Dreams.

Lost and Found.

I remember now what I things used to be like, the way I used to be, and the person who I am now. I remember trying to make people happier and not caring how I was, and I remember how detrimental that was to me, but I also remember how much nicer it made things for other people.

I've had my selfish streak, and I'll admit, it was good to do things for myself, but there's a point that you shouldnt cross. I'm not sure if I crossed it yet, or if I was about to cross it, but its stopping now. Its going to be one of those wave balance things, you have your selfless-ness on one side, then a swing to selfish-ness then a stablization in the middle. Balance.

I'll figure it out, but at least I feel it again, and that really is the main point. There are a lot of things that I could be nicer in. (Good grammar again) I'm going to start being that person again. Yes, nice guys finish last, but who cares if they feel good about it?

I say that now, wait a few weeks then i'll be all bitching about how nice guys finish last :P

I really dont need anything more than I have. I have my health, my great friends and my amazing family. What more could I ask for? I dont need to be selfish.

I feel so amazing right now...I just cant explain it. I feel like I know who I am again, I feel like I know what to do now, I feel like I know how to be friendly, make even more new friends and just be good again. I dont understand how I even made friends while I was being selfish...but now I remember how to be who I am and...just live.

posted by Bradimon @ 4:28 a.m.