Reflectin'
Ya know...Well, even though I have actually been doing pretty good the passed while, since...what...September? October? I know I hid a lot of the pain I was feeling. I was feeling bad about a lot of things, but still good. I wouldnt say that I felt bad because I didnt want to give the people the satisfaction to know they got to me, that or I didnt want them to feel bad that I was hurting.
I didnt wana admit it before, but now I really just dont care what people know and what they dont. Honestly, if people delight in my pain, then good for them? It is a little sickening, but who cares, it just goes to show how stupid and immature they really are. And who am I to protect someone from their own feelings? I feel the way I feel, why hide it? I am who I am, and I shouldnt/dont care what people do about it.
I guess I say this because I see other people doing it, and its really quite transparent once you go through it. Well...its actually quite transparent regardless, I dont think I hid my feelings all that great either :P
Ahhh well, life is life, and I want to go shopping...lol I fell asleep too many times today to go shopping and when I wasnt asleep, Nathan was too tired, and then I got too tired, blah blah blah. I guess it just wasnt in the stars for me to go shopping today >_<
But I will be getting 3 Xbox controllers, and a new bracelet, perhaps necklace too, and some shirts :)
There goes a good 200 bux...but for a good cause :)
Anyways, time to go to bed, or try to go to bed after all the naps I've had. :P
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