Dreams.

omfg...
Well I am officially not going to university...
FUCKING CALCULUS..FUCKING LAW
WHY CANT I JUST TAKE ALLLLLL SCIENCE COURSES!?!?!?!? THOSE ARE INTERESTING AND I DO GENERALLY WELL IN THEM!! BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! FUCKERS NEED ME TO TAKE CALCULUS!!!!!!!! UGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Enough of school, i'm sure you all know how much I hate it...but new discovery, i really thought about how things would be if i were dead, and hey...ITS A LOT BETTER THAN LIVING...Not that I would ever kill myself, i'm not that stupid, sure things'll get better, but I sure wouldnt mind dying right now. Like...getting poisoned randomly. That'd be good, i wouldnt have to deal with ANYTHING...you know how amazing that would feel? No more worrying about university, no more worrying about being a good person, no more worrying about friends if they're okay, no more worrying about meeting expectations, no more worrying about doing well in school. NO MORE WORRYING...Thats honestly all I do...sure if I'm with other people, i'm distracted from it temporarily, but all the rest of the time, i'm worrying. Always...I hope you all dont know how this feels...because I cant even describe the pain...The only place I feel comfortable now is in my bed, and I cant even stay there for very long...*sigh* Its no use to tell me to stop worrying either...me worrying is my way of caring for everything i guess...I care so much about friends, family school, everything, that i get all...stressed out cause of it...n you cant tell me to stop caring...and you all kno i cant express emotions very well, so...i'm stuck...i guess i'll figure out something...after midterm........
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I wana cry...
maybe I will...
whatever, gonna go take a nap...

posted by Bradimon @ 4:25 p.m.