Dreams.

Okay...
Maybe I do have something to say...
I'm torn...
Torn between who to help...What to do...
Its almost as if I'm in one of those situations where...
"You have two friends in a burning building, who do you save if you can only save one?" kinda things...
Ideally I will help both people...but maybe I shouldnt...help either? Do I have the time even...Do I wana make the time? No, I dont have the time...but I would like to make it...but sacraficing my school shit for that....I dont think I'm prepared to do that...I cant just drop my hwk, considering i've actually been doing it, and it takes up a lot of my time...
I honestly feel that my world is crumbling around me...and I cant do anything...
I feel...helpless...I think thats the worse possible feeling ever...
I have to do work...but I have to help my friends...but I have to do sooooo much other stuff too, my parents are bitchin that I'm not doing enough around the house, blah blah blah, and whatever...but frig...
Still feelin...insecure i guess is the word...about...some things...
More B-day's coming up....and I dun see other people wanting to plan...and I really dun wana take on planning again...maybe someone else will plan a party for them...At least my family isnt pissing me off so much...
Just school...n friends...
Family is soon to follow I'm sure, but I should just enjoy my 'freedom' if you can call it that...for now..
Well...
maybe I dont have to help only one friend...for the thing above...I can find a middle ground to make them both happy...no?
Soo much work....heh...i guess people dun see the time i put into things though...
o well, i guess thats the life of me...?
At least Vicki appreciated her party though, heh...
maybe its just...me being homo, o well.
I'm really tired now...
Time to get my pessimistic ass to sleep

posted by Bradimon @ 3:47 a.m.