Dreams.

heh...
well, i finished my gawd damn english essay.
Read 200 pgs of a AMAZINGLY boring book over the weekend and managed to spew out a 1000 word essay on it.

Incase some of you were wondering, yes I was upset today in bio..
Why you ask?
Well, let me tell you.
I go out of my way, and go and help people so they can be happy. I do this frequently, you ask me to do something (within reason) and I'll go do it despite the negative consequences that happen to me. Generally speaking. But when I ask you guys to do something for me, what do I get? No, nothing. It was a fucking simple task to do too. The thing that also got me, was even while I was doing my english essay last night at...1am, I was STILL trying to help people through something...the degrees of success were variable, and also irrelevent. Point is, I was doing the biggest essay of grade 12, and I was trying to help people at the same time. Do I expect this in return all the time? No, certainly not. Why should I? I understand that everyone has things to do, and there life is important to them. But a LITTLE favour now and then from friends would be greatly appreciated. I can live with the fact that I'm under-appreciated, and I can even live with the fact that treating people the way you want to be treated doesnt work. But would it KILL my FRIENDS to go and do something nice for me? Maybe I'm just being ignorant, and I dont notice little things you do, but god knows you dont notice little things I do. We're all in stressful times, so I'm just going to leave this as it is, and suck up whats left of my pride, and go on with life. I cant expect everyone to care at one time, I guess it was wishful thinking that some of my closest friends would do a lil favour for me. Meh. I guess thats it. I'll be fine tomorrow, so dun worrie about asking me about this, i'd prefer not to hear about this. Just take it for what it is, a warning almost. Maybe its just because of my stressing week that I've turned to focus on soemthing rather than studying. I guess its just nice to have support from your friends occasionally rather than only BEING the supporter.

Let me clarify something too, I'm not mad, I'm just disappointed. This topic is officially closed, I dont want to hear a word of it.

*deep breath*
Okay, so now that that is off my chest, I think I will go do some studying because I havent even OPENED my fucking biology textbook or notebook for the stupid Bio test tomorrow...fucking English...and my english group for Shakespear, SUCKS. Some people are okay, but gawd fucking damn, I dun like some ppl in my group.

Into the land of work and study...but first...food, my stomach is growling.

posted by Bradimon @ 3:49 p.m.