Dreams.

Not that I'm depressed or sad again or anything, but I really wana disappear still =P Iuno...so much work...

Gawd, I just keep blogging, I dont know why...I just keep thinkin' and I cant stop. Dont get me wrong, I like to think, and ya...I think my brain gets a giant work out from it, but is exhausted when it comes to school, maybe I should rest it...lol, how though?

O wells...
I dont know what to do right now...I feel badly for some people, and good for some other people, bad for others and good for other people too...I dont know whats even going on...I'm so tired...yet no sleep cause of Cheemmmmmm....I could just fail the quiz...but why would I do that?? Once prom is over, everything should be good, I think anyway.

Relationships.....always such a messy issue for so many people......AHhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!
I'm sure I could get one if I really wanted to...not to be cocky, sorrie if I'm coming off like that but I'll inform you of when i'm being cocky, but anyways...ya...I kinda do want one, but I dont. I dunooooo...unless I find a nice girl like piper...hehehe...so caring, and loving, and all that goodness...even if they were ugly, I dont care, as long as they have the same personality of piper from charmed...She's so perfect...like...Frig...or maybe its just cause its so evident that she loves Leo...I dont think I've ever felt love...well, people loving me like that...cept parents n family of course...iuno...

Its different though...my family...like, I know thye love me, and I do love them...but its not the same as friend love, or girlfriend/boyfriend love...
Iuno, talking bout love, really does make me want a girlfriend...but then...at the same time, I dont...cause...I do like to be protective, and look out for her...but then sometimes its just no fun. I need a girl that can hold her own, and be independent and strong. Iuno...why am I even thinking about this right now?

Relatinoships are messy....maybe if I were to get into one, and things were just laid back, no huge commitments or anything..things would be better. Just living for the moment and what not =)

Anyways....maybe I'll act on my impulses...we'll see...

night for real this time

posted by Bradimon @ 1:57 a.m.