Dreams.

Idealism

I'm quite an idealistic person, and everyone always tells me how it is good to be idealistic. I'm labelled the "Idealistic student". Of course, I'm ensured its not a bad thing, but simply something that everyone once was. Thats a little sad, that everyone was once idealistic until they were broken and shattered and conformed to society.

I'm not the most materistic person either, but people seem to think if I become a lawyer, of course I will. Why? Because of the money, its too hard to turn down. I'd turn into a lawyer for profit, no morals nothing, just a completely systematic person. Sad...

I look around at the people I see, and even the people on TV (yes, I'm aware this isnt accurate, but its a reflection of what some of our society thinks, so it has some validity to it), and I see how people treat other people, I see what people think, and its because they're grown, matured, and accepted that everyone else is being selfish, or doing whatever, so its fine. And to a degree its fine, because society is like that, so why not? Its easy, its what most people do, and I dont blame anyone for doing it, its normal.

Its sad, but its normal. To see that everyones shattered hopes have changed them. Their experiences in the world have changed them. Not for better, not for worse...they're just not idealistic. You can call it a loss of innocence, or whatever you want, but its still sad to me.
A lot of this (I think) comes from working and money. Everyone works hard for their money, and with that money, you get more power and you feel superior to those without money. Not because you want to, just because thats how it happens. I remember before I worked, I thought..."Those poor homeless people...they all must have such unfortunate circumstances." Then I got a job, and worked for money. The next homeless person I saw I thought..."Why cant you get a job and work? Work like the rest of us! Its not that hard, just do it! Get off your butt and do it! Why do I want to support you?"

Everything changed, it was weird, I understand the point of view of so many other people now. I still understand that there are many homeless that do go through lots of unfortunate circumstances and are now stuck. So I guess I have become less idealistic than I used to in this short period of time. I'd still like to help them, but I still think that some dont deserve the help if they're able to work on their own. Others definately would benefit and appreciate the help...
I dont know where I'm going with this...I was just thinking about how everyone tells me that they were once idealistic, and now they think about themselves and care more about their families. Again, nothing wrong with that...but I dont want to turn out like that, its not for me.
I'm going to try to always be idealistic, always try to be nice and helpful and selfless. This may die one day...I hope it doesnt, and I hope I can prove to myself that there are people who can stay good and helpful in this world, because I'm no different from any Tom, Dick or Harry out there.

Ahh...the idealism oozes from this little blog even...

posted by Bradimon @ 4:13 a.m.