He shoots! He............wait, what?
It feels as though I haven't been setting any long term goals and setting plans and action to it as of late. I haven't really been thinking too much about myself and growth in a while, I've been pre-occupied with...living autonomously - among other things. I've been so focused on how I will be able to do things on my own, completely seperate from my parents. I've been fairly independent most of my life, but I wanted to take that extra step. I needed to prove to my parents - as well as myself - that I am not a failure at life and that I will be successful and be an adult that they can be proud of.Too bad along the way I have been letting my school work slide... I should realize that being this independent person isn't as important as doing well in school at the moment. At least I know now that I can be independent and that if I try hard to do something, I can do it. I should ask for help when I need it...come to think of it...I always got a "satisfactory" on that section of my report cards growing up...they were right, and here I thought those sections were useless.
I have a problem with asking for help, I know I do. It's kind of a pride issue...I think that often, I feel that people can't really help me and I have to do it on my own, which is true in a sense. I know I'm emotionally strong enough to deal with anything on my own, I shouldn't though...because I know there are people that care and will listen and it will save my emotional strength for other things I need it for. I'm getting better with that though...I'm talking to people about things...the problem I had earlier was that ultimately I knew that I was the only one who could physically do anything to a problem I was having, so why would I bother? I just do it to get things off my chest now ...but I haven't been setting a plan of action.
So now, I will have to find time to set some plans of action, be a smarter, stronger, better person. This is the goal so far...now for the steps.
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