Dreams.

Random Inner Thoughts.

So...ya.

I was talking with someone who really helped me work through some stuff, and I realise now that instead of saying...this isnt perfect, therefore it must be wrong, I have to learn more how to accept things for the way they are, or at least try and change them. Backing down and thinking..."Shit, this isnt perfect, why should I try?" is such a cowards way out. I didnt realise how big of a coward I can be sometimes.

I know I'm a perfectionist...and I love things to be "just so" but they cant always be, and its about time that I accept that. If something isnt perfect, why shy away from it? Not everything can be as easily handed to me in life. I recognize that I'm a very lucky guy, who's been given a LOT of blessings, so why not work for them too? Things just shouldnt fall into my lap the way they do when so many other people dont get that luxury.

So I will work and I will have fun with it until hope is gone. Which for me personally...is a long ways away.

I should have a "Welcome to the Real World" coming out party or something...I'm far too spoiled.

Time to grow up Brad...time to grow up...

posted by Bradimon @ 5:47 a.m.