Dreams.

Gawd I'm tired..

Came back from Felix n Vivian's Dance show. GOOD JOB GUYS!! Your teacher is hot, I'm not much of an ass man, but woo! I wish I coulda heard things more clearly...my eyes are popped cause I'm sick...maybe west nile? I'm actually thinking it might be now, I dont get sick that easily...but i feel like shit right now. Mentally, physically, ick.

More friendship issues, but I think its just me, I dont know how to act anymore, I've lost myself somewhere along the way...I'm really confused right now...and very tired...I have no will power left, for anything. Namely, holding my head up, literally, my head feels soo heavy right now! This weekend has gone by sooooo fast...I didnt even realize it was sunday today...frig...I'm at a point in my life where, i dont want to be me. I am a uptight, moody, bitch. I think even going through this weblog you can tell. It'd be nice to change it, but right now, I feel like crawling into a hole and dying. I'm sooooo tired...I'm dis-satisfied with things right now. And it pisses the fuck out of me. I need some changes, drastic changes. Something big, that will make me feel...better...but I dont know what...I dont know anything...wait, i lied, I know that I dont like who I am right now...what can I do about it though? Change is hard to do, and think of...maybe i'll crawl into an anti-social shell for a while, that wouldnt be so bad, I think I need to get away...maybe a trip..but thats not gonna happen...I dont know. but anti-social seems good for now. Though being anti-social is not much fun, it does save me from being pissed off more often than not. No wait, I need to accept that things change, and things wont always be the same, so why try and stop change? Maybe its time to be anti-social. Build up some will power? I dont even know how to build up will power. but I better find out before I ship my ass off to University...another huge step...I dont want to grow up...I'm perfectly happy being a 10 year old...or feeling and acting like one. Okay...well, step one, become...downtight...hah...lame. How? I have no clue, I should sleep on it. Somebody tell me what to do, i'm not thinking well...wtf, thinking well? I meant thinking right...see how fucked i am in the head right now?!
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I feel like an outcast.

posted by Bradimon @ 11:12 p.m.