Dreams.

Geh, my parents arent the smartest in the world...I know they're only trying to do what is best for me (most of the time) but GEEZ, they dont know me that well. First of all, they need to know, I refuse to do things I deem lower than me, ya I'm a snob. Second, I wont do what people tell me to do simply because I dont want to give them the satisfaction of having the power to tell me what to do. Though I know my parents do have power over me, I dont like it, so how they could get me to do things (which wont work now, cause I've posted it or said it in public) is the give me the illusion that I have some sort of power so I would be doing it for them to help them or something, and not for ME, cause I never do stuff for me and not just simply because they say so. Ex. Getting a job. I used to REALLY want to get one in gr. 10, and I was planning on going some weekend with some friends to look for one. The next day, my parents start bitching and telling me I NEED a job, blah blah blah, as if I didnt think about it already, which makes me feel that they are underminding my intellegence because they are supreme and know everything that is the best for me. Pfft. So after that, I didnt want to get a job. It seems that EVERYTIME I want to get a job, they always tell me I need one, which makes me think, FUCK YOU, I'm going to do it on my own.

Ya, I'm not a very good son in that respect, because I am quite a bitch when it comes to people having power over me. If they didnt choose to use their power, I probably would do a lot more they said. Examples of this, when they go out over night, I clean the house. It gives me more power, and what do I do with it? Things they would force me to do.

I guess Felix and I are not as opposite as we thought. I will not do something if people force me to do it.

Aiya...I know they want me to get a job for good reason, but just fucking shut up about it! I was thinking about getting one earlier, but now its just...all messed up. And I'm not about to suck up my pride for this cause it means they win, and parents always win, so I will fight!!!

Peace.

posted by Bradimon @ 3:36 p.m.