Surprised!
YAY!
WB Superstar finished and it didnt turn out bad!!
They all seemed to be happy (seemed yes, I know, but I can hope cant I?) that at least they got the chance to go out and have fun and play out their dream! At least Mario and Rosa did. And Jamie wasnt too hurt being the worst singer!! She accepted that she could go practice and stuff, and I know she can sing well with the proper coaching! I'm excited to hear her sing later :)
Yay for everyone who participated on WB superstar! It sure seemed like a mean concept, to humiliate them, but in the end, it was really just fulfilling some of the peoples impossible dreams.
Parents
Why do they have to be so annoying?
Why cant I be compassionate enough to understand that they're in a weird place with me growing up and leaving and wanting to control me still?
Why do they ALWAYS have to tell me to do something?
Fucking hell man.
I cant wait to move out now. I do appreciate everything they've done for me, I really do, but what the hell! WHY do they need to be such expecting assholes?! I clean up after them a lot, they clean up after me a lot. Thats the way it works!!! But nooooooooooooooo! Its clean up after me, and clean up after them!
Hi unfair! What the hell...I'm sorrie I havent had your hard life growing up in a poor family, I'm sorrie that I have a different kind of life and you dont understand it, I'm sorrie that I was fucking born so you had to spend money on me! Jesus christ. I would rather have had you abort me than have me grow up to be your fucking slave. Sorrie, you picked the wrong child if thats what you were looking for.
I'm a person, and as such I deserve the common respect that all people deserve! To be treated equally. I understand that its hard to treat your child as an equal while they live with you under your roof, under your care, but it doesnt make me less of a person.
Sure you pay for me to survive. So that entitles you to tell me what to do? If the roles were reversed, and you got old, and I had to take care of you, you would (by your logic) have to do what I said because I support you? Thats not right is it. No, why? BECAUSE I RESPECT YOU. Do you respect me? NO.
I'm just mad.
This'll cool off later, but for the meantime I will ride this wave of emotion out.
Independence.
Been thinking about this for quite sometime. How healthy is it to really be totally independent? I mean, we all strive to be independent, and look down upon those who are too dependent on people. I mean, in relationships anyway, we look down on someone if they rely too heavily on someone. But then thats an extreme, the other extreme would be to be by yourself and totally independent right? And too much of anything is a bad thing...but we have so many people thinking, "I can be independent" and striving to achieve that, and others applauding them for these efforts. Why? So they can be alone?
But it does seem to me that these people dont understand the power of having another person to depend on feels. Maybe they were hurt, rejected and developing mechanisms to deal with it, or are afraid...but I have a feeling they dont truly grasp the feeling of having another person with you. Its equally as bad for those people who can only crave these feelings.
Where the happy medium is, I have yet to discover. But there is a healthy connection between being overly independent so that you dont have the comfort of having someone care for you, and overly dependent so you are left weak if someone leaves you.
Just some random thoughts.
Update.
Well, havent written in a LONG time.
Havent had much to think about I guess, been too busy with other stuff. Nothing huge, dont get all excited/aggitated or whatever. Just work, friends, school, family and such.
A little on the update side, at UT I'll be taking Environmental Health. A lot of people really dont know what this program is, so lets explain a bit. Its a combination of medicine and environmental science. It studies the relationship between health of humans and the environment. So it should be really quite interesting. Not sure what I'm going to do with it yet. If I get really into it and do really well, I'll go into med, if not, I'll go into research for enviro sci, if not that, then I'll go into law.
Plans plans plan galore. I'm excited. Though I need calc, geo and physics the first year, the rest I dont need them at all :)
Other news...None really? Nothing pressing anyways.
pEace~
