Dreams.

Stingy

Alright, so I've been stingy with the blogging. Goes to show how much I've really been thinking. :P

Actually, i have been thinking quite a lot. About people, places, things, myself, friends, family, school, life, all the normal things.

I've forgotten many problems, recognized many others, dismissed others and really just havent been doing much the passed few days. Games mostly.

I've been bored, waiting for people to finish school and being busy so we can hang out and what not. I understand that they gota work on school and crap, and dont have the luxury of sitting around on their ass doing nothing, but they're having no fun and arent exactly the happiest people in the world. Too bad there isnt a way to structure things so that people can be happy and get ahead in life. Well I'm sure there is, assuming people knew the path they wanted to take and such and could specialize in that right away, instead of all this general science/math/art/english crap we have to take.

O well tho, c'est la vie? What can we do about it but accept it and work around it. That's what is so great about being human. You can adapt to different situations, make things better or worse for yourself, take the hard or easy road, and end up where you end up.

I'm feeling rather faithful at the moment though. It seems everything is going my way right now anyways. Well, most things anyway. Nice confidence builders have been placed strategically around in the passed few weeks, months even. I was informed today that when I was hired for Second Cup, I was very lucky because Sam, my boss, normally takes a good hour or so with his interviews, and mine was only 15 - 20 minutes and simple questions, and I was hired within those 15 minutes. I've seen him go through these new employees, and I see how long he takes with them, and how long it is before I actually see them working, and it was a good month or so before he even called them back.

I know he was sorta desperate for someone, so that has to have played a part in me getting the job, but I still feel a little special. I feel special for a lot of reasons actually, and it makes me feel great. Of course the effect is only temporary, then I go back to feeling very average despite whether I am above or below average.

Who knows, I feel pretty good about myself anyway though others may not agree, they dont even matter. This is where being secure is supposed to pop in. See, I am secure with myself (or rather, more secure than before) and I am confident enough to say that I'm a pretty damn good person. Its all a matter of perspective, but from my view point, I'm doing what I think is right, and helpful, and good, and therefore, am a good person in my mind. In others I am too, in others, maybe not as much, or others, not at all. But it doesnt matter to me anyway, because no one will ever have the exact same opinion of someone as another person. Many people are weak and follow what other people say. This I know from experience, and I dont blame them for being weak minded and following, because people are pretty easily manipulated if you know the right buttons to press.

I'm getting off track, or did I even have a track to go on? Whatever.

Final thoughts on the matter, life is life, make the best of it~

pEace~

posted by Bradimon @ 4:26 a.m.