Dreams.

Ahhhhh...
Appihany night for brad. It'd be nice if I learned how to spell the damn word :P

But ya, tonight was great~ Watched Charmed~~! YAY NEW EPISODE~! *does a lil dance*
Also finished watching the Star Ocean EX series, it was great~ I dont care what other people think of it, it was amazing :)

I feel so...great, just calm and accepting now. Its so strange, but its amazing~ Anyways, me hungy, so I go get food~

pEace~

posted by Bradimon @ 10:48 p.m. 0 comments

lol..
The cruise on Friday was soooo hilarious. Met a lot of new nice peoples ^^
Also those scary crazy grinding girls? What was up with that?!

Happy Birthday Cynthia~! I hope you had fun at your party tonight ^^ Our games rocked, with snooker balls and with Keith's massager thing...OMG, too funnie :P We'll learn to juggle...mwhaha ^^

Neways, tired..nigh nigh~

posted by Bradimon @ 4:00 a.m. 0 comments

I want to write something...

but I dont know what to write...

So I will let lyrics speak for me.

"Walking Away"

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

sometimes some people get me wrong
when it's something I've said or done
sometimes you feel there is no fun
that's why you turn and run
but now I truly realise
some people don't wanna compromise
well I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies
and well I don't wanna live my life too many sleepless nights
not mentioning the fights i'm sorry to say lady

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

Well I'm so tired baby
things you say you're driving me away
whispers in the powder room baby
don't listen to the games they play
girl I thought you'd realise
I'm not like them other guys
coz I saw them with my own eyes
you should've been more wise
and well I don't wanna live my life too many sleepless nights
not mentioning the fights I'm sorry to say lady

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

posted by Bradimon @ 1:31 a.m. 0 comments

I've talked to a few wise people about some concerning issues over the passed little while, and I have come to this conclusion...again. Relationships SUCK. I'm not much in the mood for one anymore. Maybe something more casual and laid back, but nothing that could hurt me or have me hurt someone else yet. Not for a while anyway, I'll see how things go on this cruise...maybe I'll meet someone that wants the same thing as me~ Lets not go into details of what that is *smiles innocently*

lol, basically, I guess Krystal was right, you just gota go with the flow. Though I normally fight the flow with all my might, but...what might have I got left? Its been drained from this stupid year :P Maybe things'll be better next year for everyone~ At least we survived this one ^^ 18 years down...72 to go *rolls eyes*

O ya, also downloaded a few episodes of Star Ocean EX (You will note that my picture has turned into that) and woah, its pretty good~ I'm impressed, it was a great game, and its a pretty good anime ^^ I see characters for everyone...lol, thats just cause there are SOOO many characters~ Ish cool, download it ^^ It made me wana draw again, and so I did...horrible horrible pictures :P I'll show you the blinding pictures tomorrow Tobio~

So leaving off on a positive note, I smile before I go to bed tonight. Why? I dont know. Its un-explainable...but at least its positive no? ^^

posted by Bradimon @ 1:38 a.m. 0 comments

Poseidon


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Yay moody-ness~! GOooooooooo ME~

posted by Bradimon @ 11:15 p.m. 0 comments

You're Most Like The Season Spring ...

Fresh faced, with a young outlook on life - you
smile at the world and expect it to smile back
at you. You're mostly a bubbly, fun - innocent
person. Described as cute possibly. However,
you're a little naive about things and tend to
be a little too trustworthy.
As the first season, It Makes you the youngest -
and so most immature - but people are inclined
to look out for and protect you.

Well done... You're the most fun of the seasons :)


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posted by Bradimon @ 5:16 p.m. 0 comments

I dont like being upset for things I shouldnt be upset about...but then some people tell me I should be upset. I dont really think I should be upset...iuno. Whatever the case is I am, and I dont want to be. So here's the plan being set into motion. Sorrie if it isnt to the liking of everyone. (This is not a diabloical plan to hurt people, this is just a plan to get myself freed of hurt and pain for those of you who are stupid enough to think that I would go and hurt someone, morons)

posted by Bradimon @ 1:13 a.m. 0 comments

I havent done quizzes in a while~ *steals some of Ryan's*


You're like a Unicorn!


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Peace


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Eh, I did most of these already, so here are the two that I havent done.

posted by Bradimon @ 6:53 p.m. 0 comments

By the way, new favourite song ^^

Kelly Clarkson - Low

Everybody’s talking
But they don’t say a thing
They look at me with sad eyes
But I don’t want the sympathy
Its cool you didn’t want me
Sometimes you can’t go back
But why’d you have to go and make a mess like that
Well I just have to say
Before I let go

Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low

No I don’t need your number
There’s nothing left to say
Except I never though it’d hurt this much to be sane
My friends are outside waiting
I’ve gotta go

Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low
What you did was low (low)
What you did was low (low)
What you did was low (low)

I walk out of this darkness
With no sense of regret
And I don’t…these hardships
We both know that you can’t say that
Rest assure
For all the time I loved you so…

Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low
Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low
Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
Cuz what you did was low

posted by Bradimon @ 1:52 a.m. 0 comments

*yawns*
Sooooooooo tired...and I thought we were supposed to catch up on our sleep on the weekends~ Why is it that we end up sleeping less on the weekend? Geeeez :P Well, I should be heading to bed early tonight. Went to bed at 5 - 6 every night for the passed 3 days and waking up at 11am - 12pm...I dont see why i didnt sleep more :P

Well, went shopping and stuff~ Got a new jacket today finally ^^ 25 bux~ Go Vicki with her barginning skills~!

Practicing 'spying' skills are fun ^^ Along with dancing skills...or lack there of, lol~

I cant wait til the new year by the way guys...this year was full of soooo much crap, its just...its time to be OVER so we all get a fresh new start and can have fun fun fun ^^

6 months and I'm 19 and can drink and can do sooo much legally~ Perhaps I should get my G2...so I can drive around...assuming I can drive manual...lol >_<

*sighs and yawns*
Soooooo tired.
Time to sleep~ or shower...then sleep...after reading :P

pEace~

posted by Bradimon @ 12:17 a.m. 0 comments

Woah..
University lectures SUCK.
Sat in on Vicki's the other day~ It was soooooooooooooooo bad!! We learned gr. 12 bio stuff...and the teacher sooooooo babied the class! I hope that he isnt always like that >_< I drew some nice pix tho while I was bored...lol, a raped girl cause I felt bored and lots of not 'nice' things :P

Sowwie Sandy, I dont think I can get the movie up on my site...I'll have to send it to you or burn it to a CD or something...We'll make more movies so then I can put more onto the CD so it doesnt seem like such a waste :P

Hi Genie~! Ya, we should hang out more...but I never see you!! I dont have your phone numbah either, maybe we should exchange...though we have MSN...lol :P

Hurricane Isabelle is here~ Careful when you're out everyone ^^

pEace~

posted by Bradimon @ 3:26 p.m. 0 comments

Good song by Evanescence ^^

Evanescence - Missing
Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll have woke up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"

You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

[CHORUS]
Even though I'd be sacrificed,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
Shudder deep and cry out:
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"

[CHORUS]

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
And wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...

[CHORUS]

posted by Bradimon @ 9:41 a.m. 0 comments

What Is Your Battle Cry?

Stalking through the steppes, brandishing two hardened pitas, cometh Ryies! And he gives an ominous scream: "I'm going to contort you like a wrecking ball!!!"

Find out! Enter username: Are you a girl, or a guy ?

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posted by Bradimon @ 12:10 a.m. 0 comments

Some strange personality test care of Kiera~

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Here are my results.

Your Type is
ENFJ
Extroverted 22%
Intuitive 89%
Feeling 22%
Judging 22%

ENFJs are the benevolent 'pedagogues' of humanity. They have tremendous charisma by which many are drawn into their nurturant tutelage and/or grand schemes. Many ENFJs have tremendous power to manipulate others with their phenomenal interpersonal skills and unique salesmanship. But it's usually not meant as manipulation -- ENFJs generally believe in their dreams, and see themselves as helpers and enablers, which they usually are.

ENFJs are global learners. They see the big picture. The ENFJs focus is expansive. Some can juggle an amazing number of responsibilities or projects simultaneously. Many ENFJs have tremendous entrepreneurial ability.

ENFJs are, by definition, Js, with whom we associate organization and decisiveness. But they don't resemble the SJs or even the NTJs in organization of the environment nor occasional recalcitrance. ENFJs are organized in the arena of interpersonal affairs. Their offices may or may not be cluttered, but their conclusions (reached through feelings) about people and motives are drawn much more quickly and are more resilient than those of their NFP counterparts.

ENFJs know and appreciate people. Like most NFs, (and Feelers in general), they are apt to neglect themselves and their own needs for the needs of others. They have thinner psychological boundaries than most, and are at risk for being hurt or even abused by less sensitive people. ENFJs often take on more of the burdens of others than they can bear.


TRADEMARK: "The first shall be last"
This refers to the open-door policy of ENFJs. One ENFJ colleague always welcomes me into his office regardless of his own circumstances. If another person comes to the door, he allows them to interrupt our conversation with their need. While discussing that need, the phone rings and he stops to answer it. Others drop in with a 'quick question.' I finally get up, go to my office and use the call waiting feature on the telephone. When he hangs up, I have his undivided attention!

Functional Analysis
Extraverted Feeling rules the ENFJ's psyche. In the sway of this rational function, these folks are predisposed to closure in matters pertaining to people, and especially on behalf of their beloved. As extraverts, their contacts are wide ranging. Face-to-face relationships are intense, personable and warm, though they may be so infrequently achieved that intimate friendships are rare.
Like their INFJ cousins, ENFJs are blessed through introverted intuition with clarity of perception in the inner, unconscious world. Dominant Feeling prefers to find the silver lining in even the most beggarly perceptions of those in their expanding circle of friends and, of course, in themselves. In less balanced individuals, such mitigation of the unseemly eventually undermines the ENFJ's integrity and frequently their good name. In healthier individuals, deft use of this awareness of the inner needs and desires of others enables this astute type to win friends, influence people, and avoid compromising entanglements.

The dynamic nature of their intuition moves ENFJs from one project to another with the assurance that the next one will be perfect, or much more nearly so than the last. ENFJs are continually looking for newer and better solutions to benefit their extensive family, staff, or organization.

Sensing is extraverted. ENFJs can manage details, particularly those necessary to implement the prevailing vision. These data have, however, a magical flexible quality. Something to be bought can be had for a song; the same something is invaluable when it's time to sell. (We are not certain, but we suspect that such is the influence of the primary function.) This wavering of sensory perception is made possible by the weaker and less mature status with which the tertiary is endowed.

Introverted Thinking is least apparent and most enigmatic in this type. In fact, it often appears only when summoned by Feeling. At times only in jest, but in earnest if need be, Thinking entertains as logical only those conclusions which support Feeling's values. Other scenarios can be shown invalid or at best significantly inferior. Such "Thinking in the service of Feeling" has the appearance of logic, but somehow it never quite adds up.

Introverted Thinking is frequently the focus of the spiritual quest of ENFJs. David's lengthiest psalm, 119, pays it homage. "Law," "precept," "commandment," "statute:" these essences of inner thinking are the mysteries of Deity for which this great Feeler's soul searched.

posted by Bradimon @ 9:35 p.m. 0 comments

Eeeeeeeee...
Just made too much food for myself, which is weird cause it was only 2 sausages and mashed potatoes...thats generally not too much for me :/

*yawns*
Got FFTA (Final Fantasy Tactics Advance) Thanks to Genie~ Its pretty good cept for the fact that its kids going around and you're using KIDS...eee...I wana go give them condoms again :)

Anyways, gota clean up a bit~
pEace~

posted by Bradimon @ 3:53 p.m. 0 comments

Well, looks like beach vollleyball is cancelled for tomorrow..
Fuck...
Well, at least Catherine and Christine will be home tomorrow, and we can hang out :)

!@#$%^&*(

I'm tired.

posted by Bradimon @ 12:32 a.m. 0 comments

For the lovely people on my tag-board:

My blog is mainly used for bitching or complaining or just plain thinking. You're entitled to your opinions, so you can think I'm a loser if you want. Ya, I do whine and complain all the time here, I do whine and complain a lot because I'm not satisfied with a lot of things, myself, the world. I'm not satisfied with anything really. So what if I whine and complain. I do try to make this world a better place, I am nice and I do help anyone who needs it. I dont litter, I dont steal, I dont do anything that I would think of as 'bad'. Ya, people ARE in worse situations than me, the poor people around the world dont even have food, but I havent learned how to fully appreciate the simple luxury of having food. I've never lived without it, I know. But can you honestly say that when you're upset that you care about food or think about food? I write in the heat of the moment and when I'm not thinking rationally. I dont even see why I'm responding to you guys, you dont know me very well.

And ya, I only write about myself, you expect me to write about my friends lives? "So today Vicki went to school and was bored." What do you think a blog is for? Geez :P

And ya, we all live in this crappy world, and this is why I want it to be better, for everyone. I dont know why other people dont complain, maybe they tolerate lives on this fucked up world. Sorrie, I dont tolerate crap. I think we all deserve the best, and should go for it.

When did I say I was selfless by the way...? Correct me if I'm wrong please though, but I dont know if I wrote I was selfless anywhere...

posted by Bradimon @ 3:06 p.m. 0 comments

By the way, good song.

Match Box 20 - Unwell.

Very good song~

posted by Bradimon @ 1:06 a.m. 0 comments

Woah...
My www.go-gaia.com character is so sexy :P

Kinda like me? lol *coughs* hgahahha, ya right :P

Anyways, School getting better slowly. Everything getting better slowly. Things'll be good for 2004~ 2003 was a mean mean year :P

Time for sleepies~

pEace~

posted by Bradimon @ 12:40 a.m. 0 comments

Sometimes I really dont understand people, but sometimes I understand them too well. Its a tad sickening. I have a plan though, and I will stick to it. What goes around comes around, I know that for a fact. And I love to be the one that brings it around :)~

posted by Bradimon @ 12:17 a.m. 0 comments

Hey! You know what?

I feel strangely good right now. Even though things were pissing me off...I duno, I feel good? Just walking home made me feel...really good! I think it was the cocky walk...I dont know! Its strange, but so good. I dont feel normal...its like...a weird change going on. I can explain it, just not on my blog :P

pEace~

posted by Bradimon @ 3:35 p.m. 0 comments

Whats on my mind...a question I cant really answer.

I'm thinking about everything, and yet...nothing. I dont know what to think? I dont know what I want in the short term. Of course I know what I want in the long term, but no clue whats going on short-term. I thought I knew, but I dont.

I wish I had will power...like...extreme amounts of will power. So I could work on everything, try to do everything to the best of my ability. Yet...I dont, I know I can do things good, great even, if I tried hard, but that takes so much work that I dont wana do! ya ya ya, I wont get anywhere in life with that attitude...but fuck...I'm just sick of everything.

Nothing ever motivates me. I need some outside force to motivate me cause I suck at motivating myself. Ex. Parents buying me new stuff for computer/giving me money. That motivates me. Do they do that? No. I mean...friends can only take you so far right? I guess I wanted a relationship to have someone behind you all the time, different than friends. I dont know if I still want that. I dont know what I want. All I know is that I'm not happy with stupid stuff in this stupid world.

Stupid people going around telling people lies behind my back. Stupid people making me look like an idiot to people that dont even know me. I mean, I never have tried to do that to anyone. I dont like people changing their opinions of people just from what I say. Whatever, thats no important anyways, who cares what other people think anyways, I know how I am. Fuck other people.

To say the very least, I'm just really disappointed in humans everywhere right now. They're so STUPID and dont learn from others mistakes or their own. It really kicks me where it hurts to see that people can be such morons. It kicks my fragile hope in the balls...hope that this stupid world could be a better place...

Ex 1. York Party. They didnt manage the line, it got out of hand, everyone got mad and pulled fire alarm ruining the party. MORONS, this isnt the fucking first year you ever threw a party like that!! So how could you not anticipate this. Your president SUCKS.

Ex 2. UHS. MORONS. "Lets fire a lot of teachers so that the classes have 35+ people in them and so other kids cant get into classes they need so we can screw over MORE kids futures." FUCKING MORONS UHS...You're fucking morons. Mrs. Brockelbank Vincent or whatever the fuck her name is needs a serious ass whooping cause what the hell.

Ex 3. You know who. The moron spreading shit behind my back and lying to people making me seem like an attention hog. HAH!! Thats a laugh. Whatever, people like him need to be raped. O wait...He already has been 'raped'. No no no...sorrie, my bad, its not rape if the victim is WILLING 4+ times. Faggot.

The list continues...

I'm so sick and tired of everything. Its one of those times where I'm not afraid of dying, cause I really dont care. I'm not going to go out and get myself killed, but I wouldnt mind being hit by a truck or two right now. Sick and tired of this stupid life, I'd feel at peace if I wasnt alive, if I didnt have to deal with all these people and all this shit.

I want to be set free...

posted by Bradimon @ 1:49 p.m. 0 comments

Well, York frosh party WAS fun, til we all got kicked out cause some moron pulled the fire alarm!!!

Hahaha, I dun wana write the details, cause it makes stories more boring :P But I will say that we met some really nice people tonight :) Kristine was actually pretty cute, and really nice :) Too bad I couldnt catch her ICQ/MSN before we all got shoved out~ Well, she's in York Kinis wit Vicks, so maybe she can get it~ Part that sucked...everyone always TOUCHING you...Dude, I have a personal space bubble...and it was popped over and over and over there...frigging people. Actually at one point a hot asian girl was rubbin my back. :P But for the most part it was ugly guys...:/ I dun think I saw one good lookin guy, but a lot of pretty hot girls.

Today was still really fun after the party too! Even tho it was like...2 hours of waiting...lol Still great ;)

Havent been home this late in a LONG time...surprised my parents didnt yell~ :P (3:30am)


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posted by Bradimon @ 2:35 p.m. 0 comments

O ya...forgot to talk about the sorta Frosh party that Vick Preston Grace and I sorta went to :P
Ya, I got sprayed in the eye with Beer...BEER!! WTF!!
and we waited for a lil, then played tag, lol :P

ITS THE WEEKEND!! FINALLY!!! :D

YAY!!
PAR-TAY TIME!! :D

Going to York thing for real tonight, hahaha :P Also headin to Pacific soon, so I'll post more bout the York thing tonight if I'm not too tired~
pEace~

posted by Bradimon @ 3:08 p.m. 0 comments

Okies...
I put the archives of www.waterz.blogspot.com on the bottom by these archives...cause blogger likes to mess around with me. So everything is in order now I think.

Just keep checking www.tailz.blogspot.com now for those of you who like to check.

posted by Bradimon @ 1:18 a.m. 0 comments

What the...
My old blog is back...what the hell...
And I lose my new one?! This is so weird...
I should probably talk to blogger about this again...
Frig man...cant they just decide whats goin on!?!??! Grrrrrr :(

posted by Bradimon @ 12:54 a.m. 0 comments