Dreams.

Happy Mother's Day!

So its mother's day. We had a little BBQ with the family for the day...its strange being home again, being everyone's little brother, or little baby...I feel more grown up, but I dont think they see that. Always trying to control me...

Even my sister is getting in on the demands. Everyone wants me to do "my fair share", as they see fit. They command me all over the place telling me to go get something, go clean this, go make this etc. The list goes on. And I do it. Why? To avoid conflict, to keep everyone happy. Why did I do it before when I was little? Because I was (am) extremely passive. I just want to keep people happy, but does that mean that I shouldnt be happy? No...but at least I'm getting back to how things used to be.

Had a nice talk with Ed and Andrew (to some extent seann, tho he was passed out). It was kinda just an idealogical argument, and our different views. And one thing really stuck in my mind after talking to them. If I'm so passive, and just trying to accept people and not change things, doesnt that mean that I dont care about things enough to do something? I thought about this for a while...I figured it out though.

What I do care about is letting people live the way they want to. I'm not someone to tell someone to do something they dont want to do. I believe that they'll come to terms with things on their own. I do however, appreciate that other people care enough to try to change people to accept their morals, morals that I share. Its just that my priorities are slightly different. I just dont believe in forcing my beliefs on people, even if they are for the better. Its just not something I do anymore. I'll present my opinion and leave them to deal with what they think about it. Some people need that kinda space I think, but also, some people do need to have it pushed at them before they understand another point of view.

I think both ways of thinking are great. Everyone just has their own way of doing something, and I think its great that everyone can do it differently.

Anyways, time to go watch some desperate housewives, WEEeeee~

P.S.

Thanks for the talk, it was really helpful guys!

posted by Bradimon @ 9:04 p.m.