Dreams.

Evangelion got me thinkin...
What is happiness? When will I be happy? Am I happy? Whats going on...DAMN YOU WITH THE DEEPNESS!! But it is an amazing anime...hahah. Frig...its posed a few hundred good questions...When WILL I be happy? What makes me happy? Getting what I want? No...definately not...but I came to the conclusion...that I will be happy, when I am convinced that I have helped the world in at least 1 way. Or if I influenced and helped people for the better I guess...but I dun think that'll happen for a while...but at least I have something to work towards right? yes, i sound like a complete goodie goodie nerdie do gooder...and however unbelievable it sounds...its true. I really do think that this is the most important thing to do. When I was thinking bout this question, I thought...if I died tomorrow, would I have died happy? The answer is an obvious no, but not because I didnt get to do sooo many things, its because I know I would be leaving soooo many things behind that needed fixing, that I could have at least tried to fix. Whether I succeeded or not is a different story, but at least I gave it a try right? I do really want to help people and help people become better people as well as helping myself become a better person. Not that I'm above or below anyone here. Its not about power here, its about (how cheesy does this sound) making the world a better place. I cant stand this world right now...its so sickening how everyone is selfish and so inconsiderate...and I want to change it..hehh...some people probably think I'm an idiot for thinking I can change the world...but to them I say FUCK YOU. I can do whatever I want, I know I can, so piss off.

Yes...my little thing I was thinkin bout this morning..

posted by Bradimon @ 3:30 p.m.