Dreams.

So anyway...

Studying sucks soooooooooo much...
I guess I goofed off a lot today still...
but I did get some studying done, you know..Chemistry isnt hard at all, I understand it all, and can do it...IF i do my homework...=P
If devoted ALL my time to studying, I could easily get 90's, but who does that? I honestly goof off sooooooo much, its a really bad habit, I think I should have started in grade 9 to discipline myself...o wells...At least UHS is one of the top 15 schools, including private schools, top 1 - 5 says Queens, not sure about private schools in there though...but GAWD I hate how our school is so hard...
Anyways...enough of school...

I've been finding myself more easily annoyed, and yet more tolerable at the same time...depending on who's doing the annoying thing...I dont know why I get like this...always so moody...maybe its the fact that I care so much (again) over someone who doesnt care...at all? I know its all good to be laid back and everything, and at times I wish I could be like that, but during most times, I dont think I want to give up my uptightness to be completely laid back. I know its good to be laid back for yourself, so you arent stressed. I'm uptight because a lot of things bug me and I want to fix them for everyone, so no one else has to go through that, or whatever, but if you're laid back, you cant really be outraged at anything, and therefore never really be able to start change, and make things the way you think is best, not just for you, but everyone. So in a way, my uptight nature can be a good thing, not saying its complete good, because gawd knows I'm uptight about the most obscure things from time to time =P So iuno which one is 'better' if you will. I guess we need more of a balance opposed to extremes of these...like everything else.

Dun ask me where this came from...its pretty random =P But maybe some of you will understand =) hehehe

So anyways,..time to try not to fall asleep while finishing chem!

posted by Bradimon @ 10:38 p.m.