Dreams.

You kno what...
I'm terrified of turning 18.....
18...I'm an 'adult' right? Which means...I should be taking on more responsiblity...no more excuses for slackin n just playin round...even though i kno nothing really changes when I hit that day...it just represents soooo much i'm not ready for ya kno? Like...18...I shouldnt be all...watching kiddy cartoons like I do, or whatever...ya kno? Gota be a 'man' opposed to the boy that I am...shouldnt be all fun n games...gota be all, grrrrr...n tough n what not...Maybe this is stupid...but iuno...yaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....................18....wow....its so...old.....ya kno? Shouldnt I be a 'man' by then? Not like...by going out n killin a deer or whatever weird natives do...but like...independent and self-sufficient? and not so damn childish!...Grrrrr...perfect example, me n watchin like...Caillou or Mr. Rogers...or Sailor Moon...or whatever? Iuno.....maybe not perfect example, but its not.....................................................iuno...................................................? Iuno what i'm trying to say...I just dun wana be an adult yet...dun wana take on responsiblity yet...well, i have enough already i mean...maybe I already am...iuno...I'm not all brave n tough though...am I? Iuno...too many questions, too much to think about...and too much chem to study for
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posted by Bradimon @ 12:59 a.m.