Dreams.

Okay, I know I said I'd not blog as much...but whatever, I guess I am =)

*sigh*
I'm becoming a little dependent on someone...its kinda sad, I've never been like that for friends...I mean...the way I am for this one. It feels weird...but good? But I really dont like being dependent very often...

Ya know...I'm having a pretty weird identity crisis right now...
See...there's the stupid gay, cocky, mean, brutally honest, moody, emotional side of me that I keep expressing around certain people...but then there's the other side of me thats nice, goodie goodie, friendly, helpfull, smart kid...There is a common thing in both identities that is for sure me...caring for friends and family and trying to help people and stuff like that...but then...what am I?...I'm a bit of all of them all of the time...but sometimes I'm one, and sometimes I'm the other...lately I've been mean cocky stupid gay brutally honest moody emotional brad...with the occasional nice streak to some people. I dont know...I thought I knew who I was...then I think I was influenced to be cocky, and mean and stuff...Sad thing is...I really do like the 'dark' side of me...it is really fun to be mean cocky and moody...okay, not so much moody, but mean and cocky. But I also like to be nice...

So what am I...? A mixture of these? So....mean nice cocky honest moody emotional nice helpful goodie goodie friendly and smart? I think not...a lot of those contradict each other...*sigh*

I dont know who I am anymore...time to re-think my whole position in life, and what joy that will be.

posted by Bradimon @ 1:45 a.m.