Dreams.

Sitting around...waiting...

I find that I'm always sitting around waiting...

Just waiting for things to fall into my lap like they normally do. Me being the lucky child that I am, getting everything that I really need plopped into my lap. Okay, maybe I'm selling myself short and I really did somehow work to have some of the things I have...but a lot of it was luck.

For example, my best friends just fell into my lap, and we've been really good friends ever since. It doesnt feel like work when I'm maintaining a friendship with them. I definately lucked out with my family. I mean...as annoying as parents can be (and they can be very annoying) I love them still. I couldnt really ask for more, they've provided me with more than enough.

But anyway, I'll not go on about how lucky I am, because I have several posts on how amazed I am about how lucky I am before...read those if you want to.

Just sitting around...trying to figure out whats going on tonight. Thinking about some stuffs as per usual. Confused and yearning for something greater then what I have. Sad, because I should be satisfied with life as it is. I mean, I'm healthy, young, fairly well off monetarily, lots of friends. Honestly, why should I be asking for more? Do I deserve more? Have I been good enough this year to earn that shiny new thing I want? I try...I should try harder to be nicer, and better...

Why are selfish things so tempting to do sometimes..oy...I guess its just a challenge to overcome!

posted by Bradimon @ 10:27 p.m.