Dreams.

la la la.

Well..this weekend was a bust, nothing was done. Absolutely nothing. Though I had no homework, I have tests and what not to do...sometime next week, and I shoulda nerded my ass, but I didnt, o well. Big surprise. I'm still sick, surprisingly...Only a cough though, so its gone down, wtf is up with being sick...I hate it.

I'm also seeing signs of someone not wanting to be much of a friend anymore. Yeah!! O well, that person is having emotional problems, so I'll let it slide. I dont really want to help people, if they dont want my help, or my friendship, so, until they come to me, I wont go to them. La la la. I'm still living fine regardless so meh =) This should be the last tmie you hear about, that person anyway. Unless that person smarten's up and stops wallowing in their own self-pity.

I think I'm becoming more mean though, its a combonation of Felix's encouragement to do my stupid and mean ideas, as well as the lack of discouragement from other people. Plus my conscience is enjoying being mean =). o well, I can stand to be meaner. As they say, nice guys finish last, which is the sad reality. Eh, thats life I guess. It sucks, and there's nothing you can do about it...so if you cant beat'em, join'em. And this is why i've become more mean. Not like anyone appreciated my nice-ness before.

I had something else to talk about...but I dont remember...o, yes, more about communication.
My friends suck at it, they dont seem to be very open to talking about their feelings, and that'll just ruin our friendship, and other ones they dont open up to. I'm fine if you dont wana talk to me, but you do realize, by not talking to me, it closes doors in our friendship, so do what you'll do. I guess I should give them chances to open the doors, but I figure, if gave them a chance once, then why twice? Just to be shot down again? Its not only their emotions involved. O well, I dun care, its not like any of us have a deep emotional connection. Why? Probably because we dont do anything to bond I guess. Sure we have fun, and I dont wana discount that, but its just not everything. O well, I'm sure we'll all realize it sooner or later, I dont even really fully understand it myself. But I know that none of my friends are very close with me. Meh, I can survive.

I'm starting to not want to think more and more. so I dont think I will right now =P

posted by Bradimon @ 6:09 p.m.