Dreams.

The last post referred to the quote I put up by Storm you can see in the quote of the moment.

"Then if we cannot avoid a confrontation, we must stand our ground-- and defend ourselves."

Taking this out of the fighting contexted, and into the social contexted i took it like this...If you cant avoid a problem, you have to deal with it. But then a question arose...when do you stop 'fighting'? or when do you stop dealing with a problem? When do you give up essentially.

I had a long talk with Tim about problems I've been having (Thanks Tim =P) and I couldnt help but think...I want to give up...I want to give in...What holds me back? My honor holds me back. I'm sure you all know how I dont like to give up on things, unless the other side decides to first. I will generally fight to the bitter end...even in warcraft, I dont like to leave battles until they kill me entirely, just give it one last shot. Then again, I am only human, and I have to give up sometimes and accept that things do not work out right? Wrong...I actually really dont think that...things will work out, as long as people want them to work out...this was a lot longer last time, but I lost some of my thoughts there.

O ya...and I also am not enjoying relationships, and people's obsession with them. Its very...annoying. How everyone focuses on their boyfriend/girlfriend or their wana be boyfriend/girlfriend, or their almost boyfriend/girlfriend. You know the saying..."Boyfriends (or Girlfriends) come and go, but friends are forever" right? Well, I dont believe that for one second. Friends arent there forever, though boyfriends/girlfriends DO come and go, so do friends if you dont show them enough love and care. It really bugs me that people care more about finding a good girlfriend or boyfriend rather than just really good friends...Cant you have both? Or at least work for both? I see sooooooooooo many people that work so hard for their girl/boyfriends, and do shit for their friends. I understand to some degree why they would do that, but you know...your friends have feelings too. Your friends help you with things your lover (lets just call it that for typing's-sake) cant. What I'm trying to say right now is...that I'm not really looking for a relationship so much right now. I'll be in one if I like the person, but please dont expect me to give up friends or anything for that. And to friends, please try to keep your friends close, and not go off with just your lover and focus on caring for your friends every once in a while...or everyday even.

Anyways, this better post...but I'll copy it anyways

posted by Bradimon @ 12:54 a.m.