I'm back!
Damn internet was cut out cause of stupid residence! -_-
But ya, I'm back, and lots has happened in the passed few days!
Its so strange to see how things are. I'm slowly openning up more to everyone and things are getting so much more fun than before! Today was a good day!
My hot don turns out to be liking the mens, and he seems really nice! Too bad he's dating someone. He thought he was obviously gay, but he really isnt! Also met quite a few nice new people from some lectures!
Whoever said it was hard to meet people in lectures doesnt know what they're talking bout.
Its so great that I'm able to learn so much here. To grow as a person and as a student. I love change :)
har har har
So Doug, Kyle, Rainier, John, Andrew, Kelli and myself had just went for a walk, when we saw some crazy older woman (by older I mean 30's or so) banging her head to some rap. It may have been a little rude (okay, very) but all of us looked at her and laughed our asses off! Holy crap...I mean...shit, that was fuckin hilarious!!!
See...if she was someone who looked young and with the music, it would be fine, but she was older and had a HUGE puff of a hair that looked like it was taken from the 70's!! Reminded me a bit of a Joyce, my old piano teacher. Sweet lady, just not the brightest bulb of the bunch. :P
Anyways, it seems as though all these people here think I should be a social worker...high stress, low pay, good morals...my back up...:( They think I'm not ruthless enough to be a lawyer! But I say gar to that! I believe that a lawyer can be nice and truthful and successful! :(
I'm slowly losing my interest in my Earth Science course too, because well...the teacher just isnt keeping me all that interested with his teaching style. I'm trying to read it right now...but I blog, so it tells you how well I'm doing at that reading. The sociology stuff is coming easy and going easy, so whatever, psych as well, same with bio, but this earth science...so troublesome and boring right now. When do I get to learn about the water, rocks, wind and such? Not the stupid tools -_-
Ahhh well...
We had a floor meeting today too. Whats his face...Gerrard won our res council seat. I'm thinking of applying to be the appointed council member, but I'm not all that into the res. If it werent for our Don...(heheh) I wouldnt be into it at all.
Welps, I gota get ready for some classes tomorrow...and I gota think about what I'm going to do for the rest of my life...I wouldnt MIND social work, I think I'd enjoy it, but why aim low? Not that social workers arent great and all, but not many people want to do it, so its easier to get into. You need the certain mindset to become a social worker I think... I'm not sure that I'm nice enough to be one...
Anyways, enough with the rambling, time to go read more.
Giddy!
I feel giddy...oh so giddy.
I know why, I wont say why...yet. :) :) :)
Family
I went home the other day, and it felt really good to see everyone again.
Nothing overly spectacular happened, but it was great to see everyone. I dont think I knew how much I missed them and how much I appreciate them.
I gota say, my family is very unique and I love them so much for it. I know my parents and I dont always get along, but they love me and I love them regardless.
Everyone is always looking for some kinda relationship with a significant other, but I think that family love is just as amazing if not better. I can wait for that kind of love. I'm good :)
Learning
Oh man...
I'm learning so much here. So much more than I expected that I would. Not academically either. I'm learning more bout myself, more about other people, and ontop of that, school stuff!
I havent had this feeling for a long time either. I mean, all the people I was around in Markham all had the same sort of thinking, and here...I've met so many people who I would traditionally call very mean, but...well, they are mean, but its not so bad I guess? I'm starting to learn to accept whatever people do as their own choices.
I've met people that tell the most racist jokes, and I dont care anymore! And they're joking around about asians and stuff! Normally that would offend me beyond belief, but I'm just taking it and rolling with it. Its so much easier like this!
I'm also feeling something else I havent for a long time...interest. So very interested, but I might be building it up in my head...but I'm excited...but scared, but so excited! I hope everything turns out alright. I wont say what is it is in order to not jynx it.
ahh...so good :)
Arrr...
Okay, I dont like making posts like this, but I'm going to...
Dont spam me with messages saying "Ohhh, I'm so sorry, dont feel bad!" or anything along those lines. I dont want sympathy, I just want to get it off my chest.
For some reason, I've lost the spirit right now. I dont feel as social as I once used to be, and I dont entirely remember how to carry out a good decent conversation with any of the people around me. I find myself thinking of other things and just kinda cutting the conversation into crap. I dont really know what I'm doing right now, and I need to find it. I need to stop just listening to people, though its a nice thing to do, its not a conversation that way.
I dont know...I just feel a little crappy right now. Dont give me sympathy or anything, because I know I'll be fine later, but I just wanted to say it so I could just say it. So I said it.
The End.
New Charmed!!!
Ohhhhhhh damn! I'm excited!!
It seems as though they're trying to make Leo the bad guy now :(
So far, what I gather, is that some strange force has come, and it wants Leo. Leo killed Gideon (an elder) last season because Gideon was trying to kill his son and he killed Chris. Gideon used Barbus, the demon of fear, to manipulate people into doing what he wanted and to distract people and blame the death of Wyatt on Barbus. Gideon is dead, and Leo is pissed off, so he's trying to kill Barbus. Everyone is wary of trusting the elders because Gideon tried to kill Wyatt, and Barbus manipulated Leo into killing a good elder who was trying to protect him. So this strange force thing is trying to take Leo :(
I hope they dont kill Leo...that'd be sad :(
Perceptions
Interesting to see what people think about other people. Some people think they're the hottest thing on the planet, while others think they're the worst. And to me, it can be the exact opposite, its really interesting.
Who am I to say that someone who thinks they're hot, isnt? They're hot to themselves, and thats enough for me. I think I'm starting to look more into the positive side of how people look. Instead of thinking about how they look bad, I look for how they can look good. Duno how that happened :P
Only exception is when someone is obviously interested in me and I get defensive and then I put up my shield of being critical. But if I know they arent interested and whatever, then I can be like...you look good in your own way :)
ya ya ya, not nice of me, but hey, I gota balance the negativity somewhere dont I? :P
The shallowness slowly leaves me...I'm saddened. I think someone was trying to make me think like this before. Kinda went the wrong way about it, but the intentions were pure. Thing I've learned though, is that you cant force anyone to do something they arent ready to do. If they're going to do it, they'll do it. Let it happen and let them live their lives. As much as you think you're helping, maybe you arent? Maybe you're making things worse. Maybe you arent, but have faith in the person, that they can learn it on their own.
I shoulda learned that lesson long ago, but meh? What's past has passed, no use regretting it :) Only left to learn from it~ ^^
Slightly Offended
Strange people on these online gaming forums are flaming the asians. Granted, they're horrible at it and are probably capitalist pigs...I mean...who insults someone by saying "Go eat your noodles LOL!" I understand that their humour is lacking in style, and is really...just plain bad, but damn! Just cause this one girl was stupid and asian, these idiots are making up REALLY stupid insults to asains. Ei. "Go eat your noodles LOL!"
Damn...that "LOL" part just makes him seem like a raging loser. Its like laughing at your own jokes! Well, it is exactly that...but so much worse because that wasnt really even a joke!
Damn...the ignorant people of the world unite...on darkages. -_-
Woo
So, finally some time to sit back and just relax.
No class tomorrow because I scheduled it off. Well, mostly anyway, somehow my bio practical got switched over to friday, but its alternating and starting Sept. 26 or later I think. Things are pretty amazing. The psych class is huge (as expected), and my teacher seems genuinely nice. Of course he could be fooling me cause he's a psych teacher, but lets give him the benefit of the doubt for now.
My Earth Sci teacher wasnt there, but the guy for the 2nd semister was there, he was...alright. Seemed kinda boring. He made a few jokes that were alright. I'm still really excited for that class. I think I'm going to start reading the textbook soon...cause I wana get ahead of the game.
My res is really amazing. I mean...serious, all the people are so nice (well, some smell, but thats tolerable). People are happy, we play games all night, talk and just chill. We call our other friends over, and we all hang out in a big group and everyones cool with it! I love how everyone here is so social and not awkward! Normally I have to worry about how some people will be feeling weird, or feeling scared because they dont know what to say, but almost everyone can fit in here and we just are so relaxed!
I hope things stay this way for a while. I'm not sure how long they will, but I can always hope.
In conclusion, everything is going really well and I'm having a great time. I hope everyone else is having as good of a time as I'm having :)
Ouija Board
Woah...that was frigging amazing!
I'm still feeling a bit weird, but its cool! My suitemates and I all used a Ouija board for the first time today, and that was crazy...I'm happy we got happy nice ghosts! :)
Still a little uneasy about the idea of ghosts being around, but its nothing overly bad. If they're all nice ghosts, whats the harm?
Anyways, I thought I'd just say something quick about it to remember~
University life thus far.
Damn.
All I can say is damn.
This place is amazing! I love my res, my suitemates and everyone in my res! Everyone is so polite, so friendly and we all have so much fun!
This is going to be an exciting year! School starts thursday, I'm excited :)
Anyways...
Time for sleep since its 6am...and we've been playing games all night >_<
Suitemates!
Wow!
I'm really happy with the suitemates that I got, they're really nice, and also really fun. We all have a lot in common, and I'm really excited about this year!
I'm not sure if this is just temporary and I'm going to not like them later or something, but I really doubt that. They all seem very nice. :)
I feel in school mode now too, I'm so excited!!
The End of an Era
So I'll be moving downtown tomorrow...
I've packed most of my clothes, pots, pans, dishes. All that's left is my handy-dandy computer.
I'm going to miss so much of my house and especially my family. So many memories...I dont think I can ever express how grateful I am to my parents for teaching me all they have taught me thus far. I'm positive they will be teaching me even more in the coming years as well. They've given me all the social tools I need to survive in this world, and sooooo much more.
Every inch of this house, every room, every little molecule of dust has a million stories to tell about my family. How we laugh, how we cry, how we love...I'm going to miss that the most. Its not like I'm moving somewhere far away, but its hard to be away from your family when you're really close to them like I am.
I know I whine and complain about them, but it only makes me love them more. I can only hope that the lessons they've taught me, and the person they've let me grow to be will be sufficient in this hectic world that we all live in.
I'm not going to sit here and lament about how I'm going to be sad that things wont be the same, but rather, I'm acknowledging that it is over, and basking in the glory that my family, and my home had created.
I look forward to the future, I am excited and scared...but this is what makes life so amazing. I will always love the times my family and I shared, and who knows, maybe they'll come back? But they'll never be the same.
At least I know, that whatever the future holds for me, I will have a solid base of 19 years which I will be able to look back on and only smile.
It is the end of an era...but also the beginning. I'm excited.
