Dreams.

I'm back...Hurrah?

Sometimes you feel so much that you never want to feel, so you bury it deep down inside yourself. And you may have little outbursts of emotions when its jam packed full. I know I repress, maybe not as much as some others I know *coughs* Vicki *coughs* but I do repress. I see the little packeted bursts of intense emotions. I see more clearly who I am though...and what I'm doing on this place.

Talking to Catherine tonight made me reflect on somethings. Yes I can be very petty at times...I guess its a horrible defense mechanism that I need to put a stop to, but I do acknowledge it which is the first step to overcoming it. I know that despite my petty-ness, I care deeply about everyone underneath it all.

Have I ever said I hated you? If I have...the honest truth is I dont. No matter who you are, no matter what you've done. I thought I knew that I hated someone. I dont. I may completely disagree with his way of life, with how he goes about handling things, but I never have and never will hate him. Some of my best friends are lost to me because of him (and myself of course) but I dont hate him. I could never truly hate...no matter how hard I try. I may hold a grudge, but those are lifting slowly...

I know who I am. I am that which gives unconditional love...I may get mad, but you know that my care will always be there. I may get sad, but you know I will always be there. Why do I do this is my question, why am I like this? I dont think I'm alone in this though. I doubt anyone is truly capable of hate. There will always be that little ray of hope deep down...

I dont know why I'm getting into this. Its just...lots of thinking while I should be studying -_-;

Anyways, life is too short for lamenting on these questions. We should enjoy ourselves as much as we can ^^
pEace~

posted by Bradimon @ 2:35 a.m.