Dreams.

Talks with Tiff.

Sounds like a new talkshow! hheheh...

It's nice to have these nice little talks and knowing that as alone as you feel often, you are never really going through something alone. Somewhere someone is feeling the same as you. We shared our feelings of how growing up takes it's toll on you, and how rare it is to find someone that understands. I mean, I'm not at the same extent as Tiff is yet, but I can still feel it too.

I know, Yosef you tell me that I'm old...all of the time, hahah...I am now though! I will hopefully get a desk job with my sister's office so I can just sit and not rely on being a server...(though I think I make more as a server..). I wish I could just fast foward, but this is supposed to be an exciting time of my life. Where is the excitment? I should be making it myself, but I'm too tired whenever I get home from work or school. Creativity is what I feel I am lacking at the moment. Creativity and exposure to nature...and I can't find anything in this city that can really give me that sense of rejuvenation (I guess that's why they call it a city). I need to go on a hike or something like that...I know! I'll go with mom! We haven't done that in a while. Go somewhere to soak up the atmosphere! yaaaaah!

I need to be more excited about things again. Have fun and not get so bogged down by responsibilty. I'm sure I can find a balance somewhere. At least I've 'grown up' a little more in the sense that I am more responsible, but I just need to learn how to keep the fun in while being responsible!

So time to turn that frown upside down (I'm sorry for using that) and get out there and study!!!!...hahahaha, until the party tonight! Happy Birthday Christine/Sue! <3

posted by Bradimon @ 2:03 p.m.