I'm right! bitches.
It's really interesting to see other people's points of view. Of course we always think that we are the ones that are right, but who is to really say that we are? Maybe within our society one person can be 'right' but ultimately I don't think anyone is. This isn't really news, but the part that I am finding interesting enough to blog about right now is how people deal with it.
I have ideas that I can logically back up sometimes, and sometimes I don't. Even with logic and proof behind you and with experts who agree, people will still not always agree with you, even if you are 'right' in terms of society. When that happens, I do get a little bit disheartened, but at the same time I do have to respect how everyone else thinks. Who cares if I am right or someone else is right? It's stupid to try and convert them to your way of thinking. That's a little bit too christian for me. Does this justify me thinking less of the person? Maybe. I guess this is what is interesting to me, this idea of judgement.
I know I judge so many things, and I know that I'm not really someone to judge. It's really just something a lot of people say, but I've never really felt it's meaning as strongly until right now actually. Why do we turn to judging things? To make ourselves feel better and eliminate our insecurities? Or just so we can label something?
hmmm...not the most innovative idea, but something that just popped into my mind.
There's going to be traffic!
I had this awesome dream where I was in the future. It was a really long dream and a lot of it has faded by now... The more awesome part of it was I met my future spouse and child. Though the child was not mine (it was his) and I could not see the face of my potential husband... The feeling was there. It was amazing!
Everyone was looking at us smiling, slightly envious of how happy we were, but still happy for us. There was a class or some sort of seminar that we were attending. Everyone was there as and we were all learning together. I think it was some sort of outdoor education centre, and there was a small man-made waterfall that the kids (there were several) were playing at the base of. The rest of us were eating at the top of the waterfall on deck of sorts with the waterfall originating at the centre of the deck towards the edge.
Everyone was at a long banquet type table.
Mmm..though his face was blurry, I knew he was older and a little bit bigger than me. He was wearing blue ontop long sleeve...I think jeans too.
Anyways, it was just a dream. If it were a premonition..I'd be so happy to see. Regardless, it left a warm feeling inside and maybe a little bit of hope for the future.
Ouch! That hurts.
I apologize for being very sensitive the passed few days. I blame stress! School and work are starting to take over my life. Not that it didn't really take it over before.
I feel the need to express some of this hyper-sensitivity right now, seeing as I was holding it in when I was feeling weird. It just seems as though people do not care about my feelings. It's probably my own fault because I've left a pattern where I just suck up my emotions and try to get things done for the good of the team...but I've been expected to just suck it up - which is the part that I do not appreciate. If I am trying to hold my emotions back because I feel the need to push for everything else, then that's fine, I'm okay with that but you cannot tell me to hold my emotions back and then laugh at me when I'm upset.
I'm not sure if I'm upset enough to be quiet and shut up all the time, but I'd still like to see my feelings validated and not just laughed at. A lot of people seem to be on this "Brad is stupid, who cares about how he feels" kick. Some of my best friends don't care or notice how I feel anymore, granted everyone has their own things going on in their lives and I shouldn't expect them to think about my feelings, but I would appreciate it a lot more.
I think it's pretty evident that I am a very emotional person, and a lot of me is in my emotions. Maybe because other people aren't as based in their emotions they do not understand how it is to be emotions based. In anycase, I can't blame anyone if I don't say anything about it. So I really just need to take a breath on let my emotions be expressed. So here they are. I'm not asking anyone to change or criticizing anyone at all here. I understand everyone has their own priorities and issues to deal with; I just wanted to express how I feel.
