Beautiful day.
I have to admit...I'm quite the oblivious little fellow. Even to stress sometimes...which is weird...but the stress still effects me when I don't notice it exactly, I just feel it...which kind of sucks.
I do feel actually really great right now because of something really little and stupid that made me happy. I mean, it's something as simple as a compliment and then actually feeling like you deserve it and then getting a bit of reward for it. I...kinda feel good...better than I have in a while. I had no idea I was feeling so crappy until I remembered how great it felt to be actually giddy and excited about stupid things again.
I love these little stupid things that do make me giddy, they get me by from day to day. It may not be much, but it will do for now. It will do for now, it will do for now.
Oh being happy, how I miss you. I'll work on trying tog et you back...that I will!
Today was just a good day all around. Work went by fast, someone asked to change shifts that I actually was going to ask her about. Got nicely accomplished in WoW and recognized, found that also the online gaming community is not as ignorant as they may seem. Compliments...happyness! And food was bought for me. FOOD! I
love food!
Mm...things are good for the moment..things are good.
Gah, am I bi-polar? ...damn. :(
I cry for the world.
I finally caught up on my news paper today at work...and I am deeply saddened.
I quite literally cried for the world...for the hundreds of innocent people who have been killed in Lebenon. These people did not need to die...if it weren't for Bush and his disgusting greed. GREED. This greed to power up his country has destroyed entire groups of families and friends who did nothing!
Bush, you KNOW that supporting this war between Lebanon and Isreal will bring you money. Especially since you don't have to actually participate, and just 'support' them...by having them buy your god damn weapons!!! FUCK YOU. You are evil incarnate. Labelling these people terrorists when there are clearly two sides to this whole story!...so many sides...Of course these people are "terrorists". When first Isreal invades Lebenon and so the Hezbollah are all like, "Bitches, get out of our place!" and the isrealis are all like "Please bitch, it's ours now"
And of course, Bush jumps to "Hey! Those Hezbollah must be terrorists!" aka. Lets make this war go so I can make money!
Your greed kills people bush. GREED. Your greed helped kill families...friends...lovers...How could you authorize something like that!? You have no soul, heart or conscience. I'm utterly disgusted by you and your entire administration. HOW COULD YOU!? You deserve so much pain...
I thought you were a sorry excuse for a human being before Bush...but now I see you're nothing but a monster, you and your enitre administration...souless monsters.
Please...please stop existing...
All I hear is raindrops..
Surprisingly, I miss someone. And you all know how hard it is for me to actually miss someone, maybe there's a crack in my armour.
Yes, this someone is my dear son Yosef. Don't make a big deal of it bitch, but yes, I miss you too. Mainly your strange antics that make me laugh. I don't wana get mushy so...Get me something nice.
N.B.
Teen Titans is one of the best shows EVAR.
GLEK!
Okay...I don't really understand...my senses seem to be going into overdrive right now. I smell things and kinda wana vomit a little. The taste of things also makes me want to vomit a little too...
I should be hungry, I was hungry all night and now it's morning and I had half a bagel and I can't seem to eat the rest cause of the smell, which is normally really good. Its no different smelling than other bagels...is it the cream cheese? Could if have gone bad? I also made a grilled cheese...but the smell of it is kinda making me feel gross too.
I'll save it for when I'm at work or something..but still feeling this is really weird. Normally I suck with a sense of smell...but it's feeling really powerful right now...I don't like it...
I must be pregnant. Fuck.
Do I look old?
So I've been told...
Not so much told, but assumed to be.
How strange that someone would think that of me.
Today, a girl asked Ed and I to buy her some cigarette pack.
To which I replied "Ack!"
I'm not one to support smoking...
Unless it's...having to do with toking...:P
In other news, I've been speaking in rhyme...
Most of the time...
I'm sorry for the horrible nature of this game...
I'm aware it's quite lame...
But fun all the same.
Anyways, with this thunder and lightning,
Ed and I were driving and saw something quite frightening.
A tree had been zapped infront of my street,
No match for the lightning, it was clearly beat.
There it lay in on the side of the road,
Quite near to my humble abode.
Exciting it was, and that is all.
It happened as Ed and I returned from the mall.
So enough of the rhymes for now.
So good night - chow!
Oh people...
I love people...but I hate them.
I really only hate that I can't keep everyone happy. I try and try, but to no avail. Of course, how can one person keep over 100 people happy in a guild of people online. Everyone comes from different backgrounds and with different positions in life. Of course some people are going to take offense to somethings and others not as much.
I preach empathy and respect, though I know it is not always easy to have these qualities all of the time. Especially when talking about something you are passionate about or something that is important to you.
Leadership is a rotten role...I love being a supporter...I'm an okay leader, but an excellent supporter! I'll try my best to please them all.
It saddens me that people easily discount other people's feeling simply because its warcraft. I know people will laugh at me for caring about people that are online. It's easier to turn a blind eye to people online, but it doesn't mean I should. It actually does upset me quite a bit when people scoff and laugh at me for taking this guild so seriously. I really do care for these people, not because they're fun people, and not because I don't have a life outside of it, but simply because they are people. Real people behind a computer screen. Yes, I'm an idiot that would probably get killed for a stranger and I'm sorry if some people think it's stupid...but I don't.
I think I'm just upset with the responses I get when I talk about things that are going on in warcraft. A lot of people think it's as simple as a "Why don't you just kick him out of the guild" or "Why do you care so much, its online." I don't think people understand...I know that the internet is a place where people can explore and have and be themselves more. They have a place to feel free from the ties that bind them in real life. It's somewhere safe for people to be themselves and have fun when sometimes they cant express that in real life. I think it's very important for someone growing up and learning about themselves to have a place where they are surrounded by positive people who support you.
I duno, Im just rambling now...
Time for bed.
Work early.
Sigh.
Brad brad, the astrology nerd.
So...I've recently gotten back into Astrology thanks to crazy old Michelle at work. I kinda love that girl, she's quite the fun little one.
Anyways, I've discovered that my moon sign is Capricon and my Ascendent sign is Cancer. So what does that mean to people? Well, your ascendent sign is the way people see you. So I'm an emotional family oriented person. I'm not exactly sure what your moon sign means, but I know that mine in Capricorn means that I'm a responsible person. We all know that pisces are emotional bitches too, so...I'm extremely emotional with the whole Cancer stuff going on, and the Pisces...WEEEEE!...and
moody - I'm sorry that I'm moody everyone!AHEM! Yah...sooooooooooooo...I'm kinda really enjoying this astrology kick I've been on. Who wants to explore Downtown for a cool secluded magic shop with cool old books or something? Cause I really want to find a cool book to read...it'll be an exciting adventure!!
It might be more fun to explore alone actually...perhaps some research is needed.
I am now "the younger asian male"
So funny story.
Wait no, more like GREAT story. I kinda feel great about this, so I will brag. My boss printed out this e-mail he got from head office today. This mail said that the second cup at Warden and Highway 7 is particularly great because of the night staff there. This customer came in on a night that I was working with my co-worker Michelle at 10:45pm. The mail emphasized "In particular the younger asian male, and younger female". Hahhahaah. That's golden, GOLDEN!
Thank you Graham from IBM! You're cool. ^_^
So we told some customers about it today too who were particularly pleased with our service and they said they might write an email too. HAhahahahh! Awesomeness. I better get a raise. ^_^
Dreams to dreammmm~
In the dark of the night
When the world goes wrong
I can still make it right
I can go so far in my dreams
Somewhere in my dreams
My dreams will come true~
Okay, so I had this wicked ass Charmed dream last night...Charmed --> Teen Titans!
That's pretty much the big news of the day. I was quite excited for that, hahahaa. Now I should sleep...have to help my brother and sister move into their new houses tomorrow!...early in the morning...Why do you guys choose to do this in the morning...why?! :(
I feel kinda really good today.
Proud to be Canadian.
Happy Birthday Canada!
Yes, I am a proud Canadian. I feel very special to live in a country that is so accepting and diverse. A country that preaches peace instead of war (though some conversatives may think differently). I have definately been blessed, that on Canada's birthday, we are able to celebrate with amazing displays of fireworks and be able to spend it freely with our friends and family.
I was thinking as the fireworks went off, that not many other countries around the world have a chance to celebrate it's birthday. There are so many countries in turmoil, going through government upheavels, and the civil wars, corrupt governments, and dying citizens that can't take the time to celebrate their own birthday's little own the country's. We are so lucky to have the freedoms we have today and I think that we should take a moment to think about that on the day that Canada was born. Of course we remember the horrible things that have happened in the past, but that is what has shaped Canada, and helped it grow. Sure, we aren't perfect and I don't see Canada being perfect ever, but working towards that is definately something to admire.
So Canada, on your birthday, I appreciate everything you have given me, a safe home, a loving environment for my family, safe home's for my friends and families, and a belief in a more tolerant society, though much of society doesnt agree with many things, at least we aren't stoned to death for being who we are.
Thank you Canada. Happy Birthday!
