of crazyness:

- Wake up at 4am
- Study for Biogeography 4am - 9am
- Take midterm 9am - 11am
- Go to stats class 11am - 12pm
- Go to work from 12pm - 8:30pm
- Walk home from work 8:30pm - 9pm
- Eat and shower and relax a little 9pm - 9:45pm
- Study for Psych 9:45pm - 11pm
- Talk to Ken and Ed 11pm - 12am
- Nap. 12am - 5am
- Wake up and study for psych. 5am - 8am
- Go to second cup to study 8am - 10:30am
- Psych midterm 11am - 12pm
- See mother and go to doctor 12pm - 4pm.

The day continues, but things get more mundane as it goes further.

Bad News:

I have pnemonia and bronchitis! WHEEEEEE! I have for the last month or so...hahahahahah...sadness. It should be gone in 5 days according to these nice prescription drugs! I've never had a prescription beforeeeee! EXCITEMENT!!...not really. My shoppers was so incompetent...it took them 1hr to finish this when it was supposed to take 15min! Their pager thing didn't work cause their pharmacist was a slacker and went on break and didn't page me when he totally saw me walking around WAITING. He didn't think to tell me to come get the stuff, no, no...he just went to go talk on the phone and wander his ass around. Then, we find they entered my insurance information in wrong before and forgot to add a zero, so they wanted me to pay for the drugs, and I was all like, WHAT? Then the lady couldn't figure it out...dumb ass people.

But yes, my patience seems to be back seeing as I waited for 1hr and didn't have the urge to yell at these stupid people, though I bitch about them. I was really hungry and contemplated stealing halloween candy from the store...haha.

I'm excited for the weekend, rest and relaxation!...except I have work tomorrow afternoon, molten core to run on saturday, then DC at night, and Dave's birthday thing to try to make it to after...but sunday should be exciting in the sense that there is absolutely nothing to do. I revel in the fact that there is nothing to do, and that I can just figure something fun to do myself! I want to do some sort of exploring or something weird like that...we'll see if I'm up to even getting out of bed...haha!

So that is that.

Brad's Tip of the Day:

Counsellor Troi lost her empathic abilities and felt useless (though yes, I know many people think she's useless even with them), but truth is, she was smart even without those abilities. So lesson learned? You're special even without your special abilities and should be loved accordingly. Love yourself and everyone else!

posted by Bradimon @ 2:02 a.m. 0 comments

Mind over matter!

Thats right bitches, I will will this sickness out of me. It will be gone.

In other news, Jo's Thanksgiving Dinner friday night was amazing! I'm so so sosososososososso very impressed with your cooking skills! A whole meal for like 30 people! Amazing-ness!!

And of course some cranium fun times after, that never is bad. Puppet thing is crazy! hahahaa...LET THE CAT OUT OF THE BAG!!! -_-;

Yes, the quads are in your thighs..........................

Must...study.

Midterms Mon, Weds, Thurs...double shift Tues, Weds...sigh. Will be doing much of the reading tomorrow...and little of the sleeping, which is why I must will this sickness away. It will be gone tomorrow.

Wow things are busy.......so very busy.

posted by Bradimon @ 2:56 a.m. 0 comments

Pain pain go away, come again...never. Please.

So I think that last night was the worst night I've had...ever. I mean, ouch...my stomach hated me, and I couldnt calm it down, nothing I could do helped...I writhed in pain and then I finally forced myself to throw up which made me feel better...for an hour.

Then my stomach pains came back and I rolled around some more.

I finally gave in and called my mother and then went to the hospital. They were really busy...and kinda slow cause they were so busy...so I didnt get out until....now. Like an idiot, I felt better 30min before my parents got here, but they insisted that I go anyways just to make sure things were okay.

So it looks as though I am okay for now, but if symptoms continue they would like me to come back to see them...

God that pain was horrible, I hope that women's cramps aren't like that...cause if they feel that once a month...ouch, just...ouch.

So now I feel less like dying, yay! Now...to do school work...fuck.

posted by Bradimon @ 12:47 p.m. 0 comments

The Thanksgiving Challenge!

Who dares accept the challenge?!

I propose that we should all do something to show how thankful we are that we have. How you do this is up to you...but I think it should be the weekend's goal. Whether it's doing something for your family, or for some stranger, or doing something for your friends...however, I think you should appreciate the day by doing something cool for someone else!

You can tell people, you can also not tell people and leave it inside to make you feel good. Try to do something! I encourage this, maybe makes the day that much more special, because I know a lot of people don't really think about these holidays that we get...a lot of people just pass them by as a long weekend. Though that's a completely valid choice, I like to think about why we get this kind of day off I guess?

So...hopefully I can come up with something creative.

Happy thanksgiving!

Yes, I know this is a change from my depressive posts of late, but I kind of feel better about things right now...though the situations haven't improved in the slightest, I feel good. I think DC helped a bit...and just a chance to be myself again.

posted by Bradimon @ 4:01 a.m. 1 comments

Job...ugh.

To add a bit more stress to an unpleasent situation, I think I may need to find a new job because my stupid job now has cut back all our hours. Why? I'm not exactly sure, my manager didn't tell me details, he just told me we need to change it...

So...that means I work very little during the week and need to perhaps get a new job or talk to him about it. This frustrates me greatly...I don't really know what to do...I'm a bit overwhelmed. I hate dealing with money, and now I'm kind of forced to...

Fuckin'...I'm really really pissed off, but so pissed off that I can't even express my rage in an outward display of actual rage, but it is so deeply internalized.....because I feel screwed. Not screwed beyond repair, but definitely screwed.

I need to work harder..

Brightside? Dave did buy me Chapstick...though I'm still utterly confused as to where my other one disappeared to. I thought I lost my ring today too, but I found it. Sorry if I didn't thank you dave! I thought I did, but I guess I didn't! Sorryyy, thanks!

posted by Bradimon @ 3:07 a.m. 1 comments

Tired.

Mmm...the perfect combo! Who doesn't love a good month of stress work and school? :P

Hahahha, my my my, I just want to sleep...really, is that so much to ask? I know I know, everyone else has stress to deal with, and I should shut-the-fuck-up-and-just-deal-with-it, but I'm tired.

Yes, I'm tired, I'm tired of the trivialness that is going on with life. Tired of school, tired of work, tired of life. I just...I need a break. Or meditation or something. And where is my chapstick!? I just bought it 2 days ago and lost it yesterday. It makes me deeply distraught.

I miss the warm feelings of close family and friends. Though I see a lot of people day to day here, it just isn't the same. Maybe I see people too much and I'm just not used to living with people anymore. I need...to breathe...and to do my school work. I'm kind of emotionally unstable at the moment, and this helps my school work very little. I should be at the library doing research for a project that is due tomorrow...and yet, I sit here and type away.

Sigh, I need to tone down the bitchness. I snap at people much more since this stress and stuff. How can I relax? Soon...soon...after this project. I know something is definitely off with me. I can't feel...myself. Ew, identity crisis? Those were supposed to be done in High School -_-;

I'm not so sure it's an identity crisis...more of a...stress-related bitchfest. Need to be calm..need to be calm. This is my solution, to take effect October 5th, 2006.

I miss sanity.

posted by Bradimon @ 8:53 p.m. 3 comments