Dreams.

Weird.

BRAD
B	is for	Brainy
R	is for	Responsible
A	is for	Artistic
D	is for	Devious

posted by Bradimon @ 2:39 p.m. 0 comments

Psychic Expo and Hitch!

So...I'm not sure where to start.

I guess I'll talk about the psychic expo first. I went with Dana cause we felt like checking it out and we were interested, so we went with open minds. Met some interesting psychics and learned a thing or two about science and stuff as well as spirituality.

There were some scientific things going on there, this one was called Bio-Energy. Its spiritual DNA or so they call it. Somehow its scientific, I'm not sure how exactly, but it sorta got me. Basically they told me that I'm like Mr. Spock. I like to know how things work type thing. According to all the readings today I'm intellectual. More so than emotional, which I thought was weird and the other way around. Anyway, about the Mr. Spock thing, (Who is apparently right most of the time, go him/me!). I'm meant to help change society and the lives of a lot of people with my intellect. I'm supposedly going to change society through non structured methods though I like to structure things.

This makes me happy, this is what I've been trying to do too! I dont think I've had much structure to it either. This was only a mini free reading, didnt do many other things but get the numbers of a few psychics for home later for my sister and I.

Anyways, the movie Hitch was amazing. It was so sweet! I've learned that my trouble with dating is that people dont sweep me off my feet. They arent clever, they arent creative, they're just...there and want in my pants. Or...they're not exactly the most suave or charming so I dont want to go out with them. I mean...I need either my heart or my hormones to be won over, and so far...no one has successfully won either.

Is it so much to ask that I place a standard of a normal heterosexual date on a gay one? I mean...I want to be treated like a normal person! Not some hot little toy! I dont want to hear "Wow, you're hot." or "I think you're cute." or anything along those lines! I dont care that you think I'm attractive or not! The fact that you're hitting on me implies that. Is that heterosexual people do things?! I know when I wanted to go out with girls I'd be nice and try and woo them and try and be charming and stuff. Why dont those rules apply to the gay community? Because they're assumed to be more horny?!

Sorrie, I'm not that kinda guy. But at least I'm a little more firm on what I want now. I want to be fussed over, taken by how sweet someone is, treated like more than a sex toy, and charmed! The people who just want relationships arent charming either...so what am I supposed to do? I've turned down a quite a few people now...two had killer bodies...one of them was all about the love and not sex, but had none of the social tools I'm so fond of...one was just...sex-a-holic. Others just lack the social tools...Is my bar set so high? I dont think it is. To find someone normal and charming. They dont even have to be good looking if they're charming!

Man...sometimes I just wana lay down and cry. I've been patient...and there are no rewards. I've been good, I've been curtious nice and tactful...no rewards. Its not like when I was younger I guess, time to grow up Brad...time to accept that life doesnt always give you rewards for doing good things...

Its tough...but I guess its life. No use crying over it. Its just a lonely life...and I feel like me, my friends and family...are the only sane people.

Sad.

posted by Bradimon @ 2:43 a.m. 0 comments

Hockey.

Well, as disappointing as it is that we're not all going to be able to cozy around the TV at home and scream at the TV watching the Leafs...I'm much more disappointed in the players themselves.

I mean...fighting over they're already huge salaries? Frig. It makes it seem like they think they're better than everyone else. Shouldnt they be playing the sport for the glory of playing it? Hell, most doctors dont make as much as some of the players! Doctors are saving lives, Players...play games for entertainment! Mm...which is more important?

Holy shit, where do they get off? Teachers get paid about 35,000 at the beginning...and there are some players in the NHL making 10million? Umm...not cool. I dont care that other sports are making more money or whatever, who gives a rats ass? I care that other people, real people are making less for doing (what I consider to be) more important jobs and they arent complaining so you have no right to.

It annoys me that because these little whiners arent getting more money that my family and I

posted by Bradimon @ 8:36 p.m. 0 comments

Woo!

The world seems brighter.

posted by Bradimon @ 10:11 p.m. 0 comments

Luck is back!

Okay...so I duno where it went for a while, but its back.

Good things have started happening again, and I'm starting to feel good again. I think the lull is slowly dying.

Things are picking up, kinda just like how in high school it did.

posted by Bradimon @ 3:16 a.m. 0 comments