Dreams.

Whats on my mind...a question I cant really answer.

I'm thinking about everything, and yet...nothing. I dont know what to think? I dont know what I want in the short term. Of course I know what I want in the long term, but no clue whats going on short-term. I thought I knew, but I dont.

I wish I had will power...like...extreme amounts of will power. So I could work on everything, try to do everything to the best of my ability. Yet...I dont, I know I can do things good, great even, if I tried hard, but that takes so much work that I dont wana do! ya ya ya, I wont get anywhere in life with that attitude...but fuck...I'm just sick of everything.

Nothing ever motivates me. I need some outside force to motivate me cause I suck at motivating myself. Ex. Parents buying me new stuff for computer/giving me money. That motivates me. Do they do that? No. I mean...friends can only take you so far right? I guess I wanted a relationship to have someone behind you all the time, different than friends. I dont know if I still want that. I dont know what I want. All I know is that I'm not happy with stupid stuff in this stupid world.

Stupid people going around telling people lies behind my back. Stupid people making me look like an idiot to people that dont even know me. I mean, I never have tried to do that to anyone. I dont like people changing their opinions of people just from what I say. Whatever, thats no important anyways, who cares what other people think anyways, I know how I am. Fuck other people.

To say the very least, I'm just really disappointed in humans everywhere right now. They're so STUPID and dont learn from others mistakes or their own. It really kicks me where it hurts to see that people can be such morons. It kicks my fragile hope in the balls...hope that this stupid world could be a better place...

Ex 1. York Party. They didnt manage the line, it got out of hand, everyone got mad and pulled fire alarm ruining the party. MORONS, this isnt the fucking first year you ever threw a party like that!! So how could you not anticipate this. Your president SUCKS.

Ex 2. UHS. MORONS. "Lets fire a lot of teachers so that the classes have 35+ people in them and so other kids cant get into classes they need so we can screw over MORE kids futures." FUCKING MORONS UHS...You're fucking morons. Mrs. Brockelbank Vincent or whatever the fuck her name is needs a serious ass whooping cause what the hell.

Ex 3. You know who. The moron spreading shit behind my back and lying to people making me seem like an attention hog. HAH!! Thats a laugh. Whatever, people like him need to be raped. O wait...He already has been 'raped'. No no no...sorrie, my bad, its not rape if the victim is WILLING 4+ times. Faggot.

The list continues...

I'm so sick and tired of everything. Its one of those times where I'm not afraid of dying, cause I really dont care. I'm not going to go out and get myself killed, but I wouldnt mind being hit by a truck or two right now. Sick and tired of this stupid life, I'd feel at peace if I wasnt alive, if I didnt have to deal with all these people and all this shit.

I want to be set free...

posted by Bradimon @ 1:49 p.m.