Dreams.

You know...
I was thinking...
Should I try and tolerate someone a good friend of mine likes, if I dont particularly like the person or like to be around the person that friend likes? Well...the good person and good friend in me says...yes, of course you should. But the insecurity in my friendship says...would that friend do the same thing for you? But the good in me says...Does it matter? You should do it for yourself, to be a good person, develop patience and tolerence. But the bad in me says...Screw that, if I cant stand that person, it doesnt build tolerence it destroys it. I have many conflicting emotions as you can see. Although, I think good is winning. I should give my friend the benefit of the doubt (though they will not notice me if i'm there or not when that person is around) that they would do the same for me in the same situation. In conclusion, I will not ditch you when that person is around...though I cannot guarentee that for the other person....if you catch my drift. I'm sure you do.

In other news...
I was talking with Vicki n FateZ today on the way to getting picked up by my sister, and we were talking about friendships, and how they should be, and what makes them good, sorta...or at least I was talking bout that to myself in my head =P But I came to the conclusion that friends need to share emotions. They need to tell each other how they feel so that they can become closer to one another. I know I'm not completely honest with you all, all the time, but I will try to be more...expressive of my feelings, maybe that will work through some of my issues with anger with certain people. I ask you all to do the same, express your feelings and show how you care. Maybe for all the people who are secure about their friendships dont need this as much, but I am always on shaky ground when it comes to friends. Its really nice to know that you care, or see that you care...that honestly makes me extremely happy, to know that people care about you. I know its hard to say or express, and if you dont do it, dont worry about it...its just very very comforting to tell people who you feel about them I think? Maybe I'll tell you all tomorrow...we'll see, no more evasive manuvers to get rid of people, I'll be honest with them, display my happiness/unhappiness, and see how things go from there.

Alright, now my eyes sag out of my sockets as I fall asleep typing.

Night all.

posted by Bradimon @ 3:28 a.m.